Why ?

Trauma of the past...

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Gres POV

"I ran out of the house, not caring about your question just now. Honestly I was disappointed and also sad, they took the most frightening decision for me. To imagine that they weren't with me alone, it was hard enough to discover the fact that they would leave me alone in this country." In front of the main gate, Gres was waiting for someone to pick him up.

"while waiting for Rendi to pick me up, I returned unable to hold back my tears. I saw Papa so angry, because I didn't want to listen to them. I never fought against my parents at all. I didn't want to be independent without my parents by my side, just hearing that they would leave me alone made me think back to what happened when I was a kid. Which is capable of traumatizing me until now."

The flashback

I was 5 years old when Papa took us on vacation. At that time our family had enough. Even we already have a house in a city that is quite beautiful and comfortable, the city is indeed a place for people to come while on vacation, because of the beauty of the city. I was with my parents on vacation in the city.

Arriving there, we immediately rested at the house that papa had bought a few months before the holiday.

For three days in the city, I was so happy to enjoy the beauty of every corner of the city, starting from the beautiful beaches, he said, the flower garden is so big and there is also a zoo that is quite large.

There I could see various animals from various countries that were kept there. Let's say I'm too comfortable and comfortable in the city, so I even think I don't want to go back to Bandung which is my birthplace.

Yes we are in Indonesia settled in Bandung City. Because my father started his career in business there. Even until the success of the father did not want to move from there, the mother who wanted us to settle in Korea which is the country of his birth also relented to live in Indonesia.

Actually we also have a fairly luxurious house in Seoul Korea. We will only go there if there is a long holiday.

Back in the city where I was on vacation, I really enjoyed my days there.

Until suddenly. "Honey, papa there is an impromptu work from the office and must be completed tomorrow night, and papa must go to Bandung today" said papa while we were sitting on the porch of the house while eating snacks, more precisely, I am the only one eating.

"Can't Pa put off first?, pity Gres we've promised to accompany him this whole week." Mama asked while sitting holding my small body back then.

"Can't Ma, it's my responsibility. Papa will lose 300 billion if he does not run this project" he said at the time.

I who heard their conversation also felt discouraged, all this time I always enjoyed my days without them, because they were always busy with their work, from childhood I was always accompanied by bi Ima, because they were always busy with their work, because she's been taking care of me since I was a few months old.

Even since childhood, I was not too close to my mother, I spent more time playing with the maid at home. Well, mang juki and bi Ima were my closest people when I was a kid even now.

I started to get along with my mom, when I set foot in High School, because at that time my mom also had a permanent project in Bandung, while papa, papa, you could say he rarely had time for me even to gather together like we are now enjoying the holidays. But papa is also still busy with work for example at this time.

Without waiting any longer even papa has left for the airport now. I saw it all, just ran towards the room and pretended to sleep there. The mother who saw it couldn't say anything.

To the shock, I was already in the back garden looking at such a green and beautiful plant, for a moment I forgot the sadness that had plagued my mind so often.

Suddenly, "honey, it's lunchtime". My mother has carried my small body. We finished lunch together without talking, mom just gently stroked my head when she finished eating.

Then mama opened the voice "dear, mama today there is a little work around here with a friend from the office. It's okay if you're here with that mba, yes" while showing a housekeeper who was smiling at me.

I, who was used to it, did not answer with just a nod. My mother has left that house.

I haven't even seen any sign of my mom coming home yet. I also intend to go out of the gate to the surrounding complex of houses all want to snack I thought.

However, from far away I saw a young man who came while carrying a bottle containing a hard drink, which mama and papa often drink if they are stressed with work at home, I was scared when he arrived in front of me.

"Hi little brother, why do you walk alone huh, do you not know there are so many bad people here!" said the man while standing around me who I believed he was drunk at the time.

I became afraid that back then, my body was shaking violently from seeing the swing of that person's hand, I had expected that he would hit my head with that bottle, she said, but unfortunately my feet did not even want to step and run, I had even cried until suddenly

"YAFLIRT!!!!"

A moment it became dark I even tried to call bi Ima, only through a small murmur at that time. Yes, the name bi Ima that crossed my head at that time and after that I do not know what happened.

Realizing that I was already in a dark room that was stuffy and even smelly, which made no one would feel at home there, I felt around me there were thousands of broken glass, even others were my seat.

I felt a pain that was so painful, even my whole body had many wounds.

I was fully aware when I saw the person who hit me laughing while crying in the corner of the room.

I saw it, I felt afraid again, I saw him get up from his seat while walking towards me.

I can't even cry anymore.

"little brother, are you happy with the gift I gave you huh?, you are even too cute with that much blood. Let's play again!" he said while lifting a sharp glass shard, then the guy stabbed me in the stomach repeatedly.

Until suddenly the room became bright instantly. There I saw my mom and a lot of people standing, and when my vision became blurry and even dark, I didn't even know what was going on at the time.

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I woke up, finding the room so bright in white, and I inhaled the pungent smell of medicine. Yes, I was in the hospital, precisely in the ICU room they said.

From that incident I became afraid of the dark, I became afraid to walk alone and even became afraid of everything I faced. I was traumatized by that incident. They said I had been in the hospital for 1 year, and I was 6 when I woke up.

The doctor said I was too small to fight that severe injury that it caused me to be critical for that long.

From there, my parents were there every day, they never left me until I was completely healed.

Flashback off

When I was thinking back to that time, suddenly

"Gres, sorry to be late. I still picked up the mama" said Rendi who was standing in front of me.

I also realized and saw it looks like my friend this one will ask why I was silent without saying anything quickly I pulled his hand towards his car

"Yuk, you're really late to know!" my protest.

And we also left.

Duh, my fingers almost want to curl, type this chapter too much and difficult also make the groove must how.

But it ended up being so too...! 🤭😀

Hope the story is not boring!🤭🤪