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8. The Only One Rightful to My Feelings is Me

Spring thought Winter would kiss her, but after her eyes closed, Winter's lips never touched her tiny lips. After Spring opened his eyes again, when his eyes opened, Spring saw Winter laughing at him. As strongly as possible, Spring removed her hand from Winter, and she quickly pushed Winter away.

"Why are you laughing at me. Are you playing me?"

Winter chuckles. "I don't understand why you're closing your eyes. Don't tell me you think I'm gonna kiss you."

With his upset face, Spring pulled the blanket and fell asleep on Winter's back. "Why do I think that, isn't such a thing impossible to happen to us."

Winter immediately grabbed Spring's body, making Spring's heart beat faster and firmer than when Winter pricked him earlier.

"Why did you embrace me, didn't you just refuse to sleep in one bed with me. But now that you're willing to call me like this, aren't you afraid that something bad will happen to us."

"What a bad thing. Didn't you just say our relationship is just a friend. Why do you blame her when I hold you like this."

"Of course I blame him, because you're just my best friend. So you don't have to go far like I'm yours. Because you can't open your heart."

Winter clings to Spring's body, making her face hide behind Spring's back. "Spring, I digested every word you said. I hope you don't have feelings like what I think."

For some reason, Winter's words were able to make Spring's heart feel pain. To make his eyes glisten with water.

Spring breathed out quickly. "You cannot forbid what my heart feels, for you cannot determine whose heart it will have. If my heart is only on you, you have no right to stop it. Because I'm the one who has the right to stop or continue."

"So, do you have feelings for me?"

Spring swallowed his salivary. "Come, because we have the principle of not having more feelings than the affection of a friend, then the feelings I have are limited." Spring sigh. "If one day I have feelings for you, how do you respond?"

"I hope it doesn't happen, because I don't believe in the name of love. I saw how my father and mother's relationship was broken, because it all started with a couple's love."

"That's your mom and dad. Many couples are still fine, for example, my father and mother."

"I'm too afraid to mix love with a woman, especially with you. Because I'm so scared of losing you. I'm afraid you'll get bored of me, if we become lovers."

"You don't have to be afraid, because I'll never leave you. I'm the one who's afraid that you're gonna walk away from me."

Winter tears her eyes behind Spring's back. "Today my father and mother had a fight, they accused each other of not being able to pay better attention to me. I was just a nosebleed, but they had a big fight over something trivial."

Spring flinched. "Winter, are you sick?"

"No, I'm just a nosebleed. Didn't you often see me nosebleed when I was exhausted after studying. I'm nosebleed because I'm learning too much, I forget to rest."

"You don't have to force yourself. You don't have to study too hard, if you're tired then stop."

"I have to get good grades, if I don't want my parents to fight because of my rap score. Alex has failed three times to get into the best university in America. And every time my mom and dad got word of Alex failing to get into university, they would blame each other for not being able to properly educate the kids. Therefore, I must continue to get good grades so as not to hear their quarrels."

"If you want to cry, cry freely. Because after that, I'll forget what happened tonight."

Just contact Winter's tears were increasingly flowing, to wet Spring's clothes. So much so that Spring also cried and felt what Winter felt at this time.

"You should have told them about your condition."

"I want to say it, but every time they're home. They are very busy with their phones and laptops. Even on holidays they are still busy with their work."

Unable to Spring feel the rhythm of Winter behind his back, Spring also ended up crying while holding his voice. He held his voice so that it would not be heard by Winter, if he also cried. Because Spring was afraid, if Winter would be sadder if he knew Spring was crying too.

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When the sun was up in the east and the light had broken through the window, Spring was still asleep from his sleep. Even though it was morning, Spring still did not want to wake up from his long dream. Until soon the sun slowly began to highlight his face, to make him wake up.

But when his eyes opened, he did not find Winter next to him. Spring shuffled out of bed, then stepped out of the room screaming for Winter.

"Winter...

Winter never shows up after Spring calls her, but Spring sees the bathroom door open. Spring rushed into the bathroom. And in the end Spring finds Winter there, but Spring finds Winter vomiting in front of the closet. Suddenly, Spring panicked when he saw her.

"Winter, are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm fine."

"It looks like you're sick. We better see a doctor."

"No need, I'm just nauseous. Maybe because I stayed outside too long last night."

"But your face is so pale, I'm sure you're not okay." Spring pulls Winter's arm. "We need to see a doctor right now."

Winter immediately threw Spring's hand from his arm. "I told you not to, I'm fine" he said raising his voice.

"But I'm worried if you're sick."

Winter held onto both of Spring's shoulders. "I'll soon be healed, because it's just a common pain. After drinking the warm water, my stomach will be fine. So, you don't have to worry about my condition."

"Well, if you don't want to go check it out, wait for me here. I'm going home to make you some soup."

"No need, because I have to go home. I need to get ready to go to school immediately."

"You can wait here, because I'll bring you your bags and your clothes. So wait here."

"But Spring, it'll trouble you."

Spring smiled. "I'm not troubled, after all I just made you breakfast and brought you your clothes and your bag. So, you just wait for me here. If you can, you rest in the room until I get back."

Spring immediately went back to his home, so that he could make breakfast for Winter.