Between Love and Traditional Java
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The sky tonight, there is only one star. Sepi, it's really right with my current situation. Loneliness and solitude. I looked far away, not sure what I was thinking. Dark snippets like re-strung. Not want to disappear. Like broken glass can no longer be whole. That's how my family is. The father I love so much prefers to marry again and leave mother.
I have been sitting on the balcony for a long time. I was lazy to go into the room, I was silent. I felt the wind blow my hair. It's been more than 15 years since my parents' divorce, but it doesn't feel like the wound has healed completely.
I prefer to stay with my mother, even though the economic situation is too difficult. The mother who fought me, nyekolahin me, always encouraged me and supported my decision. I'm proud of him. She was that loud, who never wanted to share her pain with me.
My father, he seems to have been happy with his new family. Maybe he forgot about me. Or it's just my feelings that think that way, because we rarely communicate. If my mind is positive, maybe he is busy, working in the region, he could be restrained by his wife, because his wife does not like me. But the negative thought came along too, that he had abandoned me, he did not care about me anymore, never gave any news. Every now and then we just move the needle from minute to minute, never for long. Ah, I don't want to think about it. Maybe we can meet one day, when all the wounds have healed completely, yes completely, I hope so. And everything will be normal, everything is fine.
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Drrt.. My phone shook, breaking my mind.
There's a WA in, a new number. Usually I'm lazy to reply, at most just a prank of my thinking. But somehow my finger typed in reply on him.
“Who?”
In short, I replied, before long a reply from him.
“Danial”
Direct to the point , “Unique name.” I smiled and said that name.
Briefly, there is rarely anything to the point if you speak me, at most most stale words, for example can not be acquaintance, whose name, blah-blah and a series of questions that are not important.
“Hmm.. cold,” muttered I then entered the room and fell into the mattress. Suddenly I forgot my sadness. About the chaotic thoughts that accidentally came filling my brain, flashback to the past.
Drrt.. WA in again.
“Can not be contacted?”
Danial. But in my shadow he has a distinctive and pleasant voice. I don't know why I think that.
"Byeah, I'm Dyana."
That night I chatted with him until late at night even to sleep, and the ending woke up bad luck. Hufft. The first conversation was with him.
“Good morning, don't forget breakfast, later die.” Text from Danial with smile emoticons.
“Cihh... This is a really nosy guy anyway, my inner” is sprained but smiles by myself. Unichowo.
“This time is breakfast, want to work first me.”
“Iya, spirit yes.” Danial gave a reply.
I smiled reading it.
Danial became my distraction, after I was disappointed with Fariz. It wasn't meant to make him an impingement, but he did come at the right time.
“You have a boyfriend yet?”
Every night I chat with Danial, he always has a topic to discuss, trivial things, crisp is not important for some people, even make us connect and laugh.
“Newly break up And. hahah” I laugh bitterly he asked richly so.
“Lah, why break up first, should not be first, well be single now” She loves emoticons sad very much.
“haha.. ridicule me yes, his emot is a lot!!” I responded with angry emot.
“Haha, no teasing, so just out the sungunya.”
“Hufft resek luu..” reply to me.
“kalo you are single, a rival I make a lot of your dapetin, if you have a girlfriend is just a atuk, your boyfriend ajah”
I smile and read her reply, humorous son abis. Alays.
“Ohh, trus if I have a girlfriend you are cheating on, wow not really! Ahhaha"
“yaa if you want to cheat gapapa hhha, if I am rejected right shy.”
The same chatter he always makes me laugh. Sometimes I wonder what it looks like.
“Hhh you have won anyway, do not need selection I choose you deh.”
My reply is, sometimes we both tease each other. But we know that this is just entertainment.
***
A month passed, Danial only dared to chat, but already there is his profile picture. Turns out she's sweet, her nose is typical of an abis, let alone her humorous. I don't know why I like it. Could I be in love?
The ringing of my phone echoed, Danial video call, I deg-deg an insane, confused lift not yes, wrong behavior just with a video call, maybe my pussy soul relapsed again after breaking repeatedly.
“Hai.. good night boyfriend candidates” I laughed.
“Pede really lo, who's your boyfriend,”
“You are, not that I shot yesterday,”
“Udah must now be a dead body if you shoot,”
We both laughed.
“New home from work yes,”
“Yes, so tired,”
“Cepet change there, face wash, foot wash, Shirt wash, dishwasher,”
“Hah, kok washing dishes,” various kinds of emoticons always decorate our text.
“Iya I saw you eat the plate is still spelled tuh,”
He took his camera to his desk, there was a plate, the habit that he always ate indomie at night.
“That's mah plate lo. rese.”
“And you are my future wife, help nyuci donk dear.”
“You find a wife what a maid. Hahah”
“I nyari you just not dapet-dapet,”
“Kok me?”
“Iya to be a surgaku angel.”
“Aduhhh alayy deh. who is teaching, gombal”
“Dilan,”
“Most movies,”
“iya film DILAN,”
“what's your answer, Milea?” my many.
“ya DILAN hit by longing to see you soon.”
We're not abis, we're video call an almost 2 hours. Until I get sleepy and I close the phone.
***
“Eecciee.. the semi-phone call sampe overslept, new chatter how about the top floor,”
Lutfi admonished me who was cooking, today my schedule picket masakin children dormitory.
I work in a fairly famous clothing store, because it has more than 11 branches in various cities. First I was just helping out at the central store, then a week later I was transferred to the proclamation town. For the first time I worked and was away from my parents. After graduating high school I actually wanted to work, but my parents forbade, he said just rest at home.
I was so bored I was desperate to say to my mother wanted to work, because every day there were no activities, at most Just in the room watching Korean dramas, if not so hp an unclear, open social media. So my intention is to apply for a job, I am determined to have to work because I am tired of no activities.
My friends are all at work, so I don't have any more interviews. Actually want to continue college he admitted, but because the parents broke home, the cost became a problem, all blame each other who should take care of me. My father had to support his family, forgetting my presence. My mother, I don't want to burden her any more. Although my stepfather wanted to support me, but I had to think a lot, a lot of feelings that I had to consider. My stepfather also had a daughter my age, she didn't go to college, she wanted to go straight to work. If I go to college, there will be more hatred for me, jealousy he had been making the relationship between him and his father stretched. As much as possible, I didn't bother my stepfather. But he only concluded with what he saw, without wanting to know any explanation.
At last on my mother's advice, I applied for a job at this store, and was accepted.
“Heleh... cut aja bener pill,” I used to call Lutfi with the name Upil, we already have the right decet. Bedmates, friends everywhere, friends even we eat a plate together.
“Udahlah yung, aja pacarin, saucy also tuh.” Upil used to call me Suyung.
“Ahh.. whatan anyway, not yet known, just chatan doang mah not yet ngaruh.” I said while fried chicken.
“Yung later there is a new guy, dateng from the central store, he said the kids are cool, ala-ala boyband korea.” Upil enthusiastic.
“hah.. stale.. cakepan Danial.”
“Lohh... right. have fallen in love, he said not ngaruh,”
We laugh together, we're the coolest guy in the dorm.
“Gapa if handsome,” I said shyly.
