Love from GIA

Episode 208 (Shaking)

***(At Home)

I brought some plastic bags with my groceries and in my right hand was a plastic bag with a box of cookies.

It feels like my lips are a bit shaky, when in fact I know, my only way child will hunt a lot of questions to me, because this dive

I never shared a story with him about it.

My eyes looked straight ahead following my footsteps leading to the Kitchen.

The atmosphere of the house was quiet, I looked right and left, and I looked for Bi Sarah.

I put my mouth down and I took a deep breath as I put some plastic bags on the table in my kitchen mini bar.

I sit while daydreaming. Staring at the kitchen window that directly penetrates the backyard of a house that has a lot of cypress trees and flower trees

ylang.

The distinctive aroma of the ylang greeted my nostrils. Bi Sarah came from behind me.

“Astagfirullah,” said Bi Sarah spontaneously.

My daydream was split immediately and looked back right at Bi Sarah who was panicking to see me.

“Mbak Giaaaa..” Said Bi Sarah who was shocked to see the figure

this morning the woman sat staring at the window.

“Kok already home Mbak??” ask her while walking towards me.

“Gia will resign Bi,” I replied to her question.

“Resign Mbak??!” her question panicked by rounding her eyes.

I just gave an answer with a nod of my head and a smile to Bi Sarah.

Bi Sarah pulled the chair a little closer to me, and sat close beside me with her two eyes still round like the moon.

“Mbak Gia why resign??” it was like asking him to pounce on me.

“Hehem, Bi length,” I replied.

Bi Sarah must have understood with my answer, she must have known, that I am not ready to tell him everything, because today's women are almost 80% know how my character really is.

“Eeemm, that's it Ma'am,”

“You want to make a hot brown Aunt or what Mommy??” said Bi Sarah to divert the conversation so that I also did not dissolve in sadness.

“No need Bi,” I replied with a smile on her.

My hand grabbed the bag of cookies.

“This Bi, eaten all yes,” said me while opening the cake box very slowly.

“What is this Mbak?” ask Bi Sarah.

“This was Gia want to buy it, there is no event anything Bi,” said me who like a person lost the spirit of his life.

“Abay where is Bi??" my many.

“Dek Abay over Mbak,” Bi Sarah replied.

“Gia to the top first yes Bi, do not forget to finish the cake,” said me while lowering my legs hanging onto the floor surface.

With my smile, I left Bi Sarah alone in the Kitchen.

“Masya’Allah Mbak Giaa....Mbak Gia.......” murmured in Bi Sarah's heart.

I walked down the stairs that led me to the second floor of this house.

I got closer to Abay's room.

Deg….

The trembling feeling was visiting me, the beating of the heart like someone was falling in love, and the shaking of the lips like an interview in a company, yaaahh.

Though I have arranged word by word to provide an explanation and answer many questions from Abay.

Right in front of Abay's room, with a door painted in white and her name on it.

Tok.dok…..

Gleekkk.

Without calling her name I just walked up to Abay money was looking at me, she was sitting casually on the balcony of her room

with his ipad.

“Mama!” abay said that was surprised to see me, because I should still be at the Hospital to work, but now and then I will be here to accompany Abay.

Abay stood up and glued as I approached.

“Why Nak?? Kok surprised there is Mama,” my question subtly.

“Kok Mama is here?? Mama should still be working,” replied Abay.

We also sat together.

“Mama why did you come home?? Mama sick?? Or Mama why?”?

My hunch is right, not only have I tried to explain to him, my son has thrown more than one question at me.

“Abay is not happy Mama has come home?” I said while looking at him.

“Abay must be happy Ma, but right.......... isn't it usually Ma, what's Ma there?? Mama has a problem?? Papa where??”

“Mama went home alone right??” continue Abay while looking back hoping that there is a Papa there with me.

“No, Mama herself, Papa you still work Nak,”.

“Gini Mama obviously same Abay, let Abay not

confused, there must be a lot of questions now, right who wants Abay to ask Mama, yak an??? Hayo??” guess me while gently nudging the tip of his nose that hung like this husband.

“What Ma?? Mama why?” ask Abay.

We stared at each other, initially only eyes and heart spoke, this time I will explain everything to Abay with my mouth that was hesitant to say it.

“Mama......

“Mama out of work Mama,” ceplosku without hesitation.

“So, starting today, Mama will nemenin Abay at Home, Abay want to ask anywhere, anytime, will be the same Mama,” I said.

“Mama will continue to be the same Abay, so Mama has not left Abay again, Abay must be tired of being lonely at home, Abay also must be envious of Niko who can always tell the same stories Mama and her Papa,” my connection.

Abay just kept looking at me, now change me, change me who keeps a lot of questions for Abay.

Why is he just silent?? Why did he not speak at all? And why did the look on his face turn cloudy??

Deg…

“Abay is silent?? Is he angry??” my question is in my heart.

“Ayo Abay, say Mama, by the way,” my bluff in heart.

Abay kept his mouth locked, but he put the ipad he was carrying behind where he was sitting, and he hugged me.

“Mama sure Mama out of work Mama??” ask Abay.

“Iya Nak, why?? Abay sad, huh?? Abay angry with this Mama, yak an??” ask me a little funny.

I took off our arms, and I looked back at Abay's eyes.

“Mama is sad because Mama is out of work Mama?? Must be a lot of questions Mama to Abay, because Mama confused Abay sad or even

happy, yak an Ma??” abay said with his effect.

“Hehehem, yes Son, how can you read the mind of Mama,”

“No dong, surely his happy Mama can be the same Abay, nemenin Abay at home,” I replied.

“Yakin Mama happy??” abay again.

“He’em Nak, Mama is happy, indeed this is the decision that Mama made,” I replied.

“Indeed this is sudden, actually not sudden, Mama has thought this already a long time ago, and in time Mama out of work Mama, Mama,

Mama deliberately did not tell anyone including Abay,”, I said.

“Why didn't Mama tell me the same story Abay?? Abay surprised why Mama quit Mama's job??” ask Abay.

“Surprise dong Darling, this is a surprise for you, how?? Abay happy??” ask me while I raise my two eyebrows.

Abay grabbed my shoulder again and she hugged me so tightly, like a child and a mother.

“Abay must be very saddening this news, Abay seneng bangettt Ma,” he said.

“Content Yes Ma, Mama is indeed the best Mama in the world, Abay wants Ma, mama like Niko, Love you Ma,” said Abay.

I was relieved to hear the happy expression from Abay.

This is the answer I've been waiting for since, I thought he would be angry or what?? This decision is really good, though,

they are all happy with this decision.

“Finally Yes Allah, this is what my son has wanted,” I said in my heart.

Tears were shed on both my cheeks.

“Mama why are you crying?? Mama's sad, huh??" my many.

“No, Mama even happy, why from the first Abay did not say the same Mama if Abay want to be won by Mama, Mama can resign from the first Nak,” I said while wiping Abay's forehead.

“Abay love Mama,” says Abay.

“Mama is more like Abay, hehem,” I said with a smile on her.

“Yeeaaayy means from tomorrow onwards Mama at home continues to be the same Abay, yeeaayyy,” said Abay who was very excited.

“Hehehem, yes udah Mama takein cake for Abay first yes, was Mama buyin for Abay,” I said.

Abay just nodded his head.

I stood up and walked out of Abay's room while wiping away my tears.

happiness is the main thing for me, although for others this is the most torturous thing, but it is what makes me happy too. Big dreams are nothing if they are unhappy, I can shut all my happiness and desires for their sake, because I love them so much, Papa, Mas Naufal, and Abay my son.

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Abay's favorite cake I brought for her in the room.

“Dihabisin yes, Mama buyin special for you loh,” I said.

“Iya Ma,” answer.

I just gave the cake to Abay and did not accompany him to sit back there.

“Mama didn't nemenin Abay eat her cake??”

“Mama where to go?” ask Abay while holding my hand.

“Mama wants to shower first, sultry, hehem,” I replied.

I left Abay alone on the balcony of his room, me

close the room Abay. I walk towards my kama.

Gleekkk….

***(In Room)

The wind was blowing from the doors and windows of my room,

this is the morning atmosphere in this room.

I try to keep running and throw away all my sadness

this is what no one knows.

Huuummm, running from sadness is more exhausting than

I have to race a marathon.

This decision is the best O God, strengthen me if

someone always asks why resign? Why quit work??

Actually I don't want to hear that creepy question from anyone.

But what is power.

Standing staring at the balcony, I sat on the sofa

and take off my beloved heels that Naufal bought directly from abroad

to me. I put the heels away and then I took a shower.

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After taking a shower, I dry my hair and I look at myself

alone in front of my makeup mirror.

I looked at each side of my face in a large, bright mirror

that, I put the hair dryer on the table.

And I smiled to myself in front of the mirror, I clapped three

my own shoulder.

“Thank you Gia, you are strong,” I said in my heart to

myself.

I haven't thanked my body for a long time

it has accompanied me for dozens of years, who have long missed this clap.

With a quiet atmosphere of his own in this room, so remembered

when I was pregnant Abay, also remembered when Mas Naufal often left

I'm out of the country.

But all of it was covered by the happy look that was painted on

abay's face with a decision that was very very heavy I took this.

“Hhmmm, happy yes earlier Abay, hehehem, sorry Mama yes

Son, all this time Mama has not been able to be a full Mama for you, Mama time

must be divided for so many people,” I said.

My phone is ringing……

I got a call from Susi.

“Assalamu’alaikum Gi,” said Susi.

“Iya, Wa’alaikumsalam,” I replied.

“Iih kok lemes that?? Whyaaa?? Still thinking about

this decision of yours??” ask Susi who knows even without seeing me

direct.

“Hehehem, what the hell, yes not,” I replied.

“Yakin?? Gi, I know you, how?? Mas

Bastian immediately called me, he said he was surprised if you suddenly resigned,

less here? Hehehem Gia's….Gia you are this, you!!!! Always making

many people want to go to you,” said Susi.

“Not everyone should know about me,”

again saying this sentence for several tens of times to Susi.

“Iya Yes Giaaa. I know, who doesn't want a slogan

you it, hehehem,” joked Susi.

“No longer sad right now??” ask the worried Susi

at me.

“Neither Si, ordinary, tumben you call me?? What was??

You don't work??” ask me while I comb my hair.

“This is again work, I think of you, yaaaa

although I know for sure your answer will be the same if asked, Gi you are not

papa?? Yes, ordinary people do not papa, I have memorized your mantra that is like

gituan hahahaha,” Susi review tried to cheer me up.

“Hehehem don't do that Si, you know,” my answer is

it seems to have been fun and has entered into the joke that continues to be presented

Susi.

Don't know why?? Every time I chat with Susi, video

call Sama Susi, callan sama Susi, there is a spirit of its own that drugged on

myself, yaaaa because Susi is very warm and welcome, who

alone who was close to him, definitely felt the same way, he carried an aura

positive on anyone, so there's no reason for me to refuse the phone or

met him.

Just an hour we could talk to each other over the phone, no

a long time later, Abay came into my room and laid his hands on the top

my shoulders.

“Mama, thank you,” Abay said while giving me a kiss on my cheek.

“Hehehmm Mama apologizes son, Mama can not be a good Mama for Abay,” I said.

“Neither Ma, Mama is already the best,” test Abay while hugging me.

“Look at Mas, how happy your son is, he continues to want to be near me, if only you know Mas,” I said in my heart.

Seriate..........