Bound of Lies

KS: Heart Limit

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"What do you mean, Ki?" Ask Sakti with a chaotic feeling.

"The woman who will be your companion someday will definitely be very happy. But unfortunately that woman is not me" Kirana replied without releasing her hand from Sakti's face.

"What do you mean, Ki? Whatchu mean?" Sakti repeatedly asked, her voice trembling holding something inside her.

His eyes began to condense, clear water was ready to fall down his cheeks.

"May you get a woman who loves you more than I do, look for a good woman because she will later become the mother of our two children as well. Love him, and treat him well." Kirana continued to look into her husband's eyes.

"No need to ! I don't want to ! I don't want anything else ! I just want you. I'm begging... I love you, I love you so much" Sakti pleaded with both hands.

"Look sweetheart... You bought Celia a lot of gifts. More than usual. Maybe you're cravings, you could be pregnant with my son right now, our daughter," said Sakti who looks so frustrated, trying to find any way so that Kirana does not leave him.

"I'm not pregnant..." Answer Kirana calmly.

"I just finished getting my monthly guests. So you don't think too far." Further again.

"Tell me what to do? Do I have to bow at your feet? I'll do it if you don't leave me." Clear water began to wet the cheeks Sakti.

Kirana...

"Yesterday afternoon, you still trim my tie Ki. Is that his name? Whatdoes thatmean? Doesn't that mean you still care about me?" Tanya Sakti.

"Do you? All this time I was so scared to meet you. What I did yesterday was just to make sure to myself that I could deal with you, that I would be fine. Don't run anymore to dodge you, and I can... So please don't mean anything else" explained Kirana.

"Why don't you give me a chance Ki? We've been together for 10 years... If not for me, at least hold on for our children." Sakti Lirih.

"Are you thinking that too? Do you think about our 10 years together when you hanker and curse me with the name jal*ng every time you touch me by force? and leave me alone after you're satisfied. Until I ever wished that I could be your prostitute, so that I could serve you without involving my heart and feelings. So I don't feel hurt when you put me down. 10 years we were together but suddenly you felt foreign to me" Kirana said with a voice trembling with tears and her two hands hugging herself showed her fear.

"Do you think of your children when you have an affair and make out with your lover? Sharing a kiss with your hand that puts a touch over every inch of her body? Surely not, right? Have you ever thought about how sick I am with your two children?" Kirana asked between her cries.

Sakti was speechless.

"10 years together. Can't you trust me just a little bit? So that you would rather hurt me and satisfy your lust harshly just to punish me. Just so that you feel satisfied, so that you feel better because you think a traitor like me deserves it," Kirana continued her remark with a sick smile adorning her face.

"You never know how many times I woke up in the middle of the night with cold sweat drenching the body when the nightmare came. Dream about you cursing and forcing me to serve you like a prostitute*r not as a wife.

"I'm sorry... Sorry me..." Shade Sakti with a vibrating sound.

"There are women who repeatedly hurt but still survive because they have loved until they are unconscious. There are also those who try to survive after being hurt several times but in the end choose to leave because their hearts can not stand it anymore. There are also those who were first hurt but have chosen to leave, because the pain he felt was extraordinary. That is the limit of the heart... Everyone has their own limits."

Sakti lowered her head unable to say anything to Kirana.

"And I'm that guy... The one who immediately chooses to leave... Since I know the limits of my own heart, I know my own ability in dealing with this. I am not a woman who will stay with a man who makes her sick and cry. I know, if I chose to stay but the shadow of you hurting me would always haunt me and in the end it would destroy both of us. Surely the children will suffer more when that happens." Kirana.

"So I beg you... Let go of me.." Kirana pleaded.

"Can't Ki... I wouldn't be able to... I beg you to forgive me." said Sakti Lirih while carrying Kirana's frail body in her arms.

Sakti was so sorry to have incised a wound that was too deep for his wife. So he thought it appropriate if Kirana left him, but on the other hand Sakti also realized he would not be able to live without his wife. He just wanted to fall to the bottom of the earth and never get up again.

Kirana's shoulders up and down meant that she was crying loudly in her husband's arms.

Sakti hugged Kirana tightly as if he did not want to release the woman who was hurt by heart and soul because of her depraved actions. With tears streaming down, Sakti gives a lot of kisses on Kirana's head. He raised Kirana's chin slowly, kissed her all over her face, and continued to say an unrelenting apology.

"Punish me... Forgive me dear... I beg..." Sakti Lirih.

"I love you... Love you so much Kirana ... I can't without you... Please don't leave me" he said again. His body shook violently, Sakti was so frightened at this moment. Fear of losing the woman he loved so much.

Kirana closed her eyes as Sakti said that, her mind drifting. If only her heart had not been broken, this declaration of love would have been the most beautiful thing in her life.

But....

Look now... Sakti's statement of love is no longer meaningful and even makes him feel more hurt.

"I can't... I can no longer live with you... My heart can no longer... Please understand...." Kirana said as she opened her eyes and looked at the man who was holding her tightly.

"We'd better split up..." Kirana said again and began to outline her husband's embrace.

To be continued...

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