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PS 25 - Can I Call Papa?

I kept thinking about what Ghifari said. Also Bang Haidar. Why did my little heart say that there was something strange about them. Especially Bang Haidar. Ghifari did say that Bang Haidar was looking for the whereabouts of his younger brother. But why does he suspect me? Really weird.

But considering how Bang Haidar was so diligent in searching for his sister's whereabouts made me a little envious and thoughtful. Is my family looking for me too? Ah, it feels impossible.

However, when I look at my mother's face, my mother is like coming from a family. Uh, at least this is just my mind with no basis huh. But it's impossible that my mother is Bang Haidar's mother because I know that the world is not as big as Moringa leaves.

When I think about my family even though my name is unknown, it makes me feel sad. On the one hand I want to know but on the other hand I am afraid to accept the bad truth. I love my mother very much. And I don't know if I'm going to accept the reality and accept a family that I can say has abandoned me or not.

I'm pretty sure my mom was in a wheelchair not without a reason. I'd love to know where I'm from. Who is my mother's family and who is my father? Is Aaron really my father's name?

"What's up, son?" ask Bi Shanti, or do I just call Bi Arum?

I would love to call Ms. Shanti Bi Arum. As my mother knew him. However, after hearing the words of Bi Shanti who told me to call her with the name Bi Shanti made me also obey.

I don't want to defy him.

"Bi, does aunt have a family?" ask me to Bi Shanti

Knowing there is someone who I can now talk two ways when at home certainly has its own happiness. I miss Bi Linda very much. And the presence of Bi Shanti, could quickly treat my longing.

"Of course." said Bi Shanti with a smiling face.

"Oh yeah? Where is Bi Shanti's family now?" I was really curious about what happened.

"Here" said Bi Shanti.

I started thinking hard. On here. "In this house?" I tried to convince Bi Shanti for fear that she might have mispronounced her.

"Yes, Auntie's family is here. Just here" Bi Shanti said.

Instantly his eyes glazed over. I didn't know what was going on but I could feel something strange had happened.

"I? And Mama?" ask me to make sure again.

Bi Shanti smiled then nodded. Although smiling her tears also kept flowing.

"Yes, only you are now family, Auntie" Bi Shanti said

"I'm sorry, Bi.." I said, not feeling good about asking for her family.

I certainly feel guilty. It turned out that it was not only me and my mother who had no family, but Bi Shanti as well.

I carefully observed Bi Shanti's face. There was a deep sadness that he hid behind his smile and tears.

At times like these I remember the Ghifari family. That big family really makes me jealous. The house is large, the inhabitants are numerous.. Argh, despite the condition of his father Ghifari is not in good health. At least Ghifari still has Papa. While me.. Knowing his name was just yesterday. It's also still gray.

I can only breathe in my heart. Honestly, as a child, I wanted to have a father. My dad is always there for me. But where my father is now. I just found out that my dad is named Aaron.

Wait, when I look at Bi Shanti's face always looks sad when I say Aaron's name.

"It's okay, honey. Aunt is not sad. There are you guys anyway. That's enough for Auntie" said Bi Shanti.

I hugged Bi Shanti. My mom's still in her room. Since Bi Shanti's arrival, my mother has been able to express herself. My mother even smiled more often to see the behavior of Bi Shanti who despite being old often teased my mother.

"Bi, did Auntie ever get married?" my many.

Bi Shanti nodded.

"What's it like to get married, Bi?" ask me to Bi Shanti.

"Have you thought about marrying Ghifari, son?" ask Bi Shanti.

I really did not expect that Bi Shanti would ask such a thing. I was really surprised. I am confused as to what to answer. But one thing I know. I can deny that.

"Ah, Auntie. No." I said, turning my eyes the other way.

Of course my cheeks are hot. I really don't understand why my cheeks can be this hot.

"Bibiiii.." I said, whining.

Bi Shanti just chuckled at seeing me misbehaving him.

"What about Bi Linda? Has Bi Linda ever been married?" my many.

Suddenly I remembered Bi Linda. I don't know if Bi Linda was ever married or not. All I know is that Bi Linda is always with us regardless of my knowledge of whether or not she was married.

I never thought about this before. But I guess I want to know everything. I'm curious about Bi Linda's life.

"Bi Linda was once married" Bi Shanti said.

I looked seriously. This fact I know now. It turns out that my thinking all along that Bi Linda has never been married is very wrong.

"really? Married to whom?" my many.

Bi Shanti smiled.

"Name Minan. He is your father's best friend." said Bi Shanti with a sparkling face, he seemed to reminisce about something.

But the look of that face changed. Bi Shanti looks like a talking release. I don't want to be suspicious either.

"My dad? So Bi Linda married my father's best friend?" my many.

Bi Shanti smiled then nodded.

"Yes." said Bi Shanti.

"Means Om Minan Papa Aaron's best friend?" manya curious.

Can I call that guy Aaron Papa? At least I can say my father's name after all these years of not knowing.

"Eh? No." suddenly Bi Shanti was surprised.

Seeing how Bi Shanti was surprised made me even more confused. What's up again? But I don't want to urge him.

"My father's Aaron, isn't he?" I was afraid that Bi Shanti would answer wrongly.

Bi Shanti was silent for a moment. Then nod.

"Did Bi Shanti know who Papa was?" my many.

"Papa?" ask Bi Shanti.

"Yes, Papa Aaron." I said.

Long-time Bi Shanti is adorable too.

He smiles.

"Mas Aaron is Linda's sister. Of course Auntie knew him. Mas Aaron is a very good man." said Bi Shanti with a smile.

"Lho, so Papa Aaron is Bi Linda's older brother. No matter what, Bi Linda is always there for us." I said.

Finally, I understood the reason Bi Linda wanted to take care of both of us for the rest of her life. I originally really didn't understand why Bi Linda had been so good to me and my mother.

I know Bi Linda's my mom's best friend but would all my best friends do something similar? But today after knowing one thing about the truth Papa Aaron is the younger brother of Bi Linda, now I know. The reason Bi Linda is quite strong.

"Then, where's Papa Aaron?" I asked Bi Shanti.