The Marriage In Lost Memories

Thirty

I'm out of the bathroom.

Cleaned myself from the smell of wine that I drank a few glasses earlier today.

When I came out I saw Devan straightening his body with one hand resting on his mattress one he was twitching his forehead he seemed to think and throw a deep breath.

There's something strange about Devan. He didn't look much last night. Now he still seems to have a heavy burden, oh I did too. The news of Jordan getting hurt plus last night's dream made me like a dazed man now. There are memories of Jordan coming up when I decided to build a new relationship with Devan, trying to make me worry again and again.

After looking at me, I saw him giving a peeking smile.

" Am I bad luck..." His words with a still hoarse voice.

The wall clock is still at 7 a.m. Of course it's still morning. Maybe seeing me finish the shower he thought he was getting up late.

" It's only 7" I replied as I headed for the dresser. Open the bottom drawer and pull out the comb.

" I want to do it..

Scroll from there who got out of bed.

Devan was standing behind me. Take out the comb I was holding and comb this long black hair that was already half dry.

I saw his reflection in the mirror.

The dream image of last night appeared again.

I sniffed unconsciously.

" ah..

What hurts?

" No, go on.." Said I saw a hand from his reflection in the mirror. Her big hands went up and down slicing my hair slowly and quietly combing my entire hair to the finish and then sidelining it to the left. Devan lowered his head so I could see his face draped over my shoulder in the mirror.

He smiled there.

" I've scheduled today to see a psychologist...."

I saw it from the mirror there. Doctor psychologist? I remember what he said last night, so would I properly consult with a specialist in our relationship for the better.

I nodded clumsily.

I saw him bring his olfactory closer to my hair. Smelled a lot of the shampoo I was wearing. I myself feel tickled with just his breath that makes my neck so warm.

" I saw you get up and drink.. " Whisper her later. My breath was held back from hearing it. So he got up and followed me.

Our eyes meet in the mirror. Do I have to tell her, did I say J hurt I was dreaming. Dreams about J.

That must be ridiculous.

" I just woke up from a dream"

Her eyebrows go up next to "What's the nightmare again"

This time I didn't answer. I can see he's speculating again. " Did I hurt you in a dream?

"No! Just old memories" I replied absurdly. I squeezed my lips nervously. Maybe he could see from my glasses in doubt.

" I'm going to prepare breakfast"

I said then get up from there. I quickly got out of the room. I find it hard to manage my mood again.

Outside I hold out for my stupidity.

Why am I acting like this.

I opened the door slowly. I saw from there Devan headed for his briefcase. He took a paper there. There was a glare that I could hardly understand.

Whatisit?

My curiosity makes me want to know, maybe it's the decision of the company's top officials who have been final. Is Devan still the CEO knows he's changed hands.

I saw Devan go into the bathroom, slowly I went back into his briefcase there. I immediately pulled the paper.

My eyebrows and hands were again wrinkled throughout reading the contents of the letter in the form of a divorce lawsuit in my name.

This heart is about to jump. Surprised! Yes very!

This is what J meant by his words at that time.

No wonder J is the kind of person who can do it behind my back like he's got Papa's company deceived.

The sound of water in the bathroom prompts me to leave immediately. I returned the letter to where it came from.

I quickly got back out.

My worry for J turned to annoyance. He acts as he pleases. I wish I could get out of here to see her!!

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"What's delicious?" Ask me while watching Devan eat his breakfast.

He smiled a little. Then nod.

Then our breakfast atmosphere was just dumb.

I'm waiting for Devan to mention the lawsuit.

But he did not mention.

And I feel like I want to ask, too. But there's a part that scares me with her reaction.

Until we finished breakfast with a variety of thoughts.

" Take me to the office! " His word then while closing the two spoon tools that he just used neatly.

" office?" I was surprised by his invitation that arrived. I don't think I'm mentally ready to set foot in that place.

He cleaned up the leftovers on the corners of his lips with a tissue.

" We can ask for a morning schedule of consultation with the doctor! And later in the day you can come with me to the invitation "

" that...

My eyes wandered while thinking, until I finally nodded. There's no reason to leave.

*

And now here I am. Walk into the main lobby of the company that 2 years is hiring me. I was just wearing a regular stelan, more relaxed. But this man who took my hand made me even more special there, not even in my life's estimation that I would appear as the Director's wife. So it's similar in Novel-Novel yaaach!

My arrival certainly made a scene there. Moreover, I just experienced a tragic incident by one of the officials there. I'm sure this time again the Ghibah Group will talk about me again. Yes even though I'm sure as sure as sure this time positive or a lot of licks there. No one dared to issue in the group, even the group was quiet after my identity adorned the furore there. Unless they make a new group without involving me.

I was greeted with a big smile and a friendly greeting by all who found us this morning. Even their whispers were still heard, but still Devan's face was textured into a stiff mountain rock. He did not menubris greeting them there makes me extra reply their greeting, I do not want to make an impression arrogant after my identity came out.

It's just that there's an extra Mother Alena from their greeting, making me a stiff smile. It is usually called Alena or Mba Alena.

" Why is your face so tense?" Devan asked after we entered the elevator specifically for the company officials.

I open my eyes and breathe.

" I'm just not ready to be a celebrity anymore in the group" I replied.

" group?" Devan raised an eyebrow, he apparently did not know about the group. Oh I forget it's just a group around all the employees he pays.

" It's nothing! " I think it would violate the code of conduct the group leaked to the owner of the company directly. He could have disbanded that group.

I glanced at the elevator guide beside Rudy. A young girl. I didn't even know this particular elevator had a guide. He looked down to see me watching him.

Ting!

Open elevator. And Devan still has my hands. Every time he saw me he smiled. Different from the situation before him. And it makes me feel privileged again, it just melts.

At the table Sarah appears a young man sitting, his posture is thin with glasses perched there. He looks smart with his stiff face, after seeing us he immediately stood up and bowed half body while greeting courtesy, I looked at Malik's name there.

" sarah? Did he move?" I asked Rudy and Devan alternately.

Devan looks indifferent.

" It's been taken out Madam" said Rudy.

I was shocked. " Fired? To napa??

Rudy just shook his head obediently, he then went inside. I followed them in first. And here I step back into the President Director's office of this company.

Devan took off his coat and loosened his tie. He went straight to his oversized table with a very perpecto. The moves are cool if anything else.

" Prepare blankets, snacks and drinks for Alena" Devan said before Rudy got out of there with some documents.

I mendehem with an awkward atmosphere there, too often see Devan's movements make me fascinated.

Devan is facing his laptop. He even perched glasses to make this man look serious and enter his own world, while I was a goat congek, ah neither did I surround the side of the room that is more carrying the millennial concept. Many bodies of aluminum body there makes this room very impressed modern also high class.

My eyes were fixed on the gallon that I had flush during Devan and J's struggle at that time. Makes me giggle considering that how the two of them split like 2 cats. But it also reminds me of J again.

There's a little side of hope coming up, I wish I could see it here. I just want to see the situation.

Maybe it's here. Or on the rooftop, but it's hard to get out with Devan's supervision like this.

The sound of the door opening and Rudy appeared with Malik carrying Devan's request, I stood not too far away to hear their conversation.

" Malik!Gather all the reports later! I'll be out for a second! And you are Rudy! Is there any information I asked for.

" I'm still collecting the master, but this is for the data I got" Rudy gave Devan a yellow Map.

I saw Devan open the map. His sharp eyes decreased reading everything there with a thin line on his lips.

I saw Rudy approaching and whispering. There's something I can't hear, I saw Devan just raise his eyebrows next door.

" Prevent him as soon as possible!" Her words were softly barely audible, but the movement of her lips could be interpreted.

Devan's face looked dark. For a moment he looked at me. Like falling I immediately saw my eyes up and my fingers twisted around in the glass there.

I saw him around the table picking up a blanket over there. I pura re-focus on seeing the sea view in front of this large estate in front of me.

" When you're tired of turning to the sofa inside! Watch Tv. There's a snack too." Her words were gently different from when talking to Malik or Rudy just now even her facial ripples returned to how they were.

" Yes"

My heart immediately followed his steps towards a door on the hemisphere of his table.

A small room with a lot of books towering, his accent is somewhat different from the style outside here more simple many colors soft color also than some of the furniture there even the wallpaper is green, green, red and black. There is also a wide sofa that resembles a small mattress in matching color with wallpaper with a soft carpet in green leaf and a large television about 50" In front of the sofa.

Seeing that the room gives a light breath, there is a sense of lightness to see it is different with an accent outside that is formal for work.

Maybe Devan if he is tired or saturated he will watch here, relax while removing fatigue from his work gives his brain space to be fresh again.

Devan takes the Remote Tv and turns it on.

I myself sit there on my feet because the AC here is very tight. My eyes re-circulated looking at the abstract painting on the side of the wall, neatly arranged. Colorful again gives a simple mindset.

" You can sleep first, 1 hour we're out" he said, who was under me covered my thighs with a blanket. I don't even see when he's across from me.

I nodded clumsily seeing her squat like that.

" Thank you" said I felt the awward situation. Devan is on his knees.

He nodded and smiled again, a sweet smile.

Devan straightened his legs and lowered his head, his movements quick and implicitly he kissed my lips.

I even took to sculpt. Be shocked!

I felt him kissing me greedily. This makes the heart not stop jumping. My oxygen is thinning. Luckily, he took off his kiss. Our eyes meet. The black bead of her eyeballs became friendly with the shade of the afternoon sky and again her kiss made me lulled soft kiss until I stretched my hand to her neck, she turned more aggressive.

Devan always had a demanding movement and mastered the technique of a kiss full of opium, until he unraveled his kiss for a second time.

My face blushed to the shame of seeing her eyes.

" Look down here" he whispered, kissed me on the cheek, and just walked away.

I gaped in amazement. This face is getting very hot with the turmoil that arises where. There is a sense of happiness in itself. If this continues I really love her again, adore her.

1 hour passed. And he was right to take me to one of the Psychologists.

His name is Dr. Melisa, lucky her female doctor makes me more comfortable communicating and she is also very friendly. This doctor also claimed to be one of Devan's friends during college. They just seem to be of the same age.

And again Dr. Melisa already knows my dark period and the depravity of her friend without me telling her. Maybe Devan has already told her of the dulun.

For the initial stage we get enlightenment in theory. Yes, even if it's more to me. The victim was also traumatic in our relationship in terms of sexual relations.

Dr. Melisa suggested that we take a more physical approach to reduce my trauma. And the other kind of advice and guidance, and at the core, I had to involve feeling that our approach was more successful.

Our consultation took 1 hour more.

I just pensively finished from there. A lot of things popped into my head, and I needed time to understand it let alone about feelings. That's my problem here.

The feeling of hate-loving is still 1:1.

" Did this initial meeting weigh you down a bit?" Devan asked after we got in the car, he was still the same as his soft voice.

I was honest and nodded.

Devan pondered for a while then took my hand, the warmth of his skin spreading in my cold hand.

" Slow down, okay...

I nodded again and smiled. Until my hand was kissed gently by her. A feeling like filling a space.

*

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The car did not return to the office. It's more precise that Devan took me to a magnificent resort there.

" The show is here and I ordered 1 cottage "The word explains.

I nodded, but also a bit. Why he ordered 1 place if only attending the invitation.

I see the clock on the phone is still at 11 p.m.

" What time is the show?"

" Maybe 2 hours away" he answered while busy picking up something in his car like FD and some other stuff.

" Not to worry, all your preparations are ready! We're staying here 1 night, ain't papa?"

Stay on?

My face immediately flushed. Of course it feels strange Devan took 1 night after the lecture Dr. Melisa.

I thought of something crazy myself.

Although actually want anywhere we can therapy gradually.

A beautiful cottage with a traditional concept but still luxurious in a touch of modern facilities in it, I was amazed to see the layout of this room is very beautiful as well as blushing cheeks. Seeing the king-size bed there is a round shape with a curtain dancing nari in the sea ahead there. This dancing curtain makes me familiar.

My feet stopped. My admiration seemed to disappear. Although not the same but the shadow of this dancing curtain bruises my heart.

" What's up...

Devan stopped and his eyes followed my eyes.

I look at it with hate. The silhouette of the shadow reappeared. When he and Devi ---

" This bed remembers me with you" My voice felt heavy.

Devan's eyes twisted with thought, until the angle of his jaw hardened. He understands my meaning.

Even I sniffed when her hand touched my shoulder. I feel like I hate Devan again.

" We're looking for another cottage" he said slowly trying to calm my worries after a few seconds we fell silent.

I am still confused by my soul condition that looks unstable. It turns out I still haven't made peace with his actions.

" I want to go home.." I said immediately throw my face. My mood is completely destroyed.

I thought he would approve of me because of his late submissive attitude but I was wrong. He took me back to the other cottage. Similar but king size bed without curtains.

Doesn't he understand my mood is fucked up.

" You can't keep avoiding Alena, I know you're upset. But I have no choice" he said after the goods from the cottage before he moved there.

I was breathing heavily. Devan was right to accept something heavy is a life choice, but this impressed forced when before he said slowly.

The wind this afternoon came from all directions. There was a wind trying to break through from the closed outer window.

I went to the balcony of the cottage which was immediately greeted by thousands of winds from the sea ahead there. There is a small jacuzzi that may only fit 1-2 people. The water is very clear and beautified with fresh roses in a container made of woven bamboo. Swimming in wind-played water.

I called a guardrail

My mood felt like it was fading to see the scene ahead. This cottage is right on the edge of the sea. It even looks like some cruise ships are going back and forth from a distance. For a while I felt better.

Until I felt a hand slipping through my waist. I'm trying to let her. Even though there was a little berserk in there that was in revolt, maybe it was part of my traumatic rejection. I can handle it! I thought I was trying to control this brain. Given the encouragement and advice of Dr. Melisa was also Devan's words that I couldn't keep avoiding, strengthening my confidence.

My body was like the wind in a very tight hug. And I can feel his breath on the back of the right neck-shoulders. Channeling warmth.

" It's so windy! You can catch a cold" Devan's voice was soft, and again he inhaled my skin in a long way, he looked like a vampire who enjoyed the scent of his prey before biting the victim's neck.

" I'm just calming down" I replied with a glance in front of me not my priority anymore. His treatment made me a bit stiff and nervous.

" Did it work?"

Her question with one hand crept up to the upper side of my chest, making me a little wary and lost my footing.

" Yes, but now I feel very nervous.

" wells...

His hands kept hugging me and he kissed my neck repeatedly. I sat until I brushed it made.

" Dev.. This...

My voice is hoarse.

"Hmmm... Dr. Melisa said we should try. Have you changed your mind...

I held Devan's naughty hands there.

Why did it become impatient again.

" Can we slow down...

There's no answer. And he stopped kissing me there. I felt my shoulders weigh a little. He's chopping his chin up there. With both hands back just hugging me tightly rubbed the skin of my bare arm.

" I just don't want you to disappear like the wind on this high sea! " Hispered her

" Fart dong, uh"

"...."

I snatched this mouth. Devan's sense of humor is very low. I must have sounded ridiculous at this moment of romance.

This fucking mouth.

I heard him laugh lightly and then so his big laugh.

I faced her in confusion.

" You are how, I talk seriously even in saying fart..

Her mouth with slightly watery eyes.

I just grinned the horse, a little surprised also Devan can laugh off like this, even though only a joking dimeh. I don't want to laugh too hard.