Love from GIA

Episode 236 (Sorry, I'm Going)

"Don't go" said Mas Naufal.

"Mas needs you here" continued Mas Naufal again.

"God if I refuse him, I am his wife, I know I am very angry with him, but seeing Mas Naufal like this, I feel sorry for him" I said in my heart.

I sat down next to Mas Naufal and compressed the cheek of Mama Feni's slap.

Without looking into Mas Naufal's eyes I could do it.

I kept taking my eyes off Mas Naufal. Naufal kept looking at me.

Without touching her skin, I finally could.

"Aren't you going to see me again??" ask Mas Naufal.

"You just don't want to look at Mas, that much you hate the same Mas??"

I kept ignoring the questions he was asking me. My heart became more and more claustrophobic hearing that.

"Gia,"

"Look at me," he said.

Mas Naufal tried to hold my compressing hand. I pull my hand hard.

"Mas doesn't want to let you go, dear" said Mas Naufal.

"Udah is not the time we think Mas, Gia is already sick," I said as I pulled my hand and Mas Naufal let go.

"I think Mas can compress it himself" I said briefly but my heart could not bear.

I don't want that on him, why?? Why does my heart keep wanting to believe Mas Naufal?? It was clear that Mas Naufal was covering everything from me.

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At night, at 11 p.m.

I looked at Mama Feni who had fallen asleep in Abay's room. Then I went back to the room to sleep.

I had to turn my back on Mas Naufal to make him aware of his mistake.

Mas Naufal tried to touch my shoulder.

"I beg you not Mas, not now, my heart still hurts because of Mas Naufal, huhuhu," I said in my heart.

However, Mas Naufal will continue to try to give his night to me.

"Pass love with Gia" she whispered in my ear.

Her breath feels warm on my earlobe.

Why does it feel like nothing has changed?? Why is it so hard not to love her?? Why is it so hard to change everything.

Mas Naufal turned me around and he looked at me.

My eyes kept running away from his sight even though now our faces are very close together, maybe only 2cm away.

Deg....

Why is my heart still shaking, why is it still like this?? I want to get away from him?? Huhuhoo.

Mas Naufal tried to kiss every inch of my face. And the memories of the past were re-recorded in my brain.

At the beginning of the marriage, Mas Naufal did not love me, and Vela came to hug him, then the black box from Vela and the photos of Vela's birthday that are still stored in Mas Naufal's Laptop file make me uncomfortable if I have to continue this.

And finally.....

Pyaaaarrrrrr.

Making Mas Naufal stop everything immediately.

I immediately startled when I made Mas Naufal shocked.

"Mmmm.....Ma's....I'm sorry, I. I'm going down, "I said briefly.

I have held back these tears from the first day Mas Naufal will give me his beautiful night.

I immediately got up and got out of the room. Thankfully it was very late. So everyone in this house is definitely asleep.

I cried while going down the stairs.

"What have I done to Mas Naufal?? Huhuhuhu,"

"Truly I didn't want it to be like that Mas, huhuhuhuhu, everything was unconsciously Mas, nor did I want this to happen,"

"But those memories, they were clear when I started to close my eyes Mas, huhuhuhuhu, I'm sorry Mas, I can't," I said in my heart.

I was confused where to calm myself.

If in the kitchen?? Scared at any time there is Bi Sarah or who is there.

And finally, I ran into Mas Naufal's study.

***(In Mas Naufal's Workspace)

I turned on the light switch there.

I sat on the sofa biting on my finger which continued to tremble and was not calm from feeling guilty towards Mas Naufal.

"Oh my God, I am a sinner, huhuhu" I said in my heart.

"I'm sorry, ma'am" I said in my heart.

Suddenly, gleeekkk...........

Mas Naufal came to see me.

"Mas" I said spontaneously.

Mas Naufal immediately approached me and Mas Naufal immediately raised both of my shoulders to stand up. He put both his hands on my waist. Mas Naufal's face began to approach me, until our noses touched each other.

When I closed my eyes, again. Breaking this warm atmosphere.

"No Gi, you can!!! Don't reject Mas Naufal again through your attitude" I snapped inwardly.

Maybe Mas Naufal already felt, and he went back to stop it. I could only cry and bow in front of him.

"What makes you like this??" ask Mas Naufal.

"You're Mas's wife, but why are you like this?? I tried, but you came back like this??"

"Did you really hate me??" ask Mas Naufal.

"This bag is nothing like Vela Gi, he likes to send the cake himself, and Mas lasain it all as a Doctor who sacrifices for the sake of his patients," explained Mas Naufal.

"Have you??"

"I'm dizzy Mas discuss Vela, Clava, Vela, Clava again,"

"Oh, yes," I said.

I tried to avoid Mas Naufal, but Mas Naufal hugged me from behind.

"Don't avoid Mas Naufal Gi" he said on my shoulder.

I took off her hand that was holding me.

"Mas, yes, it's malem, I'm tired" I said.

I was forced to do that with Mas Naufal, I didn't want to punish him, it just went. Maybe because of the circumstances that wanted you to Jera Mas.

I left Mas Naufal back in the room alone, it seemed like Mas Naufal was left there because I had waited for him for half an hour. But Mas Naufal did not return to his room.

The crying accompanied until midnight.

"Giaa, Abay can't know any of this,"

"He should focus on school, should not be disturbed just because of my problems and Mas Naufal" I said in my heart.

Moments like this, I miss Papa, O God.

Wanting to meet my Mama, it felt like Mama had been very calm even without me telling all my problems to him.

My mother and my father were two people who did not deserve to hear the sadness of what I felt.

They're too good. I never had the heart to share my sorrow with them.

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Before dawn I was awake.

"Uuggghhmmm,"

I woke up and looked for the whereabouts of Mas Naufal who was not in the room.

"Mas Naufal must be sleeping in his study" I muttered in my heart.

I got up and got out of bed.

Walk to the dressing room. Take the suitcase and pack my things that I will take away from Mas Naufal.

It was heavy when I opened the closet and put my game after my robe in the suitcase.

Tears can't wait to fall on both of my cheeks.

"Huuuuffffttt, hopefully this way, the relationship and Mas Naufal will improve, and there will be no more problems like this" I said in my heart.

I heard Mas Naufal go into the room, he was surprised to see me packing my things for tomorrow I went from him.

"Gia,"

"Where are you going??!! Why are you cleaning up your stuff??" ask Mas Naufal.

"I'm going to Mama tomorrow" I replied without glancing at her.

"Actually, where are you going?? You want to leave Mas? Huh??" Go to Mas Naufal.

"Mas already said, Mas can not you stay, Mas need you dear," he said.

I continued to ignore Mas Naufal's words, I must remain firm with what I will do.

"Gi, where are you going?? I don't want you to go" said Mas Naufal as he sat down beside me and unpacked the things I had arranged neatly in my suitcase.

"Mas doesn't want to darling" he continued.

"I have permission from Mama Feni, I want to go, away from Mas," I replied in stammering.

"Dear, you can't go anywhere, you have to be the same Mas, until anytime," rich Mas Naufal and hugged me.

"Massss, I beg you, Mas don't be like this, if Mas is like this, the heavier it is for me to go away from Mas," I muttered inwardly in tears.

"Mas, get rid of me" I said.

"No, I won't let you go!" mas Naufal.

"Mas, peelingin," I snapped again.

"No, darling!! No," said Mas Naufal.

"Don't go anywhere, baby, it's the same here, Mas,"

"No, I have to go, I've let go of me,"

"What I'm looking for is not who can make me happy, because after what Mas did to me, I'm more happy with myself,"

"I beg you, Mas don't bother me, I want to go far to calm myself who is already hurting this Mas," I said.

"I'll go no matter what happens" I said.

I tried to turn my body to face Mas Naufal, it's time I had a long talk with Mas Naufal. Saying everything before I go far and long from him.

"Mas, I'm so begging Mas, don't tell Abay about this matter, yeah,"

"Tell him if we're all right,"

"Sorry, if I have to go,"

"I'll leave everything soon, but just relax, we'll still be a couple,"

"I hope, after this incident, Mas aware, and if later Mas and Vela will continue, please," I said that made me cry even more.

"With me gone, I can slowly erase my love for Mas,"

"And after the taste is gone, I don't know Mas, can I love Mas again?? Huhuhu," I said.

"Please remember, who are the men I trusted after Papa, who are the men who were able to break my perception of that men are all the same, who??"

"And it turns out that the man has now carried an indiscriminate wound, huhuhuhuhu,"

"I hope we're not selfish, let go of me Mas, I want to go,"

Seriate.......