Love from GIA

Episode 215 (We Are Together)

Naufal repeatedly apologized to me.

"I'm sorry, honey, I can't get you" he said.

"Express everything to me, I'm not papa" Naufal said.

"Mas, I may not want to meet people first, I'm not strong Mas, huhuhuhu,"

"I can't answer their questions about them, it hurts me" I said.

Naufal felt sorry for me, my shabby and very sassy face, without make up and very pale.

Naufal took off our embrace and wiped away the tears on both my cheeks.

"Dear, you rest yes, I have you here" Naufal said on my shoulder.

"I'm sad Mas, huhuhuhu, Papa I'm Mas, Papa I'm going to leave me," I said as I beat Naufal.

Naufal hugged me again, stroked my head.

"Istighfar, you can't think of it, baby, Papa is calm there, I know, I'm easy to say like this, you just need time to heal from your heart wounds" Naufal said.

I was crying crazily in his arms.

"I've tried to be strong Mas, I've forced as much as I can, but I can't Mas, I'm weak, huhuhuhuhu," I complained.

"Hust hust husttt..already, in the calm of your heart first, here I am, there I am for you, I am already here with you," he said.

I hugged Naufal's plate.

"Darling, how hard this ordeal is for you, I feel sorry to see you, have to bear this burden, Papa is gone and I'm not here for you, I'm going to replace it darling, I promise," he said in Naufal's heart.

"You are sleeping" said Naufal.

I shook my head in Naufal's arms.

"Yes, cup cup cup,"

Naufal let me cry on his chest which was this field, he was only able to stay still and continue stroking my head until I fell asleep.

In fact, I don't want to sleep at all, maybe my body is very tired. And let me sleep on my husband's chest this comfortable.

"Mas,"

"Let us be like this" I said with both eyes closed tightly.

"Yes dear" answered Naufal.

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Adzan magrib.

Allahuakbar....... Allahuakbar......

I opened my eyes slowly, heavy when I opened my eyes, like being burdened by an iron object, this effect because I cried from morning to afternoon.

I still smell Naufal's signature perfume.

My head is so dizzy, because I haven't had time to eat either.

I see, Naufal's white shirt still meets my sight. Apparently, I was still in Naufal's arms from the time I slept until the adzan magrib now.

"Maasss.." called me while looking at his face above me.

"Wake up??" ask Naufal.

"You were like this?? Don't move me" I said.

"I don't want to make you wake up, you also said not to be moved, Mama also came to say the same to me, justin Gia like this, that is," replied Naufal.

"You must be a pegel, yes" I said.

"No, this is cool" said Naufal.

I turned my face back. I don't think I'm ready to meet people outside.

My mother called us to join the congregational prayer with my mother's guests who came to serve.

We both went down.

When berwudhua I looked for Abay who had not spoken to me.

"Mas, where's Abay??" my many.

"Abay same Mama, he already knows if you are fragile again like this, Mama said," replied Abay.

"I don't watch him at all, I haven't eaten him, and so on, I went to Abay first Mas," I said.

Naufal immediately pulled my hand.

"Hey, Sayanggg..already all, he had also samperin us in the room, he even knows not to disturb your mind first, he was the same Mama," said Naufal.

"Ask yourself, you haven't eaten, have you??"

"Saw later, you have to eat loh Darling, I don't want you to do anything," continued Naufal.

I nodded my head and immediately took some ablution water.

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We also prayed downstairs with the crowd.

I saw Abay there. Abay smiled at me, I was relieved by her smile, I was afraid that she would feel like I didn't care.

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After praying, all of us in my mother's house sat in a circle and taught together with invited guests for one daily Papaku.

Abay sat next to me. I kissed his head.

"Abay ate that??" my many.

"It's Ma" he answered.

The study also began.

All were so solemnly praying for my Papa, the crying was witnessed here again, not only me or my Papa's family were crying, but there was also a client Papa who was crying.

Everyone feels lost here too.

After the study, there were a few more lectures from Ustad. After hearing this study, I calmed down a bit, steadfastly living this destiny.

If I remember at a glance and I cry, it is indeed a normal thing.

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It was very late at night, even now it was half 11 pm, but there were still many people in the Living Room of this house.

Many of my Papa's friends deliberately stayed here.

I'm back in the room.

I took off my hood and I sat on the edge of the bed.

Naufal sat squatting like someone who was proposing. He took my hand and held it.

"I'm happy, from now on, open up yeah,"

"I know, there's still a lot you hide from me, if you ask me angry?? Definitely not darling, I'm just as not angry,"

"Because our meeting path is different from others, others can be dating, but we are not, I understand it, even though our household has been very long, he said, and not corn anymore,"

"With so much I ask you, do not again bear all your burdens alone yes,"

"I'm sad if you act like that like me, I know you have a myriad of secrets that I don't know about, but for now and until later, I know you have, don't get anything covered up again from us,"

"I'm not angry with you, I feel sorry for you, I know that, indeed, privacy, everyone has the right to have privacy even if they are married,"

"But what I ask is that you are sad, that you are anxious, that you are sick, that we cry, that we share with me, that we are equally responsible, that we face together, yes," Naufal said.

I can only stay in front of him.

"Mas Naufal was right, who else is now the man I love besides him, the one man who once made me fall in love has gone forever leaving me," I murmured inwardly.

"I'm sorry, for my behavior" I said.

"Don't apologize, you're not wrong darling, there's nothing right and wrong here" Naufal said.

"You are not wrong, your attitude is like that, that from the beginning I was attracted to you, you are able to keep everything related to you, you are, especially about our households that do not run smoothly,"

"Mama said, I have to make you happy, I did it a long way when I first said ijab qobul in front of many dear people,"

"Open up, let's go rasain together, bitter sweet we have to be rasain together, not just you," said Naufal.

"Even me too, if your decision to resign is very heavy, but you didn't tell me it, honey, I don't have a problem, I always wait for you, wait for you to tell everything," continued Naufal who increasingly saddened me with his very wise attitude.

Thank You, Lord, for bringing such a man to you besides my Father.

Naufal brushed my hair, rubbed my cheeks and sat down beside me.

"I exist, for you, don't feel alone, we are forever darling" he said.

I immediately hugged his body.

"Aaghhh huhuhuhuhuuuuu,"

I don't know anymore to be grateful as much as ever, for being a match with him, yes, he's my Papa's chosen man. I love him so much, more than love myself, indeed yaa.make those who are still hesitant to entrust everything to parents, believe me, they are so good to you, they give their best for you, they give what they deserve and they can make you happy.

Ingatt!!!!

Ridho Allah, Ridho your parents too.

I feel it myself, it is not at first in accordance with the will of the heart, doubt?? Surely yes.

However, Allah is All-Good with all his destiny.

"You really are Mas, I promise you this time I will open with you, I trust everything to you, I promise not to hold alone, huhuhuhuhu," I said on his shoulder.

"No, I promise you, I'll share the bitter sweetness I've experienced, either alone or about us" I said, holding the nape of his neck.

"You sure?? You promise me??" naufal asked to make sure that what I said was from the heart.

"Yes, I promise you, there's nothing I'm covering up to you,"

"I love you" I said.

Both of Naufal's eyes stared into both of my eyes, he smiled and stroked my head, then he hugged me.

"I love you so much" said Naufal.

"Now, we face this ordeal equally, dear" he said.

I nodded on his shoulders.

"Life is like this darling, who else if not ourselves who are trying to accept reality" said Naufal again.

"Papa has calmed down there, importantly, we are diligent in doing'a in Papa, yes,"

"Eat first, baby," he forced because I had not eaten and did not have appetite.

"Masss.I don't want to" I replied.

"You haven't eaten since, your face is pale, honey, let's eat, I'm bribing ya," said Naufal while carrying his plate.

"Later you get sick, I don't want it to happen to you" she continued.

I finally wanted to, and Naufal painstakingly gave me a bribe for a bribe.

"I can do it myself" I said.

"No papa, I did, I did" tepis Naufal.

After I finished eating, only a few spoons filled my stomach.

We both decided to sleep.

Huuummm really enjoyed it when my body was like this.

So exhausting today...

From head to toe, let alone these eyes are so heavy.

"Your eyes are, until it's like honey." said Naufal beside me.

"Huummsh cried from the morning," he continued.

Naufal shifted his body to get closer to me, and he warmed me back with his hug.

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The next day, after I had performed the dhuha prayer with Naufal, Mama came to see me in the room. Told me everything.

"Son, Mama wants to tell you the same story" said my mother.

Mama told me all the moments of my Papa's departure. Mama also did not suggest that Papa would leave so soon, because the doctor said, Papa's condition has improved, even Papa has realized as Mama told me, but Papa has realized, and I'm also Mama is not lying with me, Mama also sent a photo when with Papa who was already awake.

When Mama was telling me while taking care of Papa, Johan came into my room, and we heard Mama's story together, because at that time, only Mama was waiting for Papa there, and she was there, Johan is also busy with his work, so it happens that Johan was getting a night shift.

It turns out that I'm not the only one who regrets, Mama and Johan also regretted not knowing the last time my Papa.

My mother said, Papa died like a sleeping person, and Mama also thought that if Papa slept, an hour later, something was different from Papa said Mama.

"The father left without showing any signs to his son and wife" My mother said.

My mom cried when she told me.

"Ma, uh,"

"Gia may not, it's the same Mama, but Mama must be honest with Gia," I said.

"What Son??" my mother answered while wiping her tears.

"First, when Papa was really pacing back and forth to the Hospital, Papa actually hurt what Ma?? Can't Papa be just a ketchup??" I ventured to ask this to Mama by stammering from crying.

My mother did not answer him directly.

"Huhuhuhuhuuuu, why Nak?? If Mama answers honestly, will you be angry with Mama??" asked my mother to feel a little guilty.

"No Ma, Gia can never be angry with Mama" I replied.

"You remember what happened decades ago??"

"That's what's going on with your Papa" replied my mother who made me syock.

"Aaaahgghhhh...." I covered my face with my hands.

"So.......Papa relapsed again Ma???" my question, and answered with a nod of my Mama's head.

It turned out that my guess was right, Papa relapsed again, my memory went back several tens of years, my Papa was sick, very sick.

And I was very small, I was still in SD.

I saw my Papa in pain right in front of my eyes. It became a trauma thing that I did not want to remember until now. And my mom didn't want me to remember it either.

My mom and dad always said, forget about it, throw it as far away as possible, assume it never happened, because it will never happen again, Papa will be healthy.

I cried even more sobbing when the truth I actually got.

"Yes God Papa,"

I cried, imagining how painful Papa was. Papa's in pain himself.

"Now live Mama, you are the same Johan, we face everything together, no one should feel the heaviest, this is the ordeal we are all alike," said My mother then hugged us both, and hugged us both, me and Johan.

"Papa was happy, did not feel the pain here, the prayer in Papa may be widened his grave," continued My mother.

I'm relieved that if it's like this, my burden feels a little light after my mother said this.

"And you my son, who is most difficult to open up, harbors his own sadness, now Gia already knows everything, and do not like to hold it for yourself, Papa even sad later," said my mother to me.

I nodded on my mother's shoulder.

"God, give health to my mother, long life and happiness to the world and the hereafter, aamiin,"

I saw my mama's wrinkled skin.

Mama turned out to be old, sad to see her growing older. Hoping to keep Mama young, hehehemmm but impossible. There's just me.

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A few days later.

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Now, exactly 7 of my Papa's days are dead.

I feel sorry for Naufal who has been pacing 3 days between cities because of his work and then he went home to my Mama's house.

After finishing teaching and listening to the lecture, Naufal, Abay and Bi Sarah bade to return to the city where Naufal's house was located.

I could not bear to see Mama who was alone at Home and only with Johan, but I had to go home with my husband and son.

Luckily Budhe was still staying at my Mama's house, so I was kind of calm if Mama left Johan to work.

"Mama, Gia said yes, Mama is in good health, don't stress Ma," I said.

"Yes, son" he answered while hugging me.

Naufal also said goodbye to Mama.

"Healthy Ma, Naufal and Gia must often come here to see Mama," said Naufal who loved my mother very much.

Not to forget I also say goodbye to Budhe who will accompany my Mama for the next month.

"We're going home to Budhe" Naufal said.

"Jagain Mama Budhe" I said.

"Yes Gi, Budhe must take care of your mother so as not to be sad," replied Budhe.

We all got in the car.

Tin.....

"Assalamu'alaikum" said we all from the car.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" they answered.

Our car drove away from them, the instinct of a child to a mother must have been very strong, I really felt the sadness of my mother when we left her.

Seriate........