Bound of Lies

Accede

A lie committed, whatever the reason may not be justified.

- Renata -

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"Okay baby, let's think and introspect each other. Although it is clear in this matter that I am very guilty," said Fabian regretfully.

"I'm sorry for all my lies, honey.."

Lirih Fabian with his head down dyed the back of Renata's hand that had been soaked by her tears.

That night Fabian leaves Renata for a temporary stay in his old apartment. Although heavy, Fabian must accept Renata's decision to think with each other.

Renata felt empty, not expecting Fabian to hide such a big thing. Although the reasons Fabian gave along with the evidence did not make him completely guilty but hiding a lie could not be justified.

Renata understands the human side of Fabian doing that. Fabian can't leave a woman who's getting "sick" because of her actions.

Renata spent the night pondering and thinking.

Ask God to give way.

On the one hand he felt very disappointed and whatever a lie was the reason could not be justified.

On the other hand, can not Renata concluded Celia will really need her father.

Then what about his feelings for Fabian ? Fabian was her first love. The first man in his life. Lying when he says he doesn't love her. But the lie Fabian did was too disappointing.

***

Time was going so slow for Renata.

Celia has returned home but Fabian is still living in the apartment.

Renata tells Celia that her daddy is on an official trip so she can't stay home.

Only Saturday and Sunday Fabian met Celia. It was by picking up Celia and then bringing Celia to her parents' house. They spent the weekend without Renata. With Renata's excuse there was an old office reunion or some other reason for Fabian's parents not to be suspicious. Or Fabian invites Celia to stay at his apartment.

It went for almost 1 month.

That Saturday morning Fabian came to pick up Celia as he has done so often.

It just so happened that Renata was cooking fried rice in her kitchen.

"Ah sorry it seems I came to part ", said Fabian while scratching his back neck that did not feel itchy.

It was so awkward to meet the woman that Fabian missed so much.

If possible, Fabian wanted to take Renata in his arms and reward him with a heady sweet kiss.

But as much as possible to resist the desire because Fabian did not want to do back the actions that he regretted.

"Sit Bi, come have breakfast," Renata asked sincerely.

Fabian also sat his body in the chair next to Celia who was coolly stirring her milk in a glass with the image of Rainbow Dash one of the characters of her pony paporit.

"Why don't we ever spend more time with Mommy, Dad ?" Celia asked without taking her eyes off her milk glass.

Both Fabian and Renata felt an ache in their hearts when getting such a question.

Fabian cleared his throat to neutralize his voice before answering Celia's question.

"Because mommy and daddy have different activities. But one thing is for sure, we love you so much Princess hasn't changed a bit" replied Fabian trying to give her best explanation while stroking the darling of the top of her son's head.

Renata felt sadness in his heart. Celia can feel the distance between her parents.

Seeing the situation so mellow finally Fabian chose to take Celia away.

"Let's love today we'll go swimming then we'll see a lot of fish in the princess's favorite giant aquarium" Fabian said.

"Can mommy come ? Celia likes to see mommy crying alone, maybe mommy wants to come too," asked Celia innocently.

Guilt again gnawed at his painful heart.

"Emmm of course if mommy comes along will be more fun," replied Fabian with an awkward smile.

"Let's mommy come along this time," Celia begged Renata.

It was heartless to see Celia pleading like that Renata finally decided to come along.

Now the three of them were in Fabian's car. Celia sat in front while Renata was in the back seat. Several times Fabian stole a glance at his wife through the rearview mirror above her. Fabian can't lie, he misses Renata.

Aware of feeling himself being noticed, Renata cast a glance out the window looking at the path he was walking through.

It used to be when they went three like this the atmosphere of the car would feel crowded not awkward and lonely like now.  Celia will sing and Fabian will occasionally ask to be fed the supplies that Renata has prepared.

Renata again dripped clear water on his cheek and all that did not escape the sight of Fabian's eyes.

"It turns out Renata was so tormented, that's,"

Fabian let out a sigh that felt very heavy, and this reality was so inherent in Fabian's mind. The fact that Renata suffered so much because of the lies he committed.

Before long they reached their destination.  Celia and Fabian prepare to swim while Renata sits in a picnic area with various supplies.

Can be seen from the look of Celia's face that looks more cheerful and shining than before. Of course Celia is happy because her parents can spend time together again. Although Celia does not know that her mommy and daddy are in an inner battle.

Various water rides have been Celia and Fabian enjoy, the boy and dad occasionally laughs off enjoying their time together. They returned after their stomachs were hungry.

Various supplies have been prepared Renata and they also enjoy the lunch.

"Now mommy and daddy talk a little," said Celia with her eyes back.

"Eem is because it's not good to eat too much talk" Fabian replied quickly. 

"It's a pity quickly finish your food and mommy will bathe. Celia wants to see the fish, doesn't she ?" Renata.

Celia finished her food in silence. Makes Fabian and Renata even more pain-resistant in the chest to see their child like this.

***

They returned home after the sky turned dark. Celia had already fallen asleep in Renata's lap. Fortunately before returning home, they first enjoyed dinner together.

"I was going to take Celia to stay at my place, but seeing her fall asleep like this I couldn't bear. I'll be back tomorrow. Here I help carry Celia to her room," Fabian said as he took over Celia from Renata's hands.

Bi Sumi welcomed their arrival and was about to take over Celia but Fabian refused her.

Fabian put Celia to sleep in her room and kissed the little girl on the forehead before leaving. "I'm sorry daddy baby, forgive daddy if it will hurt your heart and your feelings. You're a smart kid, daddy's sure you'll understand" Fabian whispered in Celia's ear. Then stand up and put his foot out.

"May we talk ?" Fabian asked as Renata was about to go into his room to put down his bag.

"Oh yes of course" replied Renata.

Now they were sitting face to face in the kitchen chair with a cup of coffee in front of Fabian.

Fabian's aches and pains felt simultaneously in his heart before he started the conversation.

"Re, is it true Celia said that you cry a lot ?"

"A. I didn't mean to cry in front of Celia, mung. maybe she accidentally saw me crying," Renata replied stammered.

"Are you crying because of me ?" Fabian asked in a soft voice.

Renata did not answer and it made Fabian understand that it was her that made Renata cry.

"If you're suffering because of me Renata" Fabian said with a heavy sigh.

"Then I will grant your request to part from me, I will release your bond to me" Fabian spoke again between his sobs.

TBC......

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