Choose Him Or I'm The Virgin

Choose Him Or I'm The Virgin
Episode 102's


update ahh on the first day of fasting ehhe...


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Kim Hye Jin - pov


"Ohhh....."


"So the young master still hasn't given up on you?" Tanya emma who had sipped her canned beer while she was visiting my apartment on the weekend


"I was confused as to what to answer to Hajung" I told emma honestly about Hajung's speech when she drove me home to the apartment the other day


"Why should you be confused?" Ask emma


"Aren't you sure about the answer?"


"You're a fool if you reject it" sewot emma


"It's not a problem it's stupid!" I'm upset with emma


"Well what's the problem? Can you tell me?" Emma asked again


"You know emma how I've had such a terrible event in my life"


"I just feel like this is not the right time to accept Hajung's feelings" I told emma trying to explain.


"Kim hye jin" call emma


"I want to ask you?"


"Well, how long are you gonna keep remembering bad things that aren't fun for you?" Ask emma


"It's all over, hye jin. You have to remember that"


"Even the person who should be rewarded for his actions is already where he should be"


"You have to move on from your past..."


"You've been through all that misfortune well"


"And it's time you saw your future and lived the present" emma advised me


"Either Emma, I just feel afraid that if I am happy, there will be bad events that will happen to me" I said about the anxiety I experienced


"Have you told this to your psychiatrist?" Ask emma


I was silent when Emma asked me that


"Don't tell me you haven't been to your psychiatrist for a long time" guessed emma


"I've healed emma." I deny it


"Not yet hye jin, you haven't recovered from your past pain" said emma cutting my sentence


"If you're still worried about your future, consult your psychiatrist like you used to do for almost a year"


"That will help you a lot" said emma


"I'm not a professional person to deal with the problems you're having but..."


"As your best friend I just want to tell you, you deserve the happiness of hye jin"


"No more bad things will happen to you, everything will be fine"


"Including your future life partner, you deserve to have one and live happily with your life partner"


"Do whatever you want, if you've never tried it, try it and you can find out, you like it or not" she advises


" so you're saying I should try to have a relationship with Hajung? after that I can only find out how I feel about her?" I tried to understand the meaning of emma


"well.it can be said like that" said emma justify my explanation.


"If you feel happy even if you only see her from a distance, it means you like her" said emma


" ahh....as I felt when seeing richard?" ask me back


"oh come on hye jin..richard is not someone you love, you just admire it. it does not belong to your love story" said Emma


"what I mean is the feeling you feel when you're with the CEO of the company where I work" said Emma, who made me breathe


"It's not just the feeling of happiness when you see it"


"You can feel a sense of where you're going to explode if you don't express it"


"a feeling where you feel as if your world is empty and worried when it's not in front of your eyes"


"the feeling that your heart aches when it knows it has betrayed you"


"and the feeling when you still love her but you say that you hate her" emma said pretentiously


"emma-aa somehow every time you talk like you know the most about the world" I quipped


"are you insinuating me or praising me?" ask emma


"it's up to how you think of it" I said of origin


" do you remember what you said about Hajung's heart if he liked me?"  my words remind emma of what she said when she was hospitalized for meeting a serial killer who almost cost her life


emma rolled her eyeballs a sign of trying to recall the incident


"hahaha..did that handsome young master really tell you?!" exclaim emma


"very much according to what you said emma" I replied


"does that phrase come from a novel or a movie I've never seen?" I asked emma


"it's a cliche phrase that is often spoken by men in general, it's just that the cliche sentence is actually the heart of a real man if you are a sensitive woman" 


"unfortunately you are not a sensitive woman, kim hye jin. Therefore, you can not distinguish a man's sincere words to you or just a quarrel" said Emma again to me


"Look at me. I give you a secret that I have not told you kim hye jin, hopefully with me saying this, you do not dissolve again in your turmoil" said emma


"What's that?" Ask me to wonder


"But you have to promise me hye jin..."


"You can't stop me talking in the middle, listen until I'm done talking to you, okay?" Emma tried to make a deal with me


"Aissh, stop messing with me" I warned emma


"Yes if you do not want to make a deal first, be as hungry as you are, stone-headed girl" said emma annoyed


I exhaled my breath trying to be patient in the face of emma's annoying attitude


"All right, I promise I won't tell you to stop talking" I finally gave up


Emma immediately smiled when she heard me give up and chose to agree with her


"You know, actually circulating this rumor in my office, but I'm sure this is not just a rumor but a fact that has not been released "


"I'm very confident based on my intuition" emma said confidently


I still hear emma carefully


"News..."


"Park seo jin is divorced from his wife, sung deok mi" said emma who made me lazy to hear


I turned both my eyeballs a sign of not being interested in emma's speech and immediately had a sour face 


But I didn't tell Emma to stop talking because I promised her to keep listening until she was done


"Because one of the two of them said from the beginning of the marriage they were not based on love"


" after a long time of thinking, they finally agreed to divorce after sung dong il officially declared guilty by the judge, but still established a good cooperative relationship with the company on the basis of friendly relations" said emma


"The good news is that they are now both single and there is no bond other than the company's business" said Emma with sumringah


"Then what does this have to do with my turmoil, emma?!" I was upset that I regretted listening to him finish talking


"Of course it has something to do, with me telling you this, you can still have a chance to test your feelings for park seo jin" said Emma


"In that way, your heart does not need to be upset anymore" said emma


"Can you not mention that name again in front of me?!" I sewot


I don't know why every time I hear his name, it's like there's an electric shock running through my body


"Why?!" Emma again


"Do you still have feelings for her?" Emma tested me


I stared at emma sharply


"You know hye jin, you're a person who's not good at hiding feelings" she said


"If you don't have any more feelings for her, saying her name won't be a problem for you" Emma said


"I was wrong to ask for your opinion" I said regretfully


"Alright I will accept the feeling of hajung" I decided


"Are you sure you're gonna fuck her?" Emma asked as if she had not thought before saying


"You're crazy!!" Shouted


"Why should I fuck her?!" Exclamation


"Ohhh..Heez, hye jin, do you think if you accept Hajung's feelings, you won't make love to him?" Ask emma back to me


"Receiving hajung's feelings isn't just about making love to emma...."


"there are still many other activities that can prove my feelings for Hajung" I explained


"But making love to her is one of those activities that proves that you have the same feelings for the handsome young master" she said bluntly and made me lightly massage my head with both hands


"What's wrong with hye jin if you fuck her?" Ask emma


"You can be in love with that handsome young master, I hear he's very good at romance"


"According to the rumors, many women who queue just to sleep with hajung"


"And now many women who are heartbroken because hajung has really fallen in love with a girl and he is reluctant to make love with other girls, he just wants to make love with the person he loves"


"Nothing else and not not, it's you"


"And the evil thing is that you gave the charming man the rule not to touch you before you let him"


"Are you a painting of a mona Lisa or an antique from the 10th century so she can't touch you?" Emma quirks


Holy jeez!!


Why does this girl's mouth keep flowing like there's no brake in her mouth


"Have you forgotten emma with my life principles?!" I'm calling to stop emma's words


"Me and Hajung are unmarried, I will never have any bodily contact with another man other than my husband!" Excruciate.


But I think there's something wrong with my words


I stopped talking and suddenly kept silent when I heard my own words that I should have been wrong


"You and hajung are both grown up, hye jin" said emma breaking the silence while clasping my left hand tightly intending to strengthen me


"And you..."


"it's not a virgin anymore that you've always been proud of everyone with your status" said emma, who sounded hurtful to my feelings


"Hajung already knows all about you including the night of your accident with another man who ended up making you lose something valuable that you have been guarding all this time" said Emma


"I must say this to you hye jin, so that your stubborn nature may soften and hear my words"


"As I said, you have to move on from all your past"


"If you can't forget your past, you'll be stuck in that dark memory forever and forget your future" she said


"You have another chance for kim hye jin to change your future so you can live a happy life"


"If you decide to accept your sincere feelings of hajung, prove it to kim hye jin"


"At least allow him to touch you and you'll know how you feel about Hajung"


"Don't make a sincere feeling towards you just a false happiness to divert the story of your past"


"Because the longer you're holding a hajung like this, the longer you're tormenting his feelings"


"Let Hajung know how you really feel about him" said emma, patting my shoulder slowly


I covered my face with both hands after hearing Emma's words


I know I shouldn't treat Hajung like that, but...


If I reject any feelings of hajung, he will not give up just like that


He will definitely try harder to stick to me as long as there is no one standing next to me


I should have decided how I really feel about Hajung


*****


The next day after going through a pretty serious conversation with emma, I did my usual boring activity


For almost 4 hours I did not say a word in this room, only occasionally a sigh I deliberately did to encourage myself


Until there was a loud roar from inside my stomach and made other students who were focusing, just looked at me with a strange look, then not long after there are some students who try to fight the laughter of gelinya by covering his mouth using his fist because of my silly stomach behavior that does not know manners


"Srst...."


There was the sound of someone warning the other students who sounded giggling


I, who was feeling awkward with my stomach's ridiculous attitude, decided to come out from inside the library so as not to disturb the others


Haaah...


Shame how could the sound of my stomach rumbling be so loud as a person who had not eaten for days?


After I tried to recall the incident yesterday, it turned out that the last time I ate was yesterday afternoon when I chatted with emma, after which I woke up last morning skipping breakfast and headed straight to the campus library


I plan on ordering food through the app and on to my campus to save time without having to get out of here


I was surprised to see the call history of my phone that I had previously disabled so I could focus on doing the thesis in the library


as many as 20 times hajung continue to contact my phone and 15 message notifications that go into my phone inbox


Hajung-ssi


Are you a loan shark?


Why do you keep calling me with a time lag that is not too far away


After all, is the main job of a CEO to call someone?


Is his job that relaxed?


Sometimes I feel surprised by the attitude of hajung who works looks like a person who is playing around


After reading the message from Hajung who said that he was waiting for a call from me, I immediately contacted him again intending to warn him to work seriously


'puut....'


"hello hye jin"sohut hajung was quick when I just heard the first one's connecting tone


how quickly did he answer my phone call? is he being relaxed?


"what are you calling me hajung" I asked


"of course I want to remind you of our promise tomorrow night" Hajung said on the phone


"you mean dinner with your family"?"many make sure


"yes" said hajung briefly


"didn't we still have to spend another night before dinner with your family?" Much


"Yes" replied Hajung briefly again


"That's about 30 hours away!" I screamed while staring at my watch


"yes but you have to do some preparation before dinner tomorrow" Hajung said


"preparation?"rework


"yes preparations" hajung said convincingly


"weren't we just having dinner with your family?"ask me again


"you have to look charming in front of my family hye jin, especially in front of my parents" Hajung replied to my question


"do I have to do it? didn't you tell me it was just a casual dinner with your family?" Much


"But why are you acting like it's a dinner party for someone who wants to propose to a wedding?" Ask me again


"it's relaxing, but still you have to prepare your appearance for dinner this time" replied Hajung.


"Just having dinner with my family tomorrow is rehearsal for a wedding dinner proposal" Hajung said casually again


"Mwarago?!*(what did you say?!)" Excited when responding seriously to Hajung's words


"Where are you now?" hajung asked casually as if he had not heard my surprised speech


"of course I'm on campus" I said clearly


"i know, I'm on your campus right now. Are you in the library hallway?"ask Hajung who surprised me


"chakemetery!* (Wait a minute!) you said where was that? my campus?"ask me again to make sure I don't hear wrong


"mm. yeah, I'm at your college" hajung said again.


"ahh...I've seen you hye jin, you're wearing a light green blouse right?"ask hajung to make sure


I looked around me to find Hajung


"you know hye jin, that bright color fits you perfectly" said Hajung, and he appeared immediately behind me, to my surprise


hajung's face was seen sumringah when he found me in this fairly spacious campus


of course, with the emergence of hajung on my campus, making some other student eyes glued to this man


hajung looks to shine by himself in my campus area, how not? the tall man who came up with a dark blue suit that was very fitting attached to his body was so charming, so charming, coupled with his hair that he made slanted to the side so that it shows his wide forehead and increase his charismatic power


Hajung's narrow eyes are barely visible because smiling at me makes the impression of a cynical face and the antagonist disappears instantly and turns into an adorable figure and a warm figure


"let's go, butler bruce is waiting for us right in the main building of your campus" said Hajung who led me directly by wrapping my hand around his arm


"ah.wait for hajung-ssi!'I said stop hajung


"are you not doing any work today?" I ask suddenly


"of course there is, but I've put it into my secretary, let him do it. I just need to sign it" Hajung said


"quietly, being CEO was an easy job for me" Hajung said dismissively


"ayo what are you waiting for? is there anything you haven't finished on campus?"ask hajung


"of course there are, I have to consult about my script with my supervising lecturer, there are some questions I have to ask him" I said


"well do it after you've gone with me" hajung said indifferently


"but I have to do it today" I insisted


hajung took a breath and exhaled him quickly a sign that he should remain patient with me


"does your instructor not need a lunch break?"ask hajung


"I think he needs a lot of lunch to be able to deal with a stubborn student like you"


"I'm sure your instructor must be overwhelmed by the barrage of questions from you" Hajung said as he flicked my forehead with his index finger slowly


"actually I don't want to say this to you but.because of your stubbornness, I have to say it" Hajung said.


"you know, it takes a lot of effort to get out of my room" said Hajung, to my surprise


"since I became CEO, secretary min is so chatty than my mother who is nagging" ledek hajung


"she was like a witch to me, she endlessly kept giving me so much work and asking for my opinion on the income that other branch companies could get" Hajung explained


"After I found out you were back here, you were the only one who could make me breathe a little and relax me"


"As if you were the basecamp where I rested before starting the war again" said Hajung who made me narrow my eyes


"Just let's have lunch together and buy some clothes for you before tomorrow's dinner" whined hajung


Somehow I felt he was not the CEO of the company to me, but a little boy who kept clinging to me and whining if I wanted to ask for something


If I ignore it, it will be even more annoying and I will be overwhelmed to deal with it


"Well let's go and don't waste any more time" I said as I pulled Hajung's arm


In accordance with Hajung's words, finished lunch together, hajung and I stopped by a boutique place famous designer and he bought me some clothes for dinner with the hajung family


hajung chose me a black one shoulder mini dress and asked me to try it


"Hye Jin, try wearing this. I'm sure it will fit in your body" Hajung said excitedly



She was waiting for me to comment on her clothing choices for dinner with her family tomorrow


Instantly I was wry-faced and rolled my two eyeballs a lazy omen and not interested in his choice


"You think we're going to a nightclub hhuh?!" Exclamation


"Choose a little covered clothes" I said, looking at the other clothes


"All right, I'll choose this" I said



"It doesn't have to be a dress, right? The important thing is to look elegant" said I thrust a flower-patterned jumpsuit with soft colors


"But this.in my opinion it is not suitable for.." said Hajung interrupted.


"Pay the clothes and let's go back to their respective places of activity" I asked On Hajung and cut his words while pushing his back so that he would walk quickly.


"Well, the others are like shoes and bags, I will ask the secretary min to buy them today" Hajung said


"Hajung-ssi, I have shoes and a bag that fits this jumpsuit"


"Don't waste too much money, you know I don't like that?"  I said firmly to hajung


"But I still want to go around looking for stuff with you." said Hajung whining.


"If you still want to stay with me, stop by my place." My speech


"Come after you're done with work, I'll make you dinner" I told Hajung to stop whining at me


Instantly Hajung's slightly frowned face turned into sumringah heard my words


"Can I stay at your place tonight?" Hajung pinta


"Again?!" Exclamation


"I think you have to pay monthly rent because you stay in my guest room too often" said Melek hajung


Sometimes hajung stays in my apartment but certainly not my room


There is one empty room that I deliberately provide if there are guests who visit my place too late


At first I provided the room to emma if she had drunk too much of her alcohol which she put in my fridge


I was too worried to let emma go back to her rented apartment where she lived


Moreover, he only lived alone there, I fear that the bad events that befell emma will be repeated again like that night


Inadvertently, emma becomes the target of the next victim of a serial killer who had horrendous this city


That night's events also almost took my life, if only seo jin had come a little longer, perhaps...


I'm gonna die at the hands of that crazy serial killer.


Up until now if I hadn't taken my penance, I could subconsciously feel the grip of the killer's hand curling right around my neck


It was as if he was able to crush my neck bone with just one hand


Every time I remember the incident, I always take a breath and exhale it back quickly


As my doctor said, it is only part of my past, it should not be kept in mind.


The trauma of that bad event must have been there, but only myself was able to control it


I can't lose just because of my trauma and make me suffer like a fool


"Hye jin-ssi, would you like to stop by the cafe for a while to buy some coffee?" Ask Hajung who made me stop daydreaming


"Ahh.nne*(iya)" I said with a smile


since meeting Hajung back, he also quite often stopped by my place to just chat until it did not feel the time was past midnight


I offered him to stay at my place and Hajung agreed.


At first he only brought a few change of clothes to go to the office in the morning but apparently, my living room wardrobe began to be a bit full of hajung clothes


Haaa...


Since when did my apartment become full of other people's property, emma first left her alcohol in my fridge and now my living room wardrobe is starting to look a bit full because she left it in there


Well...


At least I feel not like living alone and like having friends like living in a dormitory but different occupants of the room do not occupy too often, only the goods are there


*******


'Ting tong'


A bell rang when I made spicy chicken legs for dinner this time


I don't know if Hajung likes it or not, which obviously he told me to make any cooking for dinner this time as long as I like it


I happen to want chicken feet that I haven't eaten in a long time


I even willingly stopped by China town specifically to find a store that sells chicken legs


Because I'm sure the shop around my house doesn't sell chicken legs the way I want


Most of those who live around my apartment eat chicken or beef breast


chicken heads, offal or bone-reinforcement, mostly thrown away by them, because he thought it was not healthy for their bodies


But unlike me, I like food that they think is not healthy.


I immediately ran to the door to let Hajung into the apartment and help me cook


as soon as I opened the door, I was struck by a bouquet of flowers proffered to me so I could smell the scent of those fresh flowers


"hajung-ssi?"call me to make sure that that person is sung hajung because my face is blocked by a bouquet of flowers


"do you like kim hye jin?"hajung asked after I heard her voice talking to me


"i didn't ask to buy flowers, but I asked to buy chives and some radishes for my kimchiku supplies. You didn't forget to buy my hat?" I said to Hajung who immediately remembered my words by phone before hajung to my apartment 


hajung breathed his breath when he heard my words


"i was expecting, your response would be cold like this" hajung said as he barged into my apartment and handed over my groceries


He sat directly on the sofa


"wow.thank God you didn't forget my little thing" I said with a smile


"so you like the food better than this flower" Hajung said after turning to me and seeing me smile 


"Go to the bathroom and soak in a warm bath, after that we will eat together" I said with a smile, not mengubris hajung sentence


"Well, you're the first girl who dares to tell me to serve as CEO of a big company to buy groceries so you can cook and ignore my words" said Hajung while standing up from his sitting position and removing the buttons of his shirt


"If I don't like you, don't expect me to buy that radish and chives to a traditional market"


"Why don't you buy it at the supermarket?" I asked while dealing with Hajung


"I've been to two different supermarkets, but you know, this is America, looking for chives and radishes is a pretty difficult activity"


"Luckily Bruce's head knew the location to buy those things other than in the supermarket"


"But he hesitated to take me there, because it was an unlikely place I could have even poked my feet there"


"If it wasn't for the power of love, maybe I wouldn't have been able to set my foot there" said Hajung, who was full of drama


"Pfftt..you know hajung, hear you talk like this as if you've gone to the battlefield and sacrificed your life just to meet me" I said grimily


"Indeed, I guess the traditional market is a bad place that I've been peeling because the street area is muddy to make me avoid some puddles so as not to dirty my clothes and shoes"


"However, I did not expect, there I found a pretty good flower shop, they sell beautiful flowers that are fresh and very suitable for you" said Hajung while holding the tip of my hair


"Kim hye jin.." call hajung.


"Didn't you want to reward me for my struggle for finding and buying you cooking?" Ask hajung


"What do you really want?" Much


"Hemm..let me think first, if the child achieves, he will be given a charter by his teacher"


"If an athlete is awarded a gold medal"


"If a child is diligent, he will be given praise and a warm kiss by his mother"


"Because I'm an adult man who likes you, I think a kiss on the lips is a reward you can give me" Hajung said


"Kim hye jin, will you kiss my lips for taking the trouble to buy you chives and radishes?" Ask Hajung while tucking my hair behind my ears


I looked at Hajung and began to narrow my eyes


"Aigoo...basic pervert!" I beat Hajung's shoulder


"Stop talking strangely and rush to the bathroom, my stomach is already rumbling because it's waiting for you" I said again as I left Hajung and headed to the kitchen


"Huh...."


"It is very difficult to seduce you, kim hye jin" hajung grumbled


"What?"


"Did you say something?" Much


"N-no, I didn't say anything" Hajung said


"If there isn't, don't stand pecking like that"


"Don't blame me if you're done bathing, the food's cold back" I said


"Yahh, you have gone crazy sung hajung likes girls like kim hye jin" muttered hajung again


"Hajung-ssi I can hear you" I protested


"Uppss.sorry honey" said hajung cengengesan.


After a few minutes, hajung had finished the bath and I was ready to sit at the dinner table


"Come here and eat our dinner" I said to the stunned Hajung


"Hye jin-ssi this flower." said Hajung disconnected.


"Ahh.I'm afraid this beautiful flower will die, I'm afraid, so I decided to put it in a flower vase filled with water and I put it on the dining table and some of it I put on the shoe cabinet" I said


"Are you the one who made the dining table look pretty like this?" Ask hajung


"It's like a romantic dinner with a couple" Hajung said, which sounded excessive in my opinion


"Busussuriya*(what do you mean?)" Much


"I just put up a tablecloth and prepare the cutlery neatly and then add the candles and flowers of the therapy from you, that's all" I said


"But I am amazed at you for being able to build a romantic dinner like this" Hajung said.


"REally?!" Exclamation


Hajung nodded


"Well I'll try to put together a dining table like this if you stop by my house on your next visit" I said


"Now let's enjoy today's dinner menu, tada~~~" said sumringah when opening the lid of a pink ceramic pot on the dining table


"Hemmm!!...it is so fragrant" I cried while inhaling the aroma of my own cooking


"H-hye jin-ssi, ige boya?*(what is this?)" Hajung asked with a strange expression


"Of course chicken feet" I said innocently


"Why are you eating such extreme food? Don't you know that chickens in their lifetime never wear footwear" said Hajung, which left me confused


"Was anyone producing chicken shoes?" Ask me back


"There really isn't! Hence.." cried hajung which made me a little surprised.


"Didn't you feel disgusted that a chicken during her life couldn't tell which poop or food she was eating when she stood on foot?" Ask hajung


"And you know, chickens always play on the ground which is of course very far from hygienic" said Hajung


"Why did you think about the chicken lifestyle while still alive anyway?" Much


"Stop thinking about how the chicken lives while it's still alive and enjoy the taste of this delicious chicken leg"


"I've cleaned this chicken leg as much as I can" I said to Hajung


"Did you really squint at these chicken toes one by one?" Ask hajung


"Can you tell me there's no dirt between these chicken toes?" Ask the paranoid hajung


"Yeah!!!*(hey) hajung-ssi why are you asking such a thing as if you were a food audit team?" I asked hajung


"I don't think the food audit team is as excessive as you" I told Hajung


"Ahhh..I have guessed it is impossible for kim hye jin to turn into a classy graceful woman" murmured hajung


"Even though he had arranged the dining table to be beautiful, I forgot to check the menu"


"And right, his favorite food is beyond the limits of my fairness"


"How can chicken feet be the main menu for dinner"


"I shouldn't go too far to praise him" said hajung


"Yes!!*(hey) hajung-ssi I can hear your words clearly" 


"You'll know how I like chicken feet when you know how they taste" I told Hajung


"You're telling me to taste this chicken leg?" Ask hajung


I nodded at the hajung omens assented to Hajung's question


"No kim hye jin, I have no intention at all to taste it" Hajung said


"Wae's?*(why?)" Much


"Are you afraid this chicken leg isn't hygienic?" Much


"Of course, hye jin, a lot of bacteria and germs are still left in the toes of the chicken" said Hajung


"Hajung-ssi without you eating this chicken leg, your gut is also full of bacteria" I said


"But the bacteria in my gut are different, it's good bacteria not bacteria or germs that are in the legs of this chicken" Hajung said


I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to be patient with Hajung


"Hajung-ssi you won't die from eating chicken legs"


"In addition, it is natural for humans to live in close contact with bacteria or other microorganisms"


"But believe me your body is smarter at protecting you than your paranoid mind" I said


"Look!! I'm still fine eating chicken feet nyam.nyam" I said while eating


"Are you crazy, hye Jin? How can you enjoy such food?" Say hajung while grimacing


"Today I was called a lunatic for eating chicken legs" I said


"Hajung-ssi you're not a child anymore, why are you picking food?" Much


"Because I don't like it" said Hajung


"Where can you say that if you haven't tasted it?!" Exclamation


"I already know just from looking at it" cried hajung


"Trust me this chicken leg is really delicious"


"If you feel ticklish at the sight of this chicken leg, just close your eyes and try to enjoy the taste" I suggested


"It's aaa.." I said as I fed Hajung.


"Hye jin-ssi I don't want to." said Hajung as he retreated backwards.


"You can spit it out if it feels weird" I asserted hajung


"If you still don't like it when you've tasted it, I'll stop forcing you to eat it again and will cook you another meal, okay?" Say it again


"Let's open your mouth, aaa~~~" said I like a mother who is feeding food to small children


Hajung complied with my request and he started devouring the chicken legs that I had separated from his bones


"Ottokay?*(how?)" I asked after Hajung chewed the food I cooked and swallowed it


Hajung was still chewing while closing his eyes, but when his taste buds started to taste something delicious, Hajung started to open his eyes again and continued to eat it


"Not bad as I thought" Hajung said honestly


"Just say!" Exclamation


"Hajung-ssi you've grown up how could you have never tried food like this?" Much


"Other times I'll cook you a spicy chicken head" I said passionately


"I'm sure you've never tried it, have you?" Guess what


"Only with you, I can eat lower-class food that looks strange like this" Hajung said


"Eeii.not all lower-class food is as bad as you think" I said.


"In my hands, all the lower-class food will be delicious and dance beautifully in your mouth" I said proudly


"I think this strange food is delicious because you cook, hye jin" Hajung said with a smile


"You talk like that because it's the first time you've tasted real good food, but you've been prejudiced before you tried it." I said before devouring the next chicken leg.


Me and Hajung enjoyed dinner in a warm atmosphere


After dinner, Hajung helped me wash the utensils while occasionally playing with water and splashed it on my face


I reciprocated Hajung's attitude and splashed it into the area of his face


"Hye jin-ssi enough you made my clothes wet" Hajung said with a laugh


"Leave it, after all who started this splash war, if not you?" Saying while crying


"Well I give up on kim hye jin, can we just focus on cleaning these dishes and glasses?" Ask Hajung who is trying to make peace with me


"Araseo*(i understand) you want to have a ceasefire right" I said I understood the meaning of Hajung's words


Not long after I heard the thundering sound and the sound of heavy rain from outside


"Is it raining outside?" I ask suddenly


Hajung and I were silent for a while to make sure it was raining or not


"I think yes" said Hajung


"No!! My clothes" I cried and immediately took off the rubber gloves and flicked my activities to wash the dishes


I immediately opened the balcony door of the apartment and began to lift the clothes I was drying this morning


"Why are you hanging clothes on the balcony? Aren't you doing your clothes?" Ask Hajung who started to approach me


"Yes!!*(hey!) Stop babbling and help me lift my clothes" I cried to hajung while putting some of the clothes I had lifted from the clothesline onto the sofa


I used to wash my own clothes, plus there was a washing machine in this apartment


So I decided to use the washing machine and save some money


"You're sure I want to help you lift your clothes?" Hajung asked to confirm my request again


"Of course, sure, you didn't hear what I said?!" I'm going to hajung


"Alright if that's your request" Hajung said casually


At first glance I saw Hajung holding sacred clothes that no one else could touch


Hajung lifted up my private part of the clothes that served to protect my chest


"Yeah!!!*(hey!!) Hajung sung! What are you doing!!" Shouted my reflexes to hajung


"Of course help you lift clothes" Hajung said casually


"I mean what did I touch that?!" Shouts back


"Isn't this also one of your clothes?" Hajung said he remained relaxed as if he did not feel guilty


"Put it back down and don't touch it!" I cried while reaching for my private clothes that hajung touched


But I forgot that at this time the floor that I was on was slippery because of the rain and I slipped almost fell


Fortunately Hajung immediately grabbed my left hand and caught my body from falling to the floor and prevented my head from being hit by a hard object


I immediately threw my clothes on the floor and grabbed Hajung's neck with both hands so I could keep my position from falling down


"Kim hye jin be careful, this floor is very slippery" Hajung said with a serious expression


Our two eyes met and stared at each other, coupled with a slightly more intimate position with him


I momentarily forgot the grains of rainwater that wet part of my face


Because I briefly remember emma's words yesterday that discussed about Hajung's feelings towards me


'You'll never know if you haven't tried it'


'If you decide to accept your sincere hajung feelings, prove it to kim hye jin'


'At least allow him to touch you and you'll know how you feel about Hajung'


'Don't make a sincere feeling against you just a pseudo happiness to divert your past story'


"Hajung-ssi neo*.(you..)" he called me.


"What would you do if I told you that I allowed you to touch me" I told Hajung still in a position to embrace the neck of the hajung and he still held my body with both hands so as not to fall


Hajung was silent when he heard my words


This is beyond my expectations, I think hajung will answer it quickly and vigorously


But...


He just looked at me with a serious expression


"I think you already know what my answer is, hye jin" said Hajung


"If you allow me to touch you, that means..."


"Your heart has opened for me and forgotten your past" Hajung told me


"Anio*(no) I can't guarantee whether my heart has completely forgotten my past or still harbors that feeling"


"Naega..*(me..) need certainty through you, hajung-ssi" I said honestly to hajung.


"Do you want to tell me to try it first before deciding on your next course of action, kim hye jin-ssi?" Ask hajung


I just stared at Hajung as he asked to make sure of me


"You can do it if you're still curious about how you feel about me" Hajung said


"If you allow me to touch you, I'll make sure you can give me the answer to my statement all this time to you Kim hye jin" Hajung said


"If you don't like it, you can stop me in the middle, but in your own way"


"Because I'm not sure, I can easily snap myself when I start touching you"


"You know it takes a lot of effort to keep myself from touching you" Hajung said


"Because of me..."


"Love you, kim hye jin-ssi" said Hajung and began to bring his face closer to mine


Slowly I started to stand up and put my legs together so that I could get closer to the face of the man in front of me


When hajung and I started to feel each other's breath, hajung started to touch both of my lips with his lips


Hajung slowly began******* both of my lips, I tried to balance the lips of the hajung and felt our breath hunting each other


Hajung gave me a chance to breathe and let go of both of my lips


For a moment, I looked into both eyes and then he kissed me back


Now my clothes and also hajung clothes attached to the body have begun to get wet due to the rain that flushes the city of Chicago


Hajung started to raise my feet with his left hand as if he wanted to hint something


"Get both your legs to my waist hye jin, I'll take you inside" whispered Hajung on my right ear and began to kiss my right ear


I felt an amused sensation tickling in my neck area to make my hair stand up and slightly avoid hajung lips


As if Hajung understood the sensation given by my body, he stopped kissing my ear area and turned to my lips


Hajung kept kissing me while walking with my body towards my room


Slowly, Hajung lowered my body and laid me on the bed


Hajung undressed his turtle neck which was wet because of the rain and showed his stomach and chest muscles that were wide


For a moment I thought


Am I really going to sleep with Hajung today?


Can I really do it


"Ha-hajung-ssi, chakamanyo*(wait a minute)" I said


But he did not touch my words, as if he had been bewitched by his hidden hasr*t to me all this time


He kissed me back and his hands started to creep down onto my sensitive area


I was surprised by the hajung treatment given to me


It was as if my instincts were telling me to stop all this


When Hajung started kissing my neck, I tried to stop him


Because I feel hajung increasingly unable to control himself which actually makes me feel afraid and uncomfortable


I don't think it's the hajung I know


When Hajung started taking off my shirt buttons and started kissing my chest, I immediately recalled a bad incident


The parkhyatt hotel


The face of seo jin started to haunt me and appeared in my mind


The face of seo jin when I first met him and really made my life change 180⁰


"Hajung-ssi stop..." My speech


But Hajung did not hear my words, he was still busy kissing me to put a sign on my body


"I said hentikkan sung hajung" I cried


Instead of flicking all his actions at me, he bit my neck so hard that it surprised me and reflexively kicked the body with all his might


My efforts succeeded


Hajung was thrown away from my body, with a loud breath, I rose from my sleeping position to a sitting position to see the hajung state


"Heah.haah..."


"Neo gwaenchana...hajung-ssi?" I asked the man who was surprised because my attitude could not be predicted by him


Hajung is still in a sitting position with his right leg bent to become the elbow pedestal of his right hand, while his left leg is deliberately straightened while looking at my surprised expression


"Mian*(sorry) I have to kick you to be conscious" I explained to him as I adjusted my breathing as it hunted


"Haaah.haah ania*(no)" said hajung.


"You don't have to apologize to me" Hajung said


"You did what kim hye jin should have done"


"If you don't, I'll lose my mind more and more and make you uncomfortable" Hajung said


"I didn't set up the safeguards because I wouldn't have expected you to give me permission to touch you" Hajung explained


I closed my eyes and ruffled my wet, tangled hair from the rain


********


"You sure you don't want to spend the night here?" I asked Hajung when he was outside my apartment door


"I think I should give you a chance to be alone Kim hye jin because of the exciting event today between the two of us" Hajung said


"Either because you shiver in the cold or tremble in fear, I feel guilty for you, kim hye jin"


"I also need to learn to control myself when dealing with you and I hope...."


"i didn't lose control like that which scared you" Hajung said honestly


I was stunned to hear Hajung's words which turned out to realize that my body had trembled because it felt fear towards him while on the bed


"Don't put on such a sad face, we still have plenty of time to let your body adapt to the sensations I gave you" Hajung told me


"Well I'll go hye jin, I hope you sleep well tonight" hajung said and hugged me before he left my apartment


"Until we meet tomorrow night" Hajung said again


After Hajung got into the elevator, I immediately closed the door of my apartment and leaned my back against the door


Slowly let my body down and sit on the floor


I bent both my knees and drowned my face on it


Wae*(why)


I remember park seo jin in my mind


Is this the answer to all my turmoil?


Whatever I tried to hate him, seo jin remained in my subconscious


Tell me how I can forget park seo jin from my life and accept Hajung's sincere feelings


I want to stay on the side of Hajung without having to think about my past


I don't want the bad events in the hotel to keep reminding me and hampering my relationship with sung hajung


How could I still overshadow the face of seo jin in my mind when hajung touched me


This is really insane!!


I murmured inwardly as I slid my back head against Puntu several times quietly


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the next morning I did my usual activities and planned to do my paper work in the campus garden while enjoying the atmosphere at the end of autumn and enjoying my breakfast with the sandwich bread and warm coffee I bought at my cafe before I arrived at the college


 the leaves that began to fall from the tree and the cold morning breeze made my mood good to do my duty. Until someone approached me and greeted me for needing something from me


" hi kim hye jin, may I sit next to you?" the friendly greeting of a woman who seemed familiar to me, but I did not know her name


"please" I reply


" you seem busy even though class hasn't started yet" she told me to talk to me


"forgive me before, but..do I recognize you?" ask me who is directly to the point on the girl who is beside me


"didn't you recognize the late-level student force chief?" ask the girl back with her curly red hair


at once I remembered him standing on the podium and giving a few speeches before the student event began


his face looks familiar to me, but I forgot to see him where.this is all because of my indifference to the environment around my campus and prefer to attach importance to myself


"ahh...forgive me, you are jessica, right, the head of the sorority class later this year?" I said the one who guessed his name


"hahaha.more precisely my name is jenifer not jessica" the brown-eyed girl said with a smile at me.


" I am sorry, I mispronounced your name" said I who felt awkward because of the wrong name of the final-level force chairman


"that's ok kim hye jin, I understand you because of your condition that must pursue your material left behind so that you are not so focused on the structural organization of student affairs" said Jenifer friendly to me


"then do you have a need with me so that a very busy army chief like you greets me who is a student left behind for her graduation for personal reasons?" I ask you again to be direct to Jenifer


I said directly to Jenifer because I was sure he had something important to talk to me, it was impossible for someone as busy as Jenifer to have free time to chat with me


"it seems like you are a person who does not like the pleasantries of kim hye jin" said jenifer


" all right.it's true I need you to help me, no. more precisely to help this campus student organization" said Jenifer again


"what can I do for this college student organization?" ask me curious


"you know in a moment the graduation ceremony arrives and the organization needs funds to support our graduation event to be the most beautiful memory for this campus student" 


" i want graduation this year to be an impressive event and invite guest stars from off-campus who are trending this year"


"do you know that mirage band is trending right now?"ask jenifer


I innocently shook my head in a sign of not knowing the band he mentioned earlier


it may be true what Hajung said, even though I am still a young man, but my way of thinking is like a middle-aged woman, where my age has idol artists who are adored or have favorite music today but I choose to ignore all that and focus more on my life goals in order to live without difficulties


maybe because of economic factors and the struggle to survive makes me very conservative and not know what is becoming trendy at this time


if it wasn't for emma's influence, maybe I didn't know about current fashion or young people's popular makeup


"do you really not know that famous band?" ask jenifer to make sure


"ahhh.or have you ever heard the tune and lyrics like this.."


"tell me. Is your father a good man? nana...dudu.. his daughter was my saviour" jenifer started singing the famous song of the mirage band and I just frowned at my forehead.


"you know that?" ask jenifer


"no..sorry" I told jenifer


"ohh..or this song, you must have heard it.."


"in our house the quiet is so loud..I'll never hear single word~.." says jenifer singing again.


"ahh.I know that song!" shanky


"really?! you know that, hye jin!" jenifer cried when I found out the lyrics to the song


"i heard that song once when I visited a mall and cafe" I said


"ouhh..I get tired of hearing that song play continuously" I said plain again.


"are you.bored to hear it??" jenifer asked, looking disappointed


I realized immediately that Jenifer looked disappointed to see my response and I shouldn't have spoken like that. I should have been able to pretend to be excited about the song I heard so often when I visited public places. I scratched my head to reduce the awkwardness between me and Jenifer


"so.what can I help you with.." I said to shift the subject.


"not for me but.." jenifer argued


"ahh..sorry I mean for student organizations" cut me off to correct my words


"you know all along that funding student organizations is a foundation led by rose real estate, but.."


" because the father of the chairman of the foundation has a scandal over the embezzlement case, and has to languish in prison to make amends, the financial automation of student organizations is affected and must reduce the activities of the organization due to lack of funds"


"nearly a year long campus we do not hold any activities to reduce the budget" said jenifer explained


"i know I shouldn't have asked you for help because you're not a member of a student organization plus you're a class one above me"


"but I just want to realize the dream of the students this year who graduated to give a memorable event because there is no documentation about the activities of students this year and the generation under me"


"i plan to make a proposal to submit a fund to the new chairman of the foundation"


"but until now I still could not meet directly with the chairman of the new campus foundation and when visiting his company, the receptionist always canceled my promise with him because there was an important meeting"


"whether they rejected me because I was not considered important or indeed the schedule of the new chairman of the foundation was so busy that I still could not meet him" said Jenifer who makes me still confused


"what does the new chairman of the foundation have to do with me?" ask me on the jenifer who still hasn't found the core of this morning's talk


"i heard from some of the other students of this campus, you are the only student who has a good connection with the chairman of our new campus foundation, he said, that's why I came to you to ask for help from you, hye jin"


"wait a minute. me?? have connections to the new campus foundation chairman?" rework


"jenifer.to be honest, I don't know who is the chairman of the new foundation of our campus, how could you want to ask for help from me while I don't know who is the current chairman of the campus foundation" I told jenifer


jenifer was silent for a moment when she saw my response


"That's weird*(that's weird) I'm sure isn't wrong with this information" Jenifer said


"You have a pretty close connection to the CEO of an edelweiss company" said Jenifer who made me realize


"So..you mean the chairman of our new foundation is the CEO of the edelweiss company?" Ask me to convince


"Mmm.that's right, the chairman of our new foundation is Mr. park seo jin as CEO of edelweis company and husband of former chairman of our campus foundation" said jenifer


"Jenifer.." call me.


"I think you already know my reason why I can be a late final student to complete the final task and not graduate on time" I said


"Not having a good connection with him but a bad relationship with the head of our new foundation" I told jenifer


"I think you're continuing your studies here again because you've solved all your complex problems and made peace with the new foundation's chairman"


"I'm sorry kim hye jin for not knowing your true condition" said Jenifer


"I just feel desperate for not being able to contact the new chairman of our campus foundation"


"During this time at least the company secretary of our former foundation chairman visited this campus at least once a month for monitoring activities"


"But this time..."


"I didn't see the chairman of our new foundation or his representative to visit our campus" Jenifer said


I felt a little pity for Jenifer because her face looked sad after hearing my words directly


"What if I call his personal driver so he can deliver it directly to the chairman of our new campus foundation?" My proposal to jenifer that momentarily remembers the driver ohh


Well...


At least the driver oh will submit a proposal of submission of campus funds about graduation events and realize jenifer's dream to make an impressive event for students who are here


"really! You know that guy who has good connections to our new foundation chairman?!" Jennifer cried to me when she heard my words


"Thank God" jenifer said, nodding his head vigorously to make the fallen leaves that had been stuck in his hair, now fall to the ground


I immediately grabbed my phone and called the driver ohh


"Miss kim!" Ohh chauffeur yelled as soon as he picked up my phone call


"Hello driver ohh how are you?" I asked when I heard the driver oh


"I? Of course it's good. I'm the one who asked you that"


"How are you, miss?" Ask the driver oh


"Of course it's good, otherwise there's no way I'm calling you in this way" I told the driver


"I don't think you'll ever call me again, miss. Because of my bad deeds that secretly follow you and find out your life while in Korea" said the driver ohh


"Aigoo...maldo andwe*(ga probably) I'm still mad because of that"


"I've even forgotten how difficult my life was" I said deliberately lying and exaggerating so that the driver could talk casually with me


"Have you forgotten your dark past?!" Ohh driver


"Thank God, Miss Kim, you are gradually recovering" said the driver ohh


"Mmm..driver ohh, can we meet this afternoon? There's something I want to give you, it's about my college activities" I told the driver ohh


Ohh driver seemed silent when he heard my words


"Driver ohh?" Call me


"Ahh.so you called me because you wanted to ask me for help"


"Is this directly related to my employer, Miss Kim?" Ask a very smart ohh driver to guess what I mean


"I don't think you've completely forgotten Miss Kim's past" said the driver


"You still hate my master the same" said the driver oh who sounded disappointed


I was silent when I heard the driver say oh over the phone


"Is this urgent, miss kim? If not, you can wait for me to return to Chicago" said the ohh driver who surprised me


"Are you and your employer on a business trip, ohh driver?" Much


"In that case, I will wait for you to finish your master's business trip and return to Chicago" I told the driver


"No miss kim, I'm not with my master" said the driver


"I was enjoying my cut for my vacation home to Seoul to see my family" the driver told me.


"Ohh.really! That's a good thing for you." I said


"You have almost no time for holidays, I shouldn't interrupt your sacred time like this" I said


"Well let me know if you're back from your vacation" I told the driver ohh


"It seems not a matter of urgency miss kim, well we will meet again approximately one month later in winter" said the driver ohh


"Eeehhhh..chakamanyo!!!*(wait a minute!!)" I cried to the driver ohh and certainly made the jenifer sitting next to me surprised


"S-one month?!" Excited again


Because I know the graduation schedule is 2 months away, of course it is not possible to wait for the driver ohh back to Chicago and then give a proposal to submit funds to his employer


"You're not home for a while, are you, ohh driver?" Ask me to wonder


"Of course not, miss kim" said the driver, laughing


"Suan seo jin gave me a long leave of absence because for almost 2 years, I did not take my cut and kept busy taking care of his life" said the driver ohh


"After my stable condition, he told me to take my leave and bonuses for my hard work"


"You know miss kim, my master is the best boss I've ever met in my life during my time as a private driver" the chauffeur ohh praised his employer


"Ah.hahahaha" I replied with a crisp laugh


"Is there a problem Miss Kim if I go back to Chicago one month later?" Ask the driver ohh


"Then forget my help request for you ohh driver"


"I think when you come back, very tight with the day of my campus activities" I said


"Then why don't you meet directly to master seo jin, miss?" Ohh driver's proposal


"Young?!!!*(me??!) Meet your master?!!" I screamed in a high voice


"Are you crazy driver ohh! How could I possibly meet your master?!"


"I can't possibly forget my stupid words saying I didn't want to meet your employer" I said


Ohh driver laughed at my words


"Are you sorry for your own words at the time, miss kim?" Ask the driver oh fishing


"Me?? Regretted??!" I said again sewot


"Why am I sorry for what I said at the time?"


"Having not met in just a few months it's still hard to forget, what if I've been seeing him in person lately?"


"Aren't I going to forget her forever?"


"Will he be responsible to stay by my side if I can't forget him?"


"How can I still think of your master when I'm with another man?"


"Ohh...this is driving me crazy!!" Ocehku subconsciously confessed to the driver ohh that I was still thinking about park seo jin all this time


"Miss kim.." call the driver ohh.


"Have you just confessed to me that up to this moment you are still thinking about master seo jin?..." ask the driver who made me realize that my words cannot be controlled about the feelings I feel right now


"M-mwarago?!*(what did you say?)" Exclamation


"When would I say something like that to you? Who says I can't forget your master?"


"Did you just accuse me, driver ohh?" Ocehku again like a fire beard


"T-quiet miss kim, why are you so angry like this to me?" Ask the driver ohh


"Who said I was mad at you?" My words refute


"Have chauffeur ohh I will hang up, just enjoy your vacation time and do not accuse me carelessly" I said annoyed and immediately hung up my phone call without wanting to hear anything coming out of the mouth of the ohh driver


"Ouhhh..jinjja!(.really) why should he accuse me so recklessly? Just piss me off!" I cried even though I no longer talk to the driver ohh


I momentarily forgot the jenifer that was still next to me, he did not understand why I was angry and upset because I did not understand the Korean language


"Hye Jin, are you mad?" Ask jenifer


"Well.anio*(no).."


"I mean.no" I said


Aish...


It's really hard to speak two languages like this


"So..how kim hye jin?" Ask jenifer


"Can you help me?" Ask jennifer again


"Jenifer, I am so sorry. I can't help you because.." I said disconnected.


"People I know have good connections with the new chairman of the foundation, not in chicago, but in Korea" I told jenifer


"Well.so this is ending?" Jenifer grumbled with a sad expression


"I know I can't do it..."


"Should I make apologize to all?.." said jenifer slowly


"Jenifer.are you alright?" Much


"Sigh..no" said jenifer.


"Sorry.." I said again.


"I'm sorry that I'm hye jin for interrupting your time, I think I should find a way to get funds" Jenifer said and left me with an uninspired posture


For a moment I was thinking of maximizing myself to help jenifer but....


I shook my head many times saying it had nothing to do with me


Stop interfering in other people's business


You can definitely hye jin


I kept convincing myself


Until the sun goes down and I'm getting ready for tonight's show


Hajung picked me up without being escorted by his butler


He took his personal car to the office and after he finished work, hajung stopped by my place to pick me up and I and Hajung together to his house for dinner with his family


When we arrived at the hajung house, some waiters welcomed us and escorted us to the dining room


Hajung's father and mother smiled kindly at me


"Eomma, appa*(father's mother) this is kim hye jin" said hajung introducing myself


"Good night aunt, uncle" I said warmly to hajung's father and mother


"Come in, dinner is ready" Hajung's father told us


It did not take long, the maids had prepared a family dinner with the butler bruce being beside hajung's father if at any time he was needed


"What about your lecture, Miss Kim, is it going well?" Ask hajung's father to ask me kindly


"Thank God everything is going well uncle, next month I will do my script hearing" I said with a smile


"Ohh, then soon you will graduate and get a degree in kim hye jin" replied hajung's father.


"Yes, that's how it is." I said with a friendly smile.


While hajung's mother was still watching me carefully


"Yobo*(honey) until now I still do not believe, he and sung deok mi are two different people" said Hajung's mother suddenly talking about other topics


I stopped smiling and chewed my food


"I think when he came to our house, he was sung deok mi, but after seeing him smiling kindly to us, I just realized he was the deceitful girl" hajung's mother said unconsciously


"Ehem..hem.." hajung's father deliberately coughed so that I could not hear the last sentence spoken by Hajung's mother.


"Eomma*(mother) Why do you talk like that to hye jin?" Hajung protest


"Are you wrong with your words?" Ask hajung's mother back


"Everyone knows the story of this girl's life"


"It's not just my own mother who called her nickname that way"


"More he was very brave to approach my beloved son after everyone knew that he had slept with another man during his first meeting in a hotel"


"If she was a respectable girl, of course she refused a meeting with a man in a hotel" said Hajung's mother, who made me feel no appetite


"Yobo*(honey) Why are you discussing that?" Hajung's father warned his wife


"I had to ask him because I was curious and he had to be honest about what happened that night in detail if he wanted to be my son-in-law" Hajung's mother said, folding her hands together on her chest


"There is no mother in this world who gives up her precious son to marry a girl who cannot keep her chastity" said ketus hajung


"I'm sure he must have teased my son first and pretended to be a victim the night he slept with another man when you planned it and enjoyed it" said Hajung's mother who made my food almost stuck in the throat


'Prank!!'


Hajung accidentally dropped his cutlery on the plate a sign for his mother to immediately stop talking


"Eomma*(mother) Why would you talk to Hye Jin like that?" Ask hajung


"I who approached hye jin first wasn't the one who teased me"


"I love him even though he has a dark past"


"What's wrong with having a dark past? Not just hye jin who has a dark past"


"I also have it, did you forget that I was once called an illegitimate child and had a mental disorder due to my temperament?" Ask hajung


"Hajung sung!" Hajung's mother cried when she heard the words of her son


"Wae's?*(why?) Is there something wrong with my words?" Ask his mother


"And I warn you, don't just accuse kim hye jin like that"


"The night that I discussed earlier was purely an accident, it was beyond the power of kim hye jin" said Hajung staring at his own mother


I held Hajung's right hand so he could control his emotions


Hajung looked at me as if he knew the cue I gave him


"Hahh...can we just have dinner without talking bad about the girl sitting next to me?"


"If you want to know about her past, just ask me"


"At least I beg you.appreciate hye jin when he visits our house" said Hajung pleading with his mother.


Hajung's mother was annoyed at being denied by her own son to defend me


He decided not to finish dinner with us and went into the room


Instantly the atmosphere of dinner became runyam and I felt this was all because of my presence


Huhh...


It's fitting that deok mi's mother hates her mother Hajung so much, it turns out that her nature is very annoying like this?


Did he forget where he came from?


He is also not from the conglomerate but ordinary people who cheat with his father sung hajung who is still a husband until he is pregnant and forced hajung father to marry him


Or did he tease his father so much that he prejudiced me like that


Hem...


All I know is that his mother hajung doesn't seem to like me being close to her son


After spending dinner with the hajung family which ended in an awkward atmosphere due to a small conversation that discussed my past, Hajung invited me to go around in his house


Starting from the family room, gym room, back garden close to the pool, family library even hajung have a private golf course because his father likes to play golf on weekends


Well...


Hajung house is very spacious like a conglomerate family house which of course is very unusual for someone like me


And ended up hajung invites me to visit his own room


I went around looking at a pretty neat hajung room for me


I saw some miniature collections of hajung's super hero figures neatly arranged in glass-lined cabinets


"Ahh...so you're a fan of marvel super hero?" Much


"How long have you been collecting these miniature superhero toys?" Ask me to wonder


"Ahh..this is just my fad when I sit on the High School bench" said Hajung


"Wow, it's been a long time" I said in amazement.


"Can I touch it?" Ask permission on hajung


Hajung opened a glass cabinet containing miniature figures super hero marvel


I took a miniature figure dr. Strange is in my grasp


"Is he one of your favorite heroes?" Ask hajung


"I idolize it, because I think its superpowers are amazing" I said


"Hahaha.I didn't expect the surgeon who turned into a witch is your favorite super hero.why don't you idolize harry potter all of you" hajung laughs off me


"Does harry potter manage time and change the past?" Much


Hajung fell silent after I said 'past' coming out of my mouth


"If only I could go back and correct my past mistakes, maybe I could live my life better" I murmured slowly


"Do you think this way because of my mother's words?" Ask hajung to me


I turned towards Hajung and he held my shoulder with both hands


"Kim hye jin listen to me..."


"I don't care how your past is like you don't care about my past" Hajung said


"I only care how you are now and want to spend my time with you Kim hye jin" Hajung said


"Although the world hates you and censures you for your past, I will remain by your side"


"With a note you are willing to allow me to be beside you" Hajung said as he tidied up my bangs to the side


Hajung has a habit of touching my hair when he talks to me


"I think I received too much affection from you sung Hajung" I said.


"Sometimes I feel guilty for you because I can't repay your affection for me..."


"Shhhh. It's just that you still can't agree with me" said Hajung cutting my speech


"It's okay kim hye jin, for now, you can accept my sincere affection for you like this, let your heart slowly accept me and reciprocate my feelings"


"I don't want you to force your heart to accept my feelings immediately" Hajung said again, shaking my hair back


"Alright, I think I want to take a shower before driving you back to your apartment" said Hajung.


"If you want to go around this house, you can do it"


"But I think you're a little uncomfortable meeting my mother" I told Hajung.


"Well, I'll wait for you while reading some books that interest me when we stop by the library and read them in your room" I told Hajung.


"Why do you always want to read books wherever you are, hye jin. Are you a nerd?" Hajung ledek


"Not really, usually I read books just for fun that I did when I was sitting in high school" I said imitating hajung as he answered my question about his hobby


"Hahaha...are you imitating my speech, hye jin?" Ask Hajung who realized that I was mocking him


"M...what if I propose you to have a new hobby?" Ask hajung


"What's that?" Much


"Rubbing the back of the handsome man in front of you while bathing" said Hajung cengengesan


Instantly I narrowed my eyes after hearing Hajung's words


"Go to the bathroom before I hit your perverted mouth with my palm" I threatened Hajung


"Ok alright! I was just kidding..."


"Why does your aura instantly change like an asassin ready to subvert his opponent?" Say hajung while touching his lips with his right hand and walking into the bathroom


I stared at Hajung into the bathroom and heard the sound of the shower being turned on


I walked out of Hajung's room to carry out my plan


I arrived at the family library to look for the book that caught my attention earlier when I stopped by here with hajung and there was no one here but only myself


I was among the book closets and planned to pick up some light, fictitious books to read, but I heard the sound of footsteps heading to the library


"I told you, yobo*(honey) I don't like that girl" said one woman


"What if later the image of my son who was hard-earned he woke up again became bad again due to the girl being next to him?"


I realized it was Hajung's mother's voice with her husband


They're talking about me who just happens to not know where I am right now


"Yobo*(honey) why do you hate him like that? Don't you feel sorry for that girl who's been through all sorts of bad things at her young age?" Hajung's father defended me


"It's the same as you were"


" both are not from the conglomerate and know how difficult it is to live in this cruel world, you should be able to feel more empathy for him than I am" Hajung's father said


"But I don't sleep with just any man like him" Hajung's mother said.


"Sst..watch what you say! You shouldn't be talking rudely like that"


"Let's say, your only son loves that girl so much, can't you see her just from the look in his eyes?"


"But I doubt whether the girl who looks like my niece has the same feelings for my son or not" Hajung's father said


"So you mean, my son is clapping his hands!" Hajung's mother


"Aishh... This is driving me crazy! Why did my dear son have to fall in love with that girl?" Hajung's mother said, looking frustrated


"You don't know how I feel as a mother"


"There was a mother who gave up her son marrying a girl who had slept with another man, plus this man was the husband of her own fearful cousin"


"If it wasn't for Hajung falling in love with her, I don't think she could have been married forever because she had such a dark past"


"It was my son who was responsible for the incident that night when he was with another man at a hotel"


"If he wanted to hold her accountable, he should have gone to the man he had slept with. Don't go to my son who doesn't know anything" said Hajung's mother


"Yobo*(honey) even if you don't like the girl, can you pretend to like her for the sake of your own son?" Hajung's father's pinta


"Well, however, it was the girl who made our son change little by little into someone who lived like a human being in general"


"You know that for most of our lives we've both been spent worrying about our son's life, the only result of his uncle's evil deeds"


"If it wasn't for the girl's sacrifice, maybe forever my brother would continue to intimidate our family" Hajung's father said


"What do you mean that only that girl sacrificed?! Did you forget that you almost lost your son's life because he protected the girl from being shot?"


"My son also sacrificed himself to save the girl's life and put your brother in prison for his evil deeds"


"If the girl realizes that she owes my son her life, she should have left my only son's life and not come back so that my son would not be carried away by the bad luck of continuing to be next to her" said Hajung's mother while folding both hands to the chest


"You're this.just keep cornering the girl! I told you to stop denouncing it" hajung's father exclaimed


"Why don't you like me talking bad about that girl?!" Hajung's mother replied to her husband


"Ohh.I know why I forbid to say anything bad about that girl" Hajung's mother said.


"Is it because his face looks like that awful niece of yours?" Guess hajung's mother


"What do you mean?" Ask hajung's father back


"You're used to bowing under the feet of your niece, deok mi, so that your subconscious can't escape its influence"


"When you see a girl who looks like your niece, subconsciously, your subconscious tells you to stay true to her even though that girl and sung deok mi are two different people" hajung's mother guessed her husband


"W-what do you mean? I might think that the girl and my niece are one and the same person" Hajung's father said


"Yeah! Yobos! Stop talking nonsense like that and I'm warning you to keep smiling as if you liked the girl while in front of your own son" hajung's father said and ended their conversation without realizing that I had heard all the words they had said


I leaned my back head against the bookcase in this library, took a deep breath and slowly took it out


I guessed it


It's very hard to get rid of bad news about my past


Although I tried to make peace with my past, but still there will be people who continue to make fun of me even look down on me due to the incident


I don't need empathy from others about the bad events I've been through. It's just I beg you...


Don't look me in the eye because I'm having an event that I don't want at all


Slowly after I felt my feelings stabilizing, I went back to the hajung room and pretended as if I had not heard any words coming out of the mouth of the hajung parents


I started to open the book that I took from the library but could not focus on the core of the book that I read because I was still thinking about the conversation of Hajung parents


Until someone knocks on the door of hajung room slowly and makes me realize there is someone who wants to enter this room


'Tok-tok'


"Hajung-ssi can you come in?" Said a man who said he was Hajung's father


Hajung, who was still in the bathroom singing sometimes, did not hear his father's voice knocking on the door


As soon as I was on top of the hajung bed to read, I immediately went down and opened the door of Hajung's room


But when I was about to approach the door of hajung's room, Hajung's father had already barged inside first before I opened the door for him


"Ahh..is uncle bothering you and hajung?" Ask hajung's father kindly


"Anio ahjussi*(not uncle) I was reading a book on his bed and hajung was taking a bath" I said honestly


"Ahh.so apparently, I thought I interrupted your alone time here" said Hajung's father who made me feel awkward


"Then I will tell Hajung that you came here to look for him after he finished bathing" I said to ward off the awkward feeling


"Ahh...not my niece.." ceplos hajung's father who surprised me because of his call.


"I mean kim hye jin" he said misbehaving when he changed my nickname


"Uncle came here not to meet with uncle's son, but to meet you" said Hajung's father


"Me?!" I told hajung's father


"Can we talk for a minute kim hye.jin" said Hajung's father, who is still not used to saying my name.


I nodded in a sign of agreeing to talk to him


Hajung's father took me to the living room and he sat beside me carrying a brown envelope in his right hand


"Miss kim.." call hajung's father.


"Maybe I'm presumptuous for doing this to you" said Hajung's father


"But I think I should ask him directly with you"


"Whatis that? Ask me" I replied to Hajung's father


"How far have you come with my son?" Ask hajung's father


"Are you going to go up to a more serious level like marriage?" Ask hajung's father


"Ahh...anio ahjussi*(not uncle)" I said awkwardly.


"Hajung and I have been pretty close lately, but...."


"I expected you to have a statusless relationship with my son" hajung's father cut off


"At first I thought you were just close friends but I changed my mind after seeing this photo" Hajung's father said as he handed me a brown envelope.


I was curious about the contents of the brown envelope held by Hajung's father earlier


Until I opened it and surprised me to see the contents


"My mwoyeo?*(this what?)" I was wondering about Hajung's father


"Maybe you think I'm a crazy, overprotective father to my only son"


"But you need to know, I'm doing this for a reason" Hajung's father said


"During this time Bruce's butler became hajung's personal driver and my confidant to protect my only son" Hajung's father said


"Of course you know Miss Kim the bad thing that almost killed my son in a corporate conflict"


"Although someone who has done something wrong is already where it should be, I fear there will be some parties who do not like it and instead take revenge on my son because he serves as the new CEO of his uncle's successor"


"Therefore just in case I hire some body guard and butler Bruce as the closest man to my son wherever he is, should make a report to me"


"And I found this" said Hajung's father


I was shocked when I saw some photos showing the incident when I almost slipped on the balcony of the apartment


Even more embarrassing, the incident when me and Hajung kissed on the balcony was also photographed and showed clearly from the corner of the shooting opposite my apartment building


I recall the front view of my apartment building which was the roof of several store houses


Did someone take this picture from there?


"Surely.I already know what the continuation of this incident is"


"A mature woman and a grown man at the peak of passion made me think that you and my son had more of a relationship than a friend said.."


"Ahjussi*(uncle) This.unlike you think, hajung and I did not sleep...."


"Do you really love my son?" Ask Hajung's father and cut my words


I swallowed my saliva a sign that I was in an uncomfortable atmosphere


"If you feel you can't return my son's feelings, stay away"


"This is a warning from me" said Hajung's father


"I know I shouldn't have said this to someone who has made my son's life so much better than before"


"I know it was you who convinced Hajung to go to a psychiatrist to follow therapy so that he could recover from his mental illness that he suffered for many years"


"And you also saved my son from death because he was held in a warehouse with extreme cold temperatures by his own uncle"


"I'm very grateful to you Miss Kim because you've been a guardian angel to her" Hajung's father said


"But I think..."


"all your debt has been paid to break even considering my son also saved you from death"


"And try to free you from prison by leading people's opinions about your good attitude"


"There's no reason for my son to stay by your side. My instructor says there will only be injuries if you continue to be beside my son after I review the bad events that happened in the past" Hajung's father said


"I hope you're not offended by my words, because I just want to protect my only son"


I smiled wryly when I heard Hajung's father say


"Protect your words?" I say it again to hajung's father


"If you wanted to protect your only son, you should have done it from the beginning when his uncle hajung tried to get rid of him" I quipped Hajung's father


"But after uncle Hajung was in prison, you told me to stay away from your son"


"You and your niece look a lot like you"


"to tell others to expose the evil sung dong il without having to intervene from you and do not want to be directly involved in dealing with it"


"More like a coward who feels himself persecuted but is reluctant to struggle to be free from all the suffering he has felt so far"


"Is sung dong il the demon lord that you and your nephew are so scared to come face to face with?"


"Ahh.I forgot"


"Sung dong il is indeed not a human, he is just a demon who is disguised as a human"


"He was even willing to get rid of his own daughter and plan to replace her with me until I lost my sanity in what I call the hell of the world" I said, insinuating Hajung's father


Although my mental condition has improved more than a year recently, but of course kim hye jin who was not like kim hye jin now is more courageous to express his opinion, he said, it doesn't matter whether it's an older person or not


I clearly felt that Hajung's father shouldn't have told me to approach or stay away from those around me


I'm not a hye jinn that can be ruled by people at will


Kim hye jin who is now more like a tank is ready to come forward and get rid of whatever is in front of him if I feel threatened


"But even though sung dong il is a demon, at least you also have to fight to the last drop of blood"


"Luckily sung hajung is not like you who just lock the room and sit curled up in fear and hope that the demon will go by itself" I said again


"Hajung struggles to find a way out of his family's problems that have made him suffer"


"Even though the obstacles were enormous, he didn't care about it all"


"Until he meets me and gives me a chance to break free from the big chains put up by sung dong il"


"Aren't you ashamed of your uncle when he asked me to stay away from your son, considering that me and your beloved son are fighting desperately to make you and your wife feel comfortable like this?" I said without fear


"You.." said Hajung's father, who was surprised to hear my words.


"Don't you think that since I'm not your nephew, you can pretend to rule me as well as you can"


"I'm..."


"Free to do anything and free to be close to anyone including your son"


"I don't care about your perception of my relationship and hajung"


"As long as my relationship with Hajung is fine, I will not obey the orders of others who tell me to stay away from him" I said firmly


"If there are no more things to discuss, can I go back to Hajung's room and wait for him to finish his activities?" I asked Hajung's father who was sitting quietly looking at me


I bow my head omens giving greetings to farewell from in front of Hajung's father


But as I turned my body and stood up from the sofa, I saw the already standing hajung staring at me and his father


"Hajung-ssi" call me reflex when I see her


Hajung's father was the same as me who was surprised when he saw Hajung was standing behind the sofa where we were sitting


"I was looking for you in the room but I didn't find you" Hajung said as he walked up to me


Hajung rolled his eyes over the table and saw photos showing my affection with hajung on the balcony


"So you first talked to my father about asking this?" Ask Hajung who is trying to be relaxed


"It's not my son, I'm just talking casually with hye..."


"Does forbidding hye jin to approach me is a casual chat in your opinion, father?" Hajung's speech cuts off his own father's speech


I was surprised when Hajung said that to his own father


I think he's been behind me and his dad's been around long enough to hear this uncomfortable talk


"From tomorrow I don't need Bruce's butler to stay by my side" Hajung said


"Let me drive myself while I'm commuting to the office"


"Hajung, dad...."


"If bruce's butler stays by my side, I think I need to leave this house and go back to living in my old apartment so that I can be free from your eyes that interfere with my privacy and hye jin" cut hajung as his father tries to give a reason why he has acted so far


"Hajung-ssi" called me to Hajung to warn him to keep a polite talk to his own parents


"Hurge up, I'll take you home" Hajung told me


I obeyed Hajung and went to the 2nd floor to go to his room to pick up my bag, while returning to the 1st floor, he said, I saw that hajung's mother was already beside her father and the atmosphere looked silent when I came back


hajung pulled my arm, but I held his shoulder a sign to stop for a while and bowed my head a farewell sign to hajung's parents


during the trip, Hajung did not say a word to me.


it's not like hajung usually becomes quiet like this


he tends to be chatty and always chat with me even when driving


"i think your chefs were so good, the dinner was so delicious, I almost cheered it up to add it to my plate" I said, opening a conversation


but Hajung remained silent, not poking my words


I just exhaled and leaned my body back against the soft car seat as I ignored my words trying to make the atmosphere not quiet


"forgive me hye jin. because I took you to dinner with my family, you got such an unpleasant treatment" Hajung said


"they are so outrageous that they violate the privacy rights of others" Hajung said again


"hajung-ssi.."call me.


"i thought it would be easier after going through the bad events that continue to happen to our lives, but I think I was wrong." said Hajung


"even though my uncle is now in prison and I am the CEO of a real estate company in place of my uncle, my hopes of living with you are still not realized"


"i just want to see you happy hye jin, but I just saw you humbled by both my own parents"


"especially my mother..."


"hajung-sii.."call me again while touching his left thigh a sign to stop blaming himself.


"naega gwaenchana*(i'm fine)" I said to hajung to calm him down


"even though both of your parents look one eye because of my past, but I can defend myself and can show them that I am not the genie that can be ordered at will" I said


"i won't repeat my mistakes like I used to, hajung"


"i will fight for what I think is right"


"And I don't take the dizzy attitude of your parents who hate me, as long as you stay with me"


"What if we had better focus on pleasing our lives?" My proposal


"For the time being, I'm just focusing on my heart trying to accept your feelings, hajung" I said


Hajung clasped my right hand on his left thigh


"Gomawo hye jin-ssi neo.*(you.) can always calm my heart" said Hajung.


"I hope your heart can quickly accept my feelings and I want to immediately invite you to a more serious relationship" said Hajung while raising my right hand that was in the hands of Hajung's left hand, then he kissed the back of my hand


Fortunately Hajung seemed cheerful again after a light conversation that discussed my relationship with him


I hope I can give all my heart to Hajung and live happily with the man beside me


Hajung led me to the door of my apartment. We walked hand in hand and discussed what I would cook if she had dinner at my house


In addition to the chicken head, I decided to cook various cow or goat offal to make soup


Hajung scrunched his forehead a sign he was a little disgusted with the internal organs of four-legged animals in a soup for dinner


I laughed at Hajung's expression that kept imagining strange things about food that he had never tried


"Have a rest and stop imagining your strange cooking" Hajung said as I opened the door to my apartment.


"Are you sure you don't want to spend the night here?" I asked again on Hajung considering the atmosphere of his house was rather gloomy because of my presence


"Did you encourage me to sleep next to you tonight, hye jin?"


"If so, I won't hesitate to spend the night in your apartment" seduced hajung


"Don't fuck around if you don't want to get a punch from me" I said, narrowing my eyes at Hajung


"Hahaha..I don't want a punch from you hye jin, I just want to get a naughty kiss from you"


"You know, I dreamt you turned into a naughty girl and teased me all the time" Hajung said with his flirtatious style in my eyes


"Aigoo..You're too imaginative to imagine that, aren't you afraid that the world will end if I turn naughty?" I said while hitting Hajung's shoulder because of his mischievous remarks


Mercifully...


He has become the sung hajung I know as always


There was no more sour face when I got in the car with him earlier


"Well, I'll go inside, be careful when driving" I said and wanted to go inside.


But hajung pulled my arm suddenly until my body turned towards Hajung and hit his chest that field


Hajung clutched my body tightly.


He took a breath and exhaled it, as if he was trying to regulate the turbulent emotions within him


"Thank you for giving me the opportunity to charge for my body's energy supply" Hajung said and took off his arms.


"Now go inside, tomorrow I will come here to charge again" Hajung told me


I'm a whimper at his sometimes weird behavior, but...


I understand him because he likes me


After that, Hajung left my apartment and went back to his house


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less long is this chapter??


if less addin ampe lieur ehhe...🙈🙈


btw the spirit of undergoing the first day of fasting guys may we always be given health in order to undergo fasting up to one full month


love you ❤❤