Why ?

Regrets are sometimes horrible

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"Gres!!" call Sean from the outside when he realizes the door is not open.

"What is it?" sean muttered again while looking at the row of numbers on the door.

He continued to press the bell in front of him right now due to his annoyance.

He was like a person who had been collecting unpaid debts for a long time.

"Who the hell," murmured Gres in a pillow piled on his head.

He also with a new look woke up without life completely walked towards the front door slowly and lazily he opened the door.

"Who?" tanya Gres was still sleepy.

"I'm waiting for you to get some moss here" said Sean weakened and lazily stepped into his apartment.

"What are you doing here?" gres asked annoyedly at being annoyed by his presence.

"Lo forgot we're gonna walk!" sean was upset.

"Who has agreed to go the same way!" replied Gres who was already sitting while sleeping on the back of the sofa.

"Lo just woke up?" ask Sean.

"According to you?" ask Gres.

"I guess I'm new abis adventuring in another realm!" Said Sean .

"Yes I fought in the dreamland!" gres replied lazily with his eyes still closed.

"Still coughing?" ask Sean.

"Hm," murmured Gres.

"Yes, he fell asleep again" Sean said intentionally.

"Yes I have continued," said Gres who was about to step away.

"Don't, we'll walk. I'm showering there!" sean said with a smile.

"So you told me to go to sleep" said Gres lazily.

"Ga, now you're ready to go!" said Sean.

"Gue is lazy to come out" said Gres.

"Ga can you have to accompany me on my way. Do I need to help you get ready?" ask Sean with a smirk.

"Ga! No need!" gres got up and went to his room.

"Don't sleep again lo" cried Sean.

"Bodo very!" answer Gres.

"You don't come out, don't mistake me if anything happens with me in the room!" Shouted Sean satisfied while laughing crisply hearing Gres's rebuttling from his room.

"Speed Gres, don't make me change my mind!" sean replied again because it was funny with Gres saying that he seemed to be upset inside.

A few minutes later....

"So no?" asked Gres who saw Sean instead focus on his phone.

"Oh, huh?" Sean switched from his phone.

"Udah. You are also busy making me walk," grumbled Gres saw Sean busy with his phone.

"Kneel!" let Sean walk ahead of Gres.

Gres who was invited followed from behind, while walking lazily.

"We're on the make-what?" gres asked again who saw Sean walking but still focused on his phone only occasionally looking at the road.

"Leg, when we walk make hands," said Sean chuckling.

"As far as you are, I'm what. Just invited!" Gres said annoyedly.

"Baperan terribly, we make a gap motor right?" sean asked after smugly pranking the girl next to him now.

"According to you," answered Gres who stepped out of the elevator because Gres' apartment was on the 25th floor while Sean was on the 26th floor.

"Gegas mulu deh, the uglier the face!" sean laughed as he put his phone back in his jacket pocket.

"When did you become so familiar with me?" Tanya Gres raised next to her eyebrows.

"Hm, don't know either. But it also makes you upset!" Sean said he saw the behavior of Gres who was getting sweeter if he was grumbling.

"Lo play!" said Gres speeding his way from the lobby to the parking lot.

"Emang you know where I parked it?" asked Sean who stopped his steps to see Gres who had even reached the parking area.

"Seans. You disturb me once again, I'm back to sleeping!" gres was getting upset.

"Ga again, heheh-" said Sean relented.

On travel...

The atmosphere was quite awkward where Sean slowed down the speed of his motorbike until it was shaken was almost sono behind him.

"Gue Saranin, we better walk," said Gres lazy and break the atmosphere from them.

"Why is that?" Sean asked without thinking.

"Yes, walk faster than we ride a bike now!" Gres said.

"Gue doesn't want to speed Gres" Sean said, looking at Gres's face in his rear-view mirror.

"La continues?" Ask Gres in wonder.

"Where can I speed if lo aja ga handle. I'm afraid you're falling!" sean smiled as if he was thinking something.

"I've got it on, I'm sleepy to know Lo!" Gerrutu Gres who was already holding the iron right on his seat.

"Lo if you look at people, they will be serious," said Sean laughed lightly.

"Why is that, I'm not funny!" Gres Seru.

"Gue asked you, which village people ride their motorbikes in Lo cake iron?" ask Sean.

"Hold here, gapapa let's not fall!" Exclaimed Sean who had pulled one hand Gres and put it right on his waist.

"Ta-" Gres' speech was cut off.

"Well, which one of your hands?" sean said and pulled his hand to hold.

"Gue speeding gapapa?" Ask Sean again.

Gres who was made so nervous and did not answer Sean's question just now.

He was busy looking at Sean's back.

"Have a tight hug to fall!" Exclaimed Sean who has driven his bike fast.

They also arrived somewhere, which is filled with many lights on every tree that rows straight endless and in front of them they are like a vast field filled with green grass but there are already several tables that can sit by visitor. There are some people also in the place can be said quite a lot of visitors.

Sean had already pulled Gres' hand slowly and occupied the table he had ordered before.

Yes, they should book a table in advance if they want to spend the night with friends or others.

There they could see the stars freely without any obstructions because the trees were just a row straight behind the field like the park.

"Wow!!! I just found out there's such a beautiful place!" gres said in amazement.

"Yes, you just know, people lo nyampe here have never been anywhere other than the campus, the same cafe mall right!" said Sean glanced at Gres who continued to look if.

"He did. The place is great!" said Gres who had sat sweetly at the end table arranged by the owner.

Sean deliberately chose the last place so that no one would interfere with his time with Gres.

"Where do you like it?" Sean asked smiling.

"Like! Do you come here often?" gres asked again to look at the sight of the lights that were deliberately hanging on the trees a little away from their table.

"Gue used to come here for his holidays in New York!" sean exclaimed with a long view into the vast field.

"Since when?" ask Gres curiously.

"When Junior High, I often vacation here because my parents also settled in this city!" sean turned to look at Gres.

"Hm, yes. You have known the area for a long time, so it's natural that you already know a lot of places here," said Gres.

"Yes. I often spend time alone sometimes also the same Junior High friends I used to be here!" sean's Story.

"Lo SMPnya here?" ask Gres.

"Yes. I graduated a new Junior High School to Indo!" Said Sean.

"It's worth knowing a lot" said Gres rolling his eyeballs.

"Heheh, heh!" Answer Sean.

"Lo don't get bored here, SMP already here continue to lecture as well?" gres asked as he sipped his drink.

"To be precise, I have no other purpose than in this city!" exclaim Sean.

"Why is that, there aren't many campuses out there even better than New York!" exclaiming Gres.

"Gue just wanted to spend a few moments of my life here, because of someone!" sean looked straight ahead.

"Oh, it's appropriate that you have no other purpose" Gres said, not asking again for fear of impressing with reference to Sean's privacy.

"Lo don't ask me who's someone I mean?" sean asked, staring into the shade of Gres' eyes.

"I don't think I have any rights to it regarding your privacy!" answer Gres.

"But somehow, I feel you deserve it!" sean smiled back.

"Huhah, where is there? I'm not comfortable talking about something that has to do with someone's privacy!" gres smiled.

"Well, I want to tell you who it is" said Sean smiled warmly.

"Lo doesn't need a story. I'm not a person to be trusted for such a thing!" Answer Gres again.

"That guy, it's so pretty. She's a good girl. His smile is also sweet, Being able to be a meaningful person in his life is something I never loved. Amazingly he can make me feel loved and is able to disappoint him at the same time. Even so, I still love him until this moment," said Sean with a distant view.

"That means a lot to you!" said Gres who was involved in the story.

"If possible, maybe more than that!" Said Sean staring in the shade of Gres' face.

"Then, why don't you introduce her to me?" gres asked while enjoying a warm coffee.

"Unfortunately, he can't be found!" Said Sean.

"Where's he going?" ask Gres again.

"Somewhere I've never been!" answer Sean.

"Where is he?" gres asked, getting curious.

"Gue doesn't know. They will always leave, they always have a purpose and everyone I love always does. And that's when I realized it. I don't have a destination if I see every trace of it, it's true that this life has no end" Sean said.

"Maybe what you mean" Gres paused when Sean answered him.

"Yes. Mom just left, even to apologize I didn't have time. He died when I was devastated and still hated him!" said Sean who might even have with teary eyes if Gres closer to see it.

"Gue didn't know what was going on between you and Mama Lo at the time. But, I just want to say to you life will not stop when we have lost a lot of things. In fact some of the missing are also beautiful at the right time!" gres said with a warm look at Sean's bead.

"But, I was even able to disappoint and hate him at the right time!" sean said looking down.

"Lo ain't hating. You just don't know the right way to love and love him" replied Gres who had gently pulled Sean's body docked and hugged him to provide reinforcement.

"Maybe you're right, I'm not interested in showing my feelings turned out!" replied Sean whose hand had already hugged Gres' body.

"Where is he now?" ask Gres quietly.

"It's not far from here!" sean replied back to sit next to Gres and forced a smile.

"Next time you can take me there with you!" said Gres gently.

And true in life, regret and unreality compared to fear, are more terrible many times over.

And some of those who experience this never escape the reality of life that is a little complicated, but they look fine to people who don't know how hard life is.

_Sunday, 08 August 2021