BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL

73. Fighting With Dinda

"What's wrong with my mom, Din?" the third time I asked that question, but Dinda was still silent. He stays with his stance. Shut up, don't want to tell me anything, even though I feel I deserve to know. "What the hell are you, Din? Since when do we have secrets?" I'm getting pissed. His attitude was very different from usual. I don't know what the cause is.

"There's nothing, sister." Dinda's statement is still the same.

"No way. The doctor said that the pain of the mother is triggered by the mind. Then something is thought of. Aye, right?" I'm still urging Dinda. "Please Din, say the same brother! What the hell are you? You want to punish your sister because for two weeks I have never visited my mother. Aye, right?" now my voice is rising. For the first time I was angry with Dinda. "If you knew it would be like this, you wouldn't want to marry Ken, you wouldn't want to live with Ken. Sister is better at home just take care of mama!"

"Astagfirullah, not so brother. Dinda is no one to punish. After all, sister is not wrong, why should Dinda punish all sisters? You're happy with your brother and Ken's marriage, it has nothing to do with your sister at all."

"Then why are you keeping something from your sister? Since we were little, when my mom and dad separated, we have both promised not to play secrets, we will always be open and always supportive. Then why are you silent now when you ask, then what is his name?"

"Kak Rara why the hell, do not believe at all Dinda. Already Dinda said nothing, mama is sick to think of what, why so Dinda who pushed on? Dinda is also like a sister, worried, but should not also make others uncomfortable! That big sister's attitude that made Dinda even more confused."

"Keep why you forbid brother to contact papa and Aunt Wira."

"What did he do, brother? Mama just needs treatment and rest. It takes calm of his mind and heart. When many come, my mother cannot sleep. This is just the doctor to give mama sleeping pills because it's been three days mama can't close her eyes."

"Astagfirullah, but what's wrong, Din?"

"Why should you insist that you and your wife come here?"

"Because they're our brothers. What's wrong they know."

"Our brother but not my mother's brother!" firmly Dinda. "So I forgot, my mom and dad are divorced, brother. Papa is also married to Aunt Wira. Their lives are different. Cannot be continuously connected. Whatever happens to mom, it's not papa's business or Aunt Wira's. No need to hide papa. Know it brother!" Dinda stepped out, at the door she passed Ken who had just come.

"Ra," call Ken. He came closer, when he saw me shed tears, Ken immediately hugged me.

I don't know, it feels so claustrophobic. In this chest. Why would Dinda have to say that? Are mom and dad better? What's wrong with reporting? I mean just to establish a friendship.

"I fought with Dinda." I said, crying in Ken's arms.

"Why?" ask Ken.

"Either. He seems to be keeping something a secret."

"Times?"

"Yes Ken, I know that. Me and Dinda were very close. We are both sticky sister sisters. I told you once about the complicated relationship of papa and mama when divorced, right. Since then we both promised there would be no secrets and there will always be each other because we have no complete parents. I will complete Dinda, and vice versa. But now ..." I couldn't finish the words, and then came back crying on Ken's lap.

"Quiet baby."

"Ken, why did Dinda change."

"What's changed?"

"Yes you see for yourself, he's like cold to me."

"Maybe it's because Dinda's worried about Mama's condition."

"Sama, I'm worried too. My mom is my parents too."

"How can you calm down, the doctor said that mama was thinking a lot, so until the drop. You know for yourself, don't you, my mom doesn't do anything anymore." Ken has indeed bought three more doors shophouses that are next to mama's shop so that the business of mama is getting bigger, not only that, Ken provides employees so that mama does not need to do anything. Mama just enjoy the sales every month.

"Do I need to talk to Dinda?"

"No, let him open his own voice."

"Ra, don't get provoked by emotions. You and Dinda are both in a panic. Maybe Dinda panicked even more because she was not an adult, she also saw for herself when she was sick. Aye, right? You have to be calm, try to support him, make him comfortable to want to go back to telling stories. If you keep pushing, Dinda will stay away because it's not comfortable."

I tried to ponder Ken's advice, what he said was true. Dinda and I couldn't stand seeing the pain. We're gonna freak out. Yesterday Dinda was alone, she didn't have a conversation partner, definitely not an easy thing for her.

"Ken, you can leave Mama for a moment. I want to follow Dinda." I asked.

"Yes" said Ken.

I soon passed down the hospital hallways, looking at every corner, hoping to find Dinda's figure, but what was sought was not seen.

As soon as I was about to give up, I suddenly stopped to see Dinda sitting at the end of the hospital mushalla. I'll approach her soon.

"Din" call me.

He was still silent, only looking at me for a moment, then looking straight ahead again. The same attitude as when there is a problem.

"You won't be able to lie to brother, Din." I whispered inwardly.

I approached. Dudu was beside him. For a while we were both silent. Busy with their own minds. What burden are you keeping, Din? Tell brother, haven't we always shared problems all this time?

Just about to open the conversation, my HP suddenly rang. It's Aunt Wira. I immediately picked it up.

[Ra, said kak Ken mbak Rahayu in the hospital, huh?] ask Aunt Wira.

[Yes Aunty.] I replied.

[O Allah, when is Ra?]

[A few hours ago Auntie.]

[What pain, Ra?]

[Heart and high blood Aunt.]

[May you be okay, Ra. How to Ngabarin Aunty? aunty already ordered, if there is anything to tell the same aunt and papa as well. We'll be there when papa gets home, Ra. You are strong, baby. Aunty praying for mama's recovery.]

[Yes Aunt, thank you very much Tan.] After talking, I disconnected the phone call. Then switch to Dinda.

"Look how it's going to be. Not good with Aunt Wira." I said with a slightly annoyed tone.