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PS 36 - A Hope

I froze in Bang Haidar's arms. My tears suddenly hardened. I really didn't think that Bang Haidar said that I was his sister. And it turns out my guess is right.

"No, Bang. That's impossible." I said. While passing Bang Haidar's hand.

Bang Haidar looked at me with a sad look. This is the first time I have seen Bang Haidar who looks so sad like this. 

"Help DNA test brother, Za. Sure brother. I'm sure you don't know your mom wrong." said Bang Haidar.

Bang Haidar fell right when he mentioned the name of Mama. I became very sad to see how this miserable Bang Haidar was.

I really can't bear it. Honestly seeing the red eyes and tears of Bang Haidar that came down made me seem to believe that Bang Haidar is my brother who has been doing a lot of effort to find my whereabouts and Mama.

However, even though I believe the words that Bang Haidar said, still I have to make sure of it first. I do not want Bang Haidar to be wrong and I am wrong to consider Bang Haidar as my brother.

"Tomorrow, Bang?" my many.

"What about right now?" taya Bang Haidar after rubbing his face.

I'm nodding. I think faster is better. I went in and said goodbye to Bi Shanti and Mama. And don't forget I took some of your hair that happened to fall out under her hijab. I pocketed it before making everyone suspicious.

"It's malem, Ra. Is it okay?" ask Bi Shanti.

"Auntie is calm. I'm safe with Bang Haidar." I said.

Seleh reassured me and I immediately went back to see Bang Haidar and went straight to the hospital.

Until finally the DNA test was done, I and Bang Haidar just silent, now our heads are filled with each thought. I wish that Bang Haidar was my brother but if he was my brother. I really don't want my family to be told to stay at her house.

I don't want to be a burden or a burden in a family that doesn't seem to open my hands to me and I'm sure they're the ones who abandoned my mother and me. What else I don't know what this all means.

However, I remembered the words of Bang Haidar who said that he would not take me and my mother to the house and would even keep us from the house for something I did not know.

O God, I can only leave everything to You. Servant surrender O Allah. - my inner self. 

"Come, let's go home, Za" said Bang Haidar.

"Lho, don't you wait for her, Bang?" my many.

"The result was a week" said Bang Haidar.

"Can't it be accelerated?" my many.

"At the earliest of the day, even that must use blood." replied Bang Haidar.

I'm speechless. I couldn't have hurt Mama. I will be patient maybe this is the way, I have to wait and wait again.

"For a week, please don't tell anyone this. Then we'll talk about it again. And please avoid Ghifari for a while and do not go to your brother's house before we know the results" said Bang Haidar.

"Well, Bang." I said to Bang Haidar.

I also according. "May you be my sister, Za. In this world, the thing you expect and always pray for is that you can meet with you and Mama" said Bang Haidar.

I'm nodding. 

Then Bang Haidarpun immediately drove me home. All the way I turned off my phone. I don't want to take it from Ghifari. I also started to believe in Bang Haidar.

"Abang will come to your house the day after tomorrow to treat mama" said Bang Haidar.

I nodded in understanding.

I turned once again towards Bang Haidar. I really feel close to him. Bang Haidar smiled, I returned Bang Haidar's smile.

I immediately changed my clothes and immediately performed the prayer. Magrib I did this with Bang Haidar at one of the mosques.

After praying and praying, I immediately laid my body on the bed, next to my mother. I hugged him tightly from behind.

I would love to tell him everything but I don't want to add any more burden to my mother whose condition is getting better.

Mama, Ara is confused.

I hugged my mother tightly.

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The next day I started my phone. And phone messages and phone calls from Ghifari started filling my phone. I just read it. However, I found one message that made me feel confused about what to do.

I'll be home in 15 minutes.

And soon I felt like I knew what to do. I also chose to pretend to be sick to avoid our meeting. 

Besides, it feels like I want to cry about what Ghifari told his mother.

I was very curious about what he said but honestly I felt that what Bang Haidar said was true, I only needed to avoid Ghifari for a while until the test results came out. 

Next, let us think again.

I'm really confused right now. 

"Assynnya!" hail Ghifari.

I wouldn't have mistaken his voice. I'll bet he got to the front of the house.

I drowned my body in the blanket. I don't want to meet him. I want to be free from my current heartache for a while.

I don't want to hear what Ghifari says and does next.

Shortly after, Bi Shanti walked into the room. 

"Son, there's Nak Ghifari outside" Bi Shanti said.

"Please tell me I'm not feeling well, Bi." I said.

"You sick, son?" asked Bi Shanti who looked worried looking at me like this.

I can only shake. Bi Shanti checked the temperature on my forehead by sticking her hand on her forehead.

"Oh Allah, you are very hot" said Bi Shanti.

I really didn't know my body temperature could be this hot. I can only hear, I just feel a little dizzy, maybe this is the effect because a lot of what I'm thinking now.

"Yaudah aunt said same Ghifari son huh?" ask Bi Shanti.

I'm nodding.

I can also breathe freely. I don't have to pretend in front of Ghifari. It was so bad to remember what he said yesterday.

However, my leg breath was only a few minutes later because I saw Ghifari knocking on the open door of the room that seemed to have forgotten Bi Shanti closed.

"Lo's sick?" asked Ghifari who went straight into the room.

I just nodded. 

I really want to spit on Ghifari right now. I'm really fed up with his good attitude. The more he was kind to me, the more I thought about his words and continued to think of him as a liar. Yes, a very cruel liar.

"Why don't you say it" Ghifari said.

I just kept quiet, not winning.

"I said Aisha later" Ghifari said.

You Evil! - I cried in my heart.

"M-thank you." I said my voice instantly hoarse.

"Lo want to eat something?" asked Ghifari gently.

I want to cry right now. Thinking about her kindness is only a set and full of lies makes my chest feel tight. I really wanted to hit Ghifari and slap him.

I'm shaking.

"Jude, I'm in front. Lo rest huh?" Ghifari.

I'm nodding.

Ghifaripun came out of the room and closed the door. I bit my bibr to hold back the crying, but one tear remained out of the corner of my eye.

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