Clandestine

The First For Us

“Julia...!”

Call Marina from the kitchen.

Me and Reinard

the one who was playing with Lily turned around at the same time.

“You guys are not

out?” Ask Marina when it has arrived in front of us.”The weather's pretty good

for you to spend time outside.”

I looked in the direction

window. The weather is pretty good. The sky looks blue and shiny. Actually

I also want to go out for a walk enjoying the atmosphere of the Seine river or to

Ponts De Arts, put a love padlock with Reinard there—even if

husband wants.

“Em...maybe...”.

I didn't find the right answer to Marina's question. Because since

morning, there was nothing coming out of Reinard's lips to take me out in search of the wind.

The man had been busy with Lily since morning and received several calls such as

ordinarily.

“A minute.

I intend to take Julia for a walk outside.” He said suddenly

without taking his eyes off the lego he was composing with Lily.

Hears

the sentence was from his mouth, I automatically sighed in relief. At least I didn't

will stay in the apartment and be bored all the time. Isn't my purpose

here for the holidays?

“Naaah.

dongs. Why also newlyweds only at home aja.” Marina takes Lily to

his sling. “Let you guys get ready, Lily I'll take you out.”

“Lho, you guys

not coming with us?” I looked at Marina who had turned her back.

Marina looked over

and laugh. “Where might I bother you.” Stiffness. “Again today

I have to come to my mother-in-law's house. It's his birthday.”

“Ooo...” Only

that can come out of my lips.

“So, enjoy

your trip is okay?”

Me and Reinard

nods.

******

Reinards

take me on a walk down the Seine. This afternoon is so beautiful and comfortable,

I can share it with someone I love. A lot

couples who spend time here, they just take a walk

like me, cycling or just sitting around telling stories.

“You often spend

time in Paris?” I opened the conversation. Because we were just each other since

silence despite walking.

“Not too

a lot of times, but I've been here a few times.” Reinard answered without

looked at me.

“Together with who?”

I'd be jealous if Reinard told me he had

take a walk here with his ex-girlfriend.

“Self.”

The breeze played the soft end of Reinard's hair.

Akh, thank goodness.

At least I was the first one he invited here.

“Emm.

can I ask you something?” many doubt. At first this was an

a question that is not important at all, but somehow suddenly

I want to find out.

“What Jul?”

“You were

got a girlfriend?”

Reinards

stopped his steps, and I was quite surprised by his spontaneous action.

His face was flat and was annoying to me. My stomach feels heartburn for a moment

because of the guilt effect. My mouth should not be presumptuous by asking about

things like that.

“Ma...af...”.

hisisku. But before I could resume my sentence, suddenly the man

it faced me and kissed my lips.

The deg! My eyes

stretched out, along with my heart beat that increased drastically.

What the hell happened

now it? Am I dreaming? Or is Reinard possessed by a spirit

the delicate waiter of the Seine river who turned out to see me and fell in love with me? Oh.me.

not ready for a spontaneous kiss like this.

Reinards

release kiss. And I'm a little bit unaccepting. Moist and smooth scented lips

that mint makes me completely lose control now. I want more, and

more than this.

“What....?” akh, akh,

I can't speak now.

“I have ever

have a girlfriend Jul.but don't worry, because I now live with you.”

The man smiled and slipped the hair behind my ear.

“How about we have coffee there?” he pointed to a cafe that did not

far away from us.

“I want to

spend this afternoon relaxing there.”Reinard walked away from me

who still stutters with a cloudy mind.

******

Come on Julia, come on,

focus up!

What are you

think of?

Consider it

the kiss was natural. His name was a man, maybe Reinard was in the mood

a good heart, or because he is quite tempted by the color of a meran maroon lipstick

the one you're wearing? Hey..mana man who can resist sensual lips like.

that?!

Akhs! In spite of

I was trying to make things in a natural way, but

I still can't forget everything. Before that kiss, maybe I had

simply accept with one-sided feeling from my heart. Looking at my handsome husband

and incredible charisma makes me proud to have it even though it's not necessary

touched it. But this afternoon, after he kissed me. Feel his lips

the cold and the gentle pagutan, made my heart turbulent. I

wanted it. Not just his status in the marriage book, but me too

he wants his body and his feelings.

How very

Clik.

Apartment door

Marina was open, and I didn't hear anything from inside the apartment

in addition to the ticking of the wall clock in the corner of the room.

The woman has not

go home, and this is enough to make me come back clumsy in front of Reinard. I

walking slowly, following Reinard who walked two steps ahead of me.

I secretly glanced at his back which field then successfully made me

holding my breath as my chest churned back.

Time has

shows at eight o'clock at night. We spent all afternoon in

coffee while drinking coffee. Listening to the music brought by one

the singer there. But even so, I wasn't amused enough, my mind

not calm, in stark contrast to Reinard who treated me like

ordinarily. It was as if the kiss on the seine river had never happened inside

her life.

Just now I

put my bag on the couch, when my phone rang. Marina's name is on there.

“Halo Julia.

that soft voice echoed in my ears.

“Iya marina.”

I stared at Reinard who was taking a drink from the refrigerator when mentioning

that woman's name. And Reinard looked back at me. It seems he wants to know too

why Marina just called and not yet home.

“What are you guys

already home?”

“Yes, we are new

just arrived.” My solute. “But why haven't you guys reached home yet?”

Sounded Marina

I laughed, and I was confused.

“Sorru...sorry.

forgot to call you. That we can't go home tonight. My mother-in-law

request us stay.”

Instantly my chest

churned back. Why does all this feel right, when I want there to be a lot

the people at home, but Marina is making me feel shackled by

lonely and it's with Reinard. All this time living in a house only with

Reinard, only this time did I feel really tormented.

“So you don't

home?” I glanced at Reinard, and the man walked towards me.

“Ya.” Marina Sahut

steadier. “I'm sorry, and consider your own home okai?”

I just

replied ‘hmm’ unenthusiastically. Then our call ended after

Marina whispers naughty to me. “ tonight is your night.”

I grunt

then put my phone on the table.

“Marina no

home?” I didn't realize Reinard was sitting in front of me.

I nodded

slow down. “Iya, her mother-in-law asked her to stay.”

Reinard put

his empty glass on the table, he seemed so unconcerned with the news

from me. His face was flat, there was no change at all.

“Then, then,

do you want to eat anything?” tanyaku later.

Reinard.

“No. I just

wanna shower. Please prepare my clothes.” He walked to the bathroom, while

I'm back dumbfounded. Since when did he have a new hobby, which is to ask

his wife to prepare clothes?

*****

I

twirling my fingers was not calm, many times my eyes glanced at Reinard

the one sitting in front of me was engrossed in his cell phone. Even though I succeeded

spent one slice of ice cream I found in Marina's fridge,

but still the turmoil in my chest still feels the same.

Every now and then, my eyes

go all over the room. I think last night this room was wide enough to

I stayed with Reinard to sleep. There's a sofa in the corner of the room, a mattress

king size, large cabinets and of course the bathroom in the room.

But why, this room is so stifling now. As if I were attractive

just breathe, it will be heard to every corner.

I can't

let this crazy thing. I have to go out, look for the wind for example. Who knows

when I returned, Reinard was already asleep and I could breathe a sigh of relief.

”You where

Jul?” Reinard asked as I walked to the front of the mirror. Take for

my wallet and my phone are there.

“You're out Rei.

Buy something.” Answer lies.

Reinards

staring at. From the reflection of the mirror, I saw her eyes so sharp at me.

A second later, the man got off his couch and walked towards me.

“What you don't

want me to accompany?” ask when I get behind me.

I'm turning

my body, and now our position is so fitting. There is no distance, and that is

I held my breath because I was nervous.

“Ti.

i... I can go by myself.” Reply staggered.

“What do you know

place—“ has not finished Reinard with his sentence, I managed to push

body away. I have to do it, otherwise I could get hit

heart attack now.

“Jul..” Reinard.

held my hand when I just swung a step.

“Do not go.”

I'm turning.

Just this time I saw a different look in Reinard's eyes than usual. Highlights

eyes demanded and, akh.

“What?” much

ogre. Very downright.

“I

leave you tonight.”

Uncompleted

with a monologue in my head, he suddenly pulled my hand to get closer

towards him. And I just fell silent, when his lips began to kiss mine

and wrapped his hands around my waist possessively.

*****