Sendu Sweetener
PS 19 - Who is my Family?
I fell silent and thought.
I doubt. Is today a good day to start my mother's family search? But I fear that the truth will hurt me. Let me keep it first. I'll keep it in my room. I'm sure the letter has something to do with my family. Aaron. Is he really my father?
...***...
"Geez, virgins at this hour when the bells wake up."
Someone's voice woke me up. I opened my eyes. I found Ghifari standing next to me. I was surprised, sitting down. Then observe my own body. Nothing is strange. I sigh in relief.
I fell asleep in the living room.
"Well, you know, you're in my house early in the morning?" I said while rubbing my eyelids.
"You wake up my future wife. Can't you?" said.
I rolled my eyes bored. Then I threw the couch cushion at him, he giggled.
"What's the problem with my house?" my many.
"Enggaklaah. I took a shower, there was a shower. Slovenly." said he.
"Enak. I never did it. I don't want to take a shower, justin aja nemenin you in this situation, let lo ilfeel." I said.
"Udah let's take a bath!" he said while pulling me and pushing me into the bathroom, then he closed it from the outside.
"Damn." I said.
I also took a shower, and wore a t-shirt and trousers, just like a house outfit. Have not combed or applied powder on the cheeks.
I also remember the box I forgot to put in the closet. I hurried out, I let my wet and messy hair.
Ghifari.
"Forgot something." I said. I took the box and went straight into the room and put it in the bottom cupboard.
Then I went out while grinning at Ghifari.
"Sok pretty." I said.
"Beautiful, wee.." I said as I stuck out my tongue.
After I combed my hair, I came out of the room.
"Send ya, Ghif." I said.
Ghifari.
I saw Ghifari had not been made to drink. I'll bet that Bi Shanti hasn't had time to make drinks for Ghifari.
Arriving in the kitchen I found Bi Shanti crying. I approached him too. I really don't understand why he would cry like that.
"Bi Shanti, why?" My toot.
Getting close to me, he hugged me. The confused me could only rub my back.
"My son." he said. Then I kissed my hair.
"Wait, Bi. What does Aunt mean?" many confused.
Bi Shanti's face changed. He's speechless. Then set his breath.
"Auntie has no children, can you call me my son? Can you think of me as an aunt's child?" ask Bi Shanti.
I feel sorry for Bi Shanti. She must be living alone just like me and my mother. It would be unfair to refuse his request. I nodded too. Then Bi Santi hugged me back.
"Bi, Ara wants to go ahead first yes, want to meet Gifari." I said.
"Yes, Honey. He's a good boy. Aunty likes to see you guys together." Said Bi Shanti. My face was red. Aunt giggles.
"Ah, bibii.." I said I went straight to see Gifari. What surprise is this, O God?
...***...
Ghifari's eyes are now catching me. I realized immediately and walked over to Gifari and my mother. Bi Shanti said, My mother has eaten.
"Liat, Aunt. Girlhood at this hour just woke up" Ghifari said.
"Ih, what a bitch." I said grumpily.
Ghifari was also shocked. He was always happy to see me angry.
"Change clothes. I want to take you away" he said.
I-you. I spell that word in my heart.
I followed his request without much protest. In my head I honestly thought about the bracelet and the letter, as well as Bi Santi.
...***...
Along the way I was silent, and so was Ghifari. I caught something unusual from him. The speed of the car we drive is getting faster. It scares me. What happened to Ghifari. Since getting in this car he's not like the Ghifari I know.
"Ghifari! What's up?" my many.
Hearing question. He just pushed his car faster.
I started to get scared, and I quietly sobbed. I wept. I don't like him like this. It's scary. Seeing me sob slowly he pulled his car over quickly.
I'm really scared.
I covered my face with tears.
"You're bad." I said. That's all I can get out when I sob.
"Sorry Ra, sorry" he said.
He's unbuckled his seatbelt. Then leaned his body on me. He opened my hand. To see my face. Why am I sobbing more.
I tried to steal a look into his eyes. However, if not wrong her tears also dripped on her cheeks. I must have been wrong to see. My eyes are getting blurry. I'm still freaked out. Both my hands are blocked. Then he took my body into his arms.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" he said.
I'm getting sobbing. I felt my back wet. Is she really crying? Why is she crying?
"Ghif.." I said. Trying to let go of his embrace.
"Five minutes Ra. Five minutes" he said. His voice vibrates.
Is he facing a big problem? What problems? This time I saw a man crying. Let alone a Gifari, a shitty man. Let it. Let me help ease the burden. He often helps me. I also want to help him. I secretly hugged her.
...***...
You why?" my many.
"I don't want to lose you. Really am. That's all" he said.
DEG!
I'm silent. She's quiet. I didn't intend to ask any further about what he said to me just now.
Shortly after in his steering chair, he fell asleep. I can only look at his face. What's really going on with him?
I didn't pay much attention to his face at my house. Now that I've looked closely, last night she must have not slept, it was visible from her eye bags.
I took my jacket. Then cover him with that jacket.
My head is now full of Ghifari. What happened to him that he almost wasted our lives. Even though I don't know what problem he's facing. But I know, it must be a big deal.
You've helped me by making my mother smile, Ghif. I won't forget. I'll help you. Although my life is at stake. I'll always be by your side if that's what you want.
I thought back to the bracelet and the letter. Was my father really named Aaron? If it's true he's my father. Where is he now?
Why would he throw my mother and me away? Why have we never met? Who are my grandparents? Where did all of my mother's other families go? Why was my mother left like that.
Why did my mother become like that? What exactly happened until every night as long as I lived I always found my mother's tears dripping in her sleep?
