Bound of Lies

Bound of Lies

Happy Reading & ''Double 'DREAM

I've been taking care of Lea for over a year, and Lea's attitude has become more possessive and obsessed with me.  Although it has undergone treatment and therapy, but the symptoms of the symptoms still appear. Lea and her own world filled with me. And me ? I still can't love Lea even if I try.

Liver problems... If only the heart could be reserved for whom. Then I'll let my heart go in full love for Leah, not for Renata.

A renata? Yep... Let's say I'm the weakest and stupidest man to still love him, still looking at him from afar, still dreaming of him almost every night, still wanting him as my life companion. Love him as before or maybe more. I'm a very pathetic man.

It is not an easy thing to take care of Lea, has changed many times household assistants, also changed nurses because of Lea's unstable emotions. I even left Lea on local RT and security guards to check on Lea if I wasn't around.

Seeing the increasingly dependent Lea I finally decided to marry her. I tried to make peace with the circumstances and accept destiny.

My love for Renata will be forcibly dead without ever tasting her sweetness.

I brought Lea to my extended family including Sakti and her family present there.

Lea's appearance does not show someone who is "sick". Leah was like a normal girl. But when my parents asked about her personal Lea told me vividly and clearly her origins and also her work. Of course this makes my parents ride apitam can not accept. Lea who ignited emotions throwing everything near her made my parents so shocked by Lea's disrespectful behavior.of course this meeting failed miserably and only a strong rejection I got.

The incident made Lea increasingly uncontrolled esmosi. In the meantime, I have to live more in Bandung for a few months and this makes my brother Sakti misunderstand more. He thought I would prefer Lea and stay in Bandung compared to our family. I accepted it with a chest.

After Lea's condition improved I returned to Jakarta and indeed the demands of the job also required me to return. Although my relationship with Sakti is still cold it has not returned as usual.

I went back to my old habit of looking at Renata from afar. Until the opportunity came, Renata went to the coffee shop alone. Walking towards the booking table and swiftly I stood up from my seat, running small to catch up and standing next to him.

I knew what Renata was going to order so I ordered the same drink. That's where we started to get acquainted.

As I thought all along Renata was a fine woman. I tried to refrain from approaching her aggressively even though it felt like I wanted to always hold her up for fear of losing.

It seems like God still loves me, Renata accepted my declaration of love. I offer Renata with all the love and affection that I have had for 2 years. I treat her like a queen because she deserves it.

My heart, mind and day were filled with Renata so I forgot Lea a little. Even though I still see him.

Because the fear of loss is so great, I approach the Renata family even I ask for the blessing of his parents to establish a relationship with Renata. That's where there's a very terrible inner struggle.

On the one hand I want to be happy with the person I love, on the other hand I'm tied to a woman for a mistake. But at least I have done as much as possible for Lea, even asking her to marry as my sense of responsibility but again the destiny of God says otherwise.

One of the happiest things in my gloomy life, was when Renata received my proposal. How happy I was to bring Renata to my family and they accepted happily.

It's just one laden from Sakti that I have to cut off my relationship with Lea before marrying Renata.

I took it, when I actually didn't do it. I can't possibly leave Lea.

Another lie I did to my family.

In the end I married Renata, making her the queen of my life. What I dreamed of finally came true.

Yet.... Now 2 women are lying to me.

My lie to Renata... 

That there is another woman tied to me in the sacred bond of our marriage.

Although it is bound responsibly not because of marriage but still I have lied to Renata.

I am a coward who does not dare to express because in it there is my family who I also lie. I was so afraid of the condition of papi that would definitely be shocked and affect his health.

Keep pretending to love her, just so Lea feels better.

But after my marriage, Lea's condition worsened, several times Lea tried to commit suicide, until the honeymoon that I had to take instead accompanied Lea in the Emergency Installation.

It's like I have two lives. And this is very torturous.

Yep... This lie I'm doing is so excruciating.

Years have changed and I am still living these 2 lives. I've had the daughter of the woman I love and still take care of Lea as much as I can.

Because my married life made me stay away from Lea even more. Even Lea filled her room with objects related to me. Buy the clothes, shoes, and perfume I used to wear to make her feel my presence.

It's just that the last 2 years have been a little helped because of Lea's new psychiatrist, dr. Bima Sp.kj often took the time to do Lea psychiatric therapy at home. It seems that Lea is comfortable with it so little by little Lea does not depend on me. Leah, it's like having a new friend.

1 Month before the accident. There was once a private call on my other phone that was just a special Lea, because indeed I hid Lea as well as that from Renata.

The call said that Lea had been throwing up a lot of vomiting for a few days, I thought Lea had another panic attack, so I went to Bandung to see her condition.

When I came Leah was having vomiting that vomit so that it required me to take off my wife Renata's birthday gift watch and put her on the nightstand in Lea's room then immediately take Lea to hospital . At that time Lea was only diagnosed with fatigue due to lack of sleep.

But that continued until the next month when I celebrated my 6th wedding anniversary with Renata.

I haven't been to Lea in a month, because Lea has a new friend, the bima doctor.

However, I can't just let Lea go. By lying to Renata I went back to visit Lea in Bandung.

Arriving in Bandung I immediately took Lea to the hospital and thought that Lea should be cared for then I would take care of her and comfort the nurses and household assistants who used to work at home, because they deserve it. Which makes me wonder Lea was declared pregnant with a 10-week-old fetus.

Like a big rock smashing my chest is claustrophobic about receiving all this. I'm a jerk, but I'm not a demon who's gonna fuck or use a "sick" woman like Lea. I never married Lea, let alone fucked her. All I do is take care of it.

That afternoon after the hospital with the results of USG in Lea's bag. I started asking Lea what had happened

"Lea, please tell me who's the father of the baby in your womb ?" I asked full of search.

Lea just moved restlessly in her seat while I was driving.

I asked again but Lea was still a thousand languages silent until the panic attack came to her and with a single pull of Lea's hand took over my wheel and slammed it in the opposite direction so that our car hit the shoulder the road and hit a big tree. Not long ago, it was just darkness I felt.

TBC...

Many comment Fabian bego live enter Lea to RSJ.

Yuk brother2 readers who are kind to try to read2 can open Mbah Gugel to add insight Schizophrenia is not CRAZY. We can still live among us.

It can still heal, and not lose sanity but must take medicine for life.

The author knows ? Temen I his mother suffered this. It can still be ordinary communication just that his emotions are unstable. It was never shown in front of me.

How dear is the full RSJ if every sick like this must be inserted there 🤭🤭🤭

Thanks for reading... The long Fabian pov was finally finished as well

Thank you so much for reading patiently 😘😘