BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL

8. Mom's Eyes Glazed

Mama still explained how she should behave after becoming a wife. Wejangan a mother to her daughter. Advice that has always been interesting to me, but not today because everything is not the same. Everything was falling apart, without any hope.

My heart is breaking, for a new love is growing, suddenly broken, without being given a chance to bloom exudes its beauty. He sows his seedlings.

"Ma," I said

Those tears can no longer be contained. I cried, even more so because this heart was wounded. I was disappointed.

When I saw my mom's face, I don't know why the wound was getting bigger. Because I was so afraid to take away Mama's smile and happiness, as well as the hope that her daughter would soon get married. Whereas before, the news of our marriage successfully made Mama proud

"Mama sorryin Rara, yes." I asked, kissing my mother's hand. "Ma, Ridha is the same as Rara." I said again, with a sobbing voice.

"Ra, why are you, son? Mama Ridha is with you, son. For Mama you are the best of mama's children, there is nothing to forgive" Mama said as she carried me in her arms until our cries broke.

"Mama, Brother Rara .. Why even cry? Mama, Rara's sister wants to get married, Mama should be happy dong, want to have additional children too." said Dinda who was forced to leave her room because she heard the sound of my crying and mama.

"Yes Din, Mama is happy" said Mama while wiping away the rest of her tears. "Mama is crying not out of sadness, but out of happiness. So happy. Her happiness is so easy to get overwhelmed. Moreover, Rara fishing cry first. Duh, if this is so worried too, later if the wedding party, continues to suddenly cry Rara, Mama followed cry too. Then how's our make up, Ra? Duh, it can be destroyed later. So don't cry Ra. So that it doesn't fall apart. Kan darling, already beautiful dressed even damaged." said Mama.

"Ihhhhh Mama, don't dong. Just natural ones. If you cry, just cry. The name is a feeling that cannot be regulated. What matters is that your mom is happy!" exclaim Dinda.

"Mama!" I immediately roared. It felt so bad this chest heard the talk of Mama and Dinda.

Can I say everything? Make Mama's smile disappear, scratch disappointed in Mama's heart? O Allah.

"By!" Mama and Dinda looked confused looking at my quite strange attitude in their eyes.

Yes naturally, usually I am the most enthusiastic, there are no tears at all to welcome this marriage. But today everything changed so they suspected, there must be something. That's why they still guess.

"Ma, sorry Rara!" doors again. Limp, how limp it feels all over this body. Don't know how to convey it. But if it is not delivered now, I fear Mama will be even more hurt because her expectations are too great.

Oh Allah ... Arifs. You are really evil! Why are you giving me false hope. You came, but after I opened the door, you just left after everyone had high hopes for you. Where's your heart, Rif?

How'this? Invitations of as many as a thousand twins that have been spread. Caterings. The rented building.

Oh Allah .. disappointed. Be ill.

My tears are still spilling, not daring to look at my mother's face. I'm usually stoic and notoriously cute, but this time it's really down. Don't know what to do. To speak also feels Kelu lips.

"Ra, why? If something breaks your heart, speak up. Are you ready to listen?" Mama rubbed my back.

O God Mama, how can you convey that you are not hurt?

Bismilbornrahmanirrahim's. "Ma" I said. "Before Rara apologized, maybe what Rara will say will make Mama sad and disappointed. But Rara has to say everything even if it's bitter for us." I said.

"Why Ra?" ask Mama again, out of curiosity, what makes me so fucked up like this.

"Ma, Rara and Arif are not getting married" I said, then lowered my head.

Mama has indeed failed in marriage, but that you should not make a benchmark that kaliab will retreat in marriage.

Instead, you two must make this a lesson so that your marriage is fine until the end of life. You understand Ra? So don't talk like that anymore." Pinta Mama.

"Ma, it wasn't Rara who canceled the wedding, it was Arif!" say

"Astagfirullah. What does Ra mean?" My mother was hysterical.

"So Arif met at Gita's sister's house, he said he could not continue this wedding plan anymore, Arif canceled everything ma." I said, with tears in his eyes.

"Yes Allah ..." Mama immediately limp.

"Ma," Dinda helps lean your back against the chair. "Ma ... Mama!" Dinda screamed as her body went limp, then fainted. "Sister, how is it?" ask Dinda.

I immediately helped Dinda lay Mama on the sofa. Then wrap your mother's body with eucalyptus oil. While Dinda squeaks Mom's feet.

"Yes Allah Mama .." said Dinda weeping.

***

Mama was conscious, but it was still clear that her body was very weak. Mom's view was empty. Looks not excited.

Really, seeing Mama's condition like this it feels like I'm really angry at Arif. Not just me, but Dinda too. He even threw curses for his sister-in-law who did not become it.

"Let's see, if you meet Dinda, teach her a lesson!" said Dinda. "Because of her, Mama's sick like this. It's so evil."

"Ra" Mama called me.

"Yes," I replied.

"Then how? Invitations, catering, buildings, wedding dresses?" ask mama.

"Sorry Rara ma" I said.

"No, it's not Rara's fault, it's Arif's fault. He's really mean. He did all this to our family. What is our fault. After giving hope, then thrown away. It's like throwing dirt on our faces" Dinda said

"What's the real story, Ra?" ask mama.

"Rara doesn't know ma either. Arif met, then he said he could not continue with the wedding plan." I said.

"What reason?" ask mama again.

"For Rara is too good for her "I said.

"Classical reasons. And what does he want? Got a crime wife, a copet or a drug dealer? How strange. Find a wife is the best. The time is rubbish!" Dinda continued to grumble, conveying the uneasiness in her heart.