
"But this is your name, son," said my mother.
I received the white box that Mama gave me.
"For a moment, Mama remembered Gi as it was, yes really, it was your birthday, before you got married, there was a courier who sent here, and you were not at home, right you koas that time, uh Mama forgot to say the same to you, continue to come in Bi Reni cleanup to the warehouse," said My mother.
I glared at my mother's explanation.
"Who are you Ma from? Gia also never buy online," Tepisku.
"Let's just open up, son, Mama wants to go to Johan's room first yes," he said.
"Yes Ma" I replied, nodding my head.
My mother climbed the stairs, while I walked and sat on the living room sofa.
***(In Living Room)
I cleaned up a little dust that had stuck to the surface of the white box.
"Uhuk uhuk," maybe this white box is very outdated.
I'm getting curious about the content inside.
"Who are you?" I murmured in my heart.
When I opened slowly, there was a snowglobe ๐ฎ, a small acrylic board that read "Happy Birthday" and there was a cable on one side, and then there was a little penguin doll there, one more thing that makes me astonished by it, that is my old diary book has been forgotten because it is lost, in my diary there are many reviews of words that I make in poetry verse, he said, at once the book also contains a thousand dreams that slowly one by one I realize until now.
"Yahoo!!!"
"Who are you from?" my question is in my heart.
I took my diary, and I opened it and I read back what I've been writing there since I was in high school.
Smiling at myself because I remember my former grievances, I remembered everything.
When I turned the paper on the very back itself, there was a new scribble and I was sure it wasn't my writing. Because the writing is very beautiful and meaningful
I cried reading that writing.
"KV?? Could this be from Kevin??!! Yes, this must be from Mr. Kevin" I guess in my heart.
"Where did he get all my diary" I said in my heart.
I try to remember things from the past, but I don't remember them at all.
I do remember if my diary disappeared, but I did not expect that this book reached the hands of Mr. Kevin, yes even though there is no confidant about the love story in it, but to me the book is so secret, even my Dad and Mom don't know.
I kept searching for the meaning of every word that Kevin wrote in my diary.
Moreover, the arrangement of words on the last bari, it seems I was stabbed by several arrows.
Jeeeeeph.
"Aaaggh," I complained that my heart suddenly hurt.
"If you leave, you'll never know" said the word that continues to haunt my mind.
Indeed, Mr. Kevin can be said to be a very beautiful author in making a essay of words, but for the last sentence written to me, it makes me continue to think about the meaning of the word.
"What do you mean???" my question is in my heart.
I kept thinking about the meaning of that one line of words.
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And I finally found the answer.
"Is it not all about Mr. Kevin's diagnosis that has been hidden from me" I murmured in my heart.
I looked back at the contents of the white box, to the point that tears were dripping down the penguin doll.
I don't know what I'm crying for?? I am also confused.
Is it because of love??? But I never loved her one bit.
Am I pity?? But if it's pity, why am I this sad.
Do I care ?? But for what??
I took the box to my room to tell Naufal I wanted to tell him everything.
I walked slowly up the stairs.
***(In Room)
"Mas," call me.
And I saw Naufal sleeping in bed.
I can't bear to wake her.
I approached him, then I stroked his forehead.
"You must be tired of me all day" I cried in my heart.
I decided to keep that white box in my desk drawer.
"Later I will tell Naufal that he has woken up" I said in my heart.
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Adzan magrib also reverberated, Naufal woke up because he heard the sound of Adhan.
"Uuughhhmmm,"
"Wake Mas?" I asked who was sitting next to her while flipping through the magazine books.
"Hehehm, I overslept, dear" he said.
"You're a ketchup, aren't you," I said.
"No, just did not know suddenly I overslept, but I did not plan on sleeping anyway" he said.
"Mas....Mas, where there is sleep in the planain," I said.
He pulled my hand and kissed her many times.
Then Naufal got up and immediately took the ablution water as well as me.
After ablution, we performed the magrib prayer together, and after the prayer, we took the time to teach.
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A few minutes later, we finished teaching.
"Mas, ak....," I said stopped because it seemed like he was in a hurry to get into the bathroom.
"But, honey" he said, running straight into the bathroom.
"Hehehem, the base of Naufal," said he alone.
I cleaned up the prayer mats and sarongs that Naufal wore.
I haven't let go of my face yet. I was curious about the acrylic plaque that had the cable.
I took the white box from the drawer.
I took all the stuff out and I put it on the table.
Immediately I plug the acrylic board cable that says "Happy Birthday" into the electrical connection.
And the acrylic board is flashing with white flickering.
"Waaawwh,"
Then I whipped the snowglobe, and I put it on the edge of the table, in the snowglobe there was one little house and a snowman, and when I shuffled it, it snowed half the house.
"Waaaah,"
Suddenly Naufal opened the bathroom door, and I was immediately shocked to stand up and nudge the snowglobe.
Pyaaarrrrrr.
"Yeah!!!" I said because I saw the snowglobe I grabbed was destroyed.
Naufal walked over to me.
"Gi, what is this??" tanyakanya.
"Eemmmmm this...this," I stammered.
"You've been quiet first, let me finish this," he said.
I fell down to sit on the bed.
I looked at Naufal who was cleaning up the shattered glass and artificial snow, then he immediately swept and threw it away.
"So what the hell is Gi?" ask her again beside me.
My tears fell and grabbed both of her cheeks.
"What lights are, since when do you have that," he said.
"This emmmm.this is from Mr. Kevin," I said.
Deeggg......
Naufal looked back at me.
"What Gi?? From Kevin??" said it.
"Yes, but it's not like what you saw, I wanted to tell you, but you slept, and I tried to tell you again, you went to the bathroom earlier," I explained in a nervous tone for fear that Naufal was angry.
"Hey hey Sayanggg.... Obviously the same I slowly, do not cry gini, you do not be afraid of me," he said as he wiped the tears that flowed profusely on both of my cheeks.
"I don't know Mas, Mama called me down, kept Mama brought this box, said Mama's delivery from the courier, Mama, Mama forgot not to tell me from a long time ago when I was still koas, and when I opened, it was all, and all this from Mr. Kevin Mas," I said as I handed the box to Naufal.
"You see all that you don't believe, all that you see Mas, and this is my diary, and this," I stopped and Naufal hugged me.
I cried roaring on his shoulders.
"Uuusshh ussshh," Naufal tried to calm me down.
"I'm afraid, I'm afraid you're angry with me huhuhuhu," I said in tears.
"Why should you be afraid, darling?? I won't be angry after I know the story from the beginning, and I also know you'll be clear to me, why should I be angry?" said it.
"This is indeed stuff from Kevin, you didn't ask him, he who loves you, why am I angry??? No, already cup cup cup you do not cry," he said while stroking my head that is still covered with mucus.
Are you really not angry with me?" I asked while whining at him.
"Dear no" he replied.
"Where can I see the contents, yes" he said.
I just nodded my head.
Naufal saw one by one the contents of the box, he took my diary.
"This is your diary?" tanyakanya.
"Yes," I replied.
"This is Kevin's too?" ask again.
"Yes," I replied.
"Everything from Kevin?" ask again.
"Huhuhuhuhuuhu," I cried again with Naufal's indifference.
"Loh loh, why are you crying again?" tanyakanya.
"You said it was so funny that I was, huhuhuhu, you were angry, but you didn't tell me, didn't you, huhuhuhu," I said.
"Loh, how am I?" ask again.
"You, don't call me darling again, huhuhuhu," I replied.
"Hahahaha, my goodness, Naufal hugged me again" said.
"I'm glad I'm with you" said Naufal.
"You are, if I cry again, you laugh at me huhuhuhuhu," I whine.
"Well you're funny, yes I call you dear teruussss," he said.
"Can I read your diary?" askinya.
"Come, why wear it is you" I replied, wiping my tears.
"Hehehe, beware yes I read yes" said Naufal.
Naufal went up to the bed and leaned his head against the bed, while I, I, put my head on Naufal's arm.
Naufal read page after page of my diary, and he laughed at me.
When he read Planning Goals in my diary, he seemed to be remembering something.
"Ooww is Swiss, eemmm if my IG post anyway I know all the locations you use Switzerland all, but I also like to be the stalker of Si Kevin, Kevin, I think there's one of the photos that he posted, and he also uses the location in Switzerland like you, eeeemm so this," said Naufal.
"This what??" I asked while looking at her my face.
"Yes so this is your planning goals, baby, take-sampe to bring it in his IG, hehehem," Naufal sneered.
"Don't that dong Mas, who knows he also happens to like Switzerland" said I.
"Hehehem, yes yes," he said.
Until at the end right in his own backyard that there are scratches written by Mr. Kevin.
He read it carefully.
"Is this Kevin Darling's writing?" ask Naufal.
"Yes," I replied.
"Ooowwhh" said Naufal, nodding his head.
"I've thrown it all away" I said.
"Why was he dumped? Don't be darling," he said.
"Cok don't?? Than later to be a problem between us Mas," tepisku.
"Huummm, do not need to throw away sweetheart, just here, but do not bring it to our House, even though this is the past, but we must also appreciate, this also buy loh Darling," he was very mature thinking.
"And it will not be a problem darling you have told me, have told me everything to me, so it is saved," he said.
Mom knocked on my room door.
Tok.
I got out of bed and opened it.
Gleeek.
"Mama" I said.
"Son, go down eat first yes, Mama waitin," said My mother.
"Yes Ma" I replied.
My mother walked out of my room.
I immediately invited Naufal to come down.
"Mama's been eating downstairs" I said.
"Now?" tanyakanya.
"Yes" I replied.
Naufal and I immediately went downstairs.
***(In the Dining Room)
They're waiting for us there.
"So, brother, sit here" Johan said, patting the chair beside him.
I smiled and walked up to him and sat down next to him.
"Let's eat" said my mother.
Soon we had dinner together.
"Sister, come home tomorrow?" ask Johan.
"Yes," I replied.
"Well it's a big stretch here" Johan complained.
"Mas Naufal has to work the Deck" I said.
"Oh yes Johan forgot, even though Johan still wanted to Brother here," he said again which was very long not to see me.
"Yes, if you go to college, go to the house of my sister, stay there, vacation there," I said.
"So soon your brother is Jo's sister, so here a long time ago" my mother said.
"Oh yes Ma, hehhee," Johan said with a slightly timid smile.
After dinner, we talked for a while there.
Then Adzan isya' reverberated, we immediately entered our respective rooms.
***(In Room)
Naufal and I hurried to fetch the water of ablution, and to perform the prayer of Isha'.
After I finished praying Isya', I cleaned the acrylic board and all the contents of the box for me to save and I will not reopen.
Naufal and I sat for a while in the Balcony.
And Johan knocked on my door.
Tok.
Naufal immediately opened the door, Johan went into the room and met me at the Balcony.
"What's the Deck?" my many.
"No, I want to do it again, brother" he replied.
"Why? More thoughts?? Or what are you thinking? Your assignment?" my many.
"Heeemmm Johan wants to confide in Brother" he said.
"What murhat?" my many.
"Johan just want to ask, give one reason to Johan, why Brother from the past can always answer what Papa said, should this be it, why Kak?" tanyakanya.
"Why are you that? You're not comfortable with your college?" my many.
"It's not that, brother, I just feel I can't play Papa" he replied.
"What is gini, brother? As soon as we stepped on the pebble at that time we felt we made a mistake" he said.
"You love Mama and Papa?" my many.
"Banget Sis" he answered.
"Yes it's true what you feel, Brother also felt it first, butiiiii with us obey all the wishes of our parents, and it's the best for us, too, the fruit will surely you enjoy as well," I said.
"There is no story of parenting, we continue to be miserable, there is no Deck, as deep as we fall, God must help us, believe it, because we are devoted to them," I said.
Johan poured out all his heart to me, to the point that he cried, he loved Mama and Papa so much.
I was surprised, when he was a man, but the family was very closely held with him, indeed since childhood, I have always instilled small things in the intimacy between siblings or parents. So it's appropriate that her children are like me and this Johan.
"Yes already Brother, if so Johan returned to the room yes," he said.
"Yes, go to sleep, don't stay up" I said.
Johan walked out of my room.
Naufal asked me to go to bed. He turned off the lights in the room.
Then I told Naufal.
"Mas," I said.
"Hm?" the answer.
"Mom cried my story" I said.
"Crying?? Mama crying why darling?" tanyakanya.
"Mama told me earlier, Mama went to the room when you played PS with Johan," I said.
"The name is the same as me, Mama wants me to tell you about the happiness and sadness that we experienced at that time Mas," I said.
"But I didn't tell you about it, Mas, because I'm happy to continue with you" I said.
"Said Mama gini Mas, right Mama was also betrothed to us, so Mama knows exactly the feeling when the first day of a household begins," I said.
"Why don't you ever tell me your own mother's darling" Naufal said.
"Not that I don't want Mas, I don't want a story my lament, my sadness, my worries with Mama and Papa, because all I know, I just want to see their happiness, just want to see their happiness, not their sadness, if they are sad, then I am the most hurt at that time Mas," said I.
Naufal looked at me, then kissed me on my forehead.
"I salute you dear" he said.
"You're a crybaby, but you're actually strong in front of Mama and Papa, but if you're with me, you don't have to cover up from me, you have to tell me everything, from sad, happy, lara, to happy, happy, disappointed, anxious, everything dear" he said.
I put my hand on her waist. And I smiled at him.
"Insha'Allah" I said.
"No, cannot God willing, must be yes" forced Naufal.
"Now is that what?" I said while raising both my eyebrows.
"Yes, honey, don't be weird" said Naufal.
"Hehehe, yes yes Mas," I replied which made him feel relieved.
Suddenly Naufal stroked my stomach while humming the prophet sholawat for my baby.
To the extent that we were asleep.
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Adzan shubuh.
Naufal woke me from sleep.
"Sayanggg......Honey," said Naufal.
Hearing my husband's voice, I immediately woke up.
"Uugghhmmm,"
"Udah shubuh ya Mas?" my many.
"Dear, I'm wudhu first yes," he said and then got out of bed.
After Naufal came out of the bathroom, immediately I rushed to take ablution water, then we performed both prayers.
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After praying, we did not go back to sleep, Naufal took me for a walk along the complex.
"It's a shame that we go for a walk, limp your feet, so your feet are not stiff anymore" said Naufal.
I obey all his will.
We finally walked out of the yard.
"Huuuummmm, so much darling the air here," he said.
"Yes, this complex is clean with many trees as well" I said.
We are not the only ones walking there.
There were neighbors who were jogging there, let alone the woman who called me but still seemed to be unmarried, kept glancing at Naufal.
But there were also a lot of Mama's neighbors who greeted me and asked about my pregnancy.
"This gia?" guess a bunch of women who are my Mama's age.
"Yes Auntie" I replied.
"Masya'Allah, how many months has it been, long time no see you Gi, quarrel," said the woman.
"Aunty's 8-month road" I replied.
"This is her husband?" guess again.
"Yes Auntie" I replied with a smile on them.
Naufal just gave them a smile.
"Ooowwwhh, so live in the husband's house there?" tanyakanya.
"Yes Auntie" I replied.
I just said yes, because I rarely chat with them, but they know me, know my name, and I don't know their names.
Eventually, the mothers left me.
And we continued down that complex road.
"Honey, you were asked by the mothers if yes, very stiff," said Naufal.
"I never talked to you, I just don't know her name" I said.
"Ha?? Seriously you, honey??" asked the shocked Naufal.
"Yes," I answered briefly.
"Keep you at home, what do you do, darling?" tanyakanya.
"Yes in Rumah Mas, they are not going anywhere" I replied.
"Aaassshhh at you?" tanyakanya.
"Why not feel at home, I am at home" I said.
"Your impression was very stiff, unsos you mah" cried Naufal.
"It's not unsos Mas, it's different just my nature is the same as you," I said.
"Hehehe yes yes Ms. Gia, sorry sorry," joked Naufal.
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