BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL

23. Meet Papa

I can't wait to meet Mama and Dinda to report on my new achievements. The plan tonight is to invite the two of them to eat out to celebrate as I move up the ranks. Mama would be so proud.

Smile suddenly disappeared when he saw the figure of papa at home. Yes, papa came home, something that papa never did after divorce with mom.

I should be happy, is not that what I want, even though papa and mama have separated, I hope their communication remains smooth in both directions, not just mama who contacted papa continuously for our affairs, I hope that their communication will remain smooth in both directions, because they have me and Dinda, the children of papa and mama who both need the complete affection of both parents, he said, not only the love of my mother, even though Mama is actually trying to bestow her affection for us. But it's still different, right? Every child, especially a daughter, always hopes to grow up with her father's attention as well.

Papa looks glared in front of Mama who lowered her head. From the tone of the voice of papa is quite high, it is clear that this conversation is not something good.

Papa was angry at mom. I need a little time to digest, papa's anger excuse. From a few pieces of the sentence that came out of papa, I can finally conclude that papa is still angry because my marriage is void. Yeah, I'm the cause of papa's anger at mama right now.

"I'm really embarrassed, to this day, my extended family and friends who were invited are still questioning about Rara's null marriage. Actually, you are how to educate children. Why is everything so messy like this? Rara was just as willing. Marriage is no joke. He should have thought before he proposed a desire to get married. Should he think mature, ready for marriage or not?

Do not be prepared as best as possible. I've ranted everyone, he knows he failed. Dizziness my head. Do you know that?" said papa with a high voice.

"Sorry," that's the only answer that comes out of your mouth.

"Ma." Dinda's voice was about to deny, but she did not continue. I know for sure, Mama must have banned Dinda. For Mama, adab in parents is one of the main things to be taken care of. It is strictly forbidden to deny the words of parents because they are not polite, and not good either.

"Now this is it, you tell Rara later. I have a candidate for him. Rusdi's son, he's ready to get married. Let's just match up with Rara" said papa.

"His son Rusdi, his friend mas who used to be together in the Jakarta company?" ask mama.

"Yes, I have how many more friends whose names are Rusdi" replied papa in a sharp tone.

"Mas .. I'm so sorry. As I recall, Rusdi's son dropped out of school. Only Junior High graduates. I loved the brawl at that time too. Are you sure you want to be paired with Rara? How it works now, is it good. Her work? Will he be responsible to Rara and her children. Do not just match the mas, let Rara determine her own soul mate. Pity that later it does not fit. Moreover, we know how to trace the past of his son Rusdi."

"Why do you say responsibility now? Is Rara responsible for the failure of her marriage? I'm pretty sure Rara is normal. Because he also did not learn what responsibility is. More precisely you did not teach Rara the meaning of responsibility so that she grew up as a child herself. Felt not fit yeah already, cancel. But the effect is huge.

If the problem of his son Rusdi how now yes where do I know. I haven't met either. It's just that, twice the Rusdi came to my house to offer this matchmaking and I think maybe this is the answer to my prayer for Rara's soul mate.

"It doesn't mean it has changed" said Mama. "Pity Rara, mas."

"You are, yes, denying me continues. When the hell can you really get along? Why do women like to be rebellious! You should be self-aware, introspect, but still be like that. Do you ever think, maybe your attitude that likes to rebel is what makes children so unguided. You are not aware of that!"

"Pa," I called out quietly, papa, standing in front of the entrance with a very painful chest. If we can speak well without hurting the feelings of others, why should we choose to hurt? Moreover, the people we hurt have ever meant anything in our lives.

"Rome!" Call Mama.

"Pa, can Rara talk?" I asked papa for permission. "Pa, Rara was very happy, in the end what Rara and Dinda hoped to be realized, when papa would come to our place. But pa ... There's a little disappointed. Here." I show my own chest that's already claustrophobic holding back the sad.

"Why else Ra, do you still think Papa is wrong? Papa also thinks of you and Dinda. The proof with your matchmaking with papa's friend's child. It's a sign that Papa is also trying to be present for you. Don't constantly look at papa's negative angle, dong Ra. You also see about papa's efforts. Do you know if you think of you or not? Think about Ra." Said papa.

"Yes pa. Rara thanks you." My answer. "Pa, can papa understand us? Rara apologizes because Rara has disappointed papa. Papa must be angry, right? To make Mama teary-eyed with papa's allegations that are actually unfounded.

Papa, is this all Rara's fault? So that eventually papa spewed his anger on mama.

Pa, Rara has told Papa, how the process of ta'aruf, application until finally Arif cancels his marriage with Rara. Pa, Arif is Rara's office mate. Every day Rara met him. Back then, when we met at home, Papa knew she was still bothering Rara, making Rara's life uncomfortable." I said.

"If you're uncomfortable, move to Ra's job. Easy, right? Don't make it hard on yourself." Papa said again.

If it were all as easy as papa said, maybe I wouldn't be this messy.

Why is it sometimes harder to understand people who should understand us than to understand others.

"So she must feel the same way. Aye, right? But he's ordinary. Means there's a problem it's you, Ra!" accuse papa.