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30. Recognition

Spring believes that Winter already knows about Spring's true feelings. And of course Spring also realizes that Winter also has the same feelings as him. It's just that Winter doesn't want to change his status and doesn't want the feelings he has in him to continue to grow. Maybe because Winter was too afraid that her relationship would be destroyed if her friendship ended with love.

If Winter can't be her lover, at least Winter can stay in this world. Just with Winter surviving alone, it had already made Spring happy. If indeed Spring is only destined to be his best friend, then Spring will accept the fate. As long as Winter stays alive and is willing to survive under any circumstances.

However, even though Spring decided to become a full friend, it does not mean that Spring will continue to harbor his feelings. Spring will emphatically confess his feelings, though Winter's answer will definitely be averse.

A moment after he was right in front of the house, Spring immediately stopped his steps. "There's something I want to tell you."

Winter immediately stopped his steps, and immediately turned to look at Spring. "What do you want to tell me?"

His heart was pounding so hard, how nervous Spring was, that it made him unable to look directly at Winter. He slowly took a breath, and Spring quickly said. "I love you."

As if already knew, Winter did not feel surprised after hearing the Spring's confession. All he did was pause while looking at Spring's face.

"I know for sure your answer. You will never receive my confession of love. And you won't change our status. It's just that I don't want to hold it for too long. So I want to admit it if I like you, not because you're my best friend but rather as a woman and a man" Spring said.

As if she was holding back tears, Winter's eyes were slightly inundated after hearing what the Spring had said. Winter replied firmly. "I hope you're not too deep to love me. Because I don't want to hurt you, so don't expect to be my lover."

"I know that you can't possibly reach me. Therefore, now I want to end my feelings." Spring was immediately filled with tears, he was crying freely in front of Winter. "From now on I'll take you out of my heart."

"Thank you for being honest with me." Winter stepped on his feet, but Spring again stopped Winter's steps.

"Wait on! I did end my feelings, but that doesn't mean I'm ending our friendship. I want to stay friends with you. I don't want you to feel awkward knowing how I really feel. And one more thing, I want to see you love a woman or marry a woman someday. So do you, you have to see me happy with another man and see me get married one day." Spring then raised his little finger. "Can you promise."

Instead of tying Spring's little finger, Winter clenched Spring's body tightly. "Blessed Spring. Even if I'm not the man by your side, you should smile broadly when you look at him."

Winter's words sound like a farewell to Spring, making Spring's cry even more broken in Winter's arms. "You have to promise to survive until God calls you, so hang on. Wouldn't you be happy to see me happy. So hang on and look at me who is happy."

"Hm, I'll hold on until God calls me" said Winter, who clutched Spring's body.

***

Tessa had to force her way into the room, because Spring did not say at all when she asked her only daughter to join the dinner.

"What made you cry until you didn't tell me when I called" Tessa said, wiping away tears on her cheeks and eyes.

Spring quickly hugged her mother and cried loudly in her arms. "Today I've ended my feelings for Winter. But for some reason, I still couldn't bear to end my feelings."

"If you can't, why should you just give up."

"If I continue to hold on to my feelings, what if Winter avoids me. I was too scared to part with her."

"Why be afraid, doesn't Winter want to make you her lover because she's afraid your relationship with her will break down. He was afraid if you went away from him. If he can't be your lover now, then you should try to make him your husband."

"Where can I marry winter. I'm still too far away to move on to marriage."

Tessa smiles. "Of course you can't get married now. But someday, God will definitely give you another plan and Winter. So, keep praying and keep trying so you can be predestined by it."

It's true what her mother said, if Spring can't have Winter as her lover. Maybe someday God will have another plan to unite Spring with Winter. For example, God has given him a chance to go back in time. It's possible that God gave Spring a chance, because God wanted Spring to unite with Winter.

Spring quickly wiped away the tears on his face, and with confidence Spring said. "I'm sure it's not time for Winter to be my partner. But maybe someday he'll be all mine."

"True, someday Winter will be your true lover and will certainly be your mother's daughter-in-law" Tessa smiled.

If Winter is not in possession at this time, there will be a time for hope. What is clear is that God has given Spring a chance to come back, not just to save Winter, but to give Spring the opportunity to reach the man she loves so much. At the moment Spring's most important mission is not to make Winter her lover, but to save Winter from death.

What Winter needs right now is not a love confession from Spring, but the time Winter needs. Then tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and the next day, Spring will continue to be near Winter, giving all its time for Winter.

Until the next day, Spring was constantly with Winter, either at school or when she came home from school. Both day and night, Spring does it just to make a smile for Winter. Because maybe, when Spring gives time for Winter, his best friend will undo bad intentions to end life. Yes, even though there was a bit of awkwardness with her, because maybe after Spring expressed her feelings, both Winter and herself felt uncomfortable. But that's not a problem, as long as Spring can continue with Winter, the awkwardness may disappear for longer.