Choose Him Or I'm The Virgin
Episode 101's
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Kim hye jin pov
The gust of wind pierced in the morning, making me tighten the scarf that binds to my neck to get warmer before I ride a bike
Before dawn began to reveal itself, I had already begun to be busy dealing with the kitchen area making porridge for my beloved mother
After the tragedy that was full of drama happened yesterday, in the end I decided to return to chicago together with seo jin for the second time
I feel like I've experienced de javu, it seems like I've experienced an incident where ohh and seo jin drivers picked me up to hangan island and then took me back to chicago. And now it's repeated
But different, my frustration with seo jin I vent all to him and caused him to be battered and hurt my hand.
I can't manage my emotions like the old hye jin.
I was only able to cry and do violence through my imagination
But now??
It is opposite of the old me.
Well...I think the positive impact at this time, I can feel relieved.because there is nothing more I need to hide from both my parents
I was worried about both of them knowing what really happened to me
Although heavy but I admit, the arrival of seo jin to this island, can make me breathe a little fresh air from the prison bars inside me that I made myself
My mother's gaze looked calm as I helped her to eat my own congee, mother just as I was not suited to the food the hospital made for her, she said, the food in the hospital is like the food of the person to be executed the next day. Feels very unappealing
Mom just told me to always take care of myself wherever I am and always remember to try to be happy
My mom said I was lucky to be surrounded by people who love me for who I am
I smiled and asked my little heart. Is it true what my mother said that I am surrounded by people who love me for who I am? But why is my heart still in a prison that I have specially made for myself?
My heart was even reluctant to move from there and kept remembering his past.keeping grudges on the person who had hurt him to make all his hopes dashed
I still hope to the gods to be able to see with my own eyes what law of karma will be avenged for the mistakes of people who are so selfish that they can hurt me
I decided to sit on a long bench outside the hospital, enjoying the sound of the waves rushing through my listener's senses and making me pensive
I don't know how long I've been sitting pensively staring at the sea until someone awakened my daydream
"May I sit beside you?" Said a man
I looked towards the man's voice and saw seo jin with his bruised face trying to smile at me while enduring the pain on his face
I saw him feel funny and smile wide, satisfied to see someone who sucks to suffer because of me
"Please if you're not afraid of my temper that could suddenly appear and beat you up again" I told seo jin
There was a hint of doubt on him when I finished saying that sentence
I wonder if he should sit next to me or not
After a few seconds of that doubt, seo jin finally decided to stay seated next to me
I admit, he was quite brave even though I threatened him like that. I think seo jin has undergone a little change towards him
He turned into someone reckless even though his annoying attitude was still attached to him
For a moment we sat together, only the sound of the sound of the waves pounding us. There was no conversation between me and seo jin
"How are you this morning, hye jin? Are you all right?" Seo jin asked
Whether this is just a basic speech to start a conversation or is he really curious about my news and my feelings this morning after the drama yesterday?
I was silent for a moment, not directly answering seo jin's question
"Do you expect me to ask you that line so you ask me that question first?" I asked seo jin who still had suspicious feelings for him
"Ahhh...no hye jin. really! I just want to know how you feel right now" said seo jin in panic
"I'm saying this there's no intention to make you happy seo jin, but I admit, for the first time I felt a little relieved today after I got out of prison one year ago" I said be honest with seo jin
I rolled my eyes at seo jin and saw him smiling to himself as I said that line
Seo Jin looked happy even though her face was bruised like that. I think yesterday I was a little too much to hit him
Well....
Let's just say I was too excited to do it because my dark memory is still recorded very clearly as if the actions of seo jin had just happened two days ago
"Park seo jin, I want to ask you because I'm curious" I said that made him focus on me
"Ask hye jin, whatever it is" said seo jin kindly
"Wae..*(why.)" I said as I took a breath.
" you were able to protect and save a lot of people but you weren't good at protecting and saving just one" I asked
Seo Jin was silent when she heard my question, trying to examine it
"What do you mean, hye jin?" Seo jin asked
"this morning I saw the news of a sea accident that almost sank a ferry due to overloading"
"after I look back, I think the ferry was a boat that we didn't board yesterday, fortunately there were no fatalities in the accident as several marine police boats were patrolling the waters around the island of Hangan"
"You know what makes me feel weird? sea police are patrolling around the waters of hangan island? I think it's a very rare coincidence"
"the marine police force was there when the ferry was in an accident and the people on board were panicking"
"i think this has something to do with you, park seo jin"
"believe it or not even though my mind was in a mess thinking about my mother's condition, I was secretly watching you when we were on the speed boat, you were seen walking around looking agitated while glued to your phone"
"and when you spoke on the phone, I heard you yelling at someone to ask for help contacting the sea police to immediately check the waters leading to the island of Hangan" I said at length to talk to seo jin
"did you hear everything?" ask seo jin
I fell silent again as seo jin asked me a question
Actually I still have some questions for seo jin, just to make sure the truth
The words of seo jin while on the speed boat and his conversation with the ohh driver I accidentally heard when seo jin finished treating the wound on his face
Actually, how far has seo jin tried to solve all the problems of those closest to me.
Has he really gone crazy?
Or is he trying so hard to look good like a hero in my eyes?
Haaah...
Mola-mola*(do not know) anyway I will ask him this
"I think everything" I said briefly trying to remain cynical
"Good if you know everything" replied seo jin briefly following my tone
But I just don't like the style of speech that sounds indifferent like that
I looked towards seo jin with a sullen face and seo jin who noticed it, looked at my face and started looking at me
"Wae's?*(why?) Wouldn't that be good for me if you knew everything? I don't need to explain it to you" said seo jin
"But why should you interfere in the matter of cha young's life?!" Exclamation
"Is it wrong to help your friend's thorny problems that have always made him suffer?" Seo Jin asked back
"Without you realizing it, your family's life also suffered because of your best friend's problems" said seo jin loudly
"Park seo jin" I warned him
"Wae's?*(why?) Don't you like my blatant talk like this?" Seo Jin asked back
"Truly I did not understand until this second, hye jin.." said seo jin severed.
"You...."
"To be too involved in other people's problems"
"Can you ignore it?" Seo jin asked
"It's none of your business, seo jin. I can handle.." I said.
"Anni*(no)!" Cut seo jin
"You don't even know if you can handle it or not" said seo jin seriously
"You're just desperate capital to help others and impose yourself"
"You have to admit it hye jin. It's your bad attitude that you have to change if you don't want to live to suffer for the rest of your life" seo jin said
"Yyaa!!!*(hey!!)" Shouted
"Who are you to criticize me?!" I'm on seo jin
Seo Jin was silent for a moment. He just looked at my face, which was starting to look emotional
"I...."
"I'm a person who knows your nature very well..."
"...and I am also the one who made you suffer like this" said seo jin softly
"I know hye jin, you unhesitatingly help others who are in front of you even though you know it will make things difficult for yourself"
"I shouldn't have asked you in the first place to get into my life's problems and solve the problems of those around me"
"But if it wasn't for you, I might never know the truth" forever"
"If it wasn't for your nature, there's no way I could have exposed all the crimes of sung dong il all along"
"If it wasn't for your nature to keep interfering in other people's problems, it wouldn't be possible to lead the company as it is today"
"If not for your nature...."
"I will forever be a cowardly and easily manipulated seo jin park" said seo jin to me
"you're a good-natured person I've met in my life. You don't even deserve a life of suffering like this"
"Have you finished talking shit like that?" Syndirate
"If you're so sorry for what you did to me like you said, why did you come so late to park seo jin?" Much
"I'm sorry hye jin. I.." said seo jin.
"Aahhh..I forgot, you didn't realize that I wasn't on the side of Hajung all this time" I cut
"You think I'm staying by the side of Hajung and forgetting all your mistakes towards me"
"No seo jin, you're not late because you're not aware of it, but you've ignored me"
"You decided to ignore me after I got out of jail and threw all your responsibilities at Hajung" I said
"However, I know myself, hajung has been suffering all this time, and I do not want to add that suffering again with my presence into the life of Hajung with a myriad of problems"
"I'd rather run away and hide until the end of my life. I tried not to drag others into my problems including my family, but I failed to do so"
"I failed to do so and it made my mother and father suffer even more"
"Hahaha.I am indeed a true loser" I said with a soft laugh.
"No hye jin, you're not a loser...."
"Yes I am!" I cut off seo jin's words
"I'm a real loser. I even made someone who dumped me and ignored me now turn to me again because I felt sorry and did not have the bad life I lived" I said
"Kim hye jin, please believe me. I never threw you away or ignored you..."
"Oh yeah?!" I doubt it
"Then can you explain to me what's your reason for not seeing me as soon as I got out of jail after our last meeting at the restaurant with deok mi and hajung?" Much
"I'm sure seo jin, the reason you don't just think I've been living by Hajung's side all this time" I said fishing seo jin
Seo Jin looked down at her head, as if hesitant to tell me the truth
"All right, I'll admit it to you, me...."
"Too shy to see you, hye jin" said seo jin
"I'm so guilty of you and hajung"
"Everything I do to you is a crime to me"
"Excreate you from my house, humiliate you in front of my maids"
"Bringing you forcibly from the hajung apartment and saying rudely and scolding you in public places"
"Everything I do is a mistake. I trusted my father-in-law too much and turned a blind eye to the truth"
"I didn't even give you a chance to explain it to me and instead shower you with an outpouring of emotions"
"I realized my mistake was fatal after knowing you were in prison and I didn't know what I had to do to save you, kim hye jin"
"I'm the dumbest person who can't see the situation and the truth in front of my eyes"
"Therefore I have no face to apologize to you anymore and also hajung for all my wrong deeds"
"You know hye jin, you're not a loser, you're the one who's a real loser"
"I'm too cowardly to immediately correct all my mistakes"
"If it wasn't for the ohh driver who convinced me to go here to see how you were doing, I would probably live like a loser forever to the end"
"I don't want to live such a miserable life"
"I've always lived in doubt, too many things I consider, but in the end I'm going to hurt others because of my own stupidity"
"Mianhae*(excuse me) kim hye jin for the mistake I made you and this time I want to correct all the mistakes that have been done to you" said seo jin regretfully
I was speechless to see seo jin apologizing to me with a sorry feeling
"If you feel regret for all your actions, I hope you can grant my request, seo jin" I said
"Whatever hye jin, I will try to fulfill your request" seo jin told me
"Park seo jin, I hope after we arrive in chicago, I don't want us to meet again" I said as I looked at seo jin
Seo Jin looked at me
"Alright." said seo jin after a long silence.
"I will only carry out my duty to return your life as it was before you met me" said seo jin
"This is your new phone, kim hye jin"
"I have entered my contact number and also the driver's contact ohh in this phone" said seo jin while giving me a new phone
"You have the right to use it now, replacing your old phone that has been damaged by being hit by a truck" said seo jin
"If one day you change your mind and want to see me, you can call me on this phone"
I received a new phone given seo jin and immediately deleted seo jin's contact number
"It is with great pleasure that I will accept all your gifts for me in return for my actions that make your life much calmer, sir" I said to seo jin loudly
"And now, I'm going to remove your contact from this phone so I can live a quiet life without you"
"You are the source of my unhappiness, park seo jin. You should know that"
"One day you're talking about, it's never gonna happen when I set foot in Chicago"
"I hope I can live a quiet life without knowing how you are and I won't care how you live your life now or in the future"
"I hope I don't see you again no matter what"
"If you feel you still have responsibility for my life, do as you did when I was in Seoul"
"Being me secretly like a ghost that no one sees, because I won't be willing to look you in the face again" I said cynically
"I understand kim hye jin. I will obey all your requests that want to stay away from me" said seo jin
"I hope you don't reject all the actions I've done for you and those closest to you" said seo jin
"If circumstances require me to repent, I will ask someone or my personal secretary to meet you" said seo jin
"I promise I will not appear before you again kim hye jin no matter what" said seo jin
"I'll give you one more chance to hold your word park seo jin. I hope you don't deny it like you used to" I said
"Thank you for giving me one more chance to right all my wrongs"
"I won't let you down, kim hye jin. It won't" said seo jin with a smile
**********
*8 MONTHS LATER*
CHICAGO
That day...
It was the last day I talked to Park seo jin
he really solved all the problems that I had and also the people closest to me including the deeply rooted cha young problem
Seo Jin actually paid off all the debts hong cha young owed that were piling up like a mountain on that leech
Seo Jin also threatened the leech if he dared to disturb cha young and my family, seo jin would contact his lawyer in Seoul to imprison them
Not only am I surprised, hong cha young is also very surprised by the power of money in this world
The power of the conglomerate was truly terrifying, as if it was able to grasp the entire world
old problems that are difficult to solve, are now lost briefly because of the money owned by park seo jin
Cha young initially hated him, but now, he actually deified park seo jin because according to cha young, seo jin has superpowers that not everyone can have that is money
Cha Young stops working at a seoul hospital and moves to work at a hospital around the island of Hangan so that his dream can be realized, which is to gather with his biological mother and take care of my family
While me?
Slowly began to return to cheerful kim hye jin after undergoing several therapies by professional psychiatrists in chicago
Of course, there is a difference between kim hye jin and kim hye jin
Kim hye jin who once tried desperately to work part-time and study hard so that the scholarship is not revoked, and live in an old dormitory that even a mouse is like an additional family member
Kim hye jin who now no longer need to bother like that anymore.my job is just to continue my delayed college and undergo therapy so that my mental health gradually recovered
Of course my residence is much more comfortable than that old dormitory
I live in an apartment room with seo jin and I am free to wear it at any time
Every month there will be a number of money that goes into my account with an amount that exceeds the word enough, but strangely I am used to living with an economical so that I have a lot of money left in my savings
Sometimes I donate more money to orphanages and other social foundations
Seo Jin actually did it as he promised me
I remember when I got on a private seo jin plane back to Chicago
I didn't speak to him for a word, and even he broke away from me on the other side of the plane, trying not to show his back to me
When I arrived at the airport, I was escorted by another driver besides the ohh driver to this apartment
After that I get a notification from the hospital for my therapy schedule through a message on the mobile phone giving seo jin
Likewise with the campus business, I got a call from my campus and told me to come to campus to start continuing my studies
Like other college students, I contribute to campus activities, walk to the shopping center to buy clothes that I like, try new lipstick and buy makeup, hang out at the cafe with group mates and other activities that I never do during my part-time job to make extra money
I mingled with my lower-level friends who are now my classmates because I dropped out of college a year ago
They greeted me kindly and I didn't expect them to still remember the shocking incident
Where when people protest for my release from prison.
The event that ended left me with a scar that would never disappear in my entire life on the forehead
Almost all the residents of the college where I attended knew me well and called me a dopplanger girl
they assume that the legend that says "if met with a dopplanger somewhere, misfortune will wait in plain sight" is not a myth but a reality and actually happens
At first I felt uncomfortable with the call because some students who came from the news club, always chased me and asked me to take the time to do an interview session
I always ignored them because I thought it was a silly thing, plus I was a final-level student who had to catch up on the lecture material left behind and complete the task in order to graduate on time without having to postpone it again
That's not easy for me. While all my college work was on my weight, I had to go to a psychiatrist to restore my mental health
It slowed my healing process
Sometimes I cry at night loudly alone when I fall asleep because of the influence of my psychiatric drug consumption which gives me the effect of drowsiness is unbearable but my college assignment deadline must be collected in the morning
Surprisingly, my soul specialist doctor said that I was progressing in my mental healing process
He told me crying out loud was a process to remove the anxiety and fear trapped inside me
That way not only anger appears to express my feelings but all expressions play according to their place
To be honest I didn't really understand what my psychiatrist meant, I just followed his advice and took the drugs on schedule
Little by little, the doctor began to reduce the dose of my psychiatric medication and of course the effects of the side effects of the drug began to disappear
I don't get sleepy anymore and sleep haphazardly somewhere or sleep with my eyes open until people get scared of me when I take public transport like buses and subways
One day while I was waiting for the bus that led to my apartment at the stop, I fell asleep until night and woke up with an unfamiliar jacket that I did not know covered me
I was woken up by the police officer on duty that night because someone called the police station and reported that I was asleep at the bus stop at night and worried about my safety
Fortunately none of my belongings were lost during my sleep of more than 4 hours at the bus stop
Unless there's someone to look after me while I'm asleep at the stop
I assumed for myself that the person who had the jacket had been looking after me during my sleep at the stop and called the police to wake me up
Surprisingly, why didn't he just wake me up? Or.....
Was it me who slept so well that he gave up on waking me up and chose to call the police?
It's still a mystery to me
To this day I still keep the jacket that covers my body as I fall asleep at the bus stop and hang it beside my study table to remind me that in this world there are still good strangers who help other people, as well as reminding me not to be careless like that
Sleeping in a public place is very unpredictable I will experience, this is all because I am under the influence of psychiatric drugs that I consume
Therefore, doctors always remind me to be accompanied by others as long as I take drugs for my psychiatric
I lied to the doctor if I had a companion in the house who would always look after me but in fact I lived alone in the apartment
I was forced to do it, lie to my psychiatrist. Otherwise, I would be hospitalized and make me more like a mental patient who can't do everyday activities well.
That would make me even more afraid and would have a bad effect on my mental health
Haaah....
If I remember those bad times, now I feel proud of myself for being able to go through all those difficult times and become a stronger kim hye jin
Thanks to my body, you keep trying to be healthy even though half of my soul cannot be invited to cooperate
I said in my heart while embracing myself by crossing both my hands while holding each other's shoulders. I closed my eyes and smiled to myself while observing every event that was difficult for me
Until someone nudged my shoulder and made me realize
"Hey.basic crazy girl! Aren't you ashamed to do it in a crowded place like this?" Ask emma who suddenly came and ruined my passion
Today I had an appointment with emma, when I just arrived in Chicago, I deliberately did not contact her
I really choose to be alone, no one knows where I am in chicago other than park seo jin and driver ohh
After my mental health began to gradually recover, I began to contact emma who I got her contact number from the student yearbook and told her that I was already in chicago
Of course it took him by surprise and cancelled his blind date at the time, as he couldn't wait to see me
When I first met emma again after a long time without seeing her, she hugged me tightly and cried loudly in public places until others stared in wonder at us
I laughed while crying when I saw the attitude of Emma who missed me so much
And now almost every weekend, I meet emma and spend time with her
"What harm? I was just loving my strong body and thanking her for making me breathe up to this moment" I replied to emma who had been waiting for her for the past 20 minutes
"Wahh, you're turning into someone dramatic once now" emma quipped.
"Yes!!*(hey!!) It's all because you're late from meeting hours"
"You said we made a deal in front of the big city mall at 4 p.m., but look! what time is it?!" Exclamation
"Aigo-aigo this girl is now getting irritable" said emma trying to dictate my words when upset
"Look!! I haven't been 30 minutes late but you've been angry like this, what would happen if I was an hour late? Are you going to turn into a goblin?" Emma quirks
"Hell no! I will turn into a tiger demon and will devour you alive! Rooarr!" Exclamation
"Aww..fear! How could there be a tiger like this?" ledek emma serving my jokes
"Haha..."
Our laughter broke for a moment to make others glance at us
Emma and I didn't bully anyone who was watching us. Emma and I walked into the shopping center to buy bbq materials and some new clothes and makeup like normal women who live well in a big city
After I finished shopping with Emma, I decided to go to the apartment I was in and have dinner with her
As usual emma made my refrigerator as a storage warehouse for her alcohol drinks so that she did not have to bother buying it when visiting my apartment
Emma knew that I couldn't touch her alcohol because I didn't like that kind of drink
"Yuhuu.
"Are you really going to turn my room into an alcohol shop?" I was surprised at Emma
"Didn't you see it? My fridge is full because of your drinks!"
"Can't you spend it first and then you buy it again?" Ocehku
"Kim hye jin, the only thing in you that doesn't change is the way you talk as chatty as my boss" she quipped
"I'm not fussy, I'm just telling you the truth, because of your drink, I can't keep my youghurt bottle" I protested
"You can keep your youghurt in the bottom"
"It's also starting to get full!" Exclamation
"Really?!" Reply emma
"Hahaha.i am sorry my friend, I am not realize" said emma cengengesan.
"Well, I'll keep this wine and I'll have a full beer can in your fridge"
"And stop blabbering" said emma as she walked towards the fridge
Emma took 3 cans of her canned beer and while closing the fridge, she was glued to the jacket I hung on my study desk
"Kim hye jin, is the jacket yours?" Emma asked me
"Not" I said briefly
"I don't know who it belongs to" I said again
"eeee? That's weird*(that's weird) if you don't know whose jacket it is, but why is it in your apartment?" Emma asked curiously
"I once fell asleep at a bus stop, when I opened my eyes, the jacket was already wrapped around me and two policemen were in front of me to wake me up" I said explaining to emma while grilling beef and garlic
"Your life is really messed up, hye jin, why don't you call me when you're in trouble?" Ask emma
"I doubt if I'm really your best friend" said emma
"Trust me. At that time I didn't have time to think of anyone" I said.
"I was just thinking about how I wouldn't be like a soulless undead" I said
"After my soul returned, I just remembered you emma" I said
"Hhaah, your words are very consistent hye jin" said emma.
"Once I ask the same question, but your answer remains the same. I guess that's just the reason you didn't want to call me" she guessed
"That's not my reason, nor are so many people close to me in this city" I said
"Since the first time I set foot in this town, you've been my first friend Emma"
"Only you greet your roommate with a strange welcome" I said, beginning to discuss the past
"Hahaha, I still remember clearly how stupid you were when I threw the cake right in your face" said emma cengengesan.
"At that time I was starving and my scholarship monthly money had not entered my account, I just pocketed the Korean money sheet instead of dollars" I replied
"Hhaah.it was a difficult time hye jin" said emma lowered her head.
"But now...."
"Look at you!!" Emma
"Slowly you start to look like a normal human being living in the city" said Emma as she tickled my waist
"Ahhh...stop emma, it feels ticklish!" I screamed while laughing
"But bestie, I'm still curious about this"
"Did you really not see the owner of the company I was working for?" Ask Emma who I can understand
"Ohhh, come on, we promised not to talk about this, and I hope you won't have to tell me about her life because you work at her company" I complained
"I know hye jin you don't want to talk about her" replied emma
"But I suddenly wanted to talk about him after seeing the jacket you put on your study table" said emma
"You mean?" Ask me to wonder
"Hemm.
"You know what makes me feel familiar?" Ask emma
I just shook my head at him because I didn't know what made emma feel familiar
"The package is a product output from a well-known designer in this country and limited edition" said emma passionate when talking about fashion
"And you know that the desaigner issued his clothing designs only for some of his vvip members" said emma
"One of the vvip members is the owner of my company and the jacket you're displaying is the result of a design from a well-known designer in the country" said emma who began coding me
I understand what emma meant. In other words, the jacket was likely the property of seo jin
"I think you and the owner of my company have made peace and met face-to-face and talked to him" Emma said
"Good go.he kept his promise" I chanted.
"He kept helping me secretly like an invisible ghost" I said, devouring rice and meat at the same time
"Promise? What promise did he say to you?" Emma fishing asked
"I told him to try to stay away from me because I didn't want to see him"
"Although in times of any emergency that require me to help, it is still not to bring up his face again in front of me" I said with a wry smile
"Wahh.kim hye jin you really hate him" said emma.
"You know, for almost the past year, the CEO's face of my company has been moody and dreamy...."
" at an important meeting, he even had time to daydream, even though he had never done that, he was the most focused and optimistic CEO"
"Of course, almost all the employees are talking...."
"Dam-aa!!!" I screamed while putting the glass down hard
"Haaah..stop"
"Stop talking about it" I warned
"If you talk about her again, I hope you leave here, because I don't want to hear it" I said firmly
Emma looked at me with a guilty face
"I am sorry, hye jin" said emma and made the atmosphere of our dinner awkward as a result of talking about seo jin
******
The next morning I did my usual activities, until the afternoon I planned to finish my college assignment at a cafe to drink warm coffee during the cold weather that began to enter winter
Just as I was about to open the door of the cafe, someone suddenly pulled my arm.
I who was hugging my laptop, was forced to turn my body so that my laptop did not fall with a surprised facial expression
"Kim hye jin!!" The man called my name
I saw the face of a familiar looking man standing before me with a gasp of breath as if running to chase me
"Are you kim hye jin?!" Ask the man to make sure he's not wrong
"Ha.jung-ssi.." I said slowly.
When I said her name, she quickly hugged me very tightly and I thought she was crying
"Kim hye jin...Where have you been??" Ask hajung
"I'm..."
"I couldn't reach you and you suddenly disappeared" said Hajung Lirih
"Hajung-ssi mianhae.*(excuse me)" I said regretfully.
"Wae*?(why?)" Hajung asked after he finished hugging me and looked at my face
I saw Hajung's expression that looked sad, as if the feeling he had been feeling all along, overflowing at the sight of me
"Can we find a place to talk?" My love
Hajung looked around and realized that hajung and I were blocking the entrance of the cafe
I smiled at Hajung and clasped his right hand to make him feel calmer
Hajung returned my grasp tightly, I led him to enter the cafe and ordered a warm drink for himself and myself
No words came out of hajung's mouth nor mine
It was just a look that seemed like it was trying to talk to me
Hajung continued to hold both of my hands tightly, as if he did not want to take them off
Even when our drink order arrived delivered by a male servant, he looked at Hajung with a slightly strange look
The male servant then glanced at me when he finished staring at Hajung
I just smiled at the man's cafe waiter and immediately left our table after the task was done
"Is this really you, hye jin?" Ask Hajung who still does not believe in me who is in front of him
"Do you think I'm a ghost?" Ask me back
"It's too warm for the temperature of the ghostly hand I'm holding" Hajung said
I took off my hand and directed both hands to hold the cup of warm drink and again to hold her hand again
"Warm your hands, your hands are too cold for a measure of human temperature" I replied
I led Hajung's hand to raise the cup of warm coffee towards his mouth
Hajung began sipping warm coffee and closed his eyes briefly a sign that he was enjoying his warm coffee
"Is it getting warm?" I asked Hajung with a smile
Hajung placed his coffee cup on the table and held both hands and kissed with his lips
I was a little surprised by the treatment of hajung towards me
Like a couple who are in a long distance relationship
once they met, they immediately expressed their own sense of longing
But we are not lovers who have a love affair LDR, but rather more than that relationship
It's so hard to explain
Especially when we think back to how we last parted
Surely not hye jin hajung known all this time, but hye jin who began to lose half his soul due to dark events experienced
There was no grinning smile on my face during the last meeting almost two years ago
Now when I suddenly meet him, I can smile in front of him, of course he thinks of me as a ghost
"What happened to you, hye jin?" Ask hajung
"You just disappeared like being swallowed by the earth and made me so worried" Hajung said trying hard
"I tried to find you in Korea with the help of private detectives but I didn't get anything, as if someone was deliberately hiding everything about your life" Hajung said
"I'm sorry, that's one of my requests, because I want to focus on myself and my mental recovery" he said
"I know I'm so outrageous and selfish"
"i'm a coward and I don't want the world to know how I live" I said
"I just want to forget my past and try not to remember it"
"Because you know hajung yourself, it's the hardest thing for me" I said
"Do you want to forget me too, kim hye jin?" Hajung asked sadly
"Anio*(no) don't misunderstand me first" I said in self-defense
"8 months ago I came back here to undergo my mental health therapy and continued my studies with the help of someone who should have been responsible for me" I told Hajung
"I asked him to fulfill all my requests including hiding my life and keeping my arrival to Chicago from anyone"
"I will return to the world, after I am sure that my mental health has recovered and can mingle with people again"
"I think one month ago, my psychiatrist started reducing my medication and I started contacting people who had been on good terms with me"
"My college friends, my best friend Emma and yourself" I said
"But.." I said disconnected.
"I forgot that one of the people I was on good terms with was a great person I had a hard time meeting" I smiled
"Once in a while I visit your company to ask you to meet me for an appointment" I explained
"I don't think kim hye jin is someone important to your company, so I guess they are...."
"Your employees must prioritize the important affairs of the company" I said
"When I arrived at your company on the day H, they suddenly told me that you had an important meeting that you couldn't cancel" I said
"And you know the final-level student isn't unemployment just waiting for your meeting to finish"
"There are still a lot of tasks waiting for me and I have to finish them so I can graduate on time" I explained
Hajung closed his eyes and looked down, I think he was upset with his employees who did not tell him that there was someone looking for him named kim hye jin
"I hope you're not upset with your employees, they only work according to their own purposes"
"I'm very sure you're very busy and have a busy schedule, your secretary must be working hard to sort your schedule according to priorities" I said calming hajung
"And...When I visit your old apartment, you no longer occupy it, have you moved to a more luxurious apartment?" Ask me to wonder
"I returned home and got together with my parents after my uncle was sentenced to life imprisonment" Hajung said
"Ahh..so apparently" I replied.
"It's good that you've reunited with your family and don't have any more misunderstandings" I smiled
Suddenly Hajung shifted his chair as he looked at me who was smiling to get closer to me and there was no table blocking between me and hajung
Hajung aggressively placed his hands on both of my cheeks and brought his face closer to mine
The distance of our faces began to be so close that I could feel the breath of hajung
"Hajung-ssi" called out to me with a surprised facial expression as she suddenly acted aggressively like this
"May I kiss your lips, kim hye jin?" Ask Hajung who asked permission from me
I stared at his face for a few seconds and I saw from Hajung's eyes, there was a very deep longing for me after a long time of not meeting
"Anio*(no)" I said firmly
"Your cheek?" Ask hajung again
"Anio*(no)" I said firmly again
Hajung closed his eyes as I said "no" a sign that he was disappointed with my answer
"But you can hold me" I said with a smile
When Hajung heard my words, he immediately hugged me tightly
He even rubbed my head slowly with his hands and I thought hajung was stealing to kiss my hair instead because I did not allow him to kiss my lips nor my cheeks
"Do you have a show tonight?" Ask hajung
"I have to finish my job" I said
"Forget your job for a while, kim hye jin" said Hajung, who held back his annoyance at me
"Hemmm..I'll think about it, but I don't think I can, tomorrow's deadline" I teased Hajung.
"You remain unchanged, hye jin" hajung said
"You're still cold to me" Hajung continued
"And you haven't changed sung hajung either" I replied
"You're still easily provoked by emotions" I said
Hajung began to sound breathing omens to hold his feelings for me
"Haha...I'm just kidding" I said grimly
"Well, because you are not much different from me, tonight I will take my time for you" I said to Hajung.
"Thank God you can understand, kim hye jin" said Hajung
"Oh, by the way, how did you manage to chase me to the front door of the cafe?" I asked hajung
It was as if Hajung was forgetting something when I asked him the question earlier
"Ohh...****! I forget it" said hajung beraki
"Kim hye jin, trim your things and come with me" hajung pinta
I was confused to see Hajung's attitude immediately tidied up my things, while hajung helped me carry my laptop and tote bag containing thick books from the library to reference my duties
"Actually what did you bring hye jin? Did you add the stones to your bag?" Hajung protest
"I am sorry, I need more references for my paper" I said
Hajung took my hand and led me to go with him.
For a while hajung went to the cashier table to pay for the coffee bill we ordered, but I stopped him and took out my member card and cut it off from the card balance of this cafe member
"Are you part-time at this cafe, hye jin?" Ask hajung
"You mean?" Ask me for wonder
"You shouldn't have to pay that coffee bill, let me...."
"Sorry sir, the hye jin you know today is not as poor as you know before" I said protest cutting hajung speech.
Hajung frowned as if asking where I got the money from
"Of course from someone who is responsible to me, I get pocket money every month from him for an amount that exceeds enough words" I explained to Hajung
"Are you still in touch with him?" Ask hajung curiously
"Actually no" I said briefly
"He only fulfilled his promise when he met me in my hometown, I asked him to fund all my needs until I graduated college"
"After that, he will stop sending me money every month and I will leave the apartment where I live now and find a job to finance my own life" I explained to Hajung
"Ohhh... Kim hye jin actually what agreement did you make with her?" Ask hajung
"Hemm..lumayan a lot I feel, which obviously I do not want to meet him face to face again" I explained to hajung.
"You can tell me later, but I'm sorry can you walk quickly hye jin?" Hajung pinta
"Sorry to trouble you" Hajung said again
"Can you explain why you're in such a hurry?" Ask me to wonder
"i left my house butler and my personal driver in a car with heavy traffic" Hajung said
"i'm sure, he must have burned his beard in a panic like the other day" hajung said
"what?!"shanky
"why did you make her worry like that? stop making people around you worry" I warned Hajung
"Haah.this happened because lately I often see your figure around this road"
"Several times I've pursued a figure similar to you but I've always lost track of you"
"I think I'm having hallucinations because I'm too tired to work and I miss you so much that my subconscious always sees you from the car" Hajung said honestly
"I always open the car door suddenly every time I see you"
"luckily when I opened the car all of a sudden, the road was in a state of traffic jam so as not to harm myself"
"But my personal driver must have been desperately looking for me to contact my family's security chief to ask for help in finding my whereabouts" Hajung explained
"Oh my goodness, sung hajung, how could you possibly be that close?" Ask me for wonder
"Because I am sure to see you, hye jin" cried hajung
"Therefore I pursue someone similar to you to make sure that it is true you"
"And it turns out that my guess is right, the person I see is really you" Hajung said
"Again, why is your path so fast for a woman, hye jin?" Hajung protest
"I'm sorry it's my habit of requiring everything at speed" I said
"You are not a superhero 'flash' that can run as fast as lightning" said Hajung who likes to discuss about super heroes in the film
"Walk like a woman, hye jin. After all you're not working at a fast food restaurant that demands you do things quickly" hajung protested
"Alright sir, I will try" I said tempting hajung
Hajung and I entered the highway that looks dense creeping
A couple of cars clawed at both of us who just walked around without going over the zebra cross
Until I got to a jet-black luxury sedan, Hajung knocked on the car and opened the car door and asked me to get into it
I saw a middle-aged man in the driver's seat
"young master, why did you start doing things like that to me again? you know if you do a lot of reckless things opening the car door all of a sudden, my heart will stop beating because of worry" said Hajung's personal driver
"look at bruce's butler, I'm not crazy" said hajung sumringah
"i don't have hallucinations, I did see the figure of the woman I've been looking for" Hajung said again
"hye Jin introduce, he is my personal driver and the butler of my house, Bruce Pennyworth" Hajung said
"G-good evening mr. "my bribe to bruce's butler
there was a surprised expression on his face when he saw me through the rearview mirror in the car
"you're right, young master, I think you're just having hallucinations because you haven't taken tranquilizers in a long time" said Bruce's butler
"No! I told you I don't need that sedative anymore because I'm cured"
"and you know who made me recover and decided to pursue therapy?'" ask Hajung who gave the question to his butler
"this girl is bruce's head, she is my guide who has led me out of my dark path of life" hajung said with a beaming face
"have stopped hajung" said I who felt ashamed because I heard excessive hajung speech in my opinion
"ahh..so you are the young master's heart idol who is always talked about?" ask the butler bruce
"i've never seen you in person, only heard a handful of people say your face is very similar to the young master's cousin, miss sung deok mi" said the butler
"and now that I see it with my own eyes, you are really very similar.I guess you are miss sung deok mi, but after looking at you carefully, I think you are, you are a different person" he said again
"forgive me for surprising you" I said
soon the ringing sound of the cell phone rang from the pocket of Bruce's butler's pants, he quickly began to pick up the phone call
"secretary min, forgive me for being late to bring the young master to an important meeting with the investors of the company, there is a little obstacle to making the young master hajung late to the meeting"said the middle-aged man who was behind me
"yyaa*(hey) do you have an important meeting now, hajung?"whispered
"right, I have to attend an important meeting this afternoon to discuss a new project" Hajung said
"then why did you just talk to me casually in the cafe earlier if you have an important schedule?'ask me for wonder
"i told you, I saw someone similar to you and I rushed after him and it was you" Hajung said
"can't you tell me what's important or not? those investors are waiting for you right now.what if the company's project fails because they can't wait for your presence in the meeting?"I warned hajung
"there is nothing more important than you, hye jin" Hajung told me
somehow Hajung always said something like this.is it because he almost got shot dead at that time and his nature turned into spoiled like this to me? I feel bad for Hajung employees who have to experience difficulties because of the careless nature of their employers
hajung stuck with me all the time while we were in the car, she always held my hand until the moment the strands of my hair hit one of my eyes and made it hard to open my eyes, I have to let him tell me what I want to do
"hajung-ssi can you let go of your hand? my hair covered one of my eyes, I wanted to get rid of it and slip my hair behind my ears" I told Hajung
"odiga?*(where?) let me just slip your hair behind your ears" said Hajung and made my patience run out and irritated
"yeah!!*(Hey!!) did you eat wrong hhuh?! stop clutching my hands together, I have trouble doing something" I shouted to the surprise of Hajung and the driver
"i'm not your prisoner and I'm not going anywhere as long as the car is driving" I continued
"stop overdoing it, I won't go missing suddenly from before you like a witch teleporting" I said excitedly
"mi-mian*(sorry) hye jin I piss you off" said hajung feeling guilty
"shift a little, since I was squeezed between the car door and your body" I protested
"alright" said Hajung and began to let go of his grasp and shift slightly away from me
for a moment the atmosphere in the car became quiet after I shouted at Hajung
"hye-hye jin-ssi"call hajung slowly
"mwos?*(what?)"I said a little bit sniffly
"would you have dinner with me right now that I've finished my meeting with the investors?'ask hajung
"because I promised you to take my time tonight when we talked at the cafe, I will accept your invitation" I told Hajung
there was a happy smile from Hajung when I received a dinner invitation from him
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as Hajung said, I waited for him who was meeting in the hotel lobby, with the hajung meeting, I could do my college paper assignments collected tomorrow morning
I saw the time show at 8 pm, my college work was done, but hajung was not finished with the meeting
I felt drowsiness after I finished doing my job, I just remembered, my coffee I had not spent this afternoon when I talked to Hajung
haahh..sadly coffee earlier.I have not at all sipped it but I have left the coffee on the table, I should have asked barista cafe there to wrap it up
it's all because of hajung! I don't care anyway tonight I want to ask him to buy me the food I like
after a few minutes I said that, my eyes felt heavy and I decided to close my eyes briefly on this very comfortable sofa until I finished the meeting
I wouldn't have expected, I would have done something careless again the second time to sleep in a public place, but this time I fell asleep in the hotel lobby
I don't know how long I've been asleep until I feel the gentle touch of my hand on my forehead with a scar that will never disappear forever
ever since I had a cut from a brutal fork prick by one of the female inmates on my forehead, I began to feel that area to be a sensitive area that was on my face
I slowly opened my eyes and saw Hajung smiling right next to me
"hey sleepyhead*(sleepers) did you dream of me just now?"ask hajung teasing me
I smiled at hajung
"i dreamt that you brought a lot of pocksticks and then we ate them together" I told Hajung
"is that a code for our dinner plans today?" ask hajung to me
"if you also agree to want odeng, I think we can find a Korean restaurant for dinner tonight" I told hajung
"actually I wanna romantic dinner on fancy restaurant only with you but." said Hajung interrupted.
"i think this simple desire to eat made me change my mind" Hajung continued
"so. do you want eat odeng for dinner?" ask me to make sure hajung
"whatever the food is as long as I can be with you, I will approve" Hajung said
"ok sir! let's go!!"seruku pulled hajung's arm
hajung and I went to a simple Korean food restaurant and ordered the food as I wanted
we really enjoyed the dinner tonight, as if forgetting our dark past and only the beautiful days we passed
hajung told me funny things in her office and the silly behavior of her employees when caught off guard talking about her as the new CEO
hajung recounts that she was hesitated by some of her employees and shareholders to become the new CEO of her company, but over time, she was left with a doubt, hajung was able to prove herself very competent and reverse the humiliation of the conspirators who had doubted her
looks satisfaction from the facial expression hajung when he was telling a story, sometimes I praise him like a child who just got good grades in the lesson. Instead of being offended, hajung actually likes it
it was almost past midnight and a waiter asked us to pay the food bill because the restaurant was about to close
after paying the food bill, Hajung drove me to the apartment where I lived until at the door of my apartment
"hye jin-ssi"call hajung just before I go inside
"can you take your time every day for the two of us like tonight?"pinta hajung to me
"i don't mind taking my time with you, but." I said disconnected.
"i doubt if you have any free time or not because you're now a CEO who is very much relied upon by the company" I told Hajung
"i will try to spare my time for you, kim hye jin" hajung said
"because you are my priority beyond anything" Hajung said confidently
"i hope your free time for me does not interfere with your activities, hajung" I said
"you know you have a big project right now for your company, I don't want to be a hindrance to your success as CEO" I said
"you have to remember your hardest times to get to this position, and I know being a good CEO for your company was your goal a long time ago"
"i hope that once you reach your ideals now, you will be able to defend them" I told Hajung
"araseo*(i understand) kim hye jin, what are you telling me" hajung said
"i hope you also remember my words that almost cost me my life to protect my loved ones" Hajung said
"if I survive death, I want us to live together happily ever after, hye jin" hajung said
"even though my environment changed, but my love for you remains the same, not fading at all" Hajung said
"therefore, I will not give up and will continue to be near you until your heart is open to receive me, kim hye jin"hajung said very optimistic to make my mind open to receive good treatment from him
maybe my mind says to accept hajung, but will my heart think the same thing as my current mind?
is my heart really able to accept the sincerity of Hajung heart or is my heart still not changed with my past choices?
however, I must not think of a man who continues in my heart despite my suffering
I cannot avoid that my little heart still keeps thinking about park seo jin. even though I tried to hate her many times, she said, but he still remained unchanged from the bottom of my heart as if seo jin had completely hidden the key of my heart and kept it in the deepest part that I could not find
I had to give Hajung a chance, he sacrificed so much for me, and his words remained consistent with his attitude towards me
maybe by being on the side every day, I can forget the name of the man who made my life change 180 degrees
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