Between Love and Traditional Java

Someone In Silence Time

Geara Pov, sir,

After breaking up with Danial, I dated Azam. At first Danial was still calling me. But I began to ignore because I did not want to always be haunted by feelings that are difficult to forget. I tried to turn around and open my heart to Azam.

Azam was one of my friends in high school. Many times he expressed feelings to me but I preferred Danial at that time. Finally the plan was just hope, Danial and I did not get the blessing of his parents.

Azam was always patiently waiting for me to love him, I also tried to give happiness to him. I decided to accept it. But it's hard to really take Danial off. I think Azam and I are only fit to be friends. As much as possible I set aside a place for Azam in my heart, at that moment I felt evil for lying to my feelings.

"I want us to break up," I decided Azam, from the beginning I had been mean to him, I did not want to drag on for long.

Azam is sincere with me, I am very grateful. I can't always take advantage of her feelings of giving up and understand more about myself.

"I'm sorry Zam," I cried in front of him.

"You're not wrong Ge, I forced you to love me" Azam was so kind, so kind that I felt ashamed of him.

"But Zam, it's all my fault, that taking advantage of your feelings, you come when I'm heartbroken, and you can slowly make me comfortable, but after a long time I think and feel, you come to me, we're only fit for office, I'm sorry I'm selfish," I looked down.

It hurts, saying hurtful words, to the person who has healed your pain before. I'm so stupid, hurting someone who's so sincere in love. As for Danial, I know he already has a replacement. But not forever can I keep pretending. Feelings differ in their flow with logic. The heart plays more of a role when it comes to love.

How can I let go of a person as pure as Azam, just for the sake of a long-remembered past. Only for the sake of the past that continues to loom. Only for the sake of him who might not have considered me there had even found the moorings of his heart.

Maybe it's my time alone, treating the gaping wound. For releasing a sincere man only for a dashed hope, yes, I am a fool, a fool. Already know me and Danial who certainly can not be together even try to turn around hoping for his heart back.

"Azam," I cried hugging him.

"Father Ge, if I can't hold your hand, remember I'm always behind you, I'll keep looking after you" I cried sobbing. Made of what Azam's heart was so soft. While I realized I was wasting it.

***

Flashback on, by,

"And, meet yuk," I missed him so much, it turned out that ignoring him couldn't make me forget about him.

"I'm in Bima Coffee now," a message from Danial rattled my phone. I didn't think he would return my message.

Danial, jealous of Dyana for seeing a photo, replies to Gea's message and fulfills her request to meet.

"I'm there now," without thinking, I'm planning to meet Danial. After changing clothes I gas my motor towards Bima. For about twenty minutes I had my bike in front of the store.

"You alone?" I found Danial sitting in the corner.

"Alone, I've met Andi, but she's dating her boyfriend," Danial is still as usual, friendly and friendly. He has not changed at all, behaving appropriately with anyone.

"You want what pesen?" Danial. The difference in the status of our relationship now, did not make Danial change his attitude towards me.

"Still like cappucino?" Danial asked again, I replied with a nod. Then he called the barista and ordered it.

"Why are you sure to meet?" Danial took a look at me I mean.

"I can't forget you," I'm honest with Danial about my feelings.

"You also know that I have a boyfriend" Danial said those words.

"I know, I heard you broke up with him, too" information I got from one of Danial's friends.

"I love him," Danial blatantly blasphemed my feelings.

"I broke up with Azam" I just told Danial.

"Ge, actually I don't want to let you go either, but because my parents had to hurt you, but with Dyana, I know my parents don't agree. But I want to fight for him. Maybe our story is like this at last." Danial took my hand. Making sure I feel that we're impossible to be together.

"You're still the person I once loved Ge, you're still the one who can calm me down, maybe I'm now again there's a little problem with Dyana, but that doesn't mean I'll come back to you" Danial is honest about his feelings.

I heard Danial's story carefully. Maybe this is my path of destiny. I can't be confused with the one I love. I don't regret taking Azam off either. Because maybe my heart is not yet fully ready for a new love.

"I'm happy that you can be happy and not with me." Classic is what I talk like. My heart and mouth are out of sync. When Danial was just thinking about Dyana.

"I went home first Dan," I said, at least I'm relieved to have expressed my true feelings.

"I'm anterine," Danial took the bill at the table and paid it at the cashier. I'm waiting for him in the parking lot. Danial came out while carrying brown plastic.

"For you," Danial thrust his plastic. I opened it up a little bit and looked at the contents, my favorite piece of strudel.

"I'm sorry yes, my heart is not for you anymore, "Danial is wearing his helmet. I smiled, I felt really sincere now to take it off.

Even though I have dropped my own pride. I'm proud to have loved her, someone who wasn't easily tempted and only retained one love.

Along the way I thought a lot, Danial followed me from behind. I occasionally looked at the rearview mirror, her calm face.

"Thank you for loving me in the past and." I sat down, entering the gate of my house. Danial stopped in front of my house. I parked the bike on the terrace and looked at him. He smiled soothingly. I returned his smile with sincerity. Then Danial turned the direction of the motor and returned home.

Flash back off,

***

Dyana Pov's,

"Your past?" I repeated Danial's words.

"Yes, you don't think things through" Danial reminded me.

"But I heard he broke up with his girlfriend, and you also broke up with me yesterday" I expressed my feelings.

"Actually I met Gea yesterday, she's getting back together" Danial told me. Deg, my heart's like it's being touched to hear it.

"You don't worry, I promise you a fight" Danial continued.

"He's just my past." Danial made sure he and Gea were done. Sometimes I overthink a lot because we're an Ldr.

"You don't have to promise, a promise that isn't kept will only hurt" I don't expect him to promise anything.

"I can't promise you anything and everything, but I'll make sure you're always happy." Danial smiled gently.

"I'll fight you as best I can" I just smiled and nodded.

After that long video call, I went down the stairs and returned to the dormitory.

Elsewhere, Uje who accidentally steals the conversation Danial and Dyana seem disappointed. He who actually still harbors a sense in Dyana must be forced to retreat with this reality. There is so much wasted one-handed love.

Sometimes that is, when we like, not necessarily he will like, when both likes should not be together, well, the flow of love is all he wants.