Clandestine

Escape From Home

I opened the hotel room door

slowly. The fragrance of the room immediately pierced my nose when the door was

it opened and I started to go inside. After turning on the light switch, I

immediately dropped my body on the bed with a deep sigh. My eyes

it feels hot now, the result of crying all the way through heartache

and in the confusion mode looking for a place to stay overnight.

At first I was confused

my goal tonight. To my parents' house? No way! A very silly thing

when papa and mama get angry and make things runyam. Anyways

I didn't have an answer when they strapped me with many questions

about why I came home with my eyes. To Reza's house, I'm not sure either

if my husband wouldn't have come there. I'm sure if he's middle tonight

I was confused because my phone was also turned off. Purposefully. I'm lazy to relate

with anybody. The only person who can hug me warmly is

Eli, but the woman's abroad. And a few days ago reported

that he met an Englishman, and was inside

process approach. At least, I'm relieved of Eli's decision. Yang

obviously I want him to be happy, with whomever man he chooses.

Last call on my phone

it was on Reza, who warned the man not to panic if Reinard

suddenly call him or come to his house and find me. I've been

telling the man the outline of my problems, even though I still

he was given a little swearing because it was too childish.

It's up to Reza to make fun of me with

what nature. Obviously, I'm really disappointed right now. I feel lied to.

What's wrong with telling the past to a partner, as dark as anything or as bad

whatever. Because I'm sure if the couple will still accept what it is if

already love. I am too. Reinard is not flesh blood

saputra family, I won't bother either. I love what it is

Reinard is unconditional, sincere from my heart, yet seems different from my own

that guy's. He wanted to look perfect in my eyes, so did he

really love me?

 The sound of knocking on the door made me move from

my position. I know who is behind that door. Reza, before

completely turned off the phone I told him where I was going

by tonight. I thought he was coming tomorrow, it turns out he was gercep also comforted me

when in trouble with coming fast.

“Lo tuh kayak little boy wak!”

that was the sentence that was slack when the door to the room I just opened. Without

excuse me, he came in and walked right past me.

I sighed while

door closing. I followed the man who was now throwing his body on the sofa.

“Can not really

hazy from home.” The man looked at me. “Lo know not if

Reinard keeps calling me until my ears are like a budeg!”

I haven't answered. Feel sad

also heard from Reza that my husband was in the fog

searched for me. He must be worried, but I still won't be coming home tonight.

“Lo stay so’in mobile lo

in silent mode.” I muttered and then sat back on the edge of the bed. Venue

the same as earlier.

Reza folded his arms in front

chests.

“Gue knew that he was being lied to

jul's pain, but you have to know why he doesn't tell you his past

same lo?!”

I'm not saying. My head feels like

being hit by a beam every time you remember what happened.

“Maybe she's not ready Julia.”

“Gue can't accept that yet

all Rez.” My solute. “He's my husband. He should have said anything to me, though,

including his past. Especially this is about something I think is very

important. He's not papa Saputra's biological son. Why not a story? Why would I

should know from others?”

“Can I said Jul. Husband

lo there must be a reason.” Sahut Reza fast. “And now you shadow how

her condition. Surely he's confused nyari’in lo there-here.” Reza thunches

annoyed. “Ih, please Jul.”

“Biarin!” my selfish side has emerged.

Reza didn't answer, and only

clucking slowly as a sign of annoyance. He just looked at me from the end of his hair

toe.

“Lo have eaten?” tannya

I shook my head slowly, though,

“Eat dong Jul.lo want to get sick?”

“No Lust Rez.”

“Eat. I eat food

now.” He took his cell phone out of his pocket. “Tuh really, lo's husband

call me again!” he showed his phone to me.

I glanced at Reza's phone and two

twenty-six missed calls are seen on the phone's display screen with

the battery life is twenty-five percent.

“Gue really cannot

home now.” Decakku then go up to the bed and pull the blanket.

“So much as wak. I forced the boat

my voice runs out lo also will not recite the same I.” Reza replied without

looking towards me. He was busy lowering his phone screen. Seems to be

order food for me.

“Udah I pesenin. Take it at

lobby yes...” Reza moved from his seat.

“Loh, where are you going?” my eyes

following Reza's movements in confusion.

“Ya home dong wak!” saith.

“I know I want to stay here. What does the world say if they know I'm stuck in

one room same wife person.”

“Lo isn't a guy.”

“But my casing guy Jul!

not ah!”

I smile. Have a friend

models like Reza are there fortunately too.

“Yaudah I went ya wak. Don't

forget, the food was eaten. Mehong!” reza's message before it finally moves

get out of my room.

After Reza left, the atmosphere

become back lonely. Unknowingly, I have been building all this time

habits with Reinard. Before marriage, I slept in a hotel room alone

without anyone it feels so comfortable. My privacy is awake, and I'm free

doing anything. But now, I feel so hollow without any Reinard in

beside me. Some of my soul feels empty. Want me to push my ego and go home,

I'm sure Reinard will be happy, too. But on the other side of my heart, I

wanted to neutralize my hot heart for its lies.

****

The next morning, I woke up

the same feeling.

Hollowly.

I touch my phone on the nightstand

to turn on the power. Just now the phone screen was on, various

notification appears unpretentious. And most of all there was a message from my husband.

The messages came in, overlapping in my mailbox. Expects

I came home, desperate to find me and many more words

made me cry again this morning.

Instead of reading a message from Reinard, the,

I was just looking for Rini's name in my phone contact. Today I want to take

leave again. My bad mood made me not want to go to the office today.

Because I'm sure I won't be able to finish any of the work either and

it will even add to the problem.

“Halo mbak...” greet Rini when.

I just heard the first ‘tut’ tone across there.

“Rin I—“

“Mbak, Reinard's mas is in the office

now!” I haven't finished saying I mean to Rini, that woman already

interrupt me first.

“Ha! In office?!”

“It looks like coming here!”

I didn't answer. Is true

Reinard's side?

“Where is Julia?

What's the problem with Reinard?”

I haven't answered. Think on

how to keep things from getting worse. I think Reinard

too reckless with sleeping in the office—if true.

“Say he's Rin. Today

I'm not at the office.” I said before I hung up the phone.

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