Between Love and Traditional Java

Revealed

The sun shines brightly, but dimly in my heart. I am neat when it is still morning, usually I am a person who is often late absent from work. I went up to the second floor. I was pensive on the balcony, enjoying the cool breeze. I think a lot, imagine a lot, about what I don't know the answer to, this feeling is really disturbing.

About Brother Fariz, making my sleep not soundly, until the morning was not funny. Dilemmas. Now I feel, like I'm being played with. What the friends were gossiping about him, caught my attention. He's a playboy, a lot of girls like, I already know his friendly attitude with girls, so worried, if it's true he turned away.

At first I was natural, he was just kidding, sometimes he teased my friend just funny. But now that I'm getting jealous, I don't feel like we're backstreet. I always pretend in front of everyone that we have nothing to do. Only Lily's sister knows, I hope she doesn't tell anyone else. I'm afraid of getting caught by my coordinator, but I also want all this to be clear between me and him. Moreover, Fajar said that Sister Lily and Sister Fariz both like it, then what about me, even when we are both she is very attentive to me.

“Ngapain is alone here,” Brother Fariz approached me,

“Kok knows I'm here,” I turned.

“So visible from room curtain,”

I hesitate to ask about our relationship, want to get rich gini. I'm afraid he's angry, thinking I'm inconsiderate. I also know the rules here, and I break them secretly like this. I was wrong, I had love for her, in a situation like this. If caught, one of us will be transferred to another branch. Feelings can not be directed to whom, can not also choose to come in what kind of circumstances and how time.

“Kak, be honest with me, about Ulya and Kak Lily,” I to the point ask for her explanation.

“I have nothing with Ulya,” he replied casually.

“But many people say, you give gifts to him,”

“That's just a deposit from the meeting I made him,”

“Kok is not your own friend who loves, and I see that lately you often nyamperin him.”

“Truly, I love Ulya, keep asking for help so make deketin him.”

“Ok I believe, brother Lily?”

“No need to discuss him yes, you do not believe me,” he immediately changed expression.

"What is he hiding?" mind wonders.

“Not believe, but why do you not want to discuss him, surely there is nothing,” I am annoyed with Brother Fariz.

“You doubt me, you accuse me of cheating,”

“I asked you nicely, how did you get angry, really yes there is something you hide from me. You still like her.”

“I said don't talk about him.” Fariz's brother shouted at me. It's the first time, I think he's been rude to me, he's yelling at me.

"Who is accusing you of cheating, I'm just asking." I shouted as well. And I left, I got on board too, can't be controlled anymore.

***

It's been a week since that fight, Fariz rarely called me, he avoided me. I felt innocent, but he changed. Then all this time what he and I did, I did not understand his attitude, should be in this incident I am angry instead of him.

Until that night, I saw him parked, he turned his back on me. He's standing in front of a girl, and that's Lily's sister. I'm disappointed, he cheated on me. I was so trusting, he destroyed it with treason.

I was broken again, I was broken again. I'm willing to secretly establish this relationship, I hope it will be happy. But the disappointment I met, once again.

Tomorrow, I'll meet Fariz. He's tidying up the stock in the back shed. I was careful not to get caught, I approached her.

“I want to break up,” I to the point.

“So sister, you really like the same Sister Lily, then for what I am, you are cheating, or I am the third person between you and sister Lily,”

“I'm the same she has no more relationship,”

“I know, you both like, Dawn already tell you everything is the same I.”

I was crying in front of him. My strength collapsed helplessly. I can't be as strong as usual.

“Ok, I'm honest with you, everyone,” Kak Faris resigned.

I just kept quiet, looked down in front of him, even though we had not been in contact for long, but I had decided to commit to him.

“Then, Ari and I both liked Lily, until now I may not have let it go completely,” Fariz began his explanation.

“Deg.. all this time maybe I was just his outlet.” My mind muses.

“The three of us are happy, I like Lily, yes I used to love her so much, until now maybe, Ari likes Lily too, Ari is my only friend, my only friend, he was even willing to get hurt to save me from a biker gang fight.”

Fariz's brother was mired on the floor, he sat down with a sag. I also sat next to him.

“Ari said, she really liked Lily, that night she wanted to shoot Lily, but I destroyed everything, I got caught in a fight with the wrong motorcycle gang, when Ari passed through the street, Ari saved me from a prick. Ari injured.”

Fariz sighed, I got carried away in the story.

“Ari was seriously injured, had to be in the ICU, all efforts were made, but he was not helped.”

“I told Lily everything, Lily said she likes me, I'm the same, I still like her, but me and her it's impossible,”

“Lily always rejected me, she felt guilty if she had to be happy on the departure of Ari.”

“Then I have to how, I also feel like that, although I like even love him, I also can not let Ari go, I can not when he saved me, I can not, I took the only person who would make her happy. Although Lily doesn't like Ari, she doesn't feel right to accept me,”

“I was angry at that time, I did not realize to do so, because this story is like revealing an old story, and adding to grief.”

“I know, you need an explanation, now I'm still trying to love you, I'm sorry, but I really want to start with you,”

“I know also that Fajar shot Lily, I told him to choose between me and Dawn, he could not decide both friendzone is complicated,”

“Lily knows our relationship, and I decided to start with you, but she has not been able to give certainty to Dawn, she is still holding me back,”

“But I hope you forgive me, and give me the chance to mend our relationship, start all over, I will try to love you, I will let Lily go, even if she holds me back, it's time I end this with Lily” Brother Faris ending his explanation.

I was crying, so heavy what she felt, I understood why Lily's sister was moving away from me too, because she was the one who was hurt the most. I like Fariz myself, and the truth is that he's still trying to love me. I have to how, this feeling mingle not because, on the one hand I want to be with him, on the other hand I do not have the same sister Lily, liked each other but could not have.

I understand why Sister Lily is still holding Fariz, because Sister Lily is not willing to be left behind, she does not want to open her heart to others.

“I need time, because your love is still divided kak.”

I left him with a pile of stuff still scattered. I was confused, confused, confused, I didn't understand myself, I didn't know what I was going to do. This relationship is too complicated. Love and friendship are difficult.