BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL

77. Sorry

Eleven o'clock at night. I flinched from sleep. Along with Dinda who claimed to be hungry. Maybe because we haven't eaten anything since noon.

"Then you get food first, yes." I said, rising from the sofa not far from your bed. Don't forget I brought a little tote bag full of money and HP.

"Where do you want to go, brother?" ask Dinda, after yawning.

"In the canteen or in front of the hospital. Usually there are those who sell fried rice and satay. What do you want to order, Din?"

"Dinda asked for some warm tea and some fried rice, brother. If not, noodles or bread in the cafeteria is also okay. The important thing is to prop up the stomach."

"Yes, my brother came out first. You take care of mama. Remember, if there's anything directly call brother Din."

"Yes, brother."

I immediately got out of the room where Mama was in. But at the exit my steps stopped because I saw someone sitting with eyes closed in the visitor's chair which was right in front of my room.

"Ken!" I said. Why is he here? Not that I had just returned home, it turns out that Ken did not obey what I said, he instead chose to sleep here, on the terrace of the room, even though the air was quite cold and also many mosquitoes. Moreover, Ken only wears short-sleeved clothes, without a jacket or blanket to repel the cold.

I originally wanted to pass by. Let Ken fall asleep outside like his choice. But when I saw his face, I couldn't bear it. His way of sitting signifies that he is so cold. That's why I woke Ken up slowly, even though my heart was still upset over what he was doing.

"Ken ... Ken ... Ken "Call me, shaking his arm slowly. "Ken!" I kind of hardened my voice.

"Huh," Ken opened his eyes slowly, then rubbed his face. Ra." said he.

"What are you doing here?"

"Wait for you."

"I told you, don't bother me!"

"I'm not bothering you, Ra, I'll wait outside. Is this still disturbing?"

"That's not what I mean."

"What else will you do, Ra?"

"I'll ask you to come home. You can sleep at home. But why sleep here? It's cold, lots of mosquitoes too."

"Ra, how can I leave you alone while I know you're still angry. I'm afraid you're okay. Moreover, the condition of Mama is still not healthy. I just want to take care of you. So sorry if I can't keep up with your wishes. Besides I'm her husband, you should be the same as me, you know. Not the other way around." Ken squeezed my nose.

"But you're the one who pisses me off!"

"Yes, I'm sorry. Dimaafin, right?"

"No!"

"Kok so anyway? Her husband apologized when he was not forgiven. You don't pity me?"

"Astagfirullah, I'm sorry Ra. I didn't think everything would be like this. I intend, will continue to share advice with papa so that papa really loves you like a father to his daughter.

But because of the busyness, eventually all of it can not be realized. But I really did, Ra. I thought for a long time that love would exist. Especially between you and papa there is a blood relationship. As hard as it is, inshaAllah can be broken."

"But it can't. Papa's getting worse. I also just realized from the request of Aunt Wira. Obviously they're using you, Ken!"

"It's all happened, Ra. How can you forgive me? What am I supposed to do?"

I don't know how to respond to Ken's question. Everything has happened, papa has stepped in to use us.

Actually if all Papa uses is me, it doesn't feel as heavy as mom. But papa has come to the stage of terrorizing mom, even asking Ken quite a lot. Imagine, a three-door shophouse. The price is definitely not cheap.

Moreover, after obtaining one of his requests, papa did not stop, but asked the others as well. Clearly used it.

I'm a little worried, what if finally both Ken's parents know because the money he spent is not small. Hundreds might even reach a billion. Then can they accept? It felt so scared that then the right made my father and mother change for me.

"If your mom and dad knew how?" I express concern over Ken's family's response later. After all, the treasures that Ken currently possessed, were all not personal Ken's. Maybe not half of that comes from Ken's hard work. Others belong to father and mother. "This is gonna be a new problem."

"God is not, Ra. I'll take responsibility if mom and dad find out." said Ken, trying to calm me down.

"Ken, why does it have to be like this?"

"Because I love you too much, Ra. From the beginning I just wanted to make you happy. Whatever it is, I'll do it. Knowing that your papa's return can make you happy, I'm determined to make your papa love you again, Ra."

"But the truth is, you don't love me. Papa came back because he wanted to, Ken."

"It was my fault, Ra. You can be angry, but you should know, I did it out of love for you. I don't want to see you sad anymore, Ra. All the things that make you sad, I'll get rid of."

"Ken!" spontaneously, I immediately slammed into his arms. "Sorry Ken, sorry ...."

"It's okay, Ra. My fault. I just can't stand it if I have to fight with you."

"When you get back to us, I feel so happy. Therefore, when it knows everything is fake, this heart feels very disappointed. I was really angry, but just now I realized that what you were doing was proof that you wanted to make me happy. Thank you very much Ken, I'm really lucky to have a husband like you."

"I did too, Ra!" Ken returned my embrace. "We face this together. Don't ever ask me to leave your life again, I won't be able to, Ra. I'm a fucking guy." Ken melted the mood jokingly.

"Yahhhh jayus!" I pretended to sulk. "But you also have to promise, Ken. Whatever happens, you have to tell me that papa asked you for something. Understand."

"Yes princess!" Ken bent his body. "Where are you going now?"

"I'm looking for food, Dinda and I are starving. You've eaten yourself yet, Ken?"

"How can I eat that since Ashar you have been self-improving. Don't talk or reply to my whats app."

"Oh my God, sorry Ken." I hugged Ken again.