
The way I do in seeking knowledge is not
the same way other people seek knowledge, and
the way I did it in birth was not
like a person who seeks knowledge, but the results achieved, looking for knowledge a month will be the same as looking for knowledge of the general public in ten years.
That's why I've always been everywhere never looking for knowledge or mondok in a long period of time, it only takes a few months, and the science I have absorbed all.
The first thing I did was, I
trying to feed all the santri,
with my money, and my own energy, besides me taking knowledge, then without realizing the other students, I borrowed their energy for myself to get the reward.
All the fasting santri, I feed, then in addition to my own satisfaction, then I will get the reward of all the santri, even I cook it with my own hands, he said,
With complete willingness, because I want to take their reward why should be ashamed and uncomfortable, I am not at all ashamed, even if my cooking is cooked I wake up one by one, to eat sahur, to eat sahur, and when I opened, I neatly put food, handwashing and drinking, they didn't know that I was actually part of their reward, who gave it
eating the fasting person, dhikr, worshiping, will get the same reward as the fasting reward, without reducing the reward that is fed.
Even I am willing to find a job outside, if later get money then other students I cook again, so repeatedly. So that I like one person but use the common sense in absorbing knowledge.
What I do second, I always try
have any relics at the dhikr ceremony, or anything that can be used by many people, so that if I go though, then I still get a part if what I leave behind in use dhikr.
So even though I was not in the boarding school, I remained like a person who was always present. So my time is not busy just doing dhikr, or running amaliyah, but more trying to do something that has double value.
The third I will try to please Kyaiku, whatever makes kyaiku happy and ridho then I will do, because the knowledge is from my teacher, if my teacher is happy, and ridho, then I will do it, then all kinds of knowledge will be gladly handed down to me by my teacher, and my teacher does not feel any loss or reluctance to bring down the knowledge, he said,
If the knowledge is passed down, then I
with the spirit of running it, for my teacher to see that I am a person who is like a person who is dressed and then simply thrown away as a worn cloth.
But I will show my appreciation for that science, so that my teacher will feel good about the science given.
It doesn't matter to me that my time is up
pleasing to the teacher, because in the pesantren
time to take a bath, not time to shower,
time to study is not the time to use science.
That's where the absorption is more
which I got. Because the way I look for knowledge is different from others.
Sometimes I will be demeaned and
underestimated by other students, other students feel
I'm his servant, serving them, and
at first glance like a person who has no wealth, if if everyone knows what I get, would be scrambling to occupy my position, but most people do not
thinking that far, that's okay
humbled, to me the important thing later, I learned the most knowledge a hundred times more than other students.
Let alone tawadhu’ and obedience’atan guru, I
very prioritizing it, even more important than any santri, until I myself because tawadhu’ it to the teacher, then never
ask anything from the teacher, and not even
ever texted or called, afraid my teacher fit again
do not want to be disturbed then I even disturb, so forever never contact my teacher, until never convey my heart to the teacher, except those related to the interests of my teacher or Jama’ah, so that my teacher never conveyed my heart to the teacher, never once had anything to do with my needs, which
in my dictionary is sami’na wa ato’na,
listening and menta’ati.
While the other santri asked for this, then I never even asked for anything, I did not want to burden the teacher, for me the teacher has
give me knowledge, so I don't deserve to ask others.
And not once did I complain about the practice, if I was given practice 1 I would practice 5 x, as proof of my seriousness, and never once did I ask for a new practice, until I gave the practice to me.
Then I never took long in
In Banten I was asked for 9 months, and for nine months I spent time
to improve the event, and do
amaliyah I mentioned, and during
nine months passed quickly.
Envy is like a panu, which can
growing on anyone's skin, envy can
it grows in the heart of anyone, if it grows
the fungus because we don't like to keep
skin hygiene, then envy is growing because we do not like to keep the cleanliness of the heart.
Because of the disease because
"MA AGNA ‘ANHU MALUHU WAMA KASAB," because it does not accept with his property and the existence of his work, if we are not grateful for the pleasure, so that having property however lacking, have the knowledge to feel less, if we do not appreciate the pleasure, having a position to feel less, having anything to feel less, then the edges will arise envy with what others have, then the edges will arise envy with what others have,
No matter who else has less
from what we have.
And if the envy of that envy has grown then
our actions will be like
"KHAMALATAL KHATOB", the man who brought firewood, who burned it here.
“Mas Ian, who is patient yes.., later at home will be.
there is envy, rumored, later he will
asking for help on Ian..,”.
kyai warned me when I came home.
“InsaAlloh kyai, do’ I can be strong and
always given patience by Alloh. ” replied me.
It is true, until at home my name has been demonized by other kyai, not even
the responsibilities of badmouthing him through mosque speakers.
First I heard, I was shocked and
out of place, but after remembering the message
Kyai, then I don't care, I let it go
that said.
The mouth, and any member of the body it is
the translator of the heart, if the heart is sincere, then
whatever the body does leads to goodness, and if the heart is bad, then what the body does, including what
what is spoken by the mouth will be bad, the heart is the main source, if the source is dirty then
all the flow will be dirty.
I was thinking, bad guy
without reality, people do not
some will believe, and others will
sympathize with me, and hate the
vilifying, will also skyrocket me
getting higher in position, because he has tried to take away my sins, actually in theory I have to pay for them, because it has taken away my sins.
And what happened to me is not yet a nail, from what befell the Prophet Muhammad. That thought made me not only.....
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