Bound of Lies

S2: Move On Is Not That Easy

Happy reading & ''Double

I'm not gonna fall in love again.

- Fabian

Renata POVs

It's been 3 months since my breakup with Fabian. Now I live in a house that is not as luxurious as the previous house and is located not far from where I work as an accountant. The house Fabian had provided for me and Celia. Even Fabian provided us with a car.

Bi sumi and Mbak Wulan babysitter Celia also come to live with me. Fabian is back in his apartment. Our house which was once only occupied by a new domestic assistant and occasionally Fabian checked her there.

I dare not set foot there. The house was full of sweet memories until a great storm hit our household.

Ever asked Fabian what it's best to sell ?but it seems we both heavy to just release the memories that exist, although unspoken but we both feel unwilling to let go.

Fabian will come to pick up Celia at the weekend to stay with her never once did she miss it. I also gave Fabian complete freedom to meet his son. Because Fabian has every right to do that.

Oh yes Fabian also still gives a monthly money that he did not reduce the amount even though we have separated.

How would I feel if I met Fabian ? I still feel that shit. Every heart met him. It turns out trying to move on is not that easy. I often feel lonely in his absence.

Farewell turned out to be this sick.

There is no separation that leaves no wounds.

This is my first day working as a financial officer at a construction company.

Having not worked for years makes me a little nervous.

Oh right, after Jamie found out about my breakup with Fabian. Jamie started calling me again. Although just exchanging news through messages but only limited to that no more.

I also haven't been able to step foot into a new relationship. Not yet because the shadow of Fabian is still in the heart. Only time can eliminate them.

"Morning Princess mommy's. Let's eat first," I said to Celia who had been sitting sweetly in the kitchen in her Kindergarten uniform. Every morning I always provide breakfast and provisions for him.

"Honey, today's the first day mommy went back to work. Wulan will pick up Celia. Mommy will be home in the afternoon so Celia is well at home with mum Wulan and aunt Sumi yes," I told Celia.

"Okay Mom," Celia replied as she stuffed the bread that had been smeared with chocolate jam into her mouth.

I'm really lucky to have a kid as sweet as Celia. Not fussy not much demanding also always obey what I say. I kissed the top of Celia's fragrant strawberry head out of her hair.

Ting tong's... The doorbell rings.

"Who comes this early in the morning" I asked in my heart.

BI Sumi had walked towards the door but I stopped.

"Let me be bi. Please clear the provisions for Celia alone," I told Bi Sumi.

"With Renata Oktalia's mother ?" Ask a courier with a bouquet of white roses in his hand, as soon as I open the door.

"Hemm yes, I am Renata myself" I said.

"There's a flower delivery for mom, please sign the receipt" said the courier, giving me a piece of paper to sign. Then he handed me the bouquet.

Very fragrant and beautiful. White roses are my favorite flower. There's a card in it

"Wish you best of luck on your first day"

(Good luck on your first day)

I read the card without the sender's name.

One name crossed my mind "Fabian," I whispered softly.

Shortly heard the sound of incoming message notification from the phone in my work pants pocket.

Jamie's name is there

Jamie: good luck on your first day at work:)

Ah... Is it Jamie who sent me flowers ?

Renata: thank you, thank you for the flowers I like.

Jamie: flowers ? Thank goodness you like :)

Renata: I really like it. Thanks though. Have a great day Jamie.

Jamie : you too.

And our chat message ended. It used to be Fabian who always paid attention to me, but now someone else is doing it. There's a little weird feeling I feel in my heart.

In another corner of my heart I wish Fabian had done it.

Am I still in your memory, Bi ?

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Fabian POV's

It's been 3 months since I separated from the woman I love the most. Because I lied to him myself. I have never been through a day without regret.

I still love him, I miss him as much as I ever did. Trying to move on is not easy. Renata do you feel the same way as me ?

Today is his first day at work, worry, fear haunts me. Afraid that he might meet another man who would replace me.

Look at Renata yet nothing I've been jealous.

And I'm so jealous to see you happy without me.

But I always pray that you are always happy.

Even in the deepest corner of my heart I still wish you would come back.

The new title that people gave me especially the women in my office was "Cool Widow" making me nauseous every time I heard her.

Many times I see the gazes of women who see me full of puja, full of cravings. Not that I'm big head but it's like that. The women glanced at me and looked at me with their hungry gazes. Honestly, it makes me shudder in horror instead of being tempted.

Do you know the women ? I'd rather be tied up in marriage to a woman I love so much than like this. I prefer to call my husband or daddy.

Do you know ? I've decided not to fall in love again.

I don't want to start a new love story.

I don't want to give my heart to another woman.

I don't want to touch, hug, kiss another woman.

I'm reluctant to mention the name of another woman full of cravings from these lips.

Yep... I don't want to fall in love anymore.

Because my world keeps turning but my heart doesn't.  My heart cannot turn away from a woman who is always there. Renate...

"How pathetic I am" I said. Yes, I am very sad.

"Had Renata worked across my office again maybe I'd go back to chasing her" I murmured

"Oh my God, can I go after him again?"

Tok to tok. The sound of knocking on the door roused me from the daydream.

"Come in" I said

There came a beautiful young girl with fashionable makeup and natural makeup.

"Good morning sir, introduce me Sarah who will be the new secretary of the father because Indri's mother the previous secretary of the father has taken maternity leave" he said politely.

Yes all this time I have a secretary named Indri who has worked for me for a long time besides my assistant Hendrik. Usually Indri takes care of things that smell of administration and Hendrik part of the field.

"Oh okay Sarah. Hope we can work well together. Has Indri explained all the job desks you have to do ?"

"Already Sir, actually it has been two weeks back I worked with Indri's mother before she carried out her leave. But it seems like you are not paying attention to my whereabouts," he said with courtesy.

Suddenly I felt guilty, yes my world was turned upside down because of love affairs more precisely because of heartbreak. So that I don't really care about the problems around me.

"Oh I'm sorry, Sarah. I lack focus on the end of this," I said feeling sorry.

"It's okay sir, I understand the busyness of the Father," he said with a smile that I could hardly describe.

" Well Sarah, please explain my activities today anything,"

Sarah explains my schedule today in detail but my thoughts have drifted again on her whom I have always longed for.  Renate...

Do you still think of me, Re ?

TBC...

Want to release Visual from yesterday forgot mulu wkwkkwkwkwkw.

visual author version yes. if less pleasing please use your own imagination.

Fabian Nugraha's

Renata Octalia

Doctor Jamie

Sarah