The Perfect Happiness

S2 - Eps 111

Still Tika POVs.

From morning until noon, I was just cringing on my bed. I haven't had breakfast this morning either. Just watch television and drink a glass of milk, but not milk for pregnant women.

Today is also my first day free from office work and officially became unemployed. Oh no, not unemployment, but a good and true housewife.

Scroll clock attached to the wall above the television, the time has shown at 11 noon. Then I turned my head again, looking at my phone that I accidentally put on the bed from earlier. There's nothing there. Not even a short message from Jefri existed.

I decided to clean my body. Soak in warm water to relax my own mind. Trying calm. Because I couldn't hold back the tears that kept flowing.

For almost hours I soaked in the bath tub, while continuing to stroke my stomach which was getting fuller. My mind drifted, recalling all the events from last night to this morning. When Jefri looked at me and ignored me.

Before my tears flowed back, I decided to stop this activity. Soaking in here only made my mind grow increasingly confused. And make me regret everything more.

I went to rinse my body and grabbed my towel and it was terrible. When I was about to enter the wardrobe room, my phone suddenly rang. I immediately walked to the bed to pick up my phone.

Lisa calling's.

I swipe the green button on the screen. Receiving calls.

"Hallo's? Yes, the cave in the house. No need Lis, cave is not papa. Seriously, not papa. Yes, yes, yes." I disconnected that phone call.

Lisa asked me to go to the doctor, get my womb checked. The fall was pushed by Jefri yesterday. But I refused it, I'm sure these two kids are strong.

Shortly after I finished getting dressed, my phone suddenly went off. This time a short ring as a sign of a message coming in. I got it back. Message from Max.

(For clearer message content can be seen on Instagram with the account name @bossytika after this manuscript is published, I will enter the content of the chat.)

I'm sure Max will help me and Jefri's company. I trust him. And what he did yesterday has a point. Max just took a quick step to overcome all that. But I slowed everything down.

Yeah, it was my fault.

***

Lisa came by to bring me all kinds of food. I greeted him with my eyes still puffy and could no longer hide.

He cupped my cheeks with both hands as I walked back to him at the dinner table. After putting some cutlery we need.

"Semaleman nangis only? Hm?" he said while looking at me intensely.

That was the only question he asked, but it was like making this heart slice again. I breathe heavily. Lisa took me straight into her arms.

My tears were flowing, my tears were breaking. I held back Lisa's embrace tightly. Roaring vented this sense of tightness in the heart. Lisa did nothing. He just let me and accompanied me at the moment.

He knows very well how I loved Jefri from then until now.

Eventually the sky turned dark. A cool air was again present shrouding my desolate soul.

Lisa finally decided to go home. He did not want to see Jefri who still did not want to greet me or even smile at me. Maybe Lisa was upset by my husband's attitude like that. I don't know, I don't wanna get dizzy.

After driving Lisa to the front door of the house to see her disappear on the corner of the road with her car, I went back inside the house. I haven't closed the door yet, I saw Jefri's car coming into the side yard. I opened the door again and welcomed his return.

My husband was surprised to see me standing in the doorway. He approached, I hoped he would hug me and kiss me on the forehead, and then say how much he misses me.

But I was wrong. All of that is just wishful thinking. He did indeed walk closer, but continued to pass, passing through me. Assuming I don't exist. As soon as my chest tightened, my heart seemed to stop beating receiving the treatment.

I turned to look at his back who just kept walking up the stairs towards our room. Is this as bad as my fault?

I gripped the clothes that covered my chest. Strongly suppressing my heart area. Back to strengthening. Do not let these tears come back. I must be strong!

I went straight to the kitchen at the time, to prepare dinner. When I finished, I immediately went up to tell her to eat. But the more bitter thing I have to accept right now. He closed his eyes under the blanket.

I breathe oxygen all around me. My chest really feels tight. I held my body with both hands resting on the kitchen table. Grimacing lamenting my mistakes, again and again. Nonstop.

With the rest of the energy I have. I went back to my room. Passing the stairs one by one while continuing to stroke my stomach. And ended up on a body collapse next to my husband.

Suddenly he moved sideways, behind me who was about to look at his face while asleep. I have to accept this treatment again. And let it all go, bringing it into the realm of my dreams.

***

Many weeks passed ...

And Jefri still doesn't care about me. The breakfast and dinner that I prepared was always not eaten. Never mind to eat, watch me cook just don't.

Every morning, he gets ready and goes to the office. Without saying goodbye or pecking my forehead. Even his habit of tasting my lips was forgotten.

He left me alone at home. No news or just a short message asking 'what am I doing at home'. Even lunch that is usually always together is also written off in his daily schedule.

After returning from the office, he went home. But it always ended up closing its eyes first before I called him for dinner.

Once Jefri came home a little late at night. And it just so happened that Lisa and Alex were with me at home. They are confused by plates and other cutlery that suddenly become a little.

At first they both thought that me and Jefri had a big fight to break the cutlery. Until finally today they see for themselves with their eyes. That Jefri silenced me. Not reprimanding me at all.

And finally they saw me who was upset, throwing away the food I cooked myself. I threw the dinner plate in the trash.

Lisa took my hand. "No change?" he asked while looking at me from the side.

I just stared at the trash that was closed automatically. My breath became heavy. My teeth are becoming. I can feel if my eyes are ready to drop tears. Spilling sadness.

Lisa pulled my hand until our eyes met each other. My tears fell, I hugged her. I don't think I can cover all this up. I came back crying.

"I-I don't sang-gup .. a-I have to how else?" I said in my tears.

Maybe Lisa and Alex know themselves. The two of them chose silence and only calmed me down, as Jefri returned down the stairs. At first glance he looked at us, making me stop my crying and try to smile back at his gaze. But after that, he moved his foot out of the house. I don't know where the destination is.

Not just get there. There are many more cold attitudes that make me almost give up on it. Even at my gestational age which is now 20 weeks. My stomach is starting to sting.

From the beginning of pregnancy I did not feel the phase that is often said to be 'cravings'. I don't know, maybe my twins know that their dad is ignoring me.

Similarly, when I have to check my content. I sent him a short message. All in all, asked him to accompany me to go to the doctor. But my message was marked only with a blue two-line contrast. There's no reply.

I asked Lisa for help to accompany me.

"Jefri hasn't changed?" lisa's asking breaks the silence on the way. I just shook my head as he looked at me for a glance.

Lisa hit the steering wheel of her car, leaving me a little surprised by her reaction.

"Tu kid why the hell? Bini again became pregnant instead of being taken care of, watched, spoiled, this was even dicuekin. It's just that time of the country doang have months of cold war anyway?!" Lisa finally vented out the resentment in her heart.

I just took a quick glance at it, then looked back at the scene outside the car window. My mind floated, imagining if the pregnancy I was living was fun and happy. But, baby, it was all over my mind again. It can't be real.

I chuckled softly, laughing at my current fate.

After I finished checking my contents and everything has been declared healthy and fine. Lisa and I immediately made up for the medicine and vitamins and went back home. But I did not ask to be delivered to my house but to go home mama. Yeah, to my parents' house.

Once I got home, there wasn't much I told her. I was just saying that I wanted to stay in my bedroom first. And he allowed me. Lisa came home as soon as she managed to get me to my bed.

That afternoon I tried to close my eyes immediately, after Lisa closed my bedroom door.

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