BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL

33. Gossip

Today I decided not to go to work because I wanted to take care of my mother even though she insisted that she was better. Even my mom wants to sell today. But I strictly forbid mama until her condition is completely recovered.

"Ma, how about you stop selling?" I said, looking at my mom's back.

"Why, Ra?" My mom looked straight at me.

"Mama has been working hard for Rara and Dinda. Rara is working. Rara's income is more than enough to finance our lives. Even Rara also has more than enough savings, so let Rara replace the duties of mama as a backpacker in this house. Rara wants to be devoted to mom. Seeing my mom happy, no more tired.

Rara is sad, you see my mom coming home late, having to order flowers, even arranging until night. Then sleep tired, with the body taped koyo, so tired." I said, holding my mother's hand. "Mom want ya Ngabulin Rara's request? Promise me, Rara will work hard so that our lives are enough. Yes, ma?"

"Ra, my mom is happy to do it. Counting to fill my mama's free time. Than to be alone at home. Besides, if you're married, there's no way that Mama and Dinda depend on your economy. What your husband said later. Mama doesn't want to be a problem in your household."

"Neither ma. There won't be any problems. Rara will find a husband who can accept our situation. I also love my mom and Linda. Not just Rara."

"It is better to prevent than there is already a problem first just want to avoid, Ra. Never mind, nothing. Mama works because she likes."

"But ma ...."

"Look, Mama promised not to porsir again. Work just according to the rate. If you are tired already. Rest. How's it?"

"Tell?"

"Yes Ra. You don't believe in your mom."

"So Mama is a hard-working type. Already slamming bones work from morning until night still say not rawn anything."

Mom laughed at my statement. Mama said, naturally the character of the mother decreased to me. Not stopping until the job is done.

***

A day off turned out to be a lot of things I missed. When just arrived at the parking lot, Aya who had been first until immediately approached.

"Ra, why isn't my message being read?" ask Aya.

"Oh that, I'll take my leave again." I replied, calling the entrance to the office.

"It's a habit, if it's a holiday, the number can't be contacted."

"The name is also a holiday. If HP is still on, I could be terrorized with work. There's just something being asked. What's the difference with no leave then."

"But it's not about work."

"Continue?"

"Aariff!"

"Oh my goodness, Ay, is there no other language besides Arif?"

"It's not about you, Ra. But about the gossip that was circulating in the office yesterday."

"Gossip? Then I don't want to hear. Whatever rumors. Indeed, you are not afraid of charity who do not know how yawn just like that, moving to Arif just because we talk about him."

"Then what?"

"We all know why Arif left you."

"Should we talk about it again? Because I am not beautiful, not rich, not from a respectable family that has a harmonious father and mother. Aye, right?"

"Not that, Ra."

"What else? Duh Ay, really, I've missed everything about Arif. I really let him go. But if he talks about something that is not good about me, even though it is my lack, still my heart is sad, Ay. I have not been able to control so as not to be easily discouraged from hearing Arif's judgment. I'm just a human being, Ay."

"Yes Ra, I understand. But you must remain confident because Arif's judgment is not entirely correct. Who says you're not beautiful? You are beautiful, Ra. The proof, many like you since Junior High to college. Just because you are too self-prenched, even deliberately making them so that no one else dares to approach. Moreover, you are a pious girl, Ra. Smart and very accomplished. You are just too simple in appearance, so look a bit inferior to Monika.

Try you and just a little, must be klepek-clepek tuh Arif. Kanting Monika is just like you.

If the problem of your parents, whose name is happiness is different Ra. You also do not ask to have parents like that. Every child wants to be born into a harmonious family. But if it is God's destiny will how else" said Aya explained at length.

"But still, Arif thinks so."

"That's how he's just Ra to evade because he's been hunted for responsibility."

"meaning?"

"It turns out Arif already ngeDP Monika first."

"meaning?"

"But Ra, you didn't understand that time. Arif and Monika get married because Monika is already pregnant."

"Astagfirullah ... Innalilahi wa Inna ilaihi Raji. Don't just talk Aya!" I shook my head, not expecting Arif to be like that.

"Yesterday Arif hurried home because Monika wanted to give birth. Imagine, just married bi-monthly but his son was born. Want to use any reason is still clear that they are MBA. There is no premature baby or any normal reason to be born so soon. Seven or six months at the earliest. Ahhhh I don't know. Which obviously means that before you have ta'aruf with you, she has a relationship with Monika, then breaks up or how, but because Monika is pregnant she has to take responsibility."

"Super grand." I suddenly remembered the meeting two days ago with Monika at the restaurant, she did look more contained, but because she was usually slim, so it did not appear that she was pregnant.

"Yep. But the point is, I'm telling you not to gossip, I just want to stress to you that Arif canceled the marriage with you not because you weren't prettier or richer than Monika, but because he was being pursued with responsibility. So don't ever get discouraged again, Ra. Understood!"

"That's it."

"Yes. Even feeling me, sooner or later Arif will regret it. He'll definitely chase you again, Ra!"

"Ihhhhhh, don't want to!"

"Makanya, from now on fortify yourself, if possible do not long the trauma. Step back in, open a new leaf."

"It's not that easy, Ay."

"So you want to be Arif's runaway again? Guys if you have time to do naughty, continue he already got what he wants, will definitely go find a new one. I'm pretty sure Arif's still curious about you, Ra. The proof is that he still likes to bother you. But because he has to take responsibility, he can't get close to you anymore. So the reason she's also mad that she can't get you is because she's already tied up by Monika's pregnancy."

"Eitherway. I'm dizzy thinking about all that. I don't care anymore. Whatever they want to do, just don't take me anymore. I don't want to get involved with anything called Arif!"