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Recovering

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A month later....

I walked with my mom in the hospital hallway. Today is the last day I went to the doctor and have been declared to be recovering from the incident I experienced a few months ago.

We looked familiar, remembering that my mother really insisted on talking to me and kept me company when I was sick in the hospital until today, she really took a break from her job and focused on my recovery.

From here I could see my mother's tired face every time she sat down and took me out to eat.

We are currently in a car driven by Mang Juki.

Unknowingly I continued and kept looking at my mother's face, like I was lulled in that look. Yeah, I'm just looking at how far my mom has sacrificed for me. I kept asking for more when they were so persistent at work and gave me a good life.

From here I can clearly see the tired face of my mother. Also again I remember the face of papa that I always looked at from afar if he was busy opening his work files at home.

They're so nice. They are like angels, demanding nothing more of what they have given me. Maybe until today if asked how many sacrifices you have made to make them happy I would probably be in the back row.

How not as long as I am alive and present in their lives, just constantly making them worry plus I am a lot of pain, also hard of my head.

When I was caught up in that thought. Suddenly the music played at a slow volume by Mang Juki softened in my hearing

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I was so absorbed in every lyric sung that I did not realize I was a little sobbing about some things that could make me regret.

Mama who realized that, she did not talk at all. He gave me more space to enjoy.

I'm sorry, when I almost gave up on life. I blame my mother a lot, they become my impingement when I fall.

When I was down, he understood me so much, especially when I became a champion. I was so stubborn to her. I am still there to this day to see him so strong and strong. No matter what I am, he understands that I still do not understand many things that he has been diving into and treading every walk of life.

As soon as I realized he was hugging me so tightly and warmly, patting my shoulder softly and saying "Everything will be fine".

I cried even more considering how evil I was towards her. He still does not hate me and still strong to survive until I recover and better.

"I'm sorry Ma!" my words were ragged with sobs.

"Father, it's all gone. Mama is proud, you are still strong to this day!" he said softly in my ear.

"I'm already sober. I missed a lot of things. Thank you for giving me the best experience of my life" said I who still hugged him tightly.

"Thank you for still understanding me when I'm at my lowest point in life" I said slowly.

"You've been through a lot. You're all grown up. You will be a good person after picking the meaning of everything. You are strong and able to survive to this day. Forgive me for not seeing your growth well!" he said that he had wiped my tears with his fingers.

"Sorry madam, we have arrived" said mang Juki disbanding our activities.

"Oh, he thanks mang. The groceries will be taken to the kitchen!" said the mother who had invited me in because it was cold outside considering it was rainy season.

"Eh, you guys home yet?" ask Papa to welcome us.

"Yes Pa" I replied quietly and a little nervously in response to Papa's greeting.

"You sit down first. Mama get me a drink!" said mama passed to the dining room to pick up a drink that was deliberately stored in the refrigerator of the room.

"It's improving. The doctor said I'm recovering!" reply relax.

"alright. A lot of rest to be fresh again!" exclaimed Papa while gently stroking my hair.

"Hm, Pa. When can Gres get into college?" tanyaku can't wait to continue the study that has almost closed admission registration for each campus considering I am also still recovering in recent times.

"Can't wait to get into college?" ask Papa with a bright face.

"Yes. Gres time itself has not started college and other friends are already busy on campus!" I said with a look of hope to him.

"Yes, you want to study medicine at what campus let Papa tell people to register now?" ask Papa enthusiastically.

"Hm, actually. Gres has decided to take another major" I replied slowly, which suddenly Mama had gently stroked my hair

"You don't have to be afraid. Just tell me we're going to college where baby!" exclaim Mama.

"Gres doesn't want to go to doctor Pa!" kataku scared.

"Lho why not be, Papa supports you for his doctor's lecture" replied Papa focused on looking at me.

"Yes dear. Why don't you want it again?" ask Mama.

"Actually, Gres' time in the hospital. Gres can see when they take care of me, first arrive. It turns out that being a doctor doesn't suit the way I study. They're too serious to save lives and Gres can't turn out" I said at length.

"Yes, I'm still in college, baby. Later by itself you will also get used to it" said Papa reassured.

"What do you want to major in?" ask Mama slowly.

"I want to study business!" reply enthusiastically.

"Darling, Papa didn't make you take that major again. Why don't you go to college and not that major!" answer Papa.

"But Gres wants to go to college if it's a business major!" answer's sure.

"Yes already. But you're sure?" ask Papa again.

"Related Pa!!" answer's sure.

"Where do you want it on campus?" asked Papa with a face that changed increasingly exclaiming when he heard I would take the majors he wanted.

"I want to go to college X Pa!" calm answer.

"You want to go to college in New York?" exclaim Papa again.

"Yes Pa! When I was in the hospital I had been looking for a campus that matched me" I answered for sure.

"Yes, let Papa call Papa's secretary first!" exclaimed Papa who had risen to visit his study.

After that, my mom approached me and asked, "Dear, are you sure you want to go to college there?".

"Yakin Ma's. Papa said I have to study abroad. His way of life is also good!" I relax.

"Yes anyway. Mama support your choice!" said my mother who hugged me tightly.