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PS 46 - Arrest

I started to open my eyes. The sound of the hour seconds and also the typical smell of the hospital began to enter my senses. I tried to gather my consciousness quickly.

Mama! Ghifari! - Pekikku in heart.

I looked to the right and to the left. The first people I looked for were my mother and also Ghifari.

“Nak, are you awake?” ask someone.

I immediately found Bi Shanti, she with her pale face looking at me while crying, “Alhamdulillah, you really are awake, Nak.” continued her while hugging me after putting a small Quran on the table.

I nodded my head, “How are you, Bi?” my many.

“Good, Son. Good aunt, forgive Auntie for not being next to you from yesterday.” said Bi Shanti.

I know, he was sick because of Bude Ulfa's man when Mama was kidnapped. “No, Bi. This is not the fault of Bibi.” I said.

"Nature, ..." Call Bang Haidar.

Bang Haidar approached, his eyes glazed over, "Where, Mama?" My toot.

"Mom, ..." Bang Haidar hung up his sentence.

I immediately removed the infusion hose that was on the back of my hand. My heart is beating so hard. My stomach hurts a lot, but I can still handle it.

"Where, Mama?" My toot.

I immediately shook Bang Haidar's body.

"Critical mom." Bang Haidar.

"Where's Mama?" My toot.

"You better rest first." Bang Haidar.

"Where's Mama bang, where?!" I shook Bang Haidar's body.

My body feels so weak. I don't know what else to do but cry. I want to see my mom.

"Mama in the ICU." Bang Haidar.

 

I got up and tried to walk outside the room. Bang Haidar's got me. "Your wounds are not healed yet, Brother will bring a wheelchair and call the nurse to put an infusion hose on you." Bang Haidar. He took me to sit. Bi Shanti sat down beside me and rubbed my shoulders. I want to cry.

I was of course restless half dead. I turned my head towards my stomach, my clothes had already started to stain red. So hurt.

“Yes Allah, Son, your stomach is bleeding.” said Bi Shanti Panic.

I shook my head, “It's okay, Bi.” I said.

Soon enough, Bang Haidar came in with a nun and also a wheelchair. Bang Haidar helped me up in that wheelchair. Then we go to Mama's room.

There, I saw Mama lying down again, my father beside Mama.

Daddy's? No, he's just Mr. Faiz. I shook my head.

Mr. Faiz looked sad, he kept looking at my mother with a longing look. Although I only met him a few times, I can honestly admit how the eyes were so honest as to say longing.

"Wake, An. Let's fix all this. Back me. It's all my fault, if only I hadn't been incited by Ulfa's words. If I had trusted you one hundred percent, none of this would have happened. We will never be apart. I'm sorry." Mr. Faiz said while holding my mother's hand.

I turned my eyes up so my tears wouldn't spill. Hearing what he said, I became very sure that he was not a good person as everyone said.

He can't love my mother completely. For years, he hasn't been looking for us.

I looked up at Bang Haidar who was looking at my mother and Mr. Faiz with a sad look. There is longing there, there is also regret, also sadness.

"May I speak with my mother?" I asked Bang Haidar.

My voice reached Mr. Faiz's ears. He looked at me and took his hand out of Mama's. He began to stand. I was a little surprised to actually see him who is now standing, even though I know he suffered a stroke long enough.

Was this one of the miracles that came to my mother? Be that as it may. I shouldn't care too much.

"Would you like to talk to Mama, son?" Ask Mr. Faiz.

I turned my eyes the other way, I did not want to meet him. Mr. Faiz walked over to me and was about to rub my head, but I immediately took my head out of his hands.

"Mom!" Bang Haidar said trying to warn me. However, I don't care.

"It's okay, son. It's okay." Mr. Faiz said.

 

Then, Bang Haidar helped Mr. Faiz to stay away. Now I was crying while holding my mom's hand. I couldn't bear his situation, he had suffered too much.

 

"Mama, sorry Ara. Sorry Ara, ..." I said.

It's all my fault, I'm not supposed to deal with my mother's family anymore. What Bi Shanti and Bi Linda say is true. We'll be fine if we don't deal with Mama's family, especially Bude Ulfa.

"Mama ..., wake up Ara kangen." I said while crying.

I don't know why there are so many cries in my life like this. However, obviously my mother's tears were much more out. I kept crying there, but my mother did not show any miracles.

“Bi Shanti?” call me.

Bi Shanti was in the room, crying all the time, I could feel how devastated she was to find my mother like this.

“Yes, Son?” ask her.

“How is the condition of Bude Ulfa? And how long have I been unconscious?” my many.

“You were unconscious 2 days, son. Mbak Ulfa died and was buried yesterday before you realized.” said Bi Shanti.

I nodded my head, because women do not have that heart, now I started to be a killer, but at least now my mother is safe from people like Bude Ulfa. I know my actions are unjustified, but it seems that if given time to repeat, I will still do the same.

My mother has been too kind to him, my mother's family has always been stupid to follow the will of the devil. And papa's family is helpless.

“So, have the police started looking for me?” my many.

Bi Shanti was silent for a moment. I understand what her silence means, “Not to continue, Bi. I-i know. And even if I have to rot for the rest of my life in prison, I feel sincere.”

“We will find a way that it will not happen.” said Bi Shanti.

I just smile. I know it's not gonna work.

“How is Ghifari?” my many.

“He's still in a coma, son. He ran out of blood.” said Bi Shanti. “His blood type is quite rare and currently the hospital is still trying to find a donor.”

“Di PMI?” my many.

“There is also the stock is empty.” said Bi Shanti.

“What is his blood type?” my many.

Not even answered, someone went into my mother's room. I looked over there was already his mother Ghifari or Tanta Farha.

“Nak, can we talk to you for a minute?” ask Aunt Farha.

And here I am, outside my mother's room. I don't want to go far with my mom. I don't want to see Aunt Farha's face.

“I'm sorry aunt, son. This is all wrong aunt.” said Aunt Farha.

“What is this apology for? To aski aunty snatch husband best friend aunt herself?” ask me cynically.

He also cried, “Iya, Aunt is very guilty because of it. Aunt apologized. For everything that happened to your mother was aunty's fault. A little aunty is always involved in the crime that Mbak Ulfa did.” he said.

“Then, I admit aunty's fault at the police station.” said I immediately left him.

***

I watched my mother's face, my hands I did not let go of her, “Ma, Ara kangen.” I said.

Shortly after someone came into the room, I looked back.

“Saudari Zahra, you we have arrested for the murder of Sister Ulfa.” a police officer said.

 

DEG!

My heart was beating with a big bang. I didn't think I was going to be taken this fast, but I wasn't ready to leave my mother.

“Pak, I beg you, this case let us solve in a familial manner.” said Bang Haidar. “Again my sister has not healed.”

“You can explain everything in our office. And your sister will get treatment from the doctor we have provided.” said the police.

“Pak, I beg you, allow me here, at least until my mother is aware.” I said asking the police.

However, no matter how I asked, the police would not give me any leeway.

Ma, once again, forgive Ara.