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PS 27 - Angelic Heart

"Yes, that woman is married" Bi Shanti said.

"What happened after that?" I asked who was getting curious.

"Your mother who knew that Mas Aaron and Mas Minan were kidnapped immediately intended to release them alone. No one believed your mother at the time, and your mother didn't dare tell your father that Mas Aaron was being kidnapped because your mother was afraid that your father would be much more misunderstood." bi Shanti said.

"And it's too late now, son. Mas Aaron and Mas Minan were already in a state of loss of life when your mother came" said Bi Shanti.

From this story, I can begin to guess what happened.

"Then the slandered mama killed them?" my many.

Bi Shanti's tears hardened instantly. He's nodding.

"And ever since then, your mother's been a fugitive, son. Forgive Aunt Nak for having to tell you all this right now" Bi Shanti said.

My tears are dripping. Turns out this is the tragic story behind my question about where my family is. I really didn't expect it to happen that it was completely out of the ordinary. I hugged Bi Shanti for a moment.

"This is why we tried to hide you and your mother. Because we were afraid that something bad would happen to you guys" Bi Shanti said.

"Who is that woman. Bi?" my many.

"Auntie won't answer, let it be, son. Never worry about the past more than this. You told Auntie yourself that you wouldn't do more, right?" ask Bi Shanti.

"Yes, Bi, I won't do more" I said regretting the words I said originally to convince auntie that she would tell me at the beginning of the conversation.

"Then, the information from auntie is enough, isn't it?" ask Bi Shanti.

I was silent for a moment. Of course not enough. I started thinking about asking one more question. The previous question always led to my mother. I want to know a little about Bi Shanti's life.

"Bi, may I ask you another question?" I still have a lot of questions in my head.

"What questions?" ask Bi Shanti.

"Bi Shanti told me that Bibi was married, right? Where's aunt's husband?" my many.

Bi Shanti could only smile bitterly listening to my question. "He died when he managed to get the three of us out" Bi Shanti said.

I'm flabbergasted. It was really scary, there were three people who died because of that woman. And my mother who was a fugitive for years until my mother became like this.

"Innalillahi wa innailaihi. I'm sorry, Bi." I said as I hugged Bi Shanti again.

He's a little sniffling. My heart felt sobbing hearing that stuffing. I now understand why Bi Linda is so unwilling that everyone knows my mother's real name never even brought my mother out when so many people were near the house.

Maybe this is also the reason Bi Linda chose a very remote and remote home location.

Actually there is still a lot I want to ask Bi Shanti: about whether my family knew that my mother was pregnant with me at that time, about when my mother became like this, about when, about why Bi Shanti was able to separate with her mother and Bi Linda, about why Bi Linda did not need to fake her name, and about much more.

However, I realized, I couldn't push Bi Shanti further, she also seemed to be devastated by the incident. Looking at him who was crying like this, my guilt appeared.

On the one hand I feel guilty for urging him to tell me about the past but on the other hand I feel that I know the past and this is the right time to he told me. 

After all I am my mother's child, so I have to know the history of my mother anyway.

"Bi, thank you for everything, sorry for making auntie cry like this." I said sincerely to Bi Shanti.

Bi Shanti nodded, then wiped my tears. "You deserve to know everything, son. It's okay."

"Remember, son, despite everything that aunt told you, you must not look for your family even to the point of taking revenge" Bi Shanti said.

"Are you not upset to find all this?" askaku who does not understand Bi Shanti's way of thinking.

"Everyone who experiences it must have feelings of anger and resentment. That's a commonplace thing. Especially Bi Shanti. Bi Shanti certainly was not willing to let the woman live a quiet life but your mother once told Auntie not to repay her. Even your mother told Aunt to forgive all the vile woman's mistakes" Bi Shanti said.

"Really, Bi?" I ask as if I don't believe.

I really didn't expect my mother's heart to be so clean.

"Yes, Son. Your mother was a really good person. That's why my aunt loved him so much. Your mother even told Bibi that Bibi should not repay the vile woman's crimes with evil. He said it makes us no different from the woman, equally evil. Your mother even asked the aunt to pray that the person return to the path of Allah SWT and give everything to Allah SWT" said Bi Shanti.

I nodded in understanding. It turns out my mom was really a good person. I am proud to be my mother's son.

"My mom is lucky to have a best friend like my Aunt" I said.

"It is precisely the aunt who is lucky to have a friend like your mother" said Bi Shanti.

I smile nodding. "I'm so proud, Bi. It's my mother's son." I said, chuckling.

"Are you proud all this time?" asked Bi Shanti who started teasing me.

"That's not what I mean, Bi." I said.

Bi Shanti chuckled listening to what I said. Seeing her chuckle made me feel relieved because Bi Shanti was able to laugh again. 

From today on I am determined to work even harder and be able to make Bi Shanti and my mother proud of me. I will fix the dark times during this time.

"Come, in?" bi Shanti said as she extended her hand to me.

I grabbed that hand and entered the house with a big smile.

...***...

I can't sleep tonight. I went back to thinking about everything Bi Shanti said. That painful truth really made my heart ache. I turned to look at my mother who was now in the middle of the storm.

"Mama.. I love my mom very much." I said.

I started hugging my mother from the side. I really feel heartache considering that my mother's illness came from a horrible incident in my mother's past that Bi Shanti told me about.

My papa. I thought about him. How is he doing now? I clucked in my heart. He was laughing happily with his family.

I'm determined, from now on, I won't find out more about my mother's past. I don't want to know their whereabouts and know them.

I will show that without any help from them, my mother and I can still live happily.