Bound of Lies

Open Your Eyes... Bastard !

How can I be-lie-ve...

If in the middle of believe was a lie

-renata

Renata Pov's

The time had already shown at 19:27 when I reached my hotel room. After returning from the woman's house, Lea.. I still don't say her name even though she's gone. I went to the hospital to see Fabian's condition.

His eyes were still closed, his lips pale and drying. There is compassion, there is disappointment and there is longing.

Yes homesickness...

I can't deny I miss him. Call me a stupid woman because I still have feelings for her.

"I go home first Fabian, tomorrow I come again." I held her cold hand.

"Hold on."

"Celia misses you so much."

Whisper me in Fabian's ear before I step foot to leave him.

I put Lea's diary on the nightstand next to my bed. It takes a lot of courage to read it again but I will.

Remember the 3 mobile phones that Hendrik gave. I'll search in my bag soon.

2 Pieces of mobile phone can be turned on 1 piece of black color phone that does not belong to anyone running out of power. Soon I put a charger after that I stay to clean myself.

Soaking in warm water is my choice tonight. Hope all the burdens of the heart can decay with water. I laughed at myself because it couldn't happen.

I closed my eyes to the past, what was wrong with me so Fabian shared his heart.

I immediately made a video call to Celia after I put on my sleeping pajamas.

It took me a while until the pretty face I missed appeared on the screen.

"Hi mommy I miss you.

"Miss you more princess".

"Where at school ?".

"Hmmm, that's mommy."

"Nothing special."

"Celia kangen mom and dad."

Sutely answered.

"Prophey dear, after daddy woke up later returned to Jakarta."

"Makanya pray daddy get up fast."

It looks like Celia is nodding her head.

"What gift would you like if mommy came home ?"

"Celia wants a cat." He said excitedly. I can only laugh.

"Okay it's time to sleep, good night sweety."

"Good night's mom."

And then the funny face disappeared from the screen.

Taking a deep breath, I prepared myself to open the book again.

"Give me the strength, Lord."

"You can definitely Renata" I said to strengthen myself.

I slowly opened the black and white diary.

Seen from the date this page was written about 6 years ago.

The first one: Finally Fabian married Renata, the woman he had known for a few months. I should have been accompanying him. Although Fabian said that he only loved me. but I can be jealous right ?.

Next page: Fabian finally returns after her wedding. Fabian is still like before. Still love me. Forgive me for doubting you too much.

Other heralds: the woman is pregnant, Fabian's wife is pregnant.. Broken my heart, I cried I wanted nothing but to cry. Oh God take my life.

Other: Fabian came after I went to the hospital. He said sorry many times. There's no way Fabian didn't touch his wife that would make all his family suspicious and this Fabian did to hide my whereabouts. With a heavy heart I must trust Fabian.

Tears started to flow down my cheeks. The chest feels so tight.

I opened another sheet randomly with trembling hands

Other: Fabian is getting harder to contact. You know Fabian... I'm kangen.

Other: Fabian gives new numbers to freely exchange news. Fabian said this number was for me. Fabian, thank you for understanding. I love you more and more.

Other: Fabian is very possessive and considerate of his wife. Of course I was jealous, I yelled at Fabian cursing at him. And of course I know because every time Fabian spends with that woman. I hate you Fabian.

My heart is like being sliced open. The bedcover. To channel my pain.

Other: Fabian has a daughter. Seemed a happy twinkle in his eyes when he told a story. Can I feel jealous ?.

Other pages: Today I went shopping for all Fabian needs. Clothes, shoes, perfume and even toiletries. Go home Fabian.. Your real home is here.

That's enough. I can't take it anymore. I cried roaring. I threw the diary in any direction.

Now 3 cell phones are my concern. My Fabian phone first opened there was a picture of me and Celia being wallpaper. Basic cheater. It's only fair that Fabian would always use his cell phone anywhere because he had another phone to cheat on. You crocodile man slap my tease in the heart.

This rosegold's phone must have belonged to Lea. There is a password to open it. I tried my luck by typing Fabian's date of birth and ringgo ! Can open.

The first thing I saw was a message list. The first list says the name "Mon Amor" (meaning "my love" in French). Of course the name for that bastard was Fabian. I don't want to read the message. Reading the diary has ruined me.

The photo gallery is filled with photos of Fabian and Lea. Had enough... I can't take it anymore, I put the phone back.

The other black phones can be switched on. There is also a password to open it. I tried my luck typing Fabian's birthday but failed.

I'm looking for the woman's identity card, and I'm trying to get her birthday in but I still can't.

Think hard about what the password is. I tried to enter my birthday date and click can open.

Damn Fabian used my date of birth to seal the ulcer.

"Fucking fucking shit". I'm yelling.

Only one contact there is Lea.

The gallery is empty. Cih is not interesting. I threw the phone against the wall until it slipped off the charger.

I sat down to hug my knees. Crying sucked. Reviewing what I've all read.

Lea first had Fabian's heart.

I am the other woman in their life.

My marriage to Fabian wasn't the bond of love I thought I had been.

It turns out I'm just tied to a lie.

Fabian's lie to hide another's love.

All this time all the attention and possessiveness of Fabian was just a mask. All fake.

God, why am I so stupid to be lulled in Fabian's love. I was lulled by all his sweet attitude which turned out to be just a lie.

***

I woke up when the sunshine greeted me. I didn't realize I was asleep on the floor.

Maybe because I was too tired to cry.

I stood up and set my feet to the toilet to wash my face.

I saw my reflection in the mirror. The face is red and the eyes are crying too much.

Enough is enough, Renata. Your tears are too precious for a bastard like Fabian. I said in my heart.

***

Now I was in the room where Fabian lay with his eyes closed. I really hate seeing Fabian.

"Arise Fabian.."

"Open your eyes."

"You owe me an explanation, asshole".  My whisper was right in Fabian's ear.

TBC..

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