Longsuffering

Throbbing Miss

I howled like a hungry wolf

in the light of the moon and the darkness of the night

what did I find?

a lump of miss that clenches

-Wita

Jakarta, Wita-Revita City

Countdown from today then my wedding day has eleven days left. I don't know what I did until I decided to accept Satria's decision. Yep.. Satria, my high school friend who was expecting me. Satria who is uracan and likes bawuran is now a reliable lawyer and his attitude changed completely. His fans in High School days were countless. He has a level worth ninety-nine point nine in my opinion. Approaching the number one hundred, hhmzz.I could not convert that perfect number to Satria, because for me the hundred was only for Vishnu.

Mas Vishnu?, how is it? These two days I've been in his office, never one to see his shadow. Is he sick? or.angry? I don't know.the greatness of that shadow keeps haunting me. I tepis all those bad thoughts, thinking about Vishnu mas is tantamount to betraying my promise.

Today I am busy with the preparation of team building training that will be held in Lembang in the next two days. Activities that should be carried out today in my target but deviated due to some technical obstacles from the company mas Wisnu.

"mba, our team involved later in Lembang how many people?" ask Revita. He was busy noting the various needs that must be prepared for the activity. The first activities carried out by my company - so that Mr. Hermawan revealed - will be carried out in stages, considering the large number of employees owned by the company mas Wisnu.

"fifteen people is enough" I replied estimating.

"Aren't all employees attending this event?", he asked again.

"Special divisions are included. Mr. Vishnu last revised our proposal. Initially all employees in all divisions of the company want to be included, but do not know why yesterday, the director, through Mr. Andra decided only part of it was included. The divisions that are important, he said, will come", I explained to Revita.

"How many days are we there mba?, it has been a long time since I did not go to Lembang" said Revita with enthusiasm.

"Three days as it were. We're going to divide this activity into three Rev groups. Each group was participated by fifty participants. We'll make time" I replied. Yes.effective time. Because Satria really gave me a very short time. At least my big program on this one should be successfully completed, for another contract to be my next thought.

"Okey alright mba. Three days is enough for me to be happy there", Revita's chat made me smile. "And this is mba, udh I list a list of our needs. Please correct! afraid there is less or not fit", he asked while handing over the note that he had been following.

"Okay. thanks Rev", I replied while glancing at the window, because my heart throbbed disappointed when reading the data of participants from the board of directors on my laptop screen. There is no Vishnu name there. He seemed to want to disappear from my sight, to avoid me, to be angry with me.

"But before reading this note from me.", Revita broke my daydream. "we went to the cafeteria first yu mba!!", ask me. I just smiled and nodded my head.

Ring my desk and get ready for the cafeteria Revita meant. But for whatever reason today, Revita took me to lunch at a restaurant near the company building.

I smiled and replied, "yes it is, hayu..!". Kuraih took my sash bag and stepped away with Revita's excited steps.

Revita asked me to go to the restaurant using my company car that we always use, yes. after the loss of my contact that night, Mr. Hermawan so provide inventory car that we have to use while in Jakarta. Going home and doing activities with Revita is a newly created SOP, especially for me.

I had rejected Revita's wishes, because the distance between my company building and the restaurant was not so far away. But the assistant was still clinging to his will.

"Please wait here.I brought the car in the parking lot!", he asked. I could only nod my head and wait in the courtyard of the company building. Quite beautiful yard with a shady garden arrangement, yes, although the heat of the city of Jakarta can not be mistaken with the existence of this park.

As I sat on the park bench, I saw a tiny figure that I had missed all this time. I miss what I have so that all the plans I make can run properly.

He ran towards me with a happy and cheerful twinkle. "Mother Witaaaa.", she shouted at me. Sontak made me stand up from my seat and waved my hand while smiling to welcome the little girl. But my smile suddenly came to a halt and my body ran without a second thought towards the boy.

"Adhiiiis.. awaaaas!!", I shouted and ran as fast as she could and.. BRAAAK.the sound of the motor lashing towards the pillar of the park after previously hitting my right foot.

I lay on the ground hugging Adhis. "Astagfirullah" I said as I saw Adhis in my arms. He was crying because he was in shock at what happened.

My body shook with the Adhis, and then I ventured out to the motorcyclist I knew was an online biker ready to deliver food orders, as I saw food parcels spilling on the ground.

I couldn't help shaking my body, and my anger was about to get out words I couldn't control very well. I glanced at my angry eyes at the man in a jacket with the logo of one of the online vehicle companies in Indonesia.

"If you're driving look at dong!!!", I snapped at him. "Don't you see if there's a little boy heu? if anything happens with my son, I do not hesitate to ask you to court! Can you actually bring a motorbike? don't bring a SIM". My anger exploded with a shriek of screams accompanied by trembling and sweat pouring from my body.

"Be careful!!, if my son is injured you must take responsibility!!" I shouted with trembling. I couldn't even hold the corner of my eye to not let out tears. With that cry I kept scolding her for curses and angry words. While the biker just fell silent and said sorry to me. I should have immediately stopped my babbling and yelling, because if I thought this incident was not entirely his fault.

However, my attitude towards her is completely out of my control. I don't know what happened to me, because this heart kept beating hard and gasping to find Adhis in my arms crying. And this body trembled considering the greatness of the motor hitting me and my little Adhis.

Without me noticing, a group of people swarmed over me and helped straighten the rider's bike. One of the company's employees even helped the biker stand from his position that both fell and got wounds on his forehead and legs.

And I, just realized that my anger has become a spectacle for the employees of the company. Then, I became limp myself after I saw the sturdy body that I missed giving an incomprehensible look at me fixedly from the front of my body. Suddenly my body ached with her gaze, I held my embrace at Adhis whose cries began to subside. My body ached and my heart cried bitterly, for some reason. Is it because of the little girl in my arms? or because of the director in front of me?, or because of the blood flowing from my right leg that I just noticed the pain pulsating to the heart.

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I promised to double up I've already done it...

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