Clandestine
This Is Not a Lie
“Because I am your in-law.”
That word can be me
listen clearly even though the sound of the song in this cafe runs in all directions.
But instead of believing my hearing, I also feel what I hear
that's incorrect.
My in-laws? How could?
It is not clear that my father-in-law is Saputra, a man who
we got married, even married. Obviously a last name
my husband is also Saputra, not Anton.
“Mertua?” I looked at Anton
incredulously. “Mr don't joke.”
“What I look like is joking
now?” the man looked back at me.
I threw my eyes at everything
corners. I don't know which way, but obviously I want to avoid the eye
full of intimidation.
“Reinard children collect family Saputra.”
Mr. Anton's voice is ringing back in my ear. “Reinard used to live in a home
orphanage.”
Back I feel if my head
it was hit by thousands of stones. I haven't finished my surprise with Mr. Anton
who claimed to be the father of my husband, now I am again surprised when
hearing Reinard was taken from an orphanage. The news given by Mr. Anton was like
the bullets that rained down on my heart.
It's a lie, isn't it? If this
the fact is, why Reinard, Marina or even her family never said anything
to me.
“You don't make up lies
sir!” I said then with angry eyes. “You want what
from me and Reinard? If I have money, I will give it. But father never
appeared in front of us again.” My jaw hardened.
“I told you, if I
don't want money from you mbak Julia.” He put his shoulder out.
“A while ago, Reinard already gave it to me. Pretty much.
So the rest is still there.”
I squeezed the end of my shirt. Correct
no, this guy doesn't look like a good guy. He has a purpose
hidden for his actions. But the question I have is, why
Reinard willing to give him money?
“Why my husband gave you
money?” many skeptics.
“Of course to shut up
I'm so as not to meet you and tell you all this.” Answer Mr. Anton
relaxed. “You know, Reinard was a baby that his parents abandoned
when she was a baby. One time, my wife who had no children came to
the orphanage that Reinard lived in and met him. Then we adopted it
be our son. But dear—“ the man paused his sentence, and I waited
with hot eyes resisting crying.
“Unfortunately, she prefers
leave us and go to the Saputra family.” Continue mr Anton.”So then
wouldn't it be normal for me, as his father, to ask a child for something
am I the one who has been successful?!”
“Quite pack!” cut me quick.
My chest hurt hearing the story, despite not fully believing it. “Bapak
don't make up stories that are not. Because I wouldn't believe it!” me
rise from my chair. I feel like there's nothing more I need to listen to
from this man in front of me.
“I would assume if
today's meeting and the father's sentence was never there.” I took
my bag, prepare to leave.
“I'm not asking you to believe
Julia. But that's the fact.” Mr. Anton, and I don't want to look at him.
“The orphanage is in Bandung area. And Reinard's gonna be there a couple of days
once. If you don't believe it, ask Reinard.” yourself
I bit my lips, but
managed to ignore that sentence and just leave without leaving it
pampering.
****
I rushed inside
apartment after leaving the cafe. Even though my knees are limp,
I try to make everything look calm. I even forgot
took my groceries at the security guard post. Good thing the good security guard called me
and handed me a pile of groceries I hadn't thought of.
In the elevator I thought,
although not one hundred percent believe what Mr. Anton says, I
I tried to connect one by one the events I went through together
Reinards. Until I remembered something. Construct the groceries in the Braga area that I
find it in his jacket pocket. When Reinard bought so much food in
fast food restaurant. Could all that food be for the orphanage?
I was in a hurry to get that receipt at
in my dresser drawer. I still fold neatly in there. I don't know why I didn't
throw it away, because it is now useful. At least, I want to
hearing that confession from Reinard's lips. Whatever the sir said
Anton is right, I would be very disappointed.
****
I heard the footsteps of men
it entered the house. But I pretended not to hear and was busy changing the bed
“Again?” I felt
his hands are already wrapped around my waist. A second later, I felt his lips
it's already peeling my neck. I squirm a little, can't dodge if
that kiss really teased me.
“I want you Jul...”
the whisper is soft in front of my ear.
I bit my lower lip,
holding back the feeling of wanting to return the kiss. But I can't possibly do it
now, there's something else I want to finish tonight with him.
“Rei...” I turned around
facing it. Our eyes are intertwined. There is a sense of giddiness inside
my heart saw the look in her eyes so soft. I don't know what will
it happened later when I said what happened today.
“Iya.” He stroked my hair. “What
you told me to take a shower immediately, baby..”.
I didn't return the joke, though,
but rather break away from her embrace and walk to the dresser then
take the receipt of the groceries from there.
“I met you this afternoon sir
Anton.” I muttered without looking at him. My hand outstretched took a fold
that paper. “We talked a few things earlier.” I'm flat, then,
I didn't hear a reply or
the words came from Reinard's mouth.
“Really what men say
that's Rei?” I looked at him from the mirror. The man looked surprised, then
walk near me.
“Jul..
she?” he pulled my back to face him. “Not that I've
tell me to leave immediately if I meet him?”
I haven't answered. I'll give it
the receipt of the groceries to him.
“I found a receipt
it's in your jacket some time ago.” Reinard received the receipt
and looked at him closely. “You bought a lot of food on Braga street. In order to
who?”
“Jul!” Reinard clutched my arm
powerfully. “What did that man tell you?!” his eyes looked fiery.
“Jawab I'm Rei. Is it really you
adopted son of the Saputra family?”
Reinard was silent for a moment,
until he finally answered my question.
“I'm sorry Julia.” Mumbled
then slowly. I saw his face start to grow cloudy.
I rubbed my face in frustration. Correct
no, I was immediately disappointed with the answer. “Why...why never.
tell me about everything? Wh why? I'm your wife Rey, it doesn't feel fair
when I don't know all the secrets of your life! You often lie to me
by coming to the orphanage, and it turns out Mr. Anton once adopted you
before you were adopted by the Saputra family. Why Rei? Hard to say
the truth is on me?! Your wife?!” I cried with tears that broke.
My chest feels tight. A minute ago I was still hoping for what to say
Mr. Anton was just a prank from a money-rushing man. However, hearing
sentence ‘forgive me Julia’ is more than enough that what happened
it's reality.
“I don't want to say
be honest with you Jul, but—“ I pushed his body away from me.
“I'm disappointed in you Rei.”
My voice was hoarse mixed with crying. “It should be whatever it is, you should
explain to me.” I passed taking the bag and the car keys on the nightstand.
“Jul, where are you going?” Reinard
my arm when I left the room door. “Do not go, I can jelain.”
“TOlong, I want to own.”
My leg threw out his hand.
“Jul...!” he looked at me full
plea. “It's night, where are you going?”
“Not your business.” Fierce sahutku.
“Do not block me Rei.”
“Yes, but it's night. You want to
whither? Want to go home papa-mama? I'm anther, right? I'll get the car keys
used to.”
“Not done!” Hysterical sounds.
I looked into his eyes fixedly.
I can not deny if the shady eyes are now also starting to glaze.
“I want to go alone. I beg you, please,
let me think.” My love.
Reinard was silent.
“Mex even though you are only an adopted child
from the saputra family, or you were adopted by the Anton family, you
it should explain everything to me Rei. Because whatever your past is, I
will definitely accept you, because I chose you.” I wiped my tears. “You
you know, it hurts so much when we hear a fact from our partner,
and it's from someone else's mouth.”
I left, closed the door
apartment with a little hard. Before the door closed, I saw
his eyes were so empty looking at me.
******
