Why ?

Sorry Sajalah

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It's been a week that Sean really doesn't want to talk to me even if I'm ignored at all.

Is that big of a problem until he doesn't want to talk to me?

Yesterday in the cross-interest lecture room he chose not to enter and ended up me alone accompanied by Mark in class.

Even Mark also asked if we were better yet?

This time I was taken away, boy. Not good either. But yeah how to try. I don't think I'm wrong. And it seems like he is really angry at the same trivial thing in my opinion.

And I decided to give up and apologize even if I'm not wrong.

Is it true, my time is close to Mark when he became angry?

Not funny, right!

But given his attitude this week, it scared me to bacot again. I might break up with the boy.

For the sake of seeking justice and tranquility, this afternoon I was waiting for his return in the apartment. So diligent, I waited in front of the parking lot downstairs imagine.

Yes, besides being diligent, I also miss the same boy. I haven't seen you in a long time, even if it's only been a few days. But his absence makes me feel guilty and much more.

I can guess, maybe this week he spent his time working in the office alone. That's why I never saw it on campus. Passing in the elevator of the apartment was never so I had to take the decision to wait for him downstairs. While monitoring the arrival of the car that I memorized properly. Although he sometimes makes motorcycles too.

And you know, I've been in the waiting chair for almost half an hour downstairs. Don't ask me what my frustration is like, which I'm obviously cursing in my heart right now.

Because the figure I'm waiting for is not yet visible, is it possible to prank me or indeed he is not wanting to go home but I don't know.

Why do I mendumel like that, because this is also I did yesterday. Yes, yesterday I was also waiting for him to come home which ended me not seeing his idol stem at all. Only difference yesterday I was waiting in the waiting chair at the door of his apartment.

Ah, if you go back to telling me about it makes me ride the apoplexy.

I feel stupid just waiting for his return in front of his apartment which is clearly there is a camera. Of course he has seen all my activities, from me pressing the bell of his apartment to knock on the door and ended up banging on the door. I'm sure I was played yesterday by him.

How not, because it was almost late at night I waited even he still did not seem to, in the end I returned to my apartment and just slept to wait for this day again. I was even willing to cancel our streets in order to get sorry from him who was waiting just now.

It's almost dark...

Since the lights surrounding our apartment building were many and remained on all night then night would still be day in my vision now. Whatever object I see will be very clear. The same with the arrival of the car that I was waiting for from yesterday did not escape my observation now.

"Hahhhh!!! Finally the long-awaited master went home too!" I said after taking a rough breath.

"Gapain try, still a long time in the car! Is it still eating in there?" I'm upset that I haven't seen any signs of him coming out.

My position is now standing and ready to go hand in hand with him who is almost in front of me.

I thought he was going to rebuke me after a few days. But, he passed by without even looking.

In the end I threw away the ego and walked quickly beside it while trying to reach his hand to be held. And it worked.

"Sean!" call me a little upset.

"Are you going to keep going like this? Don't talk at all or keep assuming I don't exist, hm?" my question is blocking his way.

Much the same. Even the cute attitude that I feel maybe if I recall I will be disgusted and vomit times yes. Not at all influential. Woah, it seems like he is really angry right now. So I also decided to hold his hand with a position to hold my hand because I did not lie I really miss the same boy. I love the perfume and much more. The point is, I miss the same guy.

In the elevator that would take us upstairs we didn't talk unless I kept sticking to it. He wants to talk but the results are nil.

Up to the 25th floor the elevator stopped it managed to make it a little wrinkle on his face because I did not see me out of the elevator because my apartment on the 25th floor.

I also chose to remain silent and continue holding her hand without caring about her confusion now.

He who feels no movement from me also chose to press again the 26th floor where the apartment is located and of course with me who still continues to be next to him now.

In the apartment...

"Lo why the hell?" That's my question that maybe the umpteenth time I throw while continuing to follow Sean's steps where he walked around the apartment.

Until when he entered his room. I stopped following him. Because as long as we were friends, I never went in his room even though he may have been in my apartment many times.

It's not that he's a nag or anything, but I understand and know very well how to take care and respect people's privacy. After all, he entered my room not because he wanted to. He often came in because it coincided I was sick or there was an item that needed to be moved and I happened to not be able to lift that heavy so I needed his help even though we ended up sometimes spending time on the balcony of the apartment the hell because a little relieving tired while looking at the view outside from the top of the building after our activity maybe. But that is rare too.

Returning to my current activities is to choose to sit on the floor next to the door of his room with a little leaning against the wall while waiting for him who has not also come out of the room. I'm sure he's cleaning up in there but even the time he needs is why it's so long.

Because tired of standing and also tired from the afternoon waiting plus walking to follow where he went I was sitting limp on the floor now.

Not because there are no chairs in this room, it's just that I am very lazy to step with a distance of 5 meters maybe from the existence of the sofa there.

An hour later...

The door to the room was open, and one thing that I didn't even want to stand up for now is to wait for when Sean's startled reaction stopped and his gaze came when I saw him sitting down here.

"Why not!" He answered briefly for the first time he spoke.

"But I want to know what your reason is? We don't fight either!" Teach lips.

"Don't look for excuses from me. Find it yourself!" he said while continuing to walk in front there is a table like a pantrylah to make drinks and so forth

"To me?" I asked a little wonder.

"Now you want to hear the answer, right? You are curious about my answer, and also feel a little sad. If you want to get the answer okay. Do something sweet for me!" It is becoming more confused with me.

"Gue... To lo?" Ask again.

"Yes, my time.  Why, is it so hard for you?" Speech is not like a question but it's like a mockery to me now.

"Sean, it's like a complicated mathematical function formula. Can't we just get it done objectively or rather easily!" memelas.

"Just want something easy. I know very well how I am different from you!" His words are increasingly confusing me and I'm sure you guys are not confused. The problem is just because my country was a little spoiled to Mark last week, in the opinion of this complicated man more precisely. Even though I was a little emotional and ended up we bacot.

"Then give me a hint to correct my mistake! Yes, I was wrong!" I said in a low tone at the end.

"Get out there, and leave me alone. Don't meet me, until you can think of that sweet thing with your clever head. Bye bye!" he said more ambiguous as he walked to his study next to his room with his coffee glass. Yes, I know some corners of this apartment, because I also often play here.

After hearing his words just now my heart ached a little as he said. But I don't cry. I'm strong, not crying sumvah:v

I ended up walking from the living room to the living room in front. When I almost grabbed the doorknob I thought a little. Maybe he's messing with me again?

In the end, I did not know the shame back back and sit on the living room sofa and grabbed the remote tv and ended up watching while snacking on the food available in front of me now.

Make no mistake, even though the complicated man almost rarely spends time just sitting and snacking while watching television, but the food stock is always there every time I come here. And in the end it was just me eating snacks in this room anyway as far as I know.

A few hours passed....

The day is getting late, making me realize that I watched while eating in this room for a long time. I also felt I could not endure the sleepiness anymore.

But, I don't want to end up sleeping here, no matter what happens the cave doesn't want to sleep here. Because all this time, I just often play and never sleep here huh.

I finally got up and went to Sean's office, whose door was closed. After knocking it repeatedly and there is no answer at all I also mutuskan to leave alone.

"Seans. I know you're still inside. After I thought, yes, I was wrong. I'm sorry! I don't want our friendship to be stretched only trivial things, so I choose to give in," I said with my drowsiness that had been lost, but because of the atmosphere that supported me finally brought feelings. Recalling my struggle from last week to apologize to him feels not appreciated at all. I realize now my eyes are a little teary.

Then I continued saying I "gue do not know if the trivial problem in my opinion, it turns out a big problem for you! That's why I chose to put aside my ego and come to talk to you. You may need to know, to get here and successfully meet you, I already feel I have to do a lot of things. You probably don't know how hard I'm going to make our relationship good again. I'm willing to also wait for you in a little time and a long time that ended in a few days yesterday you still can't meet.

If I can be honest, even now I still feel a little innocent as what happened last week. I even feel like we're being childish now with trivialities. But I forget, everyone has a different perspective on some things. And maybe we are different from that point of view. So, I'm sorry if I was wrong according to you!

And now I've come, and I don't think I wasted my precious time from yesterday just for today!" I said with tears that had fallen for the second time now. I left that place after saying good night and thanking you.

When I managed to pull the doorknob of the apartment, I stepped out and pulled the door closed.

However, I was slightly jolted by the sudden pull of my hands from inside the apartment.

"Don't go! Sorry," he said, who had managed to pull my body into his arms now. Yeah, he hugged me tight. He kept wiping my back while saying sorry for the umpteenth time.

"Sorry me! I just wanted to do lo! But, I ended up too deep into the role to make you cry!" He said the more tightened his embrace, I even kissed his breastbone now because of the tightness of this hug.

"Gue see all you've done this week. I know all what you're doing. I even know if you cancel the event with your friends just because you want to come to me. I'm not angry anymore. I was just upset at the same time, but now it's not," he said with the same position.

"Yesterday I know, you've been waiting for me from afternoon until night. It's not that I don't want to go home but I have a little problem in the company. And it was so early so I didn't perfect your samperin. The next morning I also rushed to the office and ended up turning it over this afternoon. I'm sorry!" He said in a low voice and felt guilty.

I'm not even talking about anything now other than returning his arms and calming down because of all the words he just made me cry. Go on, go to my baby girl now. And now he's comfortable in his arms. I also wonder what is happening now. But, I want to be a little selfish in the same situation, so I let this happen for a while without full awareness.

"Gres!" Call him in a low voice.

"Hm?" I only answered deheman.

"Don't cry anymore!" he's loosening our embrace now.

"No more! Anyway why the hell, so it ends up in the gini?" I said I was upset trying not to face him.

"Heheh, where have you seen his face! It's so red in the face, it's in the tomatoes!" His eyes again, continuing to chuckle.

"Hiss, what the hell. I'm going back, I'm going back!" I'm getting pissed.

"Eh, who's behind you? Oh, you're just here!" he said he had pulled my little body in and he closed the door.

"Gue's coming back!" I said firmly.

"can't. We just got better. And besides, we have not met for a long time if you forget," he said, who still grabbed my body towards the living room sofa.

And it ends that we get better and continue our activities with I can order whatever food I want.

^^^^_25 Oct. 2021^^^