Between Love and Traditional Java

My Big Plan

A few months passed, but I still did not want to take it off. I don't know why this feeling is so fixated on him. Every day can only embroider a longing that is impossible to meet. Thinking we really can't be a couple anymore. Disappointingly. Sometimes I can only cry in silence. I just remember Danial on the sidelines of my work.

"Tomorrow morning we have a meeting, yes" my coordinator ended today's evaluation. The agenda for tomorrow is to discuss the exchange of a new place of duty. After sounding the jargon out loud, all packed up and rushed home.

I walked towards the balcony, after making sure the rolling door had been locked. Inhaling the wind deeply, feeling it infiltrate into my skin. Cool. Looking at the sky without stars. Like my mind can't get Danial out of there. Silent.

"Yung, you've been pendiem lately" Upil, who caught my behavior change, was worried.

"You don't want to tell me the same story?" Upil urged me to open up.

"I broke up with Danial," The real thing is that Upil knows, but he chooses to shut up.

"Patience is yung, if the soul mate is not where," Upil stroked my back.

"Classical, everyone says that too, just comfort words." I replied with a laugh. Upil felt sadness in every tone of my speech.

"Have you ever had a special person in your heart?" I asked Upil.

"There must be a yung, just after he left, life must go on," Upil turned to me.

"The "slowness of the signs of his existence would be erased by this silent life. Those beautiful distances and memories would fade, withering slowly. In the turn of time, we run around the circle, will he wait for you and come back to you, or will you be killed by your hope because he never intended to return. It's just your heart that can overcome yung.." Upil recalls his story first. When he too must be forced to stop loving someone. Forced to be hurt by circumstances.

"Will you keep glued to the past, or get out of your comfort zone and look to the future, think carefully.." Upil.

"You're right, Pil, however I want to force to be with him, it's impossible, hmm.." I smiled.

"Prophey yung, the lost must be replaced." Upil returned my smile.

"It feels like why my story always fails, why my love is always on the verge of misfortune," I looked away.

"It's not just you, I am too" Upil said.

"What's your story, yung, I always tell you the same story, only to realize that you never told me about your love," I was curious.

"hehe.. later if I'm married to tell you a story," Upil just smiled.

"Well, you have a plan to get married?" I grabbed his arm.

"Udah donk, time will be alone continues," Upil is sure.

"Dihh, what a pity, I was upset that it was getting married. huhh.." I pretended to sulk.

"Yes, I'm a matchmaker with my boyfriend's friend,"

"Haha loe I guess I'm merchandise to loe clearance," we laughed together.

"How good is Dawn?" I'm curious.

"Haha had become an idol in my eyes" Lutvi burst out.

"Well that's it, there's a saucy little pepet continues,"

"Haha looking at the handsome guy nourishes yung's eyes," Lutvi frowned.

And that night I was a little enlightened, because Upil always comforted me. We laugh together as if we have never been troubled.

***

During the meeting I was not able to concentrate fully, my mind was still divided. How's Danial now? Alone or already have a partner? What did he do when he was not with me? Will he go to the coffee shop every night? Not calling me as usual. Or will he hang out with his friends and look for scuffles? Ahh. It really sucks when I overthinking.

"Where, are you ready if you have to handle mukena and wholesale?" coordinator told me.

"Where?" call my coordinator again.

"Where?" my coordinator repeated the call. Upil who was sitting next to me nudged my arm.

"Ahh.yeah I am ready," I replied confidently, although I had not thought about the whole thing.

"Okay, then today's meeting is over, Dyana and Anas you should have a double duty because new personnel will come next month" my coordinator exclaimed.

After the meeting we had breakfast together. I helped hand out the rice boxes, while Anas distributed the mango juice. Anas and I besides got double duty but also became supervisors. Some seniors have resigned. Once we are full, we return to our new job with a new partner. We have a quick discussion and learn what to understand first. Given the stock spot and price code. It seems I have to concern myself again to forget about Danial.

I focus and work hard. Filled my brain with a price code that generally consisted of four letters. I rearranged the stock with the help of Rina. Until midday when the store was ready to open, I had prepared myself to battle with the customers.

When the afternoon break came, I immediately picked up my phone and rushed to the dormitory. I look at the stories of my friends. I scrool the screen to fill my gap. One of my friends' stories made me curious.

"No news for long?" I chatted my friend who used to be a partner at my workplace. We've rarely had news since he resigned that I don't know why. He was one of my closest friends too.

"I'm good, you? Still working at Blitar?" I asked shortly after my message was sent.

"Hmm. well, but again heartbroken," I was bored, confused about who I would like to tell about my feelings.

"I'm still in Blitar too, where are you?" reply again.

"I'm in Hong Kong" there's a reply with sad emoticons.

"Really's? I can't believe it," I was surprised.

"Yes, there is a family problem, so escape the calm," he replied again.

"The problem? What happen?" i wonder.

"All because of my sister and her husband, there is a point. And finally my mama's sick, I need a lot of money" I feel sorry for her.

"Btw, what's the heartbreak? break up again," My friend guessed, and it's true.

"Yes, I'm so confused right now." I replied to the message.

"Bikin busy yourself, are you here with me, hehe," asked my friend named Vienna.

"haha. can you?" I'm a little tempted.

"Can, rather than bewildered," He replied with a laughing emoticon.

"I want to go back to work first" I ended my conversation.

Throughout my work I was thinking, how about going abroad. Killing all the memories here, because every place and corner that my eyes see, there's only Danial in my shadow. This way I've got feelings for her, it's annoying, it hurts.

Suddenly I thought to my friend, he works in Brunei in the store too. Did I ask him, huh? I became curious and searched abroad for information.

"Am I going abroad?" I contemplated it.