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PS 13 - Regrets

I really owe him. If Ghifari had not accompanied me to the hospital, I would have been confused to take care of this and that in the hospital because I was completely overwhelmed with panic.

"It's my fault" I said, falling to the hospital floor.

Ghifari hurriedly crouched down in front of me. My tears are hard again.

I don't want to look weak, but why the weakness is actually starting to show.

I was really scared that something would happen to my mom. My mother was the only family I had, and I didn't want to lose her.

In front of me, Ghifari shook her head. He does not approve of my words. He wiped my tears gently. He's a really good boy.

"It's my fault that you're not going to go away" said Gifari.

"Lo told me to go home from there" I said.

"Maybe this is the way, Ara. What is important is that we learn in the future" Ghifari said.

I looked at Ghifari. He really is a good man. Immediately I felt that I was again entangled in her charms.

"Don't look at me like that" Ghifari said.

I just shut up.

Then, he grabbed my hand, "Let's stand up" she said. Then pull me to stand up. I followed and he took me on a bench.

A few minutes later the doctor came out. Ghifari and I hurried to the doctor to find out what was really going on.

"How's my mom doing, Doc?" ask the doctor.

"You're his family?" ask Doctor.

"Yes, Doc. I'm his son." I said.

"And this?" ask the doctor.

I really didn't know that the Doctor asked Ghifari either. Ah, you're right. If only I had not used the word 'me', the doctor would not have asked again. I should've just said 'we.

I started thinking about the answer to the doctor's question. What do I have to answer? A fella? Come on, no friendship between a boy and a girl. Or boyfriend? Prospective Husband? Geez, enough I lied to the Ghifari family alone, others don't.

"D-him.." I said to answer.

"I'm his brother." replied Ghifari.

The deg!

Ghifari was truly an unpredictable person. It felt so sad to hear him admit me as Big Brother not as a potential wife as usual.

I pinched my own arm to wake myself up.

"So, how's he doing, Doc?" ask Ghifari.

I nodded confirming his question.

"Your mother is okay. He was just late for a meal. Your mother had mag disease, so she couldn't eat late" the doctor said.

"Alhamdulillah." I said and Ghifari gave thanks.

"Thank you, Doc" Ghifari said.

The doctor nodded, "Please complete the administration yes." the doctor told Ghifari.

"Well, Doc" Ghifari said.

Hearing the doctor say that my mother was late eating that made her faint. My heart hurts so much.

The only thing that makes my mother like this is me, her son. We both walked into the room where my mother was being treated.

The shadow of guilt was now beginning to gather in my chest. I'm really a useless kid and no one takes care of my mom. I regret. Really sorry.

"Mama.sorry Ara." I said while hugging my mother who is still lying with an infusion tube in hand.

"Ra, is there a Aunt ID?" ask Ghifari.

I was stunned and then shook my head. "Gue didn't bring it." I said lying.

I never saw my mom have a ID. All of them used Bi Linda data.

"okay, gakpapa. Whose Aunt's name, Ra?" ask Ghifari.

I gulped for a moment.

"Linda. My mother's name is Linda." I said.

I nodded too.

"Ghhh!" called him.

Ghifari stopped and looked.

"M-thank you." I said.

Ghifari just smiled and nodded.

...***...

Yesterday's incident really hurt my heart. I can't take good care of my mom. That's what I think about continuously. I kept daydreaming in front of the TV.

"Pregnant?" my shoulder's on someone's shake. I looked over and found Ghifari there. He is the one who shakes my body.

"Gue ketok, I greet, no reply, I'm afraid there's nothing so I come in. Lo why?" tanyanya's confused.

I found Gifari not alone. Beside him was someone I had an estimate of the same age as my mother standing.

"Who?" I asked, glancing at the mothers.

"Call Bi Santi. From today he will take care of my mother" said Ghifari, his water of prayer mantab. I was fascinated. Hahey. Forgetit.

I glared at Ghifari, it was nice that she called my mother Mama.

"I mean Auntie" said Ghifari.

I turned towards the person Ghifari was carrying. What did Ghifari say? Caring for mama? I really need to clarify it right now. Ghifari certainly knew that I didn't have enough money to pay for a nurse, and though he knew that why he still brought the nurse?

"We need to talk" I said with a serious look.

To be honest, in my heart, I'm so glad she's so attentive to me, her future self-made wife. But there's still a lot of things I'm thinking about for now.

I'm budging. He followed me from behind.

"What's wrong?" tanyakanya.

"The honorable ghifari. I'm afraid." I said.

Heard my calling. He with the gesture of support instantly fixed the collar of his shirt. The action is very funny and cool, but I can't fall asleep. Yes, I can't fall asleep.

"God! So much fun!" I said, picking out his ear.

"Al-lalalala, pardon me!" he said, grimacing in pain.

I let go too. I folded my hands in front of my chest.

"Gue doesn't have Ghifari's money for rent. Do you understand that?" I said.

"Lo calm down. I'll pay. You are my future wife. So it's my duty to make the best love for you" he said in a serious pretentious style.

My cheeks feel hot. I have to do something to get away from him.

"Heh what the fuck. We are just pretending. Inget it. Obligations nutmeg lo peyang. Yaudah it's up to you." I said go straight away.

O God, what shall I do.

I can no longer argue with Ghifari because I really can't control the hue on my cheek. I really need to get away from him right now.

Ghifari chuckled as usual. It felt so bad to see him keep laughing at me. Then he followed my steps.

We both approached Bi Santi. This time I kissed Bi Santi Takzim's hand.

"I'm sorry, Bi. I was not polite. My name is Ara. Please help, Bi. Hehe" I said to Bi Santi.

I glanced at Ghifari. He's a little pecker.

"Yes, Non, nothing" said Bi Santi. "I can work today, Non?" ask Bi Santi.

I also nodded.

"Don't non, just call me Ara?" I said.

Bi Santi smiled then nodded.

"Should I take you around the house, Bi?" just polite.

"No need for a child. Later aunty will travel alone. But if I may aunty want to know her mother Nak Ara." Bi Santi.

"Oh, can Bi please come with Ara" I said