The Treason of First Love

Chapter 61. Distant

I've had a month at the new school, but almost every day after school I go to Halim. To meet my old friends there. 

"R.. Why move anyway?" Ask Ka Beno who still does not accept if I change schools.

"I'm sorry Ka... It's my mother's will." I answered with sadness. 

"Seriously deh, drumband there is no difference how it feels. Especially if you are second deputy here. I'm really sad." Answer Ka Beno.

Suddenly, Yori entered into the drumband room. 

"Lo here? Didn't say it?" Ask Yori while sitting next to me. 

"Yeah... I'm here every time I want to practice drumband Yor." Reply slowly.

"I want to go ahead first.." Said Yori who instantly stood up and exited the drumband room. 

I felt that Yori had started to change again, becoming more and more indifferent and distant with me. I'm the one who's trying to be loyal even though we're not one school but it looks like Yori can't be dating like this.

"R...." Call Ka Fero who has been busy playing the drum stick since.

"Why are you?" 

"Sori yes.. I don't mean. You're the same Yori, right?" 

"Still dating her point?" 

"Yeah.."

"Oh... Gapapa. I thought you broke up with Yori."

"Definitely you often see him together with Lani huh?"

Ka Fero was silent as I said so. I did have a hunch that Yori was often both at school with Lani. Even though I was far from him, but my friends always contacted me and always talked about Yori who was getting along with Lani. 

"Lo do not continue - continue to hurt yourself deh Ri. Moreover, you are already far different schools, have mending lo focus just the same education lo. There are still a lot of guys out there who want to be the same. Lo beautiful, pinter, talented. What's again? I have lahhh yaa.. You are like me.. I don't want to see you sad." Ka Fero replied like he was advising me.

"Yes, thank you Ka...." I only answered briefly because I was no longer able to survive. I've been hard sustaining my life up and down this. Who had to change schools just because someone like Zayn, then know his own girlfriend continues - continue to play with fire with former friends, my education dropped. I feel my psychic has been very shaken at this time let alone hear the stories from friends about Yori continues. I'm like her boyfriend but it's just status. But it feels like it's been the same other person even it's Lani my own former best friend. I haven't considered him a friend for a long time, I don't want to be close to Lani anymore. To be close to him is heartbreaking. 

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It has been a few days that I have not communicated with Yori, I feel that Yori is starting to distance her like keeping a distance from me. Even to start a communication I was confused. Several times Mama asked me about Yori, but I always lied and answered her well. I don't want Mama to be sad if Mama knows that my relationship is getting bad with Yori even Mama doesn't know that Yori is playing with Lani behind me. Maybe if Mama finds out, Mama will scold me, Yori is also Lani. As much as possible I don't have to share my grief with my parents. Enough of their burden is my education alone, not with the grievance of my sad romance. 

"R... How's school? You can adapt, right?" Mom asked when we were both having dinner. Don't ask me where you are... As usual, you must be practicing today not to go home. 

"Alhamdulillah can do Ma, this is me chasing the material really." 

"Yesa anyway you are the spirit yes son, Mama and I must support you through prayer and spirit." 

"Yes Ma..." 

I have to show them good performance. I had to give up my pain against Yori, I was more willing to lose Yori than I was to fall into education.