My Girl

Unobserved

Nita can't say anymore. Until now arika has not been able to accept nita as a lover of dharma. The dharma parents remain opposed to their relationship and do not approve of them getting married.

"If you don't approve of us, we'll stay married and settle in New York" the dharma hugs the nita and walks into the room.

Nita can only cry in the dharma.

"Hey why are you crying, we're still getting married without my parents' blessing"

"So far as I leave me, this relationship is not worth our life since I should have realized it's happy with your parents' chosen lover"

Maybe this is the way I can't live with the people I love. I tried to convince the dharma to stay away from me, but the dharma still stubbornly did not want to leave me.

He's more willing to leave everything his family has than leave me. While in New York dharma is right to pursue his business that he pioneered from below to become a successful person like today.

Sekarng dharma has owned his own company without the help of his family's company and it's his own hard work all along. Rarely are dharma men who want to pioneer everything from zero rather than enjoying the results of their parents' inheritance.

I should be happy to have a man who loves me very much, but what power I do not want dharma against his parents.

I know he's a loved one with his parents, even though he once left his parents because he did not like the rules in this house.

God why do you treat me like this, why happiness doesn't stand with me. What's my fault why when I just got happy now I get back to having this big problem. I love him so much, so much trouble in this relationship. Should I leave him to get his happiness.

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"Here you go, now I'm going to drive you home to meet your parents" they came out of the room until their steps stopped when they heard the noise of fighting.

"Basar children do not know they are lucky" said Arika

"Son daddy misses you so much, stay here with dad" Dharma brushed his dad's hand off.

There was a debate within this family, I was only able to see and hear their quarrels without being able to stop them, until the dharma pulled my hand towards the door.

"Leave me, seek your happiness" that word I can say in my silence until dharma stops the car.

"What do you mean, you are my happiness and only with you I am able to be like this" the dharma grabbed my two hands to convince me.

"Quite, enough of all your sweet words all along what this means if your parents don't approve of us" brushed off the hand of the dharma.

"Why artinaya we've survived, I'll try to find a way out of all this and we'll get married soon"

"Nothing can bring us together, I don't deserve a man like you, we don't equal" without my tears running through my cheeks.

"Quite, I will never let you go again from my life you are only mine" cried the dharma and returned to running his car.

Along the way there were no more jokes and our laughter fell silent without a sound. I just stared along the busy road traversed by a bunch of cars.

Love is so complicated for me, sometimes I feel comfortable feeling genuine love from her. But sometimes love makes me feel sick and just want to cry. The word love person is like food every day where there is a bitter taste sweet salty and spicy. I don't know maybe what I'm feeling right now is bitter, my love was too complicated to understand I chose to stay even though I knew the relationship I was living in could not continue but I still force to live this relationship.