The Perfect Happiness

S3 - Eps 150

Pov Shilla.

I am not a woman who is good at covering up the feelings in my heart. And I'm not a woman who can afford to say that everything's fine. Even I am not a hypocritical woman, who cannot feel jealous of the past of my loved ones.

I am also a human being, just like any other woman. Who has a sense of emotional when listening about the past of his partner. Even if it's been too many years.

In my tears this time, I only felt a doubt that I realized too late. I cried for her before, but not for a woman and not for a secret she was hiding.

Though he never lied to me, wherever he stepped, wherever he went. He always tells the truth. But as soon as he heard the conversation with Lisa that was unintentionally earlier, I didn't know why the wall of trust that I had built all this time, to protect our wedding ark seemed to collapse instantly.

A flashback to my memory of events from a few months ago is now back.

Makes my brain string together one sentence at a time that he had said at that time.

I think he fought desperately to protect his sister. But I didn't think he had any other intentions that I didn't realize. Rela did all that just to protect the woman in her past.

And stupidly I was too good to do all that. Continue to support her to protect her family, who also protect her.

My eyes just kept dripping with details after grains of sadness. Between having to believe and forgetting or not believing and putting an end to all this. I can't accept being treated like this.

In a slow sobbing that sounded in my own ear, I tried slowly to stop it, making myself calm by itself while staring at the face of our first child. When that happened, he thought of the woman?

I don't know, it's really like these eyes are closed, forget everything that happened a few hours, even though this heart has just been sliced sharply.

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Tika POVs.

The time has shown at 8 pm, the sky is getting thicker and the air is getting cooler. Made me and Jefri decide to go home with mama. End Lisa and Alex's happy day.

"Go home first yes, congratulations again. Healthy continues the same smoothly until the day." Jefri hugs Alex followed by Haikal. I also hugged Lisa. Then Mama also hugged him.

Lisa, Alex and Reza drove us to the front yard, and then we bailed right into the car. Haikal went straight to his hospital. Because there is another task waiting for him there.

Arriving at home, while climbing the stairs to the room, I heard the sound of water rustling from the backyard. I looked around, but I could also guess who was there.

"Well, let me go" I asked to prevent you from looking into the backyard.

Then I handed over Nahtan who was in my arms to Mamah to bring him into my room, while Naila was already in the arms of Jefri.

I stepped into the kitchen and then to the exit connected to bi Mince's room, and opened the cupboard back there to pick up a towel. Then back to the swimming pool.

From a distance I could see it must be Max, because there was a puff of cigarette smoke lying on the edge of the pool. Slowly I sat down next to the cigarette ashtray, then finished the cigarette. Waiting for Max to come back to the surface.

I had heard the flapping of water as he swam, but at this moment I saw him who was just diving, sitting there. I put my hand in the pool and touched his ear. He made her appear again and was surprised to see me.

"Just home?" he asked for it after wiping his face. I just nodded.

Then Max came out of the pool, without the need for a ladder. With both hands, he was able to do that. I was a little surprised to see him coming out of the pool, complete with all the clothes he was wearing at the party. Just less his suit.

I gave her the towel I had prepared for her earlier. Max accepted it, then rubbed the cloth over his face. "Berantem with Shilla?"

That sentence just came out of my mouth without me expecting it. Max immediately nodded at me. Staring at me with his sharp eyes. "Why know?" he asked while reaching for his cigarette box, then igniting a cigarette that had been tucked between his mouth.

I exhale with my mouth expanding. Damnit damnit! I don't want to have to interfere in this. Because I don't want to go back to having problems. It's enough that I have endless problems. Max and Shilla don't make it.

"Shilla was talking to Lisa this afternoon. When you sit together he's on the sofa behind his house. He's heard it all, even though you didn't talk too much at the time." I also told Max that Shila had cried after hearing everything, but I did not divulge to Max about what Shilla's heart poured out on me.

And from that moment on, I felt guilty for Shilla, because I couldn't be a good sister-in-law to her.

Shilla is from a family that is. But that doesn't mean he lives in happiness every day, does it?

"I never told her about Lisa. Because I think it's the past. And he never asked me about my past, so why would I tell you a story?"

"Max, don't defend yourself. You were worried, right? Although you ended up choosing Shilla, I as a woman didn't allow that attitude." I'm insisting.

"If you want to keep Shilla and your marriage, do it on your heart's basis, not because you have children. Your children are not a burden, they are a gift."

"I knew. I told that to Shilla, too. I realized I was wrong not to tell the whole story" said Max in the end.

"If I were in Shilla's position, maybe I'd think the same as I do now" I said, staring at Max, who was staring blankly at his hand. "I would have thought that your kindness a few months ago had a different meaning" I said with a sharp look at him.

Actually what I did was one of my ways to tell her, that this was the pain that Shilla was going through. So Max can think more maturely before acting tomorrow or even tonight. For I fear that he will go out of this house just to find some momentary pleasure out there.

"How long have you not had dinner together?" Suddenly I asked Max a silly question.

Max looked surprised, "I mean?"

"Try him out tomorrow, kids, let me take care of him. You're as clear as he is your sincerity." I stood up and turned around to walk towards the room.

I said something to him before, touching his shoulder. "Clearly use the heart. I don't want to have a sister who is 'duren'."

***

"Who's swimming gini nights?" jefri asked when I saw me go into the room.

He had cleaned himself, even changed his clothes. Now he was sitting on the bed with a book in his hand. I don't know what book.

"Max," I replied as I stepped into the sleeping box of my two children. Check out my two children who are still asleep.

Especially what is done by babies under 5 years old, if not sleeping and drinking breast milk. But suddenly Jefri's hands were coiled around my stomach. He held me so tightly, I pushed back, stretched his hand, but it was free. Jefri's got her. "Trus? Why her?"

I turned around and looked at him, "It's okay, he's just mumbling." I kissed her lips with my arms around her shoulders. "I want to take a shower first" I gave my permission to Jefri, who then let go of our crib.

Then I took my foot to the bathroom to clean my body.

***

The next day, something I didn't expect happened.

"Honey .. baby, get up." Jefri shook my body and forced me to open my eyes.

I opened my eyes. I thought everything was going to be okay, but it wasn't. Just now the clock shows at 8 am, there has been a storm downstairs. I just heard the sound of screaming. With the door of my room open as a result of Jefri opening it.

Immediately I got out of my bed and stepped out. Mama also looks fresh out of her room. Today we did have bad luck waking up, because we were too tired due to yesterday's event.

The sound of Max's screams rang out from inside his room. Mom and I immediately went downstairs. Mamah opened the door to Max's room which was not closed. And suddenly Max stopped his screams. He stared at Mama and I who stood in the doorway.

"What the fuck is this, Max?" moorish mama.

With his anger, Max stepped up to take his wallet and also his cigarette pack, then with the car keys that he did not forget to reach, he stepped out of his room through mommy and me.

Mamah walked into the room, approached Shilla and embraced her, while I glanced at my husband who was standing not far from my place. Yeah, Jefri already knows what happened. Because last night before I went to sleep, I told him about what happened to Max and Shilla.

I decided to go after Max. Mamah was with Shilla in there. I walked quickly to catch up with him. In front of the house I pulled his arm. "Max!"

He pulled over and turned to look at me. "I can't stand him behaving like that. He'd better get angry or hit me. Instead of continuing to be silent," he said then stepped back to his car. Enter and then go by. Disappear behind the fence of a tall mamah house.

No more explanation of everything. Clearly, I know their problems. It's just that I'm reluctant to be a mediator. Because my position is not good either. And I don't want any of them to think of me as a defender. That'sthat's all.

I went back inside the house. Shilla said nothing to mamah, she just sobbed in a mamah embrace. Then I glanced into the small bed located near them. Feli was still asleep in there. Where is Iceland going?

"Why?" jefri asked who saw me coming out of Max's room.

"Icel doesn't exist," I was puzzled as I thought about where the boy was.

"No." Jefri raised his index finger and pointed to the backyard.

The direction of my eyes immediately followed Jefri's index finger and found the figure of a child playing lego there. I let out a sigh of relief. Then approached the boy, who also had bi Mince there.

"Well, there's aunty anyway." I'm sitting next to Bi Mince. "Bi, have you been yelling so long?" aska whispered.

"Metal, Non." Bi Mince replied quickly.

I sighed while looking at Iceland who just kept playing happily. Even occasionally he showed the processed results to me and bi Mince.

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Max POV's.

In my anger I drove the car at high speed. There is no direction for my current destination. I was just spurring my heart beat that had just gotten more and more unreasonable. With my breath still tight, I continued to increase the speed of this car, further deepening my footwork on the gas pedal.

I know I was wrong. I was defending myself. But why am I telling you something that doesn't matter to me. He knows how I. During the interweaving of the wedding ark with her, not one bit was I tempted by another woman. Although many tried to tease me.

It feels like a disaster to me right now. I remember very well his reaction which was only silent as I tried to explain everything. Not a single word came out of his mouth. Whether it's an expression of frustration or disappointment. Then how should I react to it? Why are women always silent if they want to be understood? Shouldn't it be revealed if he wanted his man to understand?

I rubbed my face rough. Then reached into my pants pocket to contact Haikal. Yeah, who else do I call at a time like this?

The speed of the car was deliberately reduced, so that I could contact Haikal casually. "Hallo's? Where are you? Ja. Yeah, the cave's over there now."

I disconnected the phone, then immediately stepped on the gas pedal, advancing the speed of the car to Haikal's house. He was very good at guessing if I currently wanted to borrow his house to rest.

Yeah, I'm usually like this if there's a problem. The escape is not far away, must be to the house of Haikal to rest or just chat with him, as already.

***

Haikal opened the door to me. Then I went straight to his room, to lay my body on his bed. Without looking at the ceiling of his room, I closed my eyes.

Last night I couldn't sleep in peace. My mind is so fucked. My entire brain was completely drained just to think of Shilla. Thinking about how I could explain to her everything she heard yesterday.

Then this morning, I boldly explained everything. But what did I get? He remained silent. I don't even care about all my explanations. Then what can I do?

I exhaled for a while until I finally heard Haikal call me. Still with my eyes closed I greeted him with a dullness.

"Max?"

"Hm ..," I replied.

"For there to be trouble? You see, there are only two causes. If it's not suspected that your coworker or your business opponent sent his son back to the office?"

Just haikal until so memorized. But not this time. This morning's problems are heavier than ever. Then I opened my eyes and got out of my sleep. Sitting with my elbows on my hands that stick to my knees.

Then I slowly told Haikal what happened a few hours ago. All I told you without anything I covered up. Because I know, Haikal is more able to be wise in providing solutions to the husband-wife problems that I face. Although he has not undergone that phase, but his mindset is much wiser than mine.

Perhaps because Haikal has faced so many families of his patients, who are various types of traits and characters every day. To make Haikal is much broader mindset. And because of that, I've exchanged ideas with her more often than I do with going to a psychologist.

"So Shilla knows?" ask me again. He pulled out his chair and sat opposite me.

I nodded answering his question. While pinching the hair on my head with both of my hands at the moment. Down my face looking at the tip of my toes. At that time I just realized, that I came out of the house still wearing my nightgown.

"Trus did not try to explain in such detail?" ask again.

This time I nodded again, "I'm clear as well, only he was there. Not usually," I said frustratedly.

Haikal exhaled. "Maybe he needs time, Max!"

I exhaled again, but this time through my mouth.

Then Haikal told me to rest, while he went to the bathroom to clean his body. Because he said he had another appointment with Clara today. Yes, it should have done a refresher after busy struggling in his ER room. Anyway today is Sunday, it would be good for her to walk with Clara.

I immediately put my arm that folds over my forehead. Then close your eyes, trying to get into dreamland.

***

It felt like I had just closed my eyes for a moment, when the sound of my phone suddenly sounded. Disturbing my deep sleep without a dream in it.

🎶

My location unknown tryna find a way back home to you again

I gota get back to you gota get back to you

My location unknown tryna find a way back home to you again

I gota get back to you gota get back to you

🎶

I was forced to open my eyes, rubbing a few times after I rubbed my eyes with the back of my index finger. One of my hands tried to reach into my pants pocket, to get that thing.

My eyes narrowed to see whose name was on the front screen of my phone. It's Haikal's name. My lalubaku immediately shifted the green sign to receive the call. "Hallo?"

From across the phone, Haikal said he was having lunch with Clara. And the goal was to call me, just to ask if I wanted to pack food or not. I agreed and then ended the phone call.

Still half lazy, I got up from my sleep. Feeling my head throbbing pain from being surprised to hear the phone call earlier. Then stand up, step foot into the bathroom to refresh my body.

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