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Are You Not Going Back?

^^^“So far as the foot steps home is the most comfortable place to go home that is always missed. Sometimes we come back and go home after walking a long way and feel a lot of fatigue. We are no longer the boys we used to be, but we will return with all the work waiting and responsibility. We've been working well. We are independent. It's time to go back and work while staring at the radiant laughter of our loved ones."^^^

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He was busy preparing many things to take home. He may not be here anymore, but in his mind one time he will just stop by while remembering the difficult times that many have missed in this place.

After making sure there was nothing left, he relaxed a little while waiting for his best friend who will take him to the airport this morning.

For a moment he enjoyed the apartment he occupied these past few years made him a little shaken as if not willing to leave everything that quickly.

He has written many stories in this place, in this city. He really lived out how life treated him with so many colors.

As his phone rang clearly between the silence quickly he scratched his green button, “Halo Ma!” when I know who called him.

“When do you come home? Do you need Mama and Papa to come to pick you up?” said the mother across there.

“Looks like Rendi didn't come home first Ma. Still sitting here. Lagian Rendi also has a wife, Ma!” he said he was judging the greatest woman in his life. He deliberately did not tell her his return.

“Yak. The boy!! You'll know the consequences if you don't come back! Don't you miss your mom this huh?” said the mother dramatizes.

“I've forgotten my way home Ma. Tell Papa I need another few years to get back.” Said Rendi giggling without a sound. He is sure that there is a tense atmosphere due to the mother who died.

“Yak! Come back if you don't want to get crossed out of the family card!” said the mother was upset to be played by her only child.

“Ia Ma. Rendi will be home. But do not know exactly when, there is still a lot that I take care of first before returning.” Said Rendi.

“Good. Get enough rest. You've been a lot tired all this time, whenever you come back Mama will be waiting for you. It was yes. Mama wants to hangout with aunt Siena now, she has been waiting for Mama from earlier.” said the mother was excited.

“Iya Ma. Greetings to aunt Siena. Sometimes Rendi will call aunt for news exchange,” said Rendi with a phone that has been ended by the mother.

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“Woah, soon I will meet those who in difficult times have met and do not greet each other. How are they doing huh? om Radit, aunt Siena especially lo, how are you? It was a long time ago. I hope they are better than yesterday.” Rendi realized the greeting of her friend who would drive her today.

“Uda ready?” ask her best friend.

“Udah nih, just left aja.”

“Woah, it does not feel yes we will today separate and return to the real house. Don't forget me bro! Success make lo.”

“Time goes by so fast. You're right we didn't expect today it turned out we'd be apart. Thank you for this togetherness. I promise I will not escape lo. success for us.”

“Ayok berangakat!”

Airpot Frankfurt am Main in Germany...^^^

“Be careful Bro! Whenever I have time I will go to Indo.”

“Thank you so much Max. If I have a vacation here later. Do not forget to go to Indo for a vacation. I'll wait there. Happy parting!” rendi patted his best friend Max on the back when he was about to part.

“Gue will be there later. Greetings to your parents! happy parting and congratulations to your destination!” he stared at Rendi's shoulder which was getting away from his sight. They are good friends. He is grateful to have known the figure of Rendi in his country of birth, “See you next again Brother!” he said silently accompanied the steps of Rendi who turned to wave at the entrance at the end there.

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While elsewhere....

SIENA and RENATA take a walk.

“Mba Rena! Emang Rendi already want to go back Indo?” Siena was a little surprised to hear it at home when she talked to the child.

“Iya dong's. I don't know exactly when he will be back. Well, he should go home. Poor father worked too hard without stopping every day. I hope that with her return, can ease the company so that her father takes a little break,”

“Mba facts. Moreover, son Rendi a boy, it is time he began to work.”

“When he comes back later. The company will be given to him to lead. His father was old enough to lead. They are waiting for him to come back now. But the boy still wanted to relax. That's why I'm a little upset if he pranks me a lot instead of not coming home like he said.

“Heheh, son Rendi has never changed. When I was with Gres too, I often saw him loading Gres much upset. Well, if you remember it they were so close yeah, baby I didn't spend my time to see and monitor their growth from childhood. You are very lucky to be able to squirm Rendi and Gres grow and develop from time to time until they mature and choose their path.” Siena slightly smiled with regret for a much missed time.

“You can see them growing and improving themselves well as they grow up. You still have a chance. Come together to see and monitor them back and see the mistakes and decisions they made under the pretext of growing up! We still have one more chance, before they get married and choose their way again,” Renata smiles broadly while embracing her best friend who is back with her after almost 2 more years they are back to meet and be together. When Siena went on hiatus from her job she did spend a lot of time fully with Renata to date. They spend a lot of time together.

Siena is without her husband beside her while Renata tries to rouse Siena from her past regrets.

“Hm. Let's work together again for that. I hope Gres can also come back someday. So that we can monitor them both with the observant look we have.”

“Gres good boy. He just needs a little more time to get back. Can't she be contacted yet?” Renata still embraces the arms of her best friend.

“After attending her graduation event 3 months ago. He could not be contacted again. I hope he's okay. I knew he would be fine even if I wasn't with him. He is an adult and lives well by his own choice and manner. Makes me think a little bit back. I was so cruel as it turned out, letting her live without the presence of a mother figure throughout the course of her youth. It's only natural that he never told me again.

When I heard he was going to graduation at the time, I was shocked.

When I closed my eyes and re-opened my eyes so soon she had just graduated. I felt like I wasn't giving her anything, but she brought success that I didn't know exactly how she faced so many hardships. I was a failed mother to him. It became even more painful as he thanked me for being at the peak of his success without knowing how to wake up from the beginning. I felt a lot of strangeness in my chest. I wanted to go far away and disappear at that moment. But I'm selfishly proud of his achievements.” Siena chuckled softly in her words.

“Gres good boy. He will not remember it as a painful thing. He is a man who understands well. Dear if you are not grateful and spend time regretting today. You know it's still there and you still have a chance to start again. I'm sure he'll take you well. You guys just need time to get back near.” Renata strengthens his best friend.

“Thank you so much for giving me a lot of encouragement and motivation so far. Sorry not to be a good friend for the past or present.”

“You did your best. Stay how you try to make your family back in warmth for now, that's what Gres needs if he comes back later.”

“Hm. You're right I should be even more excited before Gres actually comes back and meets me when I haven't done anything for him!” siena returned the hug of her best friend.

“Let's first wait for Rendi to return. We start with that kid alone.” Said Renata who ended their laughter and thoughts while looking at the atmosphere of the city park in the afternoon that time.

“Mama will be waiting for you to come home. I don't know when exactly. I have missed so many things in my life to be with you. I can make sure you will make it more valuable after you return and find all the past has faded away with time to tell a warm smile and warm atmosphere in the house, outside the house and where we are.

I hope you still give me a little bit of time to live together and improve. Sorry Mama Gres. Mama is selfish but Mama misses you baby! Come back. Mama realized mama didn't even have the guts to call you and ask you to come back for Me or for PapaMU even for our family. You are too tired if I have to do it. more precisely now Mama will just wait while improving herself to be more appropriate.” Inner Siena in a hopeful smile.

“Gres! If you can hear me now. Mama Rena just wanted to say. Go home! Your arrival is being awaited for such a long time by the figure of the beautiful woman beside me right now. He was so sorry for everything about the past. Mama Rena saw it for herself, she lives in regret to this day. He even pretended to be good for every circumstance. Randy will be back too. Don't you miss childhood together and getting back together in the present? Hope you're okay. If you are still tired, it is okay, you still have time to rest again. The point is for now, you still have the mind to go back and go home later. We're waiting for you!” inner Renata while looking far into the streets and occasionally glancing at her best friend who sat down sweetly with her eyes full of meaning.

^^^_22 des. 2021^^