The Treason of First Love

Chapter 48. My feelings

Today I enjoyed the cool air after the rain stopped, enjoying the humid air. I enjoyed it by closing my eyes and imagining a beautiful one, imagining when I was walking alone with Yori. Hand in hand and laugh together, feeling the heartbeat between us. If only my relationship was like that, I would be the happiest woman. 

"Why Ri?" Suddenly, someone approached me.

I opened my eyes and looked. "Eh.... Ky... I enjoy the rain again."

"Where's yori?"Which turned out to be Rizky who came to me, he was my new friend. 

Rizky is a transfer boy from Bandung.

"Again kemennya time - temennya." Answer's short.

"Lo sad Ri? Same story as me." Rizky looked at me sharply.

"Not Ky. I'm fine - all right..." 

"Lo want what?"

"What's Ky."

"The two are actually dating or not Ri?"

"Ky's date.yahh but that's it." I let out a breath.

"When did you date her?"

"Yahh from the fit want to raise the class anyway. But the deck's been in Ky's first grade from the beginning."

"old dong.. Why is it like Yori Cuek's attitude to lo ya Ri?"

"That is Yori Ky. But I don't mind that either." 

"lik! I can see your eyes Ri. You can't lie to me Ri, you don't want Yori to be that. Lo want Yori tuh care same lo, often chat together lo. But he is more often as cool as his friends, more cool with his own world. She has a boyfriend." 

"Huh? Lo pretty Ri, fine. Why do you know ah...!" Rizky answered with emotion.

"Key... I'm not as good as you think. I have a lot of lack, a lot of feelings. Yes really you said, I lied if I was fine fine just the same attitude Yori that. But I can't ask him to be the guy I want to be, can I? Care, well straight to me, not cool with his own world and friends. Not Ky, I can't.... I know what Yori is, don't like to be banned and regulated - set up and I appreciate that. I want to understand his nature."

"Damn Yori. I want to beat him Ri. How dear is she, Ri?" I saw Rizky clenching her hands and like she wanted to hit.

"Ky, I love Yori." I immediately held onto Rizky's hand, then I saw her hand no longer clenched. 

"Yaudah instead of seeing you sad we sing yuk, I take the guitar first yes." Rizky then tried to change her expression.

Rizky picked up her guitar in class, and went back to where I sat and we sang together. I'm glad to know Rizky, he's a good man. Even though he and I just met, but we're so close. She was like a big sister to me, able to protect me and able to calm my heart while I was thinking about Yori's attitude. 

***

"R. The end of this is often dumb, right?" Ask Ka Romi while I'm daydreaming.

"Gue seems dizzy again Ka, a lot of tasks." I replied with a blank look.

"Fokus dong Ri, this is soon also we will want the inauguration of the chairman and new deputy loh." 

"Yes sorry Ka..." 

"You have personal problems you don't need to bring - take it to the drumband." Ka Romi replied as if warning me. 

"Yeah Ka. Fine." 

It seems like the end of this I was not focused on training or studying, because I began to feel my relationship with Yori was getting worse, Yori was busier than usual. Even a few times I have seen Yori together with Lani. And Yori is getting further away from me. 

Now my feelings are really not good, I can't focus on anything. More silence.