Choose Him Or I'm The Virgin
Episode 57's
Kim Hye Jin - pov
Alright...
Now I know what reason seo jin didn't pick up my phone call
For the reason he met his father who had hurt him when seo jin was a child
I think the bad habit of hitting other people while drunk only happens in the economic class environment down, it turns out this also happens among chaebol* (conglomerates)
Yah...
No one can dig into the bad habits of conglomerate life easily anyway, even some rich people are able to hide the psychopathic nature of his son well
Psychopaths are capable of killing or torturing others without the knowledge of the police and others because they have the money to shut the mouths of those around them
Pfft...
I'm talking this is not serious
It's just my imagination that's excessive due to watching too many mystery-themed movies, of course, that terrible thing doesn't exist
Today seo jin has encouraged himself to say bad things that happened in his family to me, he deserves to be silent about his family, as if his family is normal, nothing happened and is fine
I think the family life of seo jin parents is an example of a clean conglomerate family and does not have big secrets like the deok mi family
But in fact both the seo jin family and the deok mi family, all the same, hide the habits of family members who do abnormal and no one dared to reprimand and remind him to be better again, he said, and even worse, they consider themselves far better than others, what irony
I asked seo jin to tell me all about him and his family life.
At first seo jin fell silent as I asked him to tell me about his family life
Maybe seo jin still thinks, I am someone else for his life, who just stopped by to help himself pretend to be his wife
Hmm...
Emma's estimation is wrong, seo jin does not consider me like a family member but just someone else who is currently under his responsibility
But even so, at this time I am a seo jin partner who must know all his plans and must not solve the problem only by himself, so that there is no misunderstanding between us like last night
A few minutes into his silence, he finally told him some secrets about his family life
All I know from the seo jin story, seo jin's mother is the most normal person but at the same time a person who suffers a lot of pain in the course of maintaining the integrity of his household
Is that normal?
Was he fed up with the life he lived?
But slowly I understood, some of the couples chose to endure for the sake of their children and the most to endure all the pain was 'mother'
Some women choose to stay in the household despite domestic violence or being betrayed by a partner
And it seems that seo jin adheres to the teachings that his mother has taught him, to always survive in fostering the integrity of the household despite feeling hurt and hoping that the couple will change
As he is currently hoping for his wife, deok mi changed and returned to his embrace and did not turn away from other men
Chees...
Nonsense, the relationship is not just from a toxic relationship, how can build a household integrity like playing wrestling? One side hurts and one side survives?
I can still understand with the wrestling game, if the opponent is caught off guard the chance to beat the opponent will be realized. But this...
Keep going and keep going despite being hurt hoping that person will change
A saint like a tong monk has ever been angry with a monkey god, let alone you who is just an ordinary human?
The inexcusable thing in a relationship is infidelity and violence
The two mistakes cannot be left alone, because they will happen continuously and will not stop if the couple is not opened to the eyes of his heart by the god Neptune
****
As the sun went down, I saw the seo jin who was often pensive in the window and did not hear when I called his name several times
Was he still thinking about his bad past when he met his father yesterday?
"Seo jin-ssi"
"Seo jin-ssi" called me several times to seo jin until I patted him on the shoulder slowly
The man was surprised when I touched his shoulder slowly, and awakened him from the daydream
It was visible from the expression on his face when he looked towards me
"I'm sorry hye jin, I didn't hear you calling me" said seo jin and as he turned towards me, I tidied his bow tie that looked slanted
"Seo jin-ssi..are you okay?" I asked after tidying up his black bow tie
"Yes.I'm fine" said seo jin briefly.
"Ani*(no) you don't look okay" I said
"Seo jin-ssi, I know you had an unpleasant childhood with your father"
"Are you at least talking about this and sitting down with your family and telling your father to stop drinking so that his bad habits don't recur....."
"That's impossible hye jin" said seo jin cutting off my conversation
I was silent looking at seo jin and so was seo jin to me, we looked at each other and were silent for a moment, I tried to find out the answer through the eyes of seo jin why he said like that
However, I did not find that answer through the light of his eyes
"Wae's?*(why?)" I asked while frowning my forehead
"Because it doesn't need to be hye jin, if I say that to my family, that means I look weak in front of my own parents and I indirectly admit that I have a mental illness about past trauma"
"What if you look weak in front of your own parents, seo jin"
"I know it's not that easy curing your traumatic period, but at least your father felt guilty about you and apologized to you and it made your heart a little relieved"
"you're just an ordinary man in spite of all the wealth and titles you have"
"I'm just asking you to sit down with your family and solve your past problems and at least reduce your trauma"
"And in the future you don't have to be afraid of your own father when you meet him and can sit together without feeling awkward or afraid" I told seo jin
"Hye jin-aa please stop this senseless talk"
"You're not my real family, you're just another person living in my house asking for your help pretending to be my wife"
"Even if the real deok mi was in front of me, he would ignore my problem and pretend not to know about it"
"You don't have to interfere in my family's affairs, hye jin, because it's not your job, I don't want you to get too deeply involved, you're just another person here" Say seo jin to me and make my heart feel tight when I hear it
No matter how long someone knocked on the door of seo jin's room
'Tok tok tok'
"Come in" seo jin said to someone outside the room
"Mr, your guest has arrived" aunt min told seo jin
"Well, I'll be there soon aunt min, you can go" seo jin told aunt min
"I beg Hye Jin not to invite me to argue at this time, I don't want us to discuss this matter" said seo jin and thrust his hand at me intending to go out together with himself and greet both parents seo jin
"Come out first, I want to wear my earrings for a while" I told seo jin
"Well, I will wait for you hye jin" said seo jin and lowered his hand and left me in the room.
Maybe I am too confident hoping seo jin will tell all his life stories and will obey my will to make the relationship with his family improve
But...
I should have realized who I really am and why I feel tormented to see him when he looks moody
Am I currently in the role of his wife? And got carried away by emma's speech last night saying that seo jin considers me a member of his family?
Indirectly I was happy when I heard the alleged emma like that, but after I faced seo jin at this time, I was happy, I should have fenced my heart so as not to get hurt and follow the seo jin game to remain someone else and not be more involved in the life of himself and his family
Haaah...
It frustrates me, I want to get rid of this tight feeling for a moment
***
Park Seo Jin - Pov
As long as I live, I've been trained not to lean or rely on others
Don't show weakness in front of others, show it as if the world can be grasped by me because I have wealth and a good family background
Do not let bad things that happen in the family sound out into the ears of others
At least that's what the chaebol* (conglomerates) family taught their children from an early age, including my father's bad habits
Not many other chaebol* (conglomerates) families knew about the bad habits my father had. More precisely when he was drunk, my father would beat the people closest to him if he was drunk and would not be aware of what he had done
I think hye jin does not need to know too deeply let alone have to contribute to improving my relationship with my father
I know, hye jin already feels burdened to live his life as deok mi
Throwing away her youth life to help me pretend to be my wife
Hye Jin should be having fun with her friend, but instead I curbed her and asked her to obey my greed and my wife's family
Mianhae* (sorry) hye jin, I promise to release you and restore your peaceful life as soon as possible
My parents are now present for dinner together, so long my parents did not visit the house of his only child who lives in America
Of course this made me miss my mother a lot, if time could stop, I wanted to linger and talk to my kind mother
I wanted to complain and tell my mother the truth about the thing I'm going through right now
But...
I think you'd be angry if you knew the truth that's happening right now
Making a mistake with a girl and making her my prisoner to satisfy my selfishness and my greed, of course my mother would curse her iron family who worked together to play a girl's life
But so far this is only the best way to save the life of the sung family
I smiled when I saw my mother and of course my mother hugged me tightly
"Seo jin my son, I haven't seen you in a long time" my mother said
"Where is my beautiful daughter-in-law?" Ask my mom
"I'm here omonim* (mother)" said hye jin who was behind me
"Omo.you're getting pretty deok mi's son-in-law"
"Thank you omonim,* (mother), how are you doing abonim* (father)?"
"Hahaha...of course I'm fine. I finally get to see you again son-in-law deok mi, for years I didn't see you for a drink together, I was expecting the best gift you would give me" Park jin young said happily when she saw her daughter-in-law
Haaah....
He was only happy to see deok mi because he hoped to enjoy a bottle of wine collection deok mi located in the basement
"Nne* (yes) abonim*(father) I have prepared the best for you" said hye jin who is playing the role of my wife
Without further ado, I allowed my parents to sit down and have dinner together
Aunt Min and the other waitresses had already prepared the appetizer
"Daok deok's daughter-in-law I heard next month you will be elected as the main director of rose real estate, congratulations" my mother told hye jin
"Omonim.*(mother) is still too early to congratulate me, because the shareholder board's decision has not been made" said Hye jin with a smile
"Of course you're gonna be the son-in-law of deok mi. Only a fool would choose a child out of that disgusting relationship" said my father and when I glanced at hye jin, he was smiling wryly and finished his wine
With a swift aunt min refilled the empty glass of hye jin who was empty with another wine
We talked about work until the core meal came and started enjoying my best chef's wagyu steak
And of course take out the best wine bottles collection deok mi located in the basement storage
"Ohh, you finally bring out your best wine deok mi son-in-law" said my father and glanced at my mother and saw her hiding her slightly bruised arms and moody expression on her face
Is he still doing his bad habits?
I think dad quit his bad habit when I was sitting on the bench in High School
"I'm amazed at you deok mi's son-in-law, you can get the wine that only 10 bottles left in the world through the auction, how can you get it sung's son-in-law?" said my father who now changed the topic of talking about the wine he loved
"Of course it's easy dad, as long as you have the money, whatever you want, you can buy it" said Hye Jin who began to sound strange in my ears
"It seems your arrogant nature has not changed deok mi's daughter-in-law, I'm afraid my son has difficulty facing you" said my father trying to joke
"Ani* (no) it seems that seo jin has no difficulty dealing with my bad nature, having bad nature or habits is a natural thing as a human being, he said, as long as it does not harm others or hurt others, is not it so anonymous* (father)?" Saying hye jin that made me start to worry with the thoughts of my father and mother
"Yes.you're right deok mi's daughter-in-law, as long as your bad nature doesn't hurt others all will be fine, but...it's not the right thing to let a bad trait or habit drag on inside you and you're not trying to change it..."
"Aahh...exactly anonymous* (right dad), how about tonight we discuss your bad habits when you're drunk..."
"Yeobo..*(honey) stop" I said to stop hye jin speech that began to lose direction.
"Ani* (no) don't tell me to stop talking, yeobo* (honey)" said hye jin and I looked at my father who looked awkward with the situation, evidently when he immediately finished the contents of the glass containing a limited edition red wine
"Let deok mi's son-in-law talk to me seo jin" said my father
"Where do you know my bad habits? Did your father tell you my bad habits?" Park jin young
"Ania* (no) why should I know from my father if I have a husband who is always beside me?" Hye jin said and I advised aunt min to leave the dining room
"Abonim* (father) actually I do not know if my beloved husband Park seo jin experienced a dark past when he was a child"
"And you know dad, because it happened and it wasn't resolved well, seo jin had a little trauma when he met you"
"Sung deok mi!" My yell stopped hye jin
"Do you want to say that my son has a son-in-law's mental disorder?"
"If left unchecked, it might happen, but unfortunately I'm not a psychologist who can know for sure my husband has a mental disorder in his soul or not"
"Just I get distracted when you drink a few glasses of wine and if you get drunk, you're gonna beat your wife again and you're gonna add a bruised scar to my mother-in-law's body"
"That's very sad" said hye jin, pointing to some of the fading bruises on my mother's body.
"Sung's daughter-in-law, I'm fine, we better stop the conversation...."
"It's omonim* (not mom) your only son is already living with me, and there's no one to look after you in Korea anymore"
"The only unhappiness you have is the bad habit of my father-in-law who beat you up while drunk, until when do you keep silencing your suffering?"
"Aren't we omnim family, isn't it the duty of family members to protect each other? And we're supposed to sit together like this and sort things out with good communication"
"Silence and avoidance is not the best way omonim *(mother) if you think silence will make seo jin okay and hope seo jin does not know it, you are wrong omonim.*(mother).
"It will actually make seo jin bear the burden of feeling and heavy heart leave you because of the worry that continues to haunt him?"
"Is there anything wrong if the chaebol* (conglomerates) family has flaws and problems?"
"Of course not, we are not gods who have no problems at all in life, just don't let this problem be abandoned and protracted without a way out" hye jin said at length and made everyone in the dining room look at hye jin
"Well, my son-in-law, I admit that it is very hard to escape my bad habits, but before advising me, I will, don't you reflect before criticizing me for your bad habits of cheating on my son and walking with other men?" Ask my father who surprised my mother with what my father said
"Haaah..ommo! Is that really Sung's son-in-law?" Ask my mother who does not know if her son-in-law has been open relationship all this time
Ahhe...
Kim hye Jin what else are you doing? Why don't you just admit that you're not my wife but someone else
I saw hye jin who was still drinking wine casually and poured himself a bottle of wine into his glass
Since when did hye jin drink more than 2 glasses of wine? I guess this girl doesn't like wine
Or maybe....
Is he drunk?
Kim hye jin deserves to talk like everyone else.
I never knew if you were drunk, your personality changed to 180⁰ and you were very calm
I have to stop you
"Yo..yeobo* (honey) we should stop this conversation and let yourself rest, doctor albert says you should not be too tired and have to sleep early" I said
"Park seo jin, you must not cut off the conversation of others, where your manners, besides I am not sick" said hye jin and now looks like a real deok mi
"Are you trying to bring up the anonymous past* (father), this sung deok mi who is now sitting in front of you, will never leave your charming son behind"
"Let's just say that I'm still adapting to my free life and have not realized the charm that your son has"
"Sung's son-in-law.How could you do that to my son!" Shouted my mother
"Omonim* (mother) I'm sorry to you" said hye jin
"Why didn't you tell mom, seo jin?" Ask my mom
"Because your son is really following in the footsteps of his mother who is smart to hide problems in the household" said Hye Jin who I can no longer control his words
"Perhaps if I don't change now, this affair will continue for decades because the seo jin isn't being strict with his wife...."
"Eomma.appa *(mother's father) forgive this inconvenience, give me time to talk to my wife, you can leave my house, ohh driver will drive you to the villa" I stopped hye jin's words and pulled her wrist hard
"Oh..chagiya* (honey) you kicked your parents out, that's very disrespectful" said hye jin
"Excuse me. This is very painful, release my hand seo jin" said hye jin and I deliberately ignored his words and immediately dragged him into the room
Arriving in the room, I threw hye jin on the bed and he landed in a sitting position
"Woow, you are so rude, my dear" said Hye Jin who was truly like everyone else.
"You'd better get some sleep and rest" I said
"Ania* (no) why tell me to sleep if I'm not already sleepy? And why did you drag me here? I haven't finished talking to your father and mother" Hye Jin said
"Others you gonna talk about? Hurt my mother again with that word of yours?" Much
"Actually honesty is far more painful than lies that make false happiness"
"But, at least honesty will make the heart much stronger to face the painful reality"
"I thought your mother would ponder and begin to dare to say things she disliked to your father"
"Stop saying hye jin, I don't want to talk to drunk people"
"Ani.*(no) you don't want to talk to people who are drunk but you do want to avoid this conversation" said Hye Jin who began to stop my steps to leave the room
"Well, what do you want to talk to me about?" Ask to challenge
"Why do you still want to maintain your ruined household seo jin?, especially why are you still protecting your father-in-law who has clearly committed a sneaky act?"
"It's none of your business that you have to help resolve hye jin, stop asking that" I said
"Ahh..really?! I also don't intend to help you to solve your family's complex problems"
"All I know is that I will be rewarded for taking the role of replacing your wife who is lying in a coma in the hospital, at least I won't live poor and work part time is very tiring until I graduate college later"
"But what still makes me curious is why do you make yourself tormented in this state of seo jin?"
"You could have left your wife lying in a coma and divorced her right now without feeling guilty? Because your wife is cheating on you"
"You don't have to worry about getting moral punishment from the conglomerate, it's the sung family that will be destroyed by the actions of his father and his own daughter"
"With your wealth and good looks, you can find another woman who is better than being with your very bad wife"
"You should pray to the god to send an angel of death to pick up the spirit of your wife who is lying in a coma at this time" said Hye Jin, smiling happily when saying the sentence
"Have you finished saying the words you wanted to say to Hye Jin?" Much
"But I'll be back after getting the limited edition wine that was at the dinner table" he said
"It's not yours hye jin, but deok mi's"
"Ahh.ayolah since when did park seo jin become miserly like this, after all not necessarily your wife is aware of the coma, and can enjoy the good wine hahaha" hye Jin said and began to make me want to stop his words
I pulled hye jin's wrist and pushed her up onto the bed intending to stop her from going to the dining room and meeting her aunt min and the other maids
Hye Jin who is currently on his back now wakes up in a sitting position
"Aissh, stop pushing me park seo jin" he said and wanted to stand up.
I quickly pushed hye jin to the position of lying on her back and held both wrists using both hands and above her body
"Ohh..mr.park would you like to spend an exciting night with me?" Hye jin said that teased me
"You can't get out of this room, now go to sleep" I said
"Ohh...are we going to sleep together tonight? I mean not just closing our eyes but sleeping together the first time we met" said Hye Jin
"You know at first I was so scared of you for feeling pain and it was my first time, but as time went on, I was able to enjoy your game that night"
"Can we do it again master seo jin?" Hye jin who is starting to go wild
"Ohh.kim hye jin how I would love to stuff your mouth with a cloth to stop talking" I said
"Ahh...do you want to do it with the theme of violence? Like the kidnapping theme? Gagged my mouth with a cloth and then tied my hands together at the door of this bed, like the romantic movie 'fifty shade'"
"Wow.I'm really curious what it's like!"
"Yes.stop that rant!" I said to hye jin with a slightly high tone of voice
"Or can you stuff my mouth to stop talking to your lips?" Hye jin said slowly
"Don't expect me to do something according to your wild imagination right now hye jin, I won't do that 'thing' with a drunk person" I said
"But you're a jerk who stole my chastity, I'm afraid no other man wants to marry me because I'm no longer a saint..." hye Jin said suddenly while crying
'Deg's'
I was speechless when hye jin said those words to me
"Just divorce your bad wife and marry me, you'll be responsible park seo jin!"
"Mi.mianhae* (sorry) hye jin-aa I know my mistakes cannot be forgiven easily by you" I said slowly
"Are you sorry? If I regret following my will now uuu." said hye jin who started pursing his lips and trying to reach my face.
"Stop hye jin please"
I said and took off hye jin's wrist and thought of finding materials to coagulate his mouth so that he would stop talking
I went to the wardrobe room to pick up some ties and scarves belonging to deok mi and planned to tie both hands of hye jin at the bedpost
When I went to the wardrobe room, hye jin woke up and changed his position to sleep on his side and looked at me
As I returned and approached hye jin, he suddenly rubbed my hair gently with his hand
"Seo jin-ssi.Stop torturing yourself, you don't have to try to look good in front of your family and other people, you deserve to be happy and be yourself" hye jin said softly while looking me in the eyes with an angelic gaze, as if she had returned to the gentle figure of hye jin and was not in a drunken state
Although the style of drunk hye jin is somewhat unique because it does not show the characteristics of drunk people as usual
At first glance he looks normal, it's just his way of talking is too frontal without thinking about the feelings of others and sometimes he acts as he pleases so I can not control it
When hye jin looked at me like that, I almost lost control and wanted to hug and kiss hye jin's lips
But...
I immediately stopped my intention and threw away my face to not get dissolved in this atmosphere
Unexpectedly hye jin pulled my collar and started trying to unbutton my shirt
"Wae* (why) did you stop him? Just continue seo jin, who told you to stop" said hye jin who began to talk nonsense
Hye jin pursed her lips and pulled my collar and tried to bring her face closer to mine
"Stop hye jin.stop it!" I said and began to carry out my plan to tie him to the bed and stuff his mouth with a scarf
I admit my actions to hye jin are very evil, treating him like a hostage or a kidnap victim, but I no longer know how to stop hye jin's uncontrolled attitude tonight
I didn't know when he would act weird again and start raving about my ugliness and my family and my in-laws' families
although I admit that hye jin's words are indeed true and with his words I became thinking and asking myself again, why do I maintain this marriage and still protect my wife's family
Tonight I plan to sleep on the sofa while thinking about hye jin's words
Several times hye jin muttered to me intending to open the rope and gagging of his mouth
Every now and then I stare at him and hye jin mutters indistinctly while lifting his legs and thrashing around trying to untie him
Haaah...
Now he looks like he is possessed
I hope he gets tired and falls asleep soon
At about 12pm, I did not hear the sound of hye jin anymore and I thought he had fallen asleep from exhaustion
I also fell asleep on the sofa soundly and ignored hye jin
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