THE GUARDIAN OF THE HEART

Chapter 16, Secrets of the Heart (Part 2)

Shaka fixed his seat. He looked at Besty fixedly and then held Besty's hand and said :

"There's nothing to forgive, Besty."

"You don't need to apologize to me."

"You're not wrong."

Shaka tried to calm Besty's heart even though his own heart felt bad. He tried to smile even though it was bitter. He fears his past will haunt him again. He was afraid that the pain would envelop him again. But he tried hard to make Besty feel as comfortable as possible to be near him.

"Everybody has a past. And let the past be a cheat sheet for the future" said Shaka.

"He will always be in your heart or mind because he has walked with you in the past" Shaka continued.

"Therefore, learn not to forget him, but learn to put him in the space of your heart. So you have a lot of space that you can fill with other things that are beautiful" concluded the man who tried to calm the heart of Besty.

Besty was surprised to hear Shaka's words. He did not expect Shaka to put those words out in his mouth. Besty also does not believe Shaka will be that mature in addressing his problems. Every sentence that slid from Shaka's lips was like an oasis in the middle of the barren and dry heart of Besty so far. Very pleasant and soothing.

"Shak.." said Besty as she shed her tears as she was moved.

"I don't think you're this good."

"I thought you'd be angry and disappointed, and then leave me." said Besty.

Shaka just smiled at Besty's words.

"I have a promise I have to keep, Besty" said Shaka.

" Yes, let's go home, it's 10:15" he continued.

"But..., I'd have told Bik Imah that I came home late" said Besty.

"I don't know much about you either" he continued.

"I don't want to go home before you tell me about you." - whine Besty.

Shaka then laughs at Besty's spoiled behavior. He then stroked Besty's hair while saying :

"When you ask, I will answer."

"I told you that I wanted to start this relationship with honesty" he said.

"But I promise you, you'll be honest if I ask?" besty.

"If you don't, I'll come to your house." threatened Besty with a smile.

"Yes" Shaka said with a smile.

Then Shaka goes to the cashier to pay the bill of his order. After that, Shaka took Besty out and left the cafe.

Arriving at Besty's house, Shaka delivers Besty to the doorstep.

"Come in." said Shaka.

Besty was just speechless hearing Shaka's words. He just looked at Shaka without saying anything. It was as if he refused to go into the house. He looked at Shaka long enough for Shaka to be astonished by Besty's attitude.

"Why? Are you all right?" said Shaka.

"Do you still like me?" besty.

Shaka smiled at Besty's question. He then nodded his head while rubbing his cheek.

"Still." said Shaka who then removed his hand from Besty's cheek.

"Are you disappointed in me, Shak?" ask Besty further.

"Engga" said Shaka who tried to cover up his feelings.

"Udah, tomorrow again. Get in there, it's late." said Shaka.

Besty looked at Shaka and then he nodded his head.

"Thank you for the first date" Besty said.

Besty then kisses Shaka's left cheek, then she opens the door to her house. After Besty went inside, Shaka headed towards his vespanya and started the bike. Before leaving, Shaka turned to the door of Besty's house and saw Besty still standing behind the door waving her hand. Shaka replies to Besty's hand and leaves Besty's house.

***

Upon arriving home, Shaka finds his house dark. Only the porch lights were still on and illuminated the darkness that night. He then opened the door using a spare key that hung into one with the key of his motor. Shaka vividly remembers how his father gave the key to him before he left.

"This is the spare key (backup) of the house, just keep it. Who knew you were coming home last night." said the father this afternoon.

"Be careful on the road, I believe in you because you're a big boy now." so his father's message before he leaves.

After opening the door and locking it back up, Shaka went inside his room to clean himself up and then climbed on top of his bed. Tired and tired of haunting her tonight. He tried to close his eyes, but he could not. He was still clearly recording Besty's words in his brain. Coloring his heart with excitement and pain.

Shaka tried to feel his heart. Trying to calm himself the feeling that was raging in his heart. He wanted to give up this situation, trying to give up Besty for others. He was afraid of getting hurt and being destroyed again. He did not want the bitter story to be present and repeated for the second time in his life. But in the corner of his heart others still want to continue with Besty. I always want to be close to him. Still want to accompany her to help her out of her afflicting past. Accompanying him came out from the wound that still haunted him.

Shaka was trying to figure out how to help Besty. His mind was still trying to ponder far about the thing he had to do. At one point, Shaka realized the promise he had made. He also later realized that only a sense of comfort and calm would be able to help Besty. Shaka assures himself that he is capable of doing so. He believes his sincerity and feelings will be able to treat Besty's old wounds all along.

"Yes, I have to do it. And I believe, I can do it." Shaka muttered softly.

At that very instant, Shaka heard his phone ringing. He noticed a message coming into his phone. He opened a message from Besty.

Besty: "Have you gone home?"

: " Are you okay?"

Shaka got up and sat down on the edge of his bed. He was silent for a moment and then replied to Besty's message.

Shaka: "I'm home and I'm fine. Just my cheek that's so good."

Besty: "Is there a problem? Is your cheek bleeding?"

Shaka: "My right cheek is angry because you just kissed my left cheek."

: "That's fair he said."

Shaka tries to make jokes like he used to. He tried to make Besty laugh and happy. Trying to comfort him with what is inside him. And try to make it comfortable and calm when always near him.

Seeing Shaka's joke makes Besty laugh. Then he replies to Shaka's message.

Besty: "The other one sometime. That's if you remember."

Shaka just smiled at Besty's words. Then he read again the next message sent by Besty.

Besty: "Btw, who was your first kiss? honestly, you can't lie."

Shaka: "You."

Besty smiled widely while blushing in embarrassment.

Besty: "You're lying with the dreadlocks again."

Shaka: "Yes, you are my first boyfriend and my first kiss."

Besty smiled again because her heart flowered to read Shaka's message. Then he re-read the next message Shaka sent.

Shaka: "You know what, I was about to send you something."

Besty: "What do you want to send?"

Shaka: "I want to send an angel to take care of you. But when I got home, he came back. You know what he said?"

Besty: "What did he say?"

Shaka: "Said, the hour of the angel is told to guard the angel."

Besty laughed reading the message from Shaka. Before he could reply to her, Shaka had already sent out his next message.

Shaka: "Do you know what you have in common with the end-of-semester exam?"

Besty: "What else?"

Shaka: "Together make my heart beat so hard to sleep."

Besty laughed again reading the contents of Shaka's message. He then returned it.

Besty: "It's quite your fight, it's late. I'll never sleep."

: " Yes, sleep there."

: " Tomorrow to play at home if you have time."

Shaka: "Yes, tomorrow I will play at your house if my homework is done.

: "Met sleep, beautiful."

Besty: "Thank you for today. It's so much fun."

: "Met sleep, Shak."

Finally Besty closed the night with a big smile that adorned her face. He was happy and happy with Shaka's attention to him. Meanwhile, on the other hand, Shaka closes his day by trying to keep smiling and reassuring himself repeatedly that he is able to do it for Besty.