Why ?
The Campus
11:30 GMT-5 New York, United States.
Four Days Later...
“One thing I learned in life is that we can't use the word ‘ forever’ for something that's still going on. Loving someone forever is almost impossible, but losing someone forever is possible. However, we always live for things that don't last forever. Dreams are one of them. Or things like memories are also like regrets. Or some people live for love, dreams, memories and even others_anonym”.
This is where I come, survive and live accordingly for the sake of dreams and also for the people I am privileged in life. Like a dream that will not last forever, then I try to do my best as I can reach in the gap of time.
People often say ‘parting is fun. Greet people, then say goodbye. If you want to get excited when you meet again, then you have to say a decent farewell before’.
But what if life goes wrong as planned? Could it be a cruel fate for some?
It is impossible to be the best people. Because they always leave. They always have a definite purpose, unlike me. This is when I realized it. That this life has no end. Some are impossible to be forever.
I came to this city, in this place and in the present second. There were no good-bye words I could say to those I stayed. I left quietly, without any news and even without a trace.
The people at home even know I'm going to college but don't know where I'm going. Only my parents know exactly where I am now. I begged them not to tell me anything.
Not because I want them to forget me, but I just want them to live without any awkwardness about me. I know exactly how much of my life I just spent with so many pains.
I know very well how to make them live with the fears that exist, just in case I will die and disappear from their lives when I am at the lowest point in life.
Let them enjoy life a little with freedom and no responsibility. I feel like a loser now, when people love me so much. I even care about my ego. Hopefully we will be better someday according to fate!.
“Haah, it feels like just yesterday we are still walking together after school with the status of a student. By looking at the present, we are finally occupied and separated by dreams.
Even if we see it honestly less smart in learning.
Oh yeah!! Life is really unpredictable. We have tried hard in life yesterday,” muttered me who was lulled with the view of the street in the city, beside me it seems Papa is busy with his ipad.
“How do you feel?” ask Papa beside me.
“Entahlah. I just felt the loss!” I answered with a look on the street.
“Isn't most of the lost things beautiful?” said Papa smiling.
“I don't like the rain falling. But rain is also needed!” I said that I had taken my left hand out of the car glass to feel the grains that fell and disappeared.
“Good people always disappear. It's always like that. There is never an exception. So will the people who will be left behind, they will be kind knowing that they will lose. Wh why? Hows it? Whereabouts? Whahuh? Or even like what?. In the end, there is nothing you can do. And you finally understand why you always feel sad when you see something or someone disappear!” papa said with a distant view somewhere.
“Why, why should I Pa?” I seriously looked at him.
“Because life is a series of doing many things. Although not now, you will find it again with a smile when you can really find it as a winner!” answer Papa.
“Haaah! Right said bang Fiersa ‘Medicine of all problems is overslept. After trouble again’. But even until now I am still awake,” said I relieve myself.
“Don't force your little head to think hard dear!” said Papa, shuffling my hair slowly.
“I want to be like Papa!” reply origin.
“Why is that?” tanyanya.
“Can live accordingly, as if nothing had happened. Then it became great and one of them was the kind person I had met and had in life!” I said who hugged him tightly.
“Sorry mister. Is she olnly daughter?” ask the taxi driver.
“Yes. Doesn’t she look quite chatty?” papa said mocking me.
“Yeah, she looks so observant in speaking. You are very lucky sir!” the driver answered with a warm smile.
“Do you also have a daughter?” ask the driver.
“Yes. I have a daughter too, but sadly she’s all grown up and I never hear her complain to me again,” replied the taxi driver.
“Hm, there comes a time when they will go and enjoy their own lives. Isn’t as big a loss it’s wonderful!” said Papa with a thin smile.
And the middle-aged taxi driver did not answer anymore but he just smiled in support of what Papa said just now. Because we have also arrived at the apartment that papa had prepared before.
The apartment is not too luxurious, nor does it look ordinary. It's very fitting for me to stay for the next few years. Everything is complete both kitchen furniture, sleeping tools, clothes and even everything is ready to be used.
“Perfect?” ask Papa.
“This is very wow!. Mama the best by far!” reply enthusiastically.
“That’s right!” replied Papa then passed by the next room which happened to be there are two rooms. One for me and the other for guests if anyone comes to visit me.
I cleaned myself up. Lying on my king size bed. I picked up the phone on the nightstand and dialed my mom's number.
“Halo Mama!” girang kataku.
“Hallo darling. How do you like your Mom's surprise?”
“Wah my mama is as great as it turned out to be! Very fond. Thanks Ma!” answer again.
“Ya you have just arrived, rest there so that the sore can take Papa for a walk!”
“Ok, ready Ma!” I said, ending the phone.
The tomorrow....
Today's schedule I report to campus. I was enlisted a week ago by Papa's secretary. And today, I was escorted by Papa to campus in his secretary's car that had been prepared to be used while Papa was here.
I'm not in the car, because the distance to the campus from the apartment is not too far. 10 Minutes by taxi. And it looks like for the next few years I will be a loyal taxi user in this city. Haah, he exclaimed if it was like this.
“Good morning sir Banu!” I said to Papa's secretary who had been waiting in the front garden of the campus to accompany me to report, because I did not know where the place was to take care of all his administration.
“Morning by Gres. How is New York good?” ask Mr. Banu.
“Good, very suitable for living here,” I said smile.
“OK let’s go to start everything now!” said it.
We finished all of his administration and are ready to attend college. Because the ospeknya period was finished 2 weeks ago when I was in Indonesia. After we went around the Business faculty building and browsed through its classroom. We stopped by to rest in the faculty cafeteria.
“So, from tomorrow you will enter college and this is his class schedule!” exclaim Mr. Banu thrust a paper that contains the schedule there.
“Waah, Mr. Banu has been working hard until everything has been prepared perfectly!” i admire.
“And now rate it dong what star?” ask Mr. Banu laugh.
“Five stars anyway!” enthusiastic say.
Mr. Banu is an assistant and also as a secretary Papa wherever and anything related to our family affairs he will certainly be involved a lot. He was Papa's confidant from a long time ago. They are junior seniors from college.
He is four years younger than Papa so he is certainly still more enthusiastic to work both domestic and foreign affairs related to our company and family.
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Yep. Today my lecture schedule starts at 09.00 in the morning and now I even sit back in the student seat accompanied by one of the class friends I had met just now. Name's Joana.
Today there are two courses that will take place in the classroom. Oh, like I said when I was in Indonesia if I was going to major in Business while in college. And this is where I am in business class. There are three classes divided for my generation. And I was in class B.
Not too many students because we have really arranged the division. Because according to people here, if you enter this department will be quite difficult to escape but I was surprised to be able to with a mediocre brain but can enter in class B anyway. Daebak.
It seems that after coming home from here I have to congratulate myself. How not, I just took an online test while still in Indonesia and imagine fitting the graduation announcement I entered the top 25.
Proud of me, this is not in Indonesia yes, so getting in the top 25 is common, even too low. But, this is in New York and the one taking the test is not just a little bit from different countries there!. So, never judge ourselves incapable if we have not done so!.
I enjoy every moment and every thing that is and will come to me while being grateful to have gone so far now by leaving behind many good things and some good people in their previous lives. Hopefully it will be okay with the time and destiny that has been outlined.
_04 July 2021
