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44. The Hard Truth to Accept

Somehow Spring can take her lips off Winter. She was too complacent as Winter glued her lips to her tiny lips. Whether he's angry or happy, Spring can't pick him. He was angry, because the man who always believed in him could lie to him and even play tricks on his feelings. He was also happy because he finally knew that his love had never clapped one hand.

Breath until panting after the lips break away.

"I'm sorry I didn't confess my feelings all this time. I love you so much, Spring," Winter said with a reddened face.

At once Spring's eyes were inundated, after the word love repeatedly came out of the mouth of the man who had always been number one in his heart. "This is how you express your feelings. Make me look stupid first, then you reveal it after breaking my heart."

"I'm sorry I was late to reveal it." Winter's face turned sad, even his eyes also flooded like Spring's eyes at this time. "I'm too scared that until the end I can't express it. Even if it's too late, I can at least reveal it before I leave."

Spring furrowed his brows. "What do you mean, where are you going?" ask wondered.

Winter immediately grabbed a square-shaped object from his jacket pocket. It was Spring's missing diary.

"I've read all the writing in this book. Whether it's real or just my imagination, but I want to ask, are you really not the Spring of the present?"

"You haven't answered my question, where are you going. Don't make me look confused" said Spring, who now feels bad.

"I don't want to answer in a hurry, before I confirm. The Spring I know today is not the Spring I knew before. You seem to know about what will happen tomorrow, as you write from this book."

Spring nodded as he shed his tears. "Yes, I'm the Spring that came from 10 years later."

"Then you write when the day of my death coincides with your birthday. If I die on your birthday, do I die because of Alex?" ask Winter again.

Spring again nodded Winter's question, but this time he did not say.

"Whatchu mean? I've saved you from Alex, of course you have to live a long life" Spring said, increasingly confused by Winter's words.

Winter bowed her head, as if unable to show her joint to Spring. He quickly took a breath, and said. "I have late-stage leukemia, my life is not going to be long. That's the reason I haven't been able to express my feelings, because I don't want to make you get away from me when I leave. But, if I don't reveal it, I might bring my feelings to death without ever revealing it."

Spring was too surprised to hear what Winter said, he could not tell the difference between dreams and reality. If you want, what you hear is just a lie. And if necessary, Spring is having a nightmare right now.

"You can't conclude right away, if you won't live long. I've just been given a chance to save your life, why are you optimistic that you won't live long. I'm sure God will also give you healing. There will be many ways to cure your pain."

Winter shook. "The leukemia I'm suffering from is already in the final stage. Even if the doctor's treatment is successful, my cancer won't completely disappear from my body. Maybe God gave you a chance to go back in time, so I could give you a lot of time. So I decided not to do the treatment, so that I could spend a lot of my time for you, rather than having to do the treatment that just ended up in vain."

"I'm sure there will be many ways doctors can remove your cancer. I've just been given a chance to save you, why are you optimistic that you can't recover. There will be a miracle given by God to you, you cannot give up. I'm sure you'll be cured if you want to do the treatment." Spring tries to convince Winter that her best friend will try to recover from her illness.

Winter breathed. "My cancer is already the final stage, where the stadium is already very difficult to heal. I decided not to take the medication. Because I want to spend more time with the people I care about, than I have to spend time in the hospital."

Spring remains convinced that God will provide healing for Winter, he continues to convince Winter to want to do treatment. "Why are you sure that if your pain will not heal, you have not tried it. I'm sure if you do the treatment in the hospital, your cancer will disappear. If there's no hospital in Chicago that can cure you, I'm going to ask your parents to find another hospital outside of Chicago that can cure you. Try to do the treatment, you should not give up just like that" he said with sobs.

"From being busy doing treatment that will only end up in vain, I'd rather spend more time with the people I love than die in the hospital without giving good memories to you and the people I care about the most," said Winter who remains firm with his stance.

The emotions of Spring were overflowing. "The years without you my life is a mess. There is no time for me to smile, and no day for me not to think about you. I even thought about ending my life. If God makes me repeat time only to be lived by you a second time, why would he give me a chance." Spring gave off his rough breath. "If you die, I won't be able to continue living."

Spring walked away with his sobs. Only a moment could Spring feel his happiness. Once he knew about the terrible disease that Winter suffered, his happiness seemed to be taken for granted. Spring was really angry, either because he could not accept the reality or angry because he had been given a big lie twice by Winter. Spring did not understand why God gave him the opportunity to repeat time, if he had to leave Winter for the second time.