BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT BEAUTIFUL

79. My Good Husband

I was still writhing spoiled in my arms, but there was a signal my mother gave me to leave immediately.

"Ra, my mom misses you too. But you're married, Ra. It's not just mom anymore, but you have to put Ken first. You are lucky, son, after the bitter incident before menika, finally God love you a good husband. You should also look after him with respect and obedience to Ken's son. God willing he is a good priest for you. Rara should be happy with Ken ya."

"Ma, uh,"

"Ra, believe me, mom will always love Rara."

"Rara also ma. If it's empty, Rara will come here."

"Yes. There's home. Poor Ken too, long waiting in front of himself." said Mama.

Just as I was about to get out of my bed, my mom suddenly called me back. "By!" said mama.

"Yes," I replied.

"Rara is happy!"

"Mama!" I went back in my mom's arms. "Rara is happy, ma. As long as you're healthy, Rara will be happy."

"Ra, stay fine with Ken huh. Rara must be strong. Whatever happens you're a good boy mama."

"Yes ma."

After kissing and hugging Mama, I came out of the room, followed by Dinda. While Mom was still lying in the room. The doctor forbade me to move a lot. Got to get plenty of rest.

"Din, don't forget, if there's anything with mom, call brother immediately. Including if papa calls mama, yes." I told Dinda who led us to the front door.

"Yes, brother." Dinda gave her thumbs up. "So calm down. Live a graceful life well with mas Ken, don't fight anymore "

"Geez, what a smart ass this big brother's sister is!" I immediately pinched his cheek, instead of getting angry, he laughed out loud.

***

In the car, I'm still talking about my mom. There is a heavy feeling of parting with mom, but this is not the first time. It feels heavier than the separation at the beginning of the wedding.

"Our house to my mother's house is close, you can go back and forth there. Or the hunt stops working so that from morning until afternoon can go to the house of the mother." proposed Ken.

"Not anything?" my many.

"It's important when I get home that you're home too. Or I'll go to mom's house. Sometimes you can also catch it if you already miss it."

"Thank you very much. I'm lucky to have a husband as good as you!"

"Where's the prize?" Ken pointed at his cheeks while smiling at me.

***

Well, negative. I threw the tespeck I just wore into the garbage can. Then cover your face with both hands. It feels really disappointed. Although our marriage had just entered the first month, but I was confident enough to soon have a baby, unfortunately, the first test immediately failed, even though it was already two days late. The words of the books I read, if it is late, then in the test usually the result is positive.

"What's wrong?" I'm thinking hard. I tried everything possible, followed by prayer. What don't-don't? I immediately shook my head, not wanting to imagine the bad-bad because worry even became prayer. Or affect health because of thought.

"How should you?" I tried to think, while walking from the bathroom in the room. Not far from the bed, there was Ken who was busy with his laptop. It's a holiday, but he's still engrossed in work.

"How's it?" ken asked, apparently now his attention was on me.

"What does he want?" I asked back.

"I think it's negative, huh?"

"Kok know?"

"Yes too."

"But if negative, usually his face is moody, frown, can even speak for itself. But don't cry."

"Mas disappointed?"

"Hm, it's normal."

"If positive?"

"Yes happy dong!"

"Then it should be sad, dong?"

"Ra, if you want to be positive quickly, in addition to maintaining health conditions, you also have to be happy because everything is interconnected, affecting each other."

"Is that so?"

"Yep!"

"Kok mas knows everything, anyway? Didn't you prepare everything when you found out Monika was pregnant?"

"Astagfirullah, my dear wife, has nothing to do with people in the past. I have prepared everything. Starting from a good wife candidate in my opinion and of course with the blessing of God, preparing everything about our prospective children, ranging from those in the custody of their mothers to later they enter university. You've read all the notes, haven't you?"

I'm nodding. Remember everything Ken wrote. He confidently wrote my name, as well as his expectations of our marriage.

"Therefore, don't associate it with the past anymore" said Ken.

"Yes-yes. But most women are. Likes to talk about the past of a couple even though it ends up hurting itself." I said.

Ken laughed, then returned to his laptop. While I was still wondering, why can't I get pregnant yet?

Actually, we are still in the first month that can be said to be still safe. No one has asked when they want to have children? Pregnant or not? But I am a typical person who seeks safety, I prefer to seek safety before being in an uncomfortable position.

I don't know how many articles about pregnancy I opened, but nothing has made my heart calm. Meanwhile, Ken has been several times back and forth out of the room. So busy with what I was looking for, until he did not realize when he came back, but already with neat clothes.

"Come with me!" take Ken.

"Where?" my many.

"Here you go, come along." Ken pulled my hand, we headed for the second floor terrace next to the house.

I don't know when Ken did it, but the veranda that originally had only a few chairs to sit around while looking at the scenery has now changed with a white decor. There are two chairs there, in the middle there is a table with a variety of delicious food.

"Mas," I stared in amazement at everything. "Do we want candle light dinner ?" my many.

"Yes no. It's not night, it's morning, baby."

"Hehehe, yes too. I'm mistaken. But I know, I used to imagine how the hell it feels to have a romantic dinner with a lover, but just imagine it because it feels impossible."

"Why is it not possible?"

"Because I'm the one who doesn't want to be complicated. For dinner like that will need careful preparation, must use the concept as well. While I if you eat yes want to eat directly, do not use complicated preparations."

"So you want to eat candle light dinner?"

"I don't want to be complicated!" I said, but Ken smiled as he nodded his head.