Why ?

Go and Fight...

He walked gontai into the gate of his house, where he only saw mang juki who was sitting on a garden chair while enjoying coffee that afternoon.

“Good afternoon mang” said as he smilingly stepped up to sit for a while in the corner of the park chair.

While occasionally enjoying the view in front of him, where there are some flowers in the middle of blooming with fresh. He smiled again considering how he was childish when gardening with his closest people in recent years.

“Good afternoon non.! Non-exhaust from where?” asked mang juki who was sitting next to him.

“As you know, you can look for entertainment and fresh air with friends” Gres.

“Do non already know, if the master and mistress will move to Paris?" Juki Mang.

“Yes, I already know and I don't care. After all, my life from year to year will always be spent with mang also bi Ima and others. So no need to worry about this. This is common, right!” gres sela.

“But, they will stay there for a long time, fearing non can not face this, as before ever happened”. Juki Mang.

“I'm an adult. Maybe it's time I got to be independent without them. I even felt they had no part in my life, other than to go on and on giving me so much and countless money. According to mang juki it can be happy, right?!” Gres.

“Master and Mistress before leaving, had waited for non home earlier. But seeing that it was getting late, they could no longer wait. They will contact non when till later”. Juki Mang.

His wandering mind had yet to digest well what he had just said. Instantly he was startled and turned to the source of the voice and saw a middle-aged man sitting next to him.

“Wait..! They're leaving already??. Isn't tomorrow their schedule goes ?” asked Gres not to believe what he heard.

Haven't heard the answer from mang juki yet. He ran as fast as he could into the mansion, ran and opened the rooms of his parents.

There he saw nothing but empty emptiness, no words that could be broken anymore, he could no longer even cry.

Disappointment has defeated everything. He hates this situation, he hates this atmosphere and even hates himself.

Then he ran up the stairs, and ended up entering his most comfortable room, but again he felt the emptiness, the emptiness a few years ago when he had to be alone and cried in the darkness.

Here, in the corner of the room nuanced blue sky with the white roof. He cried loudly lamenting the things that were being faced and that will be faced. He had re-imagined what would happen after this.

All the people he thought he loved the most even though he never had time for his life a few years had passed, leaving him alone again.

He felt his life and presence in their midst meant nothing in their lives.

1 hour passed...

He got up from his seat, to just lay his body, which could not be supported by his legs. As soon as he saw a piece of paper with some writing on the nightstand beside the bed, he immediately picked up the paper and slowly sat down to read the contents of the paper.

To my sweet son Gres,,,,, to,,,,

I'm sorry if you can only say goodbye through this letter.

One thing mama wants you to know, dear mama Gres always and always.

Sorry if things have to force us to be what we are now.

Mama knows this is hard for you.

Papa and Mama love you so much that we have to sacrifice many things for your happiness.

Right now, you should know, adulthood is painful baby, if you are not ready to that stage you will regret many things in your life.

From here we want to train you to prepare for that, to face the adults that people often say they are.

Mama knows, you must be disappointed. But this is for your future. We have to make a lot of money to make you happy.

Buy whatever you want, spend how much money you want. We will never lack, dear.

We are struggling to find him again.

Papa and mama promise to give you everything you want and make everything you dream of. You just have to be a good boy for us

From mama

For Gres.

Instantly he collapsed and lay on the floor looking at what he had seen. They love him, but they leave him. That's what's on his mind right now.

“I don't need that much money shit. I can even live without a stack of paper of that value. I've even covered that pile of paper a lot, but never felt that happy you meant!.

I seem to have no value compared to that paper in your eyes.

What am I proud of? What do I do with that stack!

Even spending them will never get that happiness. What with money I can get affection from you.

What need I to be an adult has a lot of money like you can buy affection from you.

From childhood I have always regretted it even until now.

I hate being on top like this, at the happiest peak according to many people. But the emptiness and emptiness that I get!.” he took out all the contents of the heart that he craved at this time.

Without him realizing there were some people who were staring at him at this moment, as if they also felt what he was feeling at this moment. That's what kept him going all this time, seeing that there were still those who cared about him.

Even though they are only workers in that luxurious house. But he felt lucky to be around them.

“Non.. don't cry again, later you will be sick. What do you want auntie cooking?” said bi Ima who had embraced him.

“You must be strong, patient and always pray with God. Aunty sure you will be a good boy someday”.

He did not respond to the man's words. He was just a hiccup in the arms of the closest person in a few years, it was the most comfortable hug in life so far.

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Enter the moment that has been awaited by all students more precisely 12th grade students. They will face their final test that determines their struggle all along. Today is the first day of the exam.

“Yak..! What are life problems? Already from a month ago, like an undead wandering the earth huh? Even you have no passion anymore.” Jek shouted as they were in class while waiting for the examination supervisor to come.

“Iya. Even you've changed know no...!  Where are you who like to bacot and bully people with your rotten mouth, huh?. I'm even bored if I have to be next to this lifeless corpse” added Eca felt annoyed by her friend's recent changes.

“True what these two men said. You why Gres? What the hell's going on? Story to us. We have been friends for a long time even from Orok already know. Why have you changed for no reason?” connect Rendi.

Make no mistake if the three of them yelled at him this morning. They are bored and curious to see the behavior of Gres lately. He often stayed away from his friends.

They are hurt to see his attitude all this time, even sometimes they are upset by his behavior. He often spends his time alone without being disturbed by them.

As friends will definitely feel surprised by the changes, while they are friends already of them are still small besides Eca, who is their best friend in high school only.

But they were like brothers so to speak.

The parents of them alone had recognized them even Gres was very close to the master of his three friends. Only the parents of Gres are not too close to his friends because they are always busy with work.

They know very well the story of Gres' life, they know the boy is lonely on every side of his life if only there were none of them and the people who work at Gres' house.

They really know that Gres is a child who lacks the affection of both parents. That's why they always invite him to play at their house if they go home from school.

They know, Gres is so rich. But he did not have the kind of affection they get from every one of their parents.

But seeing Gres's life now makes them wonder. What problems he is facing.

Gres is indeed the type of person who does not like to talk about his personal problems to others, even if it is his best friend. Of the three of them, Gres is closer to Rendi because besides he is a friend from their childhood, they are also next to the house. But rarely did he devote all his burdens to Rendi, unless he could no longer. He would cry and tell her everything, and he rarely did.

“Yak.... Gres! You're deaf hah, you don't know how worried we are about seeing your changes all this time huh...!” angry with Eca because from earlier he did not hear any words spoken from the child's mouth.

“Original you know yes.we are confused as to how to see lo change !. We feel like strangers in your life with your behavior that continues like this” added Jek with a tone that is no less high as well.

“Lo thinks only you have problems living here, we also have. But with your behavior that I believe really makes me sick of knowing not! I cape see you keep kek gini, if indeed you do not have the passion of life die aja lo there. Upset me long-long” timpal Eca at the time.

“Lo should be more open same ki--.” Not yet had time for Jek to continue his words suddenly,

“BRAAAAAK!!!!”....... (table sound was hit)

“WHAT CARES YOU GUYS HAAH. WHATAA?  It's true I'm tired of living.

I asked you guys what you care?

You have no right to be angry with me.

I know I'm a pain, that's why I'm trying to get away from your life.

I know myself enough! But why do you have to keep blaming me..???

What does this have to do with you guys, huh?.

I'm even sick of all this, just so you know. If you feel overwhelmed, go....!!!

Get away from me.!

You don't feel guilty for me, this is my life, and I live it.

Why do you guys have to try to be in my position if it's boring?.” Reply Gres was angry after hitting the table strongly because he was bored in the teriaki from earlier.

He had been patient all this time because they did not understand what he was facing.

“That's because you're selfish stupid...!

that's because you feel you can respond to it all.

You never realize there is a time when you have to run and lean should.

But you are too confident to forget that we are always there for you, when your parents leave you alone son of a bitch.!” eca replied with overflowing anger as well.

“Stop calling their names in front of me shit!!!

They are not worthy to mention in front of me. You know what about them?.

You guys know what about me son of a bitch?!” gres said and left in front of his three friends.

Without caring about the quiet classroom atmosphere because of their actions. And another student who was astonished to see the quarrel of the four friends.

“Go there!! I'm sick of seeing you too. I even regret having known a selfish human like lo!.” Eca answered while pointing to Gres' departure.

Gres, who heard the last word his best friend said, immediately stopped and smiled and walked and crossed at the end of the school hall.

Rendi who saw that ran after Gres while calling him but was not ignored. He continued to run to the back of the school building and climb the wall of the school fence.

She did not even care about her current state of wearing a uniform skirt. Even this is his first time skipping school during the final exam.

He no longer cares about that. All he was thinking about right now was running and running aimlessly while crying over his selfish self. He never blamed his friends for it.

He was angry just because he needed an impingement.

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